I have a big exam at 8:00am in the morning on a bunch of pharmacy laws and regulations so I'm gonna rest my brain and leave you with a small blurb of my thoughts today.
There are days I wake up and feel lost. I wish I could forget about my struggles. I wish I could eliminate my obsession with numbers and always love my body. I wish I could eliminate the guilty thoughts of not going to the gym. But hey, hello, I'm human.
Then a light bulb clicked today and I was like, I'm thriving. Yes I struggle, yes my life feels like a yo-yo, but I'm here. I've made it this far and I've come a hell of a long way. I'm here sharing my story, like how much better could life get?
So don't be ashamed of your struggles. Don't feel guilty if this week 'sucked.' Don't feel guilty if you struggle on the weekends.
These are just the 'little' things. You've made it this far and damn you've come a long way. You're only going to continue to grow from here. 💜
“what you call that? they don’t do that here. he’s different, man. he’s different.” - Naim, @goodblackhusband , 2017
see also: “I’m actually really pretty. Not like ... pretty for a fat girl. Just pretty.” - Abri, @abrianasoll , 2017
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I dislike the way my brain is wired. I can't stand that my emotions are either black or white. There is no grey. There is no middle ground. I'm either on top of the world or its ending. I can't even put how I feel into words most of the time. What I would give to come to you and say that I feel 100%. I wish I could tell you that everything was rainbows and butterflies, but it's not. Depression is very real and very present right now. I am under no illusion that how I feel in this moment is temporary, but I have decided to get help. I've always been embarrassed to ask for help, I'm scared to speak to a professional in case they don't take me seriously like before. How do you tell someone that you fantasise about killing yourself without sounding like you're "doing it for attention"? Because that seems to be what they always think. The first time I spoke to a doctor about how I felt, I was told it was puberty. Kids go through "phases". Well Doctor, this phase has lasted for 10 years. (It upsets me that the NHS isn't equipped to deal with mental health in the way that is necessary. There is so much that could be implemented if there was just a little more funding and EDUCATION.)
But let me tell you one thing I've realised, when it comes to your life; asking for help is nothing to be ashamed of.
It's funny really, my breaks come few and far between but when the come, they are full force. I can't focus, I can't function. It's like a dark mass has engulfed me and I'm existing in my body but not living it.
I am so thankful to each and every one of you that has reached out to me. You will never understand how much that means to me. I am so lucky to have such wonderful friends, family & work colleagues.
I know that no matter how much I want to give up right now,
my fight is not over. 💪🏼
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When was the last time you THANKED your body? For what it does for you every damn day. I'm blessed to be able to get 7 hours of sleep each night, wake up, drive to the gym, stream my program of choice, and head to a job 💕
I'm thanking my body for pumping blood, for building strength, for simply existing in this world 🌎 None of this has to do with a number on a scale, and taking time to care for your health & wellness will never be a waste of time ☺️ #mindbodysoul
feel like I'm plateauing in the gym so that makes me kinda sad and unmotivated.
But then I remember that just means I get to do new workouts! Yay! Hope all had a nice day 😋
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I can't fake humble just 'cause your ass is insecure 💁🏻 I think we're taught, especially women, to not own our accomplishments or take compliments. People are often caught off guard when they pay me a compliment and I say "thanks! I know." I know I have fly style, good hair and eyebrows, and a unique personality. Why not own that ish? Of course there are moments where I'm very bashful or even insecure, but you can't act that way about every damn thing. We all have personality and physical attributes that we're sure of so just own it and say, "thank you." You're a boss at something. Gotta rep yourself because no one will do it for you at the end of the day. It's okay to be confident in yourself, your assets, and skills. Gotta know yourself so you can grow, boo.
While body confidence comes easily for some, that is only for the minority of people. The truth is, becoming body confident requires focus and intention. Dedicate time daily to be self-compassionate, acknowledge your body for all it does, and revel in its resilience. These are the actions that build body confidence.
This is so true. I know this isn't about bopo but it's quite important to be accepting of your personality. You shouldn't have to change yourself for anyone because if they want a different version of you then they are not worthy of you.
My psychology: I make jokes a lot mainly about the uselessness of life or myself but the thing is I don't believe any of it. If I'm making jokes and "expressing" myself then I'm usually doing well but if I start being quiet that's when you should be worried. It's taken me some time to get used to my personality; every morning I would vow to speak the least amount possible because I thought that every time I spoke it just made everyone hate me. I still do quite a lot especially when some people are rude. However, it's important to just be yourself and I know that now.
I also make jokes because I want people to be happy and smile and laugh and enjoy life. I do this because I wish I had someone like me to help me on my bad days. So now I try to make the person smile regardless and it is sometimes awkward or ends in my humiliation but it doesn't matter.
So, my point is that you should embrace your quirks and your whole personality because that is what makes each of us special, unique and ourselves. And if people don't accept the real you then don't give a tiny rat's ass about them
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You are AWESOME! I'm loving all the insights you're all sharing on the blog 💌
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I made a thing 🙌🏻 took one of my many, many notebooks (I have a problem...) and converted it to a health journal! I'm doing a kind of bullet journal style I think. I mean, I'm just doing my own thing so I think that's what bullet journaling is haha. (thanks for the idea @chris1180 !) so far I'm using it to track my pre-op diet and make lists but I'll also use it as an actual journal for thoughts and feelings throughout the process. plus body measurements, NSVs, goals, maybe some pictures. basically the analog version of this instagram haha. I'm excited!
Unposed to super posed ik- but I work hard and don’t wanna only post unflattering pics (although I will be doing that more often😊)
So I’m 5 days of caloric deficit! Truthfully I put on fat cause I was eating a “bulk” diet and missing gym sessions from injuries/illness n too much homework. But I’m just gonna do a v small cut to get back to where I was & then it’s time to bulk again. .
So far it’s been going really well! I have been eating super clean and paying more attention to micronutrients. I feel like I have more energy and am already noticing changes (a bit more definition) I’ll keep you all posted🌸
There have been a few times when I’ve blogged about the inconsistencies with types of eating disorders and the treatment approaches based on my experiences. Over the summer I decided to submit an article for the National Eating Disorders Association’s blog, and a couple hours ago it got PUBLISHED!! This is a very personal literary journalism piece, and I’m really proud of the final product. This truly means so much to me, and I feel honored to be a guest blogger for NEDA. Link is in my bio! @neda 💫💚💙
Your Body Does Speak
A Universal Language
Is Held in your cells
Your blood is like a river
Your bones like rocks
The body desires flow
A flowing river is healthy
A stagnant river creates toxicity
I want to awaken
YOU to the recognition
That in order to fully show up
As a soul who can Serve
We must Be Willing to Honor the Body
The body, our physiology, effects everything else.
Hormones and Emotions are one in the same.
So we want to work on our mindset yes, but if we leave the body out of the equation we don’t find that whole healing we are looking for.
If we want to feel good, we must learn to honor the body.
So if your body could speak, what would she say.
Check in with her everyday
See what she needs
The more respect we give to the body, an aspect of the feminine, the more respect we will receive from her and from the collective.
When we start to honor the body, so will they.
When I am feeling low or disconnected or stressed I start with adornment + body worship rituals. *
I had a moment yesterday where an experience that was not harmful triggered memories from past emotional abuse. My body immediately went into fight or flight mode. My defenses went up, my head started pounding and I felt all of this shame for even being back in a place where I didn't feel secure. All normal when healing from emotional or physical trauma. When I finally calmed down I went Into action to infuse my body with pleasure. *
The first thing to go when my body is in (what I call) hot regurgitation phase [where painful memories are coming to the surface taking my body and/or mind back to moments of trauma] is my external sense of sexy. My body has been giving me signs here and there that it needed extra love and attention. Slowly it's been settling into this space of tension. *
When you're tense, disconnected and tired that's the time to double down and recommit to your pleasure practice. +Dance +Masturbate +Cook Naked +Long Baths
+Wear your lingerie on a normal day
Today I chose to do my hair,makeup and put on one of my new favorite harnesses over my bralette.💜 *
This is an art and practice that I teach in the #reclaimingyoursexy live one day intensives and in my digital course (available on my site) "Confident In Your Curves". See link in my bio to learn more!