BHAGAVAD GITA, CHAPTER 16, VERSE 21:
त्रिविधं नरकस्येदं द्वारं नाशनमात्मन: |
काम: क्रोधस्तथा लोभस्तस्मादेतत्त्रयं त्यजेत् || 21||. ENGLISH TRANSLATION:
There are three gateways to hell of self-destruction for the soul. These are lust, anger and greed. Therefore one should abandon these three completely.
The hide of an alligator,
The hands of a god.
With the electricity in my fingers,
Spinning straw into gold
For none but her.
She conspired with the devil,
She brought my name into the light:
Not that of glory
But that of shame.
Not out of gratitude
For the labour of my love;
For taking her nightmares and spinning them into something beyond the bounds of her imagination;
For turning her pig sty of a life into the castle she never earned,
But to satiate her hunger for the throne.
All my labour
In finding the lack of compassion within the human soul.
It pains me to know
That I could've spun it all
For every single one of these miserable beasts;
These beasts who
All the love they can
And repay only in hurt.
Yet I live to be known as the monstrous one.
Toxicity breeds failure and festers and all of us. However, we can identify these shortcomings and loopholes in our lives. With work you can change for the better. You must first ☝️surrender and understand YOU HAVE A PROBLEM. Drop the ego and just except the cards you have been felt. Certain things keep reoccurring in your world and desperately need to stop. They are problematic and causing mischief in your life. This is the insanity from the disease of addiction and codependency. Doing something’s over and over again expecting different results. It can be in any form and will ruin your life. It is in inevitable. Trust me I know personally and lost everything. So with that said, if an individual you love is bettering there life.... should you better yours as well? 🤔
[Before reading, please note that I do not wish death upon anyone. I simply just want to let out my emotions in this piece.] I made this while thinking about how evil humans can be and listening to Chopin's Ballade No. 1 in G minor Op 23 (Chopin's loneliest piece and most beautiful. The piano is most beautiful alone.) I was molested by a man and a woman on separate occasions when I was approximately 7 years old. I didn't know that it was bad until later in life which makes me angry the most. I lived in the clutches of their pedophilia intent which still disgusts me and fills my heart with anger to no end, but only through their apology which they have yet to utter since I have yet to confront them on it and they haven't spoke about it since the deed was done a few times, would I feel any bit better. I hate myself and most of all, I hate them. Lately, I've been contemplating self harm just to actually see the blood that I keep seeing and smelling at the piano, but that would not only hurt, but it would not solve anything, so I choose not to. Just like Chopin in the song that I mentioned earlier, I am alone because I don't express much other than the piano or online. If anyone reading this wishes to share their experience with me, send me a message or comment here. #pedophilia#blood#poem#poetry#piano#Chopin#Ballade#No .1 #Op#23#G minor #pain#heart#red#obedience#innocencelost#children#pain#anger
If you're going to turn your life around you need to make room for the turn around process.
That means that you can't keep entertaining things and people that make you feel like less than your best self.
The first thing to check is your music and your movies. If you're already depressed, even though you love them, this is just not the time for linkin park and korn. Give them a break until you feel better or give away your CD's or delete your files. Only music that lifts your spirits is allowed so no breakup pop music either.
What are you wearing? Put away the black. Throw away the goth makeup and please donate any item of clothing that makes you feel even the slightest tinge of self-pity. Those paint stained sweatpants with the 10 holes have got to go! It's time to stop treating your mental illness like it is part of your normal persona. It is not, you are a person in recovery. If this was a broken arm or a bout of gastro, you would tone it down and take it easy for the recommended recovery time. Mental health needs to be treated the same. This illness is temporary and you're getting better everyday and you will do anything you can to support your own recovery. Don't glorify your illness by turning it into a fashion statement. Instead, use fashion to cheer yourself up and wear things that make you feel cheerful or pretty/handsome.
Declutter your diet. Remove or minimize your intake of processed foods. The chemicals affect your hormones which then affect your mood. I don't have enough space here to talk about nutrition. Just eat Whole Foods as fresh and organic as you can get them.
Detox your friend list. Oftentimes we are attached to co-dependent friends and lovers at exactly the time when we need to be independent and experiencing our own love. If your spirits don't feel lifted when you're with your friends, you should let them hang without you until you're doing better. //
Declutter your beliefs, especially the ones about yourself. Oftentimes we don't take any time to examine what we believe and why we believe it. Beliefs are like the windows version of your operating system. They enable you to do/not do things so upgrade them
He loves me?
You can throw me against the wall, beat me until I'm black and blue and I will swear I still love you. You can tell me to shut my mouth ,tell me I'm worthless and treat me like shit and I will still stay by your side and swear to my friends that you really do love me it's just that I make you mad.
You Can promise me that you will never hit me again and deep inside I know that your lying I keep hoping that this time will be different and that you will change then it happens again your angry and I'm on the bed with you on top of me your hands wrapped tighly around my neck, but it's ok because it was my fault I said something to make you mad and you said you were sorry afterwards so that makes everything ok.
My friends can tell me over and over how I don't deserve to be treated this way, I can do better, just leave and that one day your going to kill me but I will defend you and tell them you don't always hit me,your a really great guy and you love me, but in the back of my mind a little voice keeps. Saying almost pleading with to wake up and realize that you don't care about me and if you did you wouldn't hurt me..like your doing right now.
I am pinned against the wall and your fist is coming full force at my already bruised face and you screaming at me to shut my mouth, my face is numb and blood is dripping down everywhere and you break down telling me you love me and your sorry and you didn't mean to hurt me and to please forgive you and me being blinded by love, fear or just feeling sorry for you I tell you it's ok and I love you too. And at that moment you look at me and. Scream "don't patronize me". And you began banging my head hard against the wall..I black out. But it's ok because you love me and don't mean to hurt me. ~Aurorarose~
I know the feeling of losing someone close, i know the feeling of losing your mind! Feeling like you're merely living and just existing and a world you don't feel connected to...having suicidal thoughts and constantly having thoughts of death! We live in a world that is filled with mind control, trauma and pain! But, understand it doesn't last forever sometimes we need to cry to let that hurt go...sometimes we need those bad experiences to make us stronger. Everything is temporary in this life those we have lost young or old are forever with us through spirit. Energy is real, mental illness is real something's we can't even explain but we have to keep pushing forward and i am here for anyone who needs some lifted spirits and or positive feedback...its good to just have an ear that'll listen to understand not just to reply. So, feel free to contact me i am here💞❤💯💋 #mentalhealth#hurt#pain#anger#wisdom#love#help#griefquotes#grief#grieving#frustrated#energy#depression#mentalhealth . #emotionalhealth#suffering#talktome#needsomeonetotalkto#imhereforyou#dmme#please
So many emotions and lack of emotions. Sometimes you’re happy, other times you’re sad. At times you feel full of rage, wanting to punch a hole in the wall, yet cry like a baby in a listening ears arms. You question yourself, past and current. You wonder if you’re coming or going. The pain feels unbearable and the thought of having to deal with it, makes my soul hurt. If I could sleep for weeks on end, I would. I don’t like people anymore, I hate hearing people talk. No one seems to understand, better yet give two shits. The person who was supposed to protect me, ripped my soul to pieces, leaving me to clean up their destruction. All these feelings and emotions, are real. I’m telling you what I wish someone told me, it’s normal, it will happen, and let it flow. Accept the process. There’s some deep rooted issues implanted from the narc so what you are feeling is ok, acceptable, and will pass if you allow it. Know that you will experience and feel many things throughout your healing, don’t allow the enemy to steal your victory, or your process. #Confused#Worried#Cold#Numb#Rage#Anger#Energy#Fight#Feeling#Pain#Hate#Enemy#Pissed#Mad#Sociopath#psychopath#narcissist#StopAbuse#StopDomesticViolence#Mind#Emotions#Knowledge#Understanding#Process#Trust#Truth#DomesticVictor#Sound#Mind
I'm awake since 3! The energy is intense. I needed to release a lot of other people's pain so I was woken to do so. (Not sleeping much since new year yet i have so much energy when this happens, yet again I must also connect, clear and ground every single day).
I seen a lot of you, many I know (many of you grouped together at one time where normally i may see one or two of you at a time) and others I don't know, all #feeling this intensity, feeling #pain#sadness & discomfort particularly emotional and mental. There is #irritation#agitation and #anger and its all ok. Ok! Its all ok! Majority I seen are females with a couple of males but either way it's all to do with Divine Feminine and you're releasing the old pain the ancesteral pain, the pain of the past, (which may have also shown in this lifetime) releasing for yourself and for the collective.
If you're reading this it may be for a reason, please know you are not going mad and you are not alone and this will all pass. Allow yourself to feel any painful or negative emotion. Dont push it away or be hard on yourself because its not all bubbly and bright. None of this is You!! This is important. Look on it, the feeling, as separate to you. Love it. Give it love.
Close your eyes and put your right hand on your heart and left hand on your solar plexus (just above your naval). As you breathe in draw light in to your heart space (sense, imagine, visualise). As you breathe out the breath and light move from your spiritual heart down through your arms out your palms and into your heart and solar plexus. Pain moves out ease moves in. Repeat as much as needed. Cry. Get fresh air. Give Love. Give Light.
Sending you all so much light