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I started terminal leave from the Army one year ago today. The past 365 days have been a mix of blessings and really deep struggle. Today my anxiety caught me in a snare and dragged me under for a a few moments. I felt the weight of the past year tighten my chest. What am I doing with my life? Is anything I do purposeful enough? Does it matter to other people? Why can't I keep my house clean (seriously that keeps me up at night 😬)? Why does life seem so easy for some people (comparison is the great killer of joy)? Am I doing too much? Am I doing enough? Blow after blow the questions came at me and I ended up feeling lost and like a huge failure. BUT, I finally recognized that these questions and dangerous keep me from living a full life, and make me horribly ungrateful for the abundance of blessings in my life. My reading for today was really powerful: "keep bringing your mind back to the present moment. If you use your magnificent mind to worry about tomorrow, you cloak yourself in dark unbelief." 😳 whew. I had to take a moment to lay down and surrender to that truth. Can we all come together and realize that none of us really have our 💩together and that's ok? All we have to do is give whatever we have to give every day. Some days we have 100% to give, and some days we can only give 10% of our best. The thing that matters is that we keep moving forward in faith and rely on the strength of a God who has a hope and future for all of us. #struggletostrength #getuncomfortable #holdthevision #trusttheprocess #bettereveryday #faith #hope #dogsnuggleshelp #stillinmypajamas #beautifulday

I started terminal leave from the Army one year ago today. The past 365 days have been a mix of blessings and really deep struggle. Today my anxiety caught me in a snare and dragged me under for a a few moments. I felt the weight of the past year tighten my chest. What am I doing with my life? Is anything I do purposeful enough? Does it matter to other people? Why can't I keep my house clean (seriously that keeps me up at night 😬)? Why does life seem so easy for some people (comparison is the great killer of joy)? Am I doing too much? Am I doing enough? Blow after blow the questions came at me and I ended up feeling lost and like a huge failure. BUT, I finally recognized that these questions and dangerous keep me from living a full life, and make me horribly ungrateful for the abundance of blessings in my life. My reading for today was really powerful: "keep bringing your mind back to the present moment. If you use your magnificent mind to worry about tomorrow, you cloak yourself in dark unbelief." 😳 whew. I had to take a moment to lay down and surrender to that truth. Can we all come together and realize that none of us really have our 💩together and that's ok? All we have to do is give whatever we have to give every day. Some days we have 100% to give, and some days we can only give 10% of our best. The thing that matters is that we keep moving forward in faith and rely on the strength of a God who has a hope and future for all of us. #struggletostrength  #getuncomfortable  #holdthevision  #trusttheprocess  #bettereveryday  #faith  #hope  #dogsnuggleshelp  #stillinmypajamas  #beautifulday 

6 Comments:

  1. 2catzzzz

    Beautifully written! Love you, sister!

  2. lovetoall1

    Love you, sister!!

  3. petitevolee

    @2catzzzz 😘

  4. petitevolee

    @lovetoall1 😘

  5. ktilford12

    I hear you and I feel you on all of that! So glad we can catch up in person soon ❤️❤️❤️

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