#Everything in your life is a reflection of a choice you once made. If you want different results, make different choices. #Always say what you mean and mean what you say. Express how you feel and don't ever apologize for being real. #Sometimes sunshine turns to rain and the same ones you love bring you pain. #When someone tells you "you've changed", it's only because you've stopped living your life their way. Gud mrng.* pilot's media.
I feel shy to take my shirt off or pants and click a photo plus because i have one pack abs . im a boy , to be honest sometimes i do feel like im a girl , im not gay though , . some people watch some great people and they try to imitate or think or feel as if they are them . "sometimes" i feel or think as if im Britney Spears , "sometimes" i feel or think as if im Beyonce , when i talk on my mobile "telephone" , and some of the other female music artists i listen to , it's because i like some of their songs and it's lyrics , and when i listen to those songs i "sometimes" sing those songs in my mind , cause i only sing when im alone , because I'm shy , "sometimes" i hear and sing those songs, it's during times when my emotions become too much when i think about her , and i don't know what to do , so i listen to those songs to calm myself down . i use many other techniques like playing video games , trying to think about something else , watching people's instagram posts , try to divert mind , i even indulge myself in lust watching porn , i try to keep my mind diverted with the pets i have , i do meditation and do other activities because i have to behave myself otherwise i will get too emotional and start posting or saying things on social media or making tattoos and clicking photos to express my Love for her , that i think she may not like. For me it's very important for me that i be in my good behaviour and behave myself ,even though i Love her so much , i have to think about her emotions , thinking , freedom and choice before i think about mine and most importantly respect her . one thing about songs and lyrics is different people sing or hear different songs because of many reasons , because everyone is different . I indulge in lust because im scared to feel Love . I try to live in my head most of the time because i can't live in my other mechanical heart . my real heart , where it is , i rather not say . one thing though with this mechanical heart with which I'm living and surviving with , it does feel a bit nice in some way , because , i feel like im Iron Man #instagram#photograph#picture#hollywood#mtv#church#me#sometimes