Home Sweet Home.. It's coming along!
I love the piece and the solitude I receive here.
Waking up in the morning's to the beat of my own drum!
Not having to cover-up when I get out of the shower.
It's just the little things.
I have a little piece of my family who loves me dearly all around me, and the love of God running throughout.. It took me losing everything I ever had, ((materially)) only to realize that God was all I ever really needed.
HE is a restorer.. HE is a redeemer, and a WAYMAKER!
I am truly blessed and abundanty loved.. But most of all, I am GRATEFUL!
For the first time, I am able to hold my balance on my own during crawling practice. You can see in the earlier videos I'm being supported in case I lose my balance. I wasn't sure how much of this was me until I saw this video. I'm really excited to see progress at this level. 😊 Thank you @kay_robertson for the amazing training. Thank you @lindsay_0705 for the support and filming my progress 🙏🏻❤️
Play date this afternoon with Ozzy while his brother is in the hospital. Just what the doctor ordered for my own recovery. Cuddles and kisses! (Since I don't have a person to do it with lol) #dog#dogsofinstagram#puppy#love#recovery
Shared this in my recovery group TIME for Recovery as a challenge. Had a nudge that maybe someone else needs to see so they won't feel alone.
I wanted to be transparent and show you a look inside the beginning of recovery. Day 1 is where you find hope and start your spiritual new life. For me it was also the day I saw that God was now in control and that I had a relationship with him.
It took a phone call to get my intake picture. Do you have a pic of your day 1? Would you share it? Share the hope for others so they can chose a day 1. ---Rise--- by Eddie Vedder
Such is the way of the world
You can never know
Just where to put all your faith
And how will it grow?
Gonna rise up
Burning black holes in dark memories
Gonna rise up
Turning mistakes into gold... Such is the passage of time
Too fast to fold
Suddenly swallowed by signs
Lo and behold
Gonna rise up
Find my direction magnetically
Gonna rise up
Throw down my ace in the hole
6.27.2017 | Morning Snack time 🤗 I'm hanging out at home watching Game of Thrones for self care and just focusing on my meal plan because right now that's what I can do. It's crazy how the idea of purposely sitting at home today and eating my meal plan can make me feel lazy and fat. So I have to tell myself that taking care of myself is a lot of work. Putting my needs first does not make me lazy or "unproductive." And eating my meal plan does not make me fat and disgusting. It means that I am doing what my treatment team wants me to do and looking out for myself and my mental health.
Oggi l'incontro dalla psicologa👩🏻💼 è stato molto intenso. Abbiamo prima parlato dei passi avanti che ho fatto, poi le ho raccontato di un sogno dell'altra sera, in cui mi tornava il ciclo (mi manca da due anni e tre mesi...). Più che un sogno era un incubo: io SPERAVO che fosse solo un sogno. Questo perché credo che la mancanza del ciclo sia la "prova" di questa malattia, non mi sono mai ritenuta abbastanza malata poiché il mio peso più basso è stato 43 kg, ma il ciclo l'ho perso quasi subito. Abbiamo riflettuto a lungo su questo, le ho riferito una frase che mi rispecchia alla perfezione la mia situazione "L'abitudine al buio porta alla paura della luce". È ESATTAMENTE come mi sento io ora. Lei mi ha detto una frase che mi ha colpito molto:" Non è detto che dal buio si passi repentinamente alla luce. Dai a te stessa la possibilità di sperimentare la luce attraverso piccoli e graduali spiragli, e vedrai che la raggiungerai senza nemmeno accorgertene, e saprai gestire questa NUOVA situazione con abilità e sicurezza". Rifletterò molto su questo concetto, perché mi ha colpita molto...
Dopo la seduta mi sono concessa un pomeriggio di relax😴: merenda sul divano (🍨🍑🍯), film ("Stick It, un bellissimo film sulla ginnastica artistica🤸🏼♀️💘) ed in un battibaleno🐋 è arrivata l'ora di cena. Per me stasera:
•Un panetto di Philly🍼 balance⚖️
•Pane alla soia🥖
•Un pezzo di cipolla al forno😷
Tutto insaporito con olio🍶, basilico🍃 e pepe🖤. AAAAAH QUANTO ADORO QUESTA CENETTA❗️🎀🎀
Ora guarderò un bel filmetto (due film in un giorno... COSAA😍), mentre papi👨🏻 e Marco👦🏼 guardano la partita⚽️ nell'altra stanza.
Voi come state? Con cosa avete cenato?
Vi auguro una buona serata♥️
🐷Чувствую себя сейчас хрюшей...в калорийности все хорошо, еда по-голоду, но блин...меня так задело это сообщение(про шоколад). Я стараюсь себя тормозить даже сейчас, трясусь над каждым граммом. У меня наконец прошло обострение гастрита, и я могу кушать сладости и вредности (по-немногу). Я чувствую себя комфортно(может, мне и стоит есть поменьше сладостей)...Тогда почему мне так небезразлично на чьи-то комментарии?
🥜Я подумала, что с завтрашнего дня уменьшу кол-во сладкого. Пусть будет 2 приёма пищи(промежутки в 11 и в 21:30), в которые я могу поесть немного сладкого. Не хочется себя ограничивать, но я буду. Простите меня, я такая безнадежная. Руки опускаются.
Ending a not-so-good day with some super yummy treats😋. I'm having an optiwell pudding, an apple, a kinder joy, a kinder country, a kitkat chunky and a bag of proper corn (I should seriously get sponsored by proper corn😂😂) 💖🙆
"I think of my body as a side effect of my mind." -Carrie Fisher
This quote is true on so many levels. Our beloved princess had a sadder story. Whether if you have a mental illness or think negatively constantly or do not practice positive self talk, your body will suffer the consequences.
Having a long history of anger issues and mental illness, it's became crucial that I try and change the way I think. I have been physically, mentally, and emotionally abused my whole life. Surrounded by narcissists, I wasn't allowed to feel or express anything. I had to keep all of my poor treatment and neglect locked up inside and as I grew up, it became explosive. Not too long ago, I was constantly flipping out and having tantrums and hating on myself day after day, and my body paid for it. I hurt all the time, I never had energy, and I just felt like fucking shit all the time. It's no way to LIVE your LIFE!!
I had to actively change the way I perceived situations and react to the hints that are out of my control. I had to decide that I didn't want to be angry all the time. It hurt. It hurt my soul and my heart. It was killing me.
I firmly believe that you cannot CHOOSE to be happy, but deciding that you don't want to abuse yourself anymore brings the happiness. Deciding to TAKE CARE of yourself because YOU ARE WORTH IT. Tell yourself that every damn day and never forget that even though humans are tiny in this infinite energy that is the universe, you are the most special, to YOU. .
d o l c e v i t a 😎
après une belle et longue journée, quoi de mieux qu'une belle salade et un bon petit verre de rosé? 👌🏽
on marche beaucoup, la récup est importante! d'habitude je ne bois pas beaucoup d'alcool mais là nous sommes dans la région des vignobles alors pourquoi s'en priver (oups) 🙊 j'avais pas trop faim donc j'ai choisi une salade, mais sinon je profite bien des pâtes et des pizzas!
I think a lot of you would be surprised to find out how old I am /// original poetry below 🌼
I read a note today.
A seven word note,
left before a wounded soul walked out on life as it knew it,
that made me cry like I have never cried before.
That made my soul wretch and claw at my eyes.
Because as I read this note, I saw myself.
I saw myself writing these very words.
I saw myself, bent over a desk, makeup running down my face as I scratched these words into a piece of paper.
I saw myself taking every pill in that great big cabinet of ours.
I saw the girl I adored writing these very words,
before she slashed her wrists at night,
before the rising sun guided her last breath.
Before she left this world, never to come back.
I saw him thinking them after graduation, and I saw him writing them days later.
These images that flashed through my head evoked an emotion that I have never felt before,
and I'm not entirely sure it has a name.
The seven words;
I got the diploma you've always wanted. Goodbye.
THE BATTLE BELONGS TO THE LORD PART 3
They triumphed over him by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony; they did not love their lives so much as to shrink from death
In this world you will have trouble. But take heart, rejoice. We are NOT guaranteed a trouble free existence. Jesus let us know that we will face resistance, but he encourages us by reminding us HE has overcome the world.
James 1:2 (one of my favorites)
Consider it pure joy, whenever you are faced with trials because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. ☆The key to victory is remembering how many times you have been delivered from various trials in the past and stand firm in that faith. "Do not fear for I have redeemed you". ☆We belong to God, he is our protector. (Isaiah 43:1-2). ☆Remind yourself continually that the enemy has been deafeated.Our fate is not up to him. God has disarmed the powers and authorities of the devil, He triumphs over them by nailing them to the cross. Stand firm in who you know God is.
Read ephesians 2:6
Read Colossians 2:9-15
Stand in the confidence of what Christ has done for you and put on the armor of God (ephesians 6:10-18) . It's not about effort. It's about the sufficiency of Him. Stop wrestling. Stop fighting. Simply stand.We can relax. We can let go. We can breathe. We can trust.
I am well able to overcome this because of what Christ had done
His divine power has given me everything I need to succeed
I can do all things through Christ who gives me strenght ☆Father, I thank you that because of Your great love you gave your one and only Son. Teach us today how to walk in the victory that has already been given to us
Lunch today was a panini grilled cheese🧀
Ugh, so sorry for not posting!! Things have been going good, I just haven't been posting. I will try and work on that!! •••••••••••••••••••••••••••••
I have been following my meal plan and getting what I need to done. My dietitian has an app where I send her pictures of everything I eat so that has been holding me accountable. I am really trying my hardest and I think my team sees that. I saw my dietitian yesterday and I maintained so I need to add another clif bar (hint why I had one at breakfast). Body image hasn't been the greatest but I try to not focus on it that much. Exercise wise - I am doing good. I'm not exercising in secret I just need to work on letting my body rest and not feeling obligated to do things. -------------------------------
So overall things are going okay. I have goals to work on and I am working to achieve them. Summer has been pretty boring but that's okay. Well I hope you are all having a great day and kicking the eating disorders butt💃 Stay Strong💜💪🏻🐻
Asked the parentals if they could possibly bring me home a funky American cereal from their trip to Canada and they returned saying ''sorry there wasn't much option'' this be why they are some of my favourite humans. If you need me I will be bathing in my cereal lagoon
Du musst dir gefallen, dass ist das wichtigste ✨ Ich höre in letzter Zeit oft Sätze wie, du hast aber krass abgenommen etc. Keine Sorge, ich habe gezielt definiert & aktuell meine Form erreicht, wie ich sie haben wollte. Diziplin ist das A & O, Leute. Aber noch wichtiger ist, dass ihr euch auch mal was gönnt #chocolate . Ich bin heute Abend spontan bei meinen Eltern & das bedeutet geiles Essen, ordentlich reinhauen & Energie tanken ⛽️ Denn von einem Mal viel essen wird sich an eurer Form nichts ändern. Im Gegenteil du hast Kraft um in den nächsten Tagen beim Training Vollgas zu geben 👊🏼💥 #staymotivated