I turn 30 soon 😮
I'm in a weird place in my life and that just magnifies this huge birthday. Or maybe it's the birthday the magnifies my current situation.
I don't have my shit together. At all. But I'm not in need either which is a nice thing to be able to say.
I spent the better part of the last two years transitioning out of something and now that it's over I have to keep reminding myself it's time to transition *into* something.
Sometimes I feel so confident in what that is and other times I feel like I'm drowning in possibilities and closed doors. It's easy to say I don't have to figure it all out right now but with a third of my life gone I do feel that I need to figure it all out already.
Forever is such a scary term. And with all the hate that is taking over the news lately it makes my hopes and dreams seem even smaller and sillier.
It's hard to keep going sometimes.
It's hard to say I'm going to Paris simply because I haven't been.
It's hard to say I'm willingly going part time at my stable job to try something that might not pan out.
It's hard to say the person I sought out to be 10 years ago was here and sadly did not stick around.
It feels like time wasted. Which can be so heavy. Especially when my motto is usually 'No regrets. Only lessons.'
As I get older, I hope I can remember those lessons and not get bogged down with sad memories or paths that didn't lead to greener pastures. I'm trying to be another version now. A hopefully truer and happier version.
So an early birthday cheers from my former self to my future self. May you learn from my mistakes, carry my achievements, see the bright side, and remember all the love we've recieved while you transform and grow. 🥂
P.S. I'm having a great time in Paris. Resting and resetting. Potential motto for the rest of 2017 💃
Whether ya think ya can, whether ya think ya can't. Either way, you're right. 🤷🏽♀️
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Open house this Saturday August 26th, 10a-2p!! 💪🏽💦🍊🍋🍑🍓@ignitefitnez
We think the mussels from Zeeland taste great already, but if you really want to treat yourself, enjoy them with a relaxing glass of white wine.
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My vacation started on the 7th of August and not until yesterday did I genuinely feel rested, completely stress free. Thank goodness for vacations! 😃 Today I'm enjoying such a relaxing day on the balcony, sketching on a little something for my journal. Can you figure out what lotus, peacock and chess has in common? Oh, and I really love the memo pad I bought, with a weekly planner printed on each page. It allows me to use my journal as a planner as well, I just add the memo as a little insert. Anywho, back to sketching! Have a happy Wednesday! 💕