What a magical thing. Growing a human. Giving life to another soul. What a gift. Gods greatest magick. What an honor to be chosen by a soul. The most beautiful, loving experience. The new levels of love and compassion you didn’t even know existed. Motherhood changes you at your core. It changes how you look at life. Suddenly everything is precious. Lily may not be here in physical form but she helped me find myself and the love in my heart that I needed to truly see. She broke my heart wide open. Forever Lily Belles Mama 💛
We were sent home to deliver her naturally and comfortably. We could do this. Have a home birth, because she "wasn't full term." We were "allowed" to birth her at home simply because her heart stopped. I had instructions to follow up with my OB/GYN that we had never got to meet. Things were ending before they ever began. How was the world still spinning? How was I still breathing and heart beating while my unborn baby didn't have a chance? Disbelief. Anxiety. Tears. Lots of tears. Anger. Hatred at God for taking her. Hatred at myself because maybe somehow, it was my fault. I failed her. My body failed her. When we got back home I went to my room. Curled up and cried. Soaking, shaking, screaming. No one knew how to handle it. Nobody we knew had lost a child. How could this be happening? What did I do? That night. 6:34 pm she was born into my hands. She was perfect. So tiny. All she knew was love. We had a little ceremony for her at my house. The little life that never had the chance. How could the words baby and death go together in the same sentence? We had to say goodbye, but then again, how could we? We never had the chance to say hello. We decided to name her Lilianna Elizabeth. She would be called Lily for short. My favorite flower is the lily and Elizabeth is my middle name. She was beautiful, with the tiniest fingers and toes. I miss her. Every second of everyday. .
Teenage years are over for this babe, no more doing stupid teenage stuff now.
I hope this year brings many more blurry pictures, nights of laughter, side eye from you while I fix my hair, girls nights, late night cuddles, and talks about God.
Yesterday’s black label got me through a celebration of life 2 1/2 hours of driving (each way), seeing people I love hurting and joyful, being in the spot where my own baby was born almost a year ago and spent his whole little life (74 days). There is something to be said for the emotional support that comes from #Thrive . We are coming up on the first birthday of our second angel and with all the emotions around that, the joy that he lives and the hole that his death has left, I feel more well equipped to handle these thoughts and emotions because of my routine. My life is forever changed by both the life and loss of my two angel son but I know my #ThriveJourney has helped me to build their legacy and not spend all my energy morning their absence. I am thankful for this natural assistance while I grieve and rest in the hope of heaven. #ThrivingCerena#MyJourney#MyStory#MomOfAnAngel#AngelBaby#IMissYou#ForeverMyBaby#BlackLabel#Thrive#EmotionalSupport#MentalClarity#PainManagement#MoodSupport#MomOf3
Tag someone who has made a difference for you through life after Loss. -
Who gives you hope? -
Who lights you up?-
Who’s work or words help carry you through?-
Who inspires you to do this differently? -
These women are the gems amongst the rubble. -
(Yes, when you are fighting to survive life after Loss, the people who vanish, shut down or push away count as rubble right now.)
Tag the ones who support and inspire you. -
Mine: @griefunfolding is a master curator and beautiful voice here in Instagram world. -
Thank you for the support, for sharing my work & walking beside me on this shared mission to create some light in the darkness of life after baby loss.
Much love. -
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2. Поднимаемся на лифте на 4 этаж
3. Выходим из лифта, видим указатели Ангел Беби
4. Идем дальше по коридору направо, по указателям
5. Доходим до офиса 3 ии....Добро пожаловать в студию развития Ангел Беби!
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My sweet sweet angel baby! I can't believe I have a seven year old son! You have such a good, kind heart and so intelligent! I couldn't be prouder of the kid you are to me and all those around you. You are one special kid with so much love surrounding you! I can already feel what an amazing year this is going to be for you and once again, I'm just thankful to have a front seat in watching you become the man God has planned for you to be! I love you more than you will EVER be able to fathom! #mygreatestblessing#pieceofmyheart#angelbaby#iloveyou
Sorry for those of you that also follow my @ryannlillianb account! I’m going to blow up your feed again with these! .
At least with different ones!💁🏻♀️ @icecastles_ #icecastles 📸: @yasiristorresphotography ❄️🏰🌨🗻
PODCAST EPISODE 57: It is my honor to bring Jodie on the podcast to share her personal loss story and experience with stillbirth. We talk a lot about coping after a recent loss. Check it out - link in bio.
This episode is brought to you by @thecomfortcub. "Need a hug? Get a cub! The Comfort Cub is here for you."
Soaking up as much of these moments as I can with my sweet angel #viennalindsay .
Baby girl starts daycare and Mama goes back to work next week 😢
While I’m very excited to continue building my career, I will miss being with my little girl every day watching her achieve all her 1st’s. We have been so fortunate to have 16 weeks together getting to know each other outside of Mama’s belly and oh my goodness do I love this girl 💕
Praying that she will continue to grow and prosper in her new environment at daycare and know that Mommy & Daddy will be waiting eagerly with open arms to scoop her up at the end of the day
We love you forever and unconditionally our sweet girl 💕