Lu is struggling with this upcoming transition. Today at lunch she told me, "I sometimes worry about the future." I was sad for her for a moment, but was quick to reassure her that she didn't need to worry about what's to come because I know that she's going to be okay.
I'm running around packing boxes and making travel plans and sitting alone at night thinking 'Oh my gosh what am I doing?! I'm leaving what little stability we have and laying it all on the line. What if this doesn't work?!' I am so quick to be there for Lu, but I forget that I am also like a child who is scared, worried, and in need of a parent to say, "You're going to be okay.' I GET IT, GOD. Okay?! I need You. You are the steady voice telling me it's not something I need to fret over. Because you know I'm going to be okay.
Sometimes you just need an honest moment with your six year old to put it in perspective. #spanked
I quit my contract yesterday😳I learned a lot during the last month/s. And I am thankfull for the experience🙏🏻Eventhough it was more painfull than I ever could have dreamed of.
BUT the most important lesson I learned, is that I am not a toy, not a sub, not a slave and for sure NOT to be dominated anymore!!! I travelled very far during the last years. Tried many things, pushed my boundaries far over what is "normal". And I finally realised that I am very strong inside. Too strong to be owned, too strong to let someone decide, too strong to be controlled and definetly too strong to be humiliated and ignored. I am me and don't want to change that for anyone or anything in this world☺️ So I am finally taking the step and switching sides now and will find my own little subs☺️😁 And one thing is for sure... I will take good care of my them - as I after all this know what real submission and dominance requires - both physically but most importantly mentally🙏🏻 So dear followers this is my last pic here. I'll open a new account and share my journey there. See you around and thanks for following🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻