1.5 today on a 30 sec run/walk interval. I FOUND OUT MY NEW WATCH WILL GIVE ME INTERVAL ROTATIONS! Every 30 seconds (or whatever I set it to) it will vibrate to notify me. Super fucken cool.
Also, today went running with Rigby, so he's tired too. I'm landing heavy on my feet and my shoulders are tightening up when I run. Have to work on my form.
So I took a rest day yesterday because I got some potentially unwelcome results from my doctor. It's not life threatening, but if confirmed, greatly impacts my two major goals for 2018 and life in general. Since my mind and heart just weren't in the right space to really give my workout 100%, and l was still having a hard time breathing due to the lingering symptoms of this respiratory infection, I showered and went to bed. Yep. I did that.
What was the win for yesterday? I felt my feelings but didn't console myself with food or allow my emotions to keep me off track. Yesterday was a rest day I needed.
Taking Conditioning as a PE class this term instead of repeating yoga. We get extra credit for doing physical assessment before and after the term. I could only chest press 85, but my max weight I can leg press is 340lbs! I think hefting around my big bootie has made me freakishly strong. A guy did his after me and I’m pretty sure I kicked his ass. I used to be able to bench 120. It’s good to have goals. #strongbitch#fatgirlfitness
Yesterday I ran with a running group for the first time in a while, i litrally broke down in the car by myself after because I felt like I have failed myself? Then I wiped my tears and thought? Why do i feel like a failer? Because I look different from before? because I don't run everyday like I use 2? Then in my mind I started to get those thoughts of wanting to only eat 500 cal a day and work out hard assf... again I stopped myself, I put myself on check real quick, Litrally that morning i was looking at myself in the mirror and thought wow i love you so much and today i did the same, i eat 1,900 cal a day and lift heavy weights and I love it so much, i think this all happened because the universe wanted me 2 remember who I am , the real me the me that's not controlled and unhappy.
I hope one day Dita Von Teese could bless mi with a sprinkle of her magic 💔 , also today's self care day 4 me and I really enjoy moments with myself💘 this robe makes my human emotions happy💙💜💙💜💕💘💖💕 also my bdays in 2 months and my aries azz is shoook 💔
Struggling tonight. 😣😯😔 I'm sure many of you have been here, too.
Cravings were through the roof today after I got home from work... I think I skimped on protein today. Had a smoothie for breakfast with some peanuts, grilled cheese and baked lays for lunch, a 100cal bag of popcorn for dinner... then a few pieces of dark chocolate... some chips... cheese... some mini muffins I found in the pantry... 😥😟😭 Finally got everything under control by drinking half a glass of chocolate pea milk. Listing it out now, it doesn't seem like much, but lying in bed trying to sleep and I'm still nauseous-hungry and over 2,000 calories for the day already. I think it was a combination of high sodium and low protein.
Its literally taking every thing I have to not crawl out of bed and raid my pantry right now... at 2am.
Tomorrow will be a better day. Have to #keeppushingforward if i want to meet my goals this month. 👌💪✌ #thesunwillcomeouttomorrow#tryagaintomorrow#reset#sleepitoff#weightlossjourney#fatgirlgetsfit#fatgirlfitness#fatgirlprobs#coping#weightlossstruggle#weightlossstruggles#foodwithdrawals
Before 2017, it had been a long time since I tried to accomplish something physical. I spent most of my life internalizing both the negative and “well-intentioned” feedback about my body and had a hard time trusting my athletic abilities. But last year, I made a concerted effort to start trusting myself and with @lizard.pudding, I trained up to and finished my first century ride. It was amazing, and I’m feeling more and more confident as a cyclist and bike commuter. Now, I’m ready to trust myself to become a better boxer. I can’t wait to continue working with @_omarvergara and all the people I love at @arcaroboxing to grow and strengthen my mind, my body, and my skills. There’s a long road ahead, but I’m willing and ready to be patient, reflective, and put in the work. Box on, 2018!