Tfw u still feel beautiful because ur perfect the way u r and have a wonderful boyfriend, friends and support system full of unconditional love regardless of the pizza and chips u had last nite~ #ed#trying#fuckuana#fuckumia#dazmi#proud#ya#fuk
i had a talk with one of my favourite teachers today and she really helped me put things into perspective. she was honest and kept telling me how important i am and how i have people who care about me.💛not today, or any day soon for that matter, but someday i know i will be able to tell her the truth. and 100% of it. i’m not ready yet, but i will be soon. and when i am i know she will help me through whatever comes next.
It’s getting hot in Melbourne! 39 degrees tomorrow. Yesterday after my lovely/emotional chat with my uncle, I felt excited about the future and recovery. I need to properly enjoy food rather than punishing myself for it. I feel as if I should only eat if I have ‘earned’ it. I have many challenges I need to face🤚🏼••• Look at these beautiful circles of healthiness. @stjamesrichmond is a lovely modern restaurant and I have been SO excited to try their pancakes. I felt good after them as the ingredients are natural, and I managed to stop when I felt ‘full’. I hope my body gets more responsive to hunger cues, rather than being controlled by my mental state🧠
Hii Im Eden, 18 and im a fuxkin mistake •So hey I did lose 1.5lbs from what I gained in the past week so now im only 2.5lbs above my origional Sw (from four years ago aged 14). But im literally so gross I cant even look at myself. My Sw used to be my highest ever; my 'fat weight', but I've been above that for almost a year now,,, how the fuck did I let that happen?? I was doing so good last year, I was 20lbs down and now to fuck everything up?? Wow. Anyway, it won't stay this way a day longer, it cant. Im so sick of being in this stupid fucking b/p mentality and binge-restrict cycle over and over that just makes me more fucking depressed everyday. Im not dealing with that anymore. I just wanted to be healthy and slim in the first place, how did everything fuck up so bad?? So I guess,, Im gonna be restricting from now on, but not so heavily so that I can maybe avoid binging so much. Maybe 800-1000 cals? Does that sound reasonable? Idk.. I can try. Goodnight 💛
I just found out that a family friend who was living with us died. I’m kinda in shock even though I wasn’t too close with him, he was still a family friend who also helped babysit me when I was younger. This is crazy, no one I know that I was at least sort of close with has ever died so this is weird for me. He was sick so we brought down a pressure cooker with some soup in a pot. There was a weird smell for a few days in our house but we didn’t know where it was coming from. It turns out that the soup pot has been cooking for a few days with the soup uneaten in it.
🔴16 janvier 2018 : NOT ME => Niykee Heaton
Je sais parfaitement qu’elle a subit des opérations chirurgicales mais si il y a un physique auquel je souhaite me rapprocher, c’est le sien. Je la trouve parfaite 😻
40min d’elliptique, muscu fessiers :
-Abducteur 30kg (5X12)
-Abducteur non assise 35kg (5X12)
-Glute gauche/droite 27,5kg (5X12)
-Hip thrust 30kg (3X10)
-Kickback poulie gauche/droite 10kg (5X10)
Aujourd’hui j’ai fait des petits tests et des ajustements, par exemple je sais que le hip thrust dans ma salle ça va être TRÈS compliqué vu le matériel à disposition. J’ai du mal à me mettre en position avec une barre libre, les bancs glissent lorsque j’appuie mes épaules dessus (malgré les poids que je mets dessus pour essayer de le stabiliser), ajouté à ça le sol est en parquet flottant...
Du coup je réserve cet exercice à la seconde salle de sport ou je suis inscrite (je vis entre deux endroits).
ÉDIT : Je viens de penser que je pouvais me servir de la machine guidée pour les quadriceps afin de réaliser l’exo 💡
Sinon j’ai de bonnes courbatures après les tractions d’hier ainsi que suite au kickback à la poulie, très bonne sensation avec cette exercice.
Demain ? CARDIO & ABDOS 🎉
So I went to the dr yesterday and told her about how I’ve been feeling. She decided to put me on Prozac for depression. Last time I was on it my appetite was so bad that I would take a couple bites of food and I’d be stuffed.
Also told her about my eating and she said to try and eat at least an egg a day because it provides all the proteins you’re body needs to function.
I ate a lot today. (Eggs, toast, airpopped popcorn and a little bowl of squash.) 😩
but I had severe dizziness and body aches this morning so it was either food or a trip to the ER. 😔 I also had to tell my dad about the meds and he called me out on my appetite - I played it off as depression because he doesn’t understand eating disorders or anxiety around food. He can be pretty judgy.
I hope you’re all having a good day, be safe💜