i’m just feeling very hopeless and like I will never be content with who i am. like i will never get to be who i am. like i will have to hide forever. i’m tired of hiding. i’m so envious of the people who are out and transitioning and have accepting people in their life, like actual people they get to speak to daily!!? like wow what a concept i have to pretend every second of my life when i talk to people here. pretend like i’m not terribly depressed and anxious because i am so dysphoric and because everything about me feels fake. i want out. i want freedom. freedom to be me.