No todos los días te levantas en plena forma ¿verdad? Pues las personas con cáncer tampoco...
You do not get up feeling good every day, do you? Well, people with cancer do not either 🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹
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This morning I woke up with #sideeffects you would think I would have become used to by now. Which will only get worse for the next couple days.
But today I woke up #sick . Sick from #neupogen . Sick of #cancer struggles. Usually I think it will pass .. All is well. But this morning I felt tired, sick of not knowing when it will end. Not end like when will I die? But wishing I too had a count down till #chemo ends verse when my battle is over.
Moments like these are my biggest obstacles because no matter how positive you are there are moments in your journey that you honestly feel beaten down and not sure how much more you can take. I don’t think I have really been through as much as others.
I still have more moments than not that I’m #thankful I’m not enduring worse because their are others in harder positions than me.
But even me, I get worn down but I know it will pass because I’m being driven by a thought, a thought that I can’t keep pushing on today and my bed is going to be my best friend. But that’s only a thought and that thought can be changed.
Sometimes even I can’t see the horizon but not everyday can be a sunny day. But the clouds will dissipate and my thoughts will override the moment I didn’t think a few seconds ago would pass.
How do I feel:
How can you feel so crumby laying in bed. But without doing anything you are suddenly hit with a draining, hot and sweaty moment. A rush of temple to temple migraine, extreme thirst and while you reach for your water, bam lower back spasm. Your heart starts to pound and your chest hurts slightly and you wonder is this the approaching heart attack you have been waiting for?
All the things you hoped to do today sits on your mind and you think... can I? [...]