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my favorite teacher offered to drive me to school, she's one of the kindest people i've ever met. she's one of the few people i trust telling my problems to. she's such a great person, i'll never forget her and her kindness. 
it's a shame i'm moving back with my dad
my favorite teacher offered to drive me to school, she's one of the kindest people i've ever met. she's one of the few people i trust telling my problems to. she's such a great person, i'll never forget her and her kindness. it's a shame i'm moving back with my dad
I love "The Secret" app. It provides daily thoughts like this. Challenge the "I'm unworthy and undeserving" bully in your head 🌕. #recovery #recovering #sober #sobriety #mindfulness #mindful #meditate #meditation #selflove #anxiety #depression #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #edwarrior #antidiet #mentalhealthawareness #ptsd #therapy #counseling #bodyimage #bulimia #anorexia #bopo #recovered #prorecovery #Mentalhealth #selfcompassion #haes #zen #selfcare
I love "The Secret" app. It provides daily thoughts like this. Challenge the "I'm unworthy and undeserving" bully in your head 🌕. #recovery  #recovering  #sober  #sobriety  #mindfulness  #mindful  #meditate  #meditation  #selflove  #anxiety  #depression  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #edwarrior  #antidiet  #mentalhealthawareness  #ptsd  #therapy  #counseling  #bodyimage  #bulimia  #anorexia  #bopo  #recovered  #prorecovery  #Mentalhealth  #selfcompassion  #haes  #zen  #selfcare 
Gelato a mezzanotte, preso con gli amici e senza pensieri (forse anche perché oggi non ho avuto modo di fare merenda...), gusti nerissimo🍫 e nocciola vegana🌰🌱. Squisito a dir poco!😍. Dopo abbiamo fatto un giro a Santa Caterina e siamo tornati al villaggio alle 2. Sono stanca morta, quindi vi auguro la buonanotte 💜
Gelato a mezzanotte, preso con gli amici e senza pensieri (forse anche perché oggi non ho avuto modo di fare merenda...), gusti nerissimo🍫 e nocciola vegana🌰🌱. Squisito a dir poco!😍. Dopo abbiamo fatto un giro a Santa Caterina e siamo tornati al villaggio alle 2. Sono stanca morta, quindi vi auguro la buonanotte 💜
I feel unsafe
I feel unsafe
Thought I wasn't going to cry over food today but broke down at snack... took the yogurt that was higher calorie because it was more what I was craving even though I was scared but ended up not being to enjoy it anyway it just felt like guilt being forced down my throat. I'm such a dumb, ugly, fatass. Should've gone with the lower calorie.. 😥#ana #anarecovery #anasucks #anorexia #anorexiasucks #anirexiarecovery #ed #edwarrior #edfight #edfighter #edchampion #edrecovery #edsucks #recovery #realrecovery #recoveryisworthit #recoveryispossible #recoveryishard #chooserecovery #feelingtoobig #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder
Thought I wasn't going to cry over food today but broke down at snack... took the yogurt that was higher calorie because it was more what I was craving even though I was scared but ended up not being to enjoy it anyway it just felt like guilt being forced down my throat. I'm such a dumb, ugly, fatass. Should've gone with the lower calorie.. 😥#ana  #anarecovery  #anasucks  #anorexia  #anorexiasucks  #anirexiarecovery  #ed  #edwarrior  #edfight  #edfighter  #edchampion  #edrecovery  #edsucks  #recovery  #realrecovery  #recoveryisworthit  #recoveryispossible  #recoveryishard  #chooserecovery  #feelingtoobig  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatingdisorder 
朝ご飯☀️
・炒飯100グラム(210kcal)
・青菜とエビの炒め物🦐
・きゅうりのぬか漬け🥒
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朝測ったら体重が増えてて、とってもとってもイライラ😡なんで減らないの〜⁉️
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炒飯は市販のは味が濃いので、ごはんを足したらいい感じに👌
これから塾へ行ってきまーす👋
#拒食症#拒食症克服中 #拒食#摂食障害克服中 #摂食障害 #過食#非嘔吐過食 #痩せたい#太った#anorexiarecover #eatingdisorderrecovery #anorexia #bulimia #bulimiarecovery #edfighter #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder
朝ご飯☀️ ・炒飯100グラム(210kcal) ・青菜とエビの炒め物🦐 ・きゅうりのぬか漬け🥒 ・ 朝測ったら体重が増えてて、とってもとってもイライラ😡なんで減らないの〜⁉️ ・ 炒飯は市販のは味が濃いので、ごはんを足したらいい感じに👌 これから塾へ行ってきまーす👋 #拒食症 #拒食症克服中  #拒食 #摂食障害克服中  #摂食障害  #過食 #非嘔吐過食  #痩せたい #太った #anorexiarecover  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #anorexia  #bulimia  #bulimiarecovery  #edfighter  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatingdisorder 
Not that I'm very good at helping others either but... •
Follow my other account - @emilysraincloud 💜 [ #depression #mentalhealth #anxiety #sad #mentalillness #giveup #depressed #life #mentalhealthquotes #depressionquotes #suicide #selfharm #medication #struggle #anorexia #ana #ed #bulimia #cantcope #scared #worried #alone #lonely #help #insomnia #sleep ]
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#depressededits #depression #depressed #suicidal #suicide #cutting #selfharmmm #selfhate #anxiety #anorexia #bipolar #broken #alone #empty #triggered #triggerwarning #ugly #fat #sad #pain #scared #worthless #panicattack #deadinside
please click the link in my bio. even €1,- helps, but i just really cannot afford a binder which is really hard for me
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#selfharmmm #ana #anorexia #eatingdisorder #ednos #sh #sad #suicidal #scars #recovery #suicide #depression #anxiety #depressed #cuts #cut #broken #sadness #triggering #triggerwarning #selfhate #recovery #worthless #selbsmort #magersucht
I think my mom is noticing my fast.. #ana #anorexia #thin #fastingforweightloss #fast
Ready to be home back to all the fruits and vegetables😍 but road tripping all weekend to see the eclipse was completely and totally worth it😉
Ready to be home back to all the fruits and vegetables😍 but road tripping all weekend to see the eclipse was completely and totally worth it😉
Так и не расскал о своем перелете, хотя планировал это сделать еще давно. Люблю самолеты и летать на них, чуть меньше - поезда из-за духоты и зачастую долгого переезда. Лежишь себе или сидишь, смотришь в окно, музыку слушаешь, читаешь или спишь. Мне нравится. Но, к сожалению, в этот раз летел по середине, хотя меня это не особо напрягало. Единственное, не вытянуть ноги из-за рюкзака под сидением и некуда закинуть голову. 
Самолетная еда тоже не порадовала: в обоих случаях пересоленный сендвич с ветчиной из индейки (который я даже есть не стал), хотя летел я в противоположное время суток. Все ждал ночью этого "курица, говядина или рыба?", в надежде хотя бы в этом покапаться. 
А, кстати, никогда не берите в самолете кофе - кислый и одновременно ужасно горький. На счет чая не знаю, ибо когда летел второй раз, то предпочел воду и колу. 
Уж не знаю, буду ли сегодня ложиться спать. Сейчас без двадцати минут пять. Утром, или как проснусь, напишу пост  со своими планами как на счет питания, так и дальнейшего...существования в этом городе, а так же на счет школы и почему я, сука, так туда не хочу. ☆
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#анорексия #anorexia #булимия #рпп #непп #дневникпитания #рппдневник #худею #дневникеды #самолет #самолетнаяеда
Так и не расскал о своем перелете, хотя планировал это сделать еще давно. Люблю самолеты и летать на них, чуть меньше - поезда из-за духоты и зачастую долгого переезда. Лежишь себе или сидишь, смотришь в окно, музыку слушаешь, читаешь или спишь. Мне нравится. Но, к сожалению, в этот раз летел по середине, хотя меня это не особо напрягало. Единственное, не вытянуть ноги из-за рюкзака под сидением и некуда закинуть голову. Самолетная еда тоже не порадовала: в обоих случаях пересоленный сендвич с ветчиной из индейки (который я даже есть не стал), хотя летел я в противоположное время суток. Все ждал ночью этого "курица, говядина или рыба?", в надежде хотя бы в этом покапаться. А, кстати, никогда не берите в самолете кофе - кислый и одновременно ужасно горький. На счет чая не знаю, ибо когда летел второй раз, то предпочел воду и колу. Уж не знаю, буду ли сегодня ложиться спать. Сейчас без двадцати минут пять. Утром, или как проснусь, напишу пост со своими планами как на счет питания, так и дальнейшего...существования в этом городе, а так же на счет школы и почему я, сука, так туда не хочу. ☆ ☆ ☆ ☆ #анорексия  #anorexia  #булимия  #рпп  #непп  #дневникпитания  #рппдневник  #худею  #дневникеды  #самолет  #самолетнаяеда 
↟↟↟ why are people so aggressive when they shop for clothes, they literally throw everything everywhere. My OCD is shook
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#grunge #emo #goth #punk #scene #tumblrboy #sad #lonely #alone #depression #anxiety #bulimia #ana #anamia #anorexia #palegrunge #bands #gay #transgender #lgbtq #lesbian #thinspo #rock #rockbands #tumblr #alternative #aesthetic
Only salads and hummus for us 😉👩🏻‍🌾👌🏻#whatveganseat
Only salads and hummus for us 😉👩🏻‍🌾👌🏻#whatveganseat 
{Second Owner} Hay guys, so I wanna start this thing where I really get to connect with you guys and you know really just have a 1 on 1 with all of you. As yall can see the second owner is on live and I havent been on there and its because I've been waiting, we will get to that later. What I really came to talk to yall about is this new feed I wanna start. It's called "What Is Your Why?" When you wake up we sometimes ask ourselves why, whether it be a positive or negative answer we still ask the question. What I want yall to start doing is when you wake up in the morning ask yourself "why?" As is "Why do I keep trying even though It may seem like I always fail" Instead of a negative answer I want you guys to think of a positive one, "What is your why?" #depressed #sucidalminds #suicidaltendencies #suicidalteens #better #suicide #suicidaltendencies #suicidalteens #anxiety #anorexia #anxietygirl #suicidequote #suicidequote #suicidalthoughts #depressing #depression #depressedguy #depressedquotes #depressedteens #depressededit #anorexiarecovery #quotestags #quotes #quoted #suicidegirlshopefuls #cuttingmyself #kill #killmyself
{Second Owner} Hay guys, so I wanna start this thing where I really get to connect with you guys and you know really just have a 1 on 1 with all of you. As yall can see the second owner is on live and I havent been on there and its because I've been waiting, we will get to that later. What I really came to talk to yall about is this new feed I wanna start. It's called "What Is Your Why?" When you wake up we sometimes ask ourselves why, whether it be a positive or negative answer we still ask the question. What I want yall to start doing is when you wake up in the morning ask yourself "why?" As is "Why do I keep trying even though It may seem like I always fail" Instead of a negative answer I want you guys to think of a positive one, "What is your why?" #depressed  #sucidalminds  #suicidaltendencies  #suicidalteens  #better  #suicide  #suicidaltendencies  #suicidalteens  #anxiety  #anorexia  #anxietygirl  #suicidequote  #suicidequote  #suicidalthoughts  #depressing  #depression  #depressedguy  #depressedquotes  #depressedteens  #depressededit  #anorexiarecovery  #quotestags  #quotes  #quoted  #suicidegirlshopefuls  #cuttingmyself  #kill  #killmyself 
Ugggh I'm so fat. I gave up on losing weight a long time ago. When school starts again I'm going to make myself lose weight. By the time homecoming is I want to be 125 (or happy with how my body looks)
Ugggh I'm so fat. I gave up on losing weight a long time ago. When school starts again I'm going to make myself lose weight. By the time homecoming is I want to be 125 (or happy with how my body looks)
🖤🥀School starts tomorrow and no one understands how much I hate it #suicide #anorexia #anxiety #depression #suicidal #imfine #imokay #imok #ed #eatingdisorder #ana #selfhate #selfharm
He buscado tantas veces la manera de expresar mi disconfirmidad y he encontrado este medio para poder soltar como un diario; sin necesariamente tener que lastimarme.
Amor es lo que busco, pero tengo demasiado, busco del propio, del que deberia ser incondicional y siempre estar, pero la comida me quita todo el amor que deberia tenerme, al igual que todo el resto se tiene
#anorexia #newlife
He buscado tantas veces la manera de expresar mi disconfirmidad y he encontrado este medio para poder soltar como un diario; sin necesariamente tener que lastimarme. Amor es lo que busco, pero tengo demasiado, busco del propio, del que deberia ser incondicional y siempre estar, pero la comida me quita todo el amor que deberia tenerme, al igual que todo el resto se tiene #anorexia  #newlife 
Monday, 21 August 2017
#dinner was this #vietnamese savory #crepe stuffed with bean sprouts, pork, and shrimp 🦐 It's called #banhxeo, due to the sizzling sound it makes when the crepe batter hits the pan 🍳 This dish was really fulfilling, and I am a happy girl 😊💕
Monday, 21 August 2017 #dinner  was this #vietnamese  savory #crepe  stuffed with bean sprouts, pork, and shrimp 🦐 It's called #banhxeo , due to the sizzling sound it makes when the crepe batter hits the pan 🍳 This dish was really fulfilling, and I am a happy girl 😊💕
A flowery spin on the ANAD/NEDA ribbon for @kristinablackwood 🖤🖤🖤 I've been loving the design requests recently, keep em' comin! Thanks for looking 😊
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#ANAD #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #recovery #flowers #tattoo #tattoos #tattooed #tattoodesign #flowertattoo #traditionaltattoo #traditionalart #traditional #americantraditional #art #artwork #artist #drawing #painting #design #pretty #cute #blackworktattoo #blackwork #blackandgreytattoo #blackandgrey #amethyst #crystals #beautiful
A flowery spin on the ANAD/NEDA ribbon for @kristinablackwood 🖤🖤🖤 I've been loving the design requests recently, keep em' comin! Thanks for looking 😊 . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . #ANAD  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #recovery  #flowers  #tattoo  #tattoos  #tattooed  #tattoodesign  #flowertattoo  #traditionaltattoo  #traditionalart  #traditional  #americantraditional  #art  #artwork  #artist  #drawing  #painting  #design  #pretty  #cute  #blackworktattoo  #blackwork  #blackandgreytattoo  #blackandgrey  #amethyst  #crystals  #beautiful 
The size of this is like 20cm in length and probably 15cm in diameter 😱 Sweet and crunchy crust, filled with vanilla cream and pistachios, just divine 🙌 I also had two baklava "fingers"

TW:
I purged today, after a month. Ngl, I'm not sure what was the reason. Maybe, fight with my parents about some stupid ass shit I can't even remember. 
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I decided to not count calories for the rest of the day, because I collapsed. So, I had everything that I craved, without any guilt. Probably going to regret this tomorrow, but I enjoyed it to the fullest 😊

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#bulimia #anorexia #bulimirexia #recoverywarrior #recovery #strongnotskinny #mia #ana #snack #snacktime #carbs #healthyfood #food #healthynotskinny #sweetlover #sweets #sugarfree #fatreduced #glutenfree #fitness #foodisfuel #bodybuilding #dessert #summer #anorexiarecovery #prorecovery #fooddiary #strongnotskinny #recoverywin #greece
The size of this is like 20cm in length and probably 15cm in diameter 😱 Sweet and crunchy crust, filled with vanilla cream and pistachios, just divine 🙌 I also had two baklava "fingers" TW: I purged today, after a month. Ngl, I'm not sure what was the reason. Maybe, fight with my parents about some stupid ass shit I can't even remember. TW ended: I decided to not count calories for the rest of the day, because I collapsed. So, I had everything that I craved, without any guilt. Probably going to regret this tomorrow, but I enjoyed it to the fullest 😊 _________________________________________________ #bulimia  #anorexia  #bulimirexia  #recoverywarrior  #recovery  #strongnotskinny  #mia  #ana  #snack  #snacktime  #carbs  #healthyfood  #food  #healthynotskinny  #sweetlover  #sweets  #sugarfree  #fatreduced  #glutenfree  #fitness  #foodisfuel  #bodybuilding  #dessert  #summer  #anorexiarecovery  #prorecovery  #fooddiary  #strongnotskinny  #recoverywin  #greece 
"So here I am...
Trying to construct a plan,
A masterpiece,
A map of words to unravel the chaos of my thoughts. 
The mind does not stop.
The mind does not go back.
The mind does not erase."
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WiTh ThE oNe AnD oNLy BaTmAn😜 @blackandbluelungs
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Tags: #poetry #poems #depression #alone #poets #grunge #poet #grungetumblr #grungeaesthetic #aesthetictumblr #brokenheart #suicide #suicidal #selfharm #blood #anorexia #black #blackaesthetic #grungetheme #numb #broken #lgbt #bisexual #sad #poetsofinstagram
"So here I am... Trying to construct a plan, A masterpiece, A map of words to unravel the chaos of my thoughts. The mind does not stop. The mind does not go back. The mind does not erase." • • • WiTh ThE oNe AnD oNLy BaTmAn😜 @blackandbluelungs • • • Tags: #poetry  #poems  #depression  #alone  #poets  #grunge  #poet  #grungetumblr  #grungeaesthetic  #aesthetictumblr  #brokenheart  #suicide  #suicidal  #selfharm  #blood  #anorexia  #black  #blackaesthetic  #grungetheme  #numb  #broken  #lgbt  #bisexual  #sad  #poetsofinstagram 
Today was a crazy first day of school! The history class I was in I realized was rated super difficult, so my 2 friends got out and both of the classes they enrolled in were full. So I tried to talk to administration to let me in, but they wouldn't. Now I'm in a once a week three hour night class and an added chemistry class in the evening. Then I went to do my math hw assignment only to find the bookstore gave me the wrong access code (I should've known, I worked there). So I had to go there, switch out books, & get my money back. Hopefully the second day goes a little better. I'm trying to be thankful to God that I am able to get an education and still get in the classes I need no matter the hassle. Maybe the tassel will be worth the hassle after all. 😏🎓#anorexia #nervosa #recovery #recoverywin #recoveryisworthit #recoverywarrior #lunch #prorecovery #edfam #eatittobeatit #eatingdisorderrecovery #beatana #brofood #strongnotskinny #foodisfuel #anxiety #depression #mentalhealth #mentalillness #poetry #poetrycommunity #school #writersofinstagram #ssc #mondaymood
Today was a crazy first day of school! The history class I was in I realized was rated super difficult, so my 2 friends got out and both of the classes they enrolled in were full. So I tried to talk to administration to let me in, but they wouldn't. Now I'm in a once a week three hour night class and an added chemistry class in the evening. Then I went to do my math hw assignment only to find the bookstore gave me the wrong access code (I should've known, I worked there). So I had to go there, switch out books, & get my money back. Hopefully the second day goes a little better. I'm trying to be thankful to God that I am able to get an education and still get in the classes I need no matter the hassle. Maybe the tassel will be worth the hassle after all. 😏🎓#anorexia  #nervosa  #recovery  #recoverywin  #recoveryisworthit  #recoverywarrior  #lunch  #prorecovery  #edfam  #eatittobeatit  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #beatana  #brofood  #strongnotskinny  #foodisfuel  #anxiety  #depression  #mentalhealth  #mentalillness  #poetry  #poetrycommunity  #school  #writersofinstagram  #ssc  #mondaymood 
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Dinner was fancy pants chicken🥘(chicken🍗 wrapped in prosciutto🥓, spinach🥗, mushrooms, and mozzarella🧀), broccoli 🥒roasted in OIL and potatoes 🥔roasted in OIL! Oh my gosh this was so good 🤤and so hard at the same time! There were so many components to this meal and so much OIL! So my sister was super triggering because she said she didn't like the mushrooms or spinach and didn't eat it😡. I really wanted to restrict but I did what was best for GRACE🤗! Other than that today was really good. The eclipse was also super pretty today! Well school again tomorrow😭
🐠scales are for fish🐠 ~

#edfighter #anawarrior #anorexiarecovery #prorecovery #happyhealthystrong #scalesareforfish #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorder #eatingdisoderrecovery #ana #beatana #youareloved #youarebeautiful
Dinner was fancy pants chicken🥘(chicken🍗 wrapped in prosciutto🥓, spinach🥗, mushrooms, and mozzarella🧀), broccoli 🥒roasted in OIL and potatoes 🥔roasted in OIL! Oh my gosh this was so good 🤤and so hard at the same time! There were so many components to this meal and so much OIL! So my sister was super triggering because she said she didn't like the mushrooms or spinach and didn't eat it😡. I really wanted to restrict but I did what was best for GRACE🤗! Other than that today was really good. The eclipse was also super pretty today! Well school again tomorrow😭 🐠scales are for fish🐠 ~ #edfighter  #anawarrior  #anorexiarecovery  #prorecovery  #happyhealthystrong  #scalesareforfish  #anorexia  #anorexianervosa  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisoderrecovery  #ana  #beatana  #youareloved  #youarebeautiful 
I don't think anyone will ever care about me.. #Depressed #fakesmile #anorexia #depression #quote #depressionquotes #fat #ugly #alone #nobodycares #goodbye
Hello all! This morning and afternoon was kinda hard meal wise due to having to be up at 2 am and flying home. But my first dinner back at home was delicious and I finished it all, even though it was so huge and I feel so guilty. My mom made me have a huge dessert tonight also to make up for breakfast and lunch. Feeling super guilty, hopefully therapy tomorrow helps. Just going to sleep it off now. -

Breakfast: strawberry cheesecake quest bar 
Lunch: halfish of a chicken ceaser salad (this is the first time I've had ceaser dressing in recovery and even though it was such a tiny bit it killed my stomach) 
Snack: none
Dinner: lean turkey on half a bun (!) And a pickle (this was so huge omfg but I had mustard and hot sauce to get me through it 😋)
Dessert: skinny cow ice cream sandwich with (wait for it) the usual whipped cream, rainbow sprinkles, and 3 candy corns (oh how I missed my desserts) -

#anorexia #anorexianervosa #ed #eatingdisorder #recovery #anorexiarecovery #anarecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #profight
Hello all! This morning and afternoon was kinda hard meal wise due to having to be up at 2 am and flying home. But my first dinner back at home was delicious and I finished it all, even though it was so huge and I feel so guilty. My mom made me have a huge dessert tonight also to make up for breakfast and lunch. Feeling super guilty, hopefully therapy tomorrow helps. Just going to sleep it off now. - Breakfast: strawberry cheesecake quest bar Lunch: halfish of a chicken ceaser salad (this is the first time I've had ceaser dressing in recovery and even though it was such a tiny bit it killed my stomach) Snack: none Dinner: lean turkey on half a bun (!) And a pickle (this was so huge omfg but I had mustard and hot sauce to get me through it 😋) Dessert: skinny cow ice cream sandwich with (wait for it) the usual whipped cream, rainbow sprinkles, and 3 candy corns (oh how I missed my desserts) - #anorexia  #anorexianervosa  #ed  #eatingdisorder  #recovery  #anorexiarecovery  #anarecovery  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #profight 
Lunch today was a Super Burrito 🌯 from @traderjoes and a chocolate sea salt @rxbar 🍫. Then I came home and ate a fig and a random piece of bread 😝 because bread is life 😋Anyways I love the Super Burrito from Trader Joe's even though I would never eat it during my ED because there were "waaaaaay too many carbs" (sweet potato!  quinoa!  all wrapped in a carby tortilla!) but heck it is so delicious and I need those carbs!  Carbs are the body's main source of fuel and especially for someone who just finished a long run inbred this!  Don't get me wrong though, even if you don't exercise, you still need carbs!  Fuel your body and you'll feel so much more energized because it has easily accessible energy and you'll be ready to take on the world 💪🏼 also we watched the solar eclipse while I was running lol we took turn wearing solar classes!  It was kind of disappointing because I'm in SoCal and we only get a 60% eclipse 🤷🏻‍♀️ oh well 🌒#burrito #rxbar #superfood #traderjoes #fearfood #recoverywin #carbs
Lunch today was a Super Burrito 🌯 from @traderjoes and a chocolate sea salt @rxbar 🍫. Then I came home and ate a fig and a random piece of bread 😝 because bread is life 😋Anyways I love the Super Burrito from Trader Joe's even though I would never eat it during my ED because there were "waaaaaay too many carbs" (sweet potato! quinoa! all wrapped in a carby tortilla!) but heck it is so delicious and I need those carbs! Carbs are the body's main source of fuel and especially for someone who just finished a long run inbred this! Don't get me wrong though, even if you don't exercise, you still need carbs! Fuel your body and you'll feel so much more energized because it has easily accessible energy and you'll be ready to take on the world 💪🏼 also we watched the solar eclipse while I was running lol we took turn wearing solar classes! It was kind of disappointing because I'm in SoCal and we only get a 60% eclipse 🤷🏻‍♀️ oh well 🌒#burrito  #rxbar  #superfood  #traderjoes  #fearfood  #recoverywin  #carbs 
LOVE THIS GIRL 💖 It may have been a bitch of a journey and 2nd time lucky this year, but it was worth it all for 3 days with you (and the fab Ralph!) Love you guys! Dani you are a diamond, pure, priceless and I feel so thankful to go have you in my life 😙😍💖 Until next time xx  #bestfriendholiday #holiday #munich #neuschwanstein #germany #sun #summer #friendshipisgoodforthesoul #friendbrag #eatingdisorderreality #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #edrecovery #edfamily #edwarrior #ed #anorexia #anorexic #ana #anarecovery #dissociativeidentitydisorder #didrecovery #bodyimage #bodydismorphia
LOVE THIS GIRL 💖 It may have been a bitch of a journey and 2nd time lucky this year, but it was worth it all for 3 days with you (and the fab Ralph!) Love you guys! Dani you are a diamond, pure, priceless and I feel so thankful to go have you in my life 😙😍💖 Until next time xx #bestfriendholiday  #holiday  #munich  #neuschwanstein  #germany  #sun  #summer  #friendshipisgoodforthesoul  #friendbrag  #eatingdisorderreality  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #edrecovery  #edfamily  #edwarrior  #ed  #anorexia  #anorexic  #ana  #anarecovery  #dissociativeidentitydisorder  #didrecovery  #bodyimage  #bodydismorphia 
I know you have demons too. But you have to kill them. 
#demons #depression #depressionhurts #anorexia #anorexic #strong #dark
Why is every fucking thing I do always so wrong? I mess up too much. Everyone hates me. I'll never be good enough. I'm so tired of disappointing myself every single day. I'm tired of living. #anorexia #anorexic #bulimia #bulimic #eatingdisorder #depression #depressed
OML IDK WHAT I HAVE DONE, BUT I HAVE DONE IT RIGHT😩Vanilla ice cream topped with these super moist and gooey brownies, pop tarts and loads of chocolate syrup (which I put WAYY more as I was eating it😂) I always wanted to make a sundae type dessert, and I'm glad i did👌 
#anorexia #anorexiarecovery #ed #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #eat #foodie #foodporn #food #foodgasm #icecream #chocolate #dessertporn #dessert #foodgram #love #anawarrior #edwarrior #foodies
OML IDK WHAT I HAVE DONE, BUT I HAVE DONE IT RIGHT😩Vanilla ice cream topped with these super moist and gooey brownies, pop tarts and loads of chocolate syrup (which I put WAYY more as I was eating it😂) I always wanted to make a sundae type dessert, and I'm glad i did👌 #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #ed  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #eat  #foodie  #foodporn  #food  #foodgasm  #icecream  #chocolate  #dessertporn  #dessert  #foodgram  #love  #anawarrior  #edwarrior  #foodies 
I'm at 103 pounds.. 1 year ago I weighed 130 and I'm glad I've come this far .. but still a long way to go #Anorexia #fat #tumblr #weight #Depressed #depression #depressionquotes #Suicide #suicidal #suicidalthoughts #suicidalgirl
Никогда не считала калории в еде, даже когда жутко худела. Лишняя математика, тем более, что у меня браслет сам считает. А вот это уже интересно, сколько "стоит" бег или бассейн🤔. Могу сказать, что на хороших тренях я обычно трачу по 400 kkal. Но "умный" браслет глупый, он не различает велосипед, ролики и тд. Сегодня мне начало казаться, что я снова хочу худеть. За день я съела смесь🍼(но тут нехорошая история), сок "тема"🍓, клубнику🍓(бабушка с дачи привезла😚) два батончика "boombar"🍌(которые без сахара, шоколада, проч. вредного, белковые манго-банан, оч вкусные) мюсли🍲 с соком🍹и ещё один сок🍹 на ночь. Проблема в том, что это мне кажется как офигенно много, хотя, если сравнить с месяц назад, когда я сметала все на своём пути в живот как неизвестно что, то и не так много получается. На самом деле я думаю, что снова сейчас скачусь именно в мысли "let's become slim", хотя что я себе вру, я уже хочу этого. Вот сейчас пишу и думаю, достаточно ли много я двигаюсь и не надо ли мне ещё бегать вечером, например🤔. А сегодня я каталась на велике🚴🏻 - в 22 часа родителям кровь из носа надо было послать меня за бухлом🍾.
22.08.2017
#анорексия##анорексички#рпп#рппвосстановление#рппдневник#дневниканорексички#anorexia#anorexìarecovery#recovery#recoverydiary#bulimia#beatbulimia#beatanorexia#eatingdisordersrecovery#анорексиядневник#анорексиявосстановление#рекавери#edrecovery#anarecovery#ed#интуитивноепитание#edrecoveryarmy#edsoldiers#edworrior#ana#anarecovery#anarecoverydiary
Никогда не считала калории в еде, даже когда жутко худела. Лишняя математика, тем более, что у меня браслет сам считает. А вот это уже интересно, сколько "стоит" бег или бассейн🤔. Могу сказать, что на хороших тренях я обычно трачу по 400 kkal. Но "умный" браслет глупый, он не различает велосипед, ролики и тд. Сегодня мне начало казаться, что я снова хочу худеть. За день я съела смесь🍼(но тут нехорошая история), сок "тема"🍓, клубнику🍓(бабушка с дачи привезла😚) два батончика "boombar"🍌(которые без сахара, шоколада, проч. вредного, белковые манго-банан, оч вкусные) мюсли🍲 с соком🍹и ещё один сок🍹 на ночь. Проблема в том, что это мне кажется как офигенно много, хотя, если сравнить с месяц назад, когда я сметала все на своём пути в живот как неизвестно что, то и не так много получается. На самом деле я думаю, что снова сейчас скачусь именно в мысли "let's become slim", хотя что я себе вру, я уже хочу этого. Вот сейчас пишу и думаю, достаточно ли много я двигаюсь и не надо ли мне ещё бегать вечером, например🤔. А сегодня я каталась на велике🚴🏻 - в 22 часа родителям кровь из носа надо было послать меня за бухлом🍾. 22.08.2017 #анорексия ##анорексички #рпп #рппвосстановление #рппдневник #дневниканорексички #anorexia #anorexìarecovery #recovery #recoverydiary #bulimia #beatbulimia #beatanorexia #eatingdisordersrecovery #анорексиядневник #анорексиявосстановление #рекавери #edrecovery #anarecovery #ed #интуитивноепитание #edrecoveryarmy #edsoldiers #edworrior #ana #anarecovery #anarecoverydiary 
Feelin pretty empty today :/ like nothing I do really matters -
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Feelin pretty empty today :/ like nothing I do really matters - ~Hashtags~{ #depression  #depressionquotes  #depressed  #anxiety  #anxietyquotes  #anxietysucks  #bipolar  #disorder  #disorders  #mentalhealth  #mentalillness  #mental  #suicidal  #suicide  #anorexia  #ana  #bulimia  #mia  #bulimianervosa  #anorexianervosa  #ocd  #sad  } - ~Hotlines- Suicide- (800) 273-8255 Domestic Abuse- 1-800-656-4673 Runaway Safeline- 1-800-786-2929 Eating disorders- 1-800-931-2237 LGBT Support- 866-488-7386 Veterans Crisis- 1-800-273-8255 Trans Lifeline- 877-565-8860 National Nightmare Hotline- 1-866-DRMS911
#chef @jmo____ is my#favorite! #monday #dinner #noms. #lamb #burger surrounded by a #tomato #cucumber red #onion #feta salad.
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dinner is food that's not icecream would you look at that i'm so healthy tbh? goals
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Fish and chips from Friday afternoon after the funeral. I really didn't want to eat or let myself taste but I did it for my mamma. ❤️ #anorexia #anarecovery #anorexiarecovery #prorecovery #edwarrior #edfighter #edfamily #edrecovery #positive #strongnotskinny #fuckana #bestrong #bebrave #nourishnotpunish #beatana  #recover #reasontolive #instadaily #fuelyourbody #learntoloveyourself  #progress  #gettingbetter
Lunch before the eclipse today was a turkey🍗, Swiss cheese🧀, shredded lettuce🥗, and grainy mustard🍯sandwich 🥖in a ROLL!!! This was s huge HUGE recovery win because one of my biggest fear foods are bread rolls. I realized that I loved hem so much and that there was no point in missing out! I had this before the eclipse today🌅🌌did anyone else see it??? My sister lost some of her school work and is taking it out on me😤 and I really want to restrict because of it. Support?❤️ 🐠scales are for fish🐠 dinner tonight is also going to be a challenge so stay tuned ~

#edfighter #anorexiarecovery #anawarrior #prorecovery #happyhealthystrong #scalesareforfish #anorexia #anorexianervosa #edwarrior #edrecovery #staystrong #eclipse2017 #eatingdisorder #eatingdisoderrecovery #youarebeautiful #youareloved
Lunch before the eclipse today was a turkey🍗, Swiss cheese🧀, shredded lettuce🥗, and grainy mustard🍯sandwich 🥖in a ROLL!!! This was s huge HUGE recovery win because one of my biggest fear foods are bread rolls. I realized that I loved hem so much and that there was no point in missing out! I had this before the eclipse today🌅🌌did anyone else see it??? My sister lost some of her school work and is taking it out on me😤 and I really want to restrict because of it. Support?❤️ 🐠scales are for fish🐠 dinner tonight is also going to be a challenge so stay tuned ~ #edfighter  #anorexiarecovery  #anawarrior  #prorecovery  #happyhealthystrong  #scalesareforfish  #anorexia  #anorexianervosa  #edwarrior  #edrecovery  #staystrong  #eclipse2017  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisoderrecovery  #youarebeautiful  #youareloved 
Having a night snack? Who dis???? But really, gonna make this a new habit! Saying goodbye to another stupid ED rule and saying hello to evening snacks! I have a cup of vanilla chai tea with stevia and almond milk with three gf oatmeal raisin cookies! So warm and yummy and makes me excited for fall (alllll the hot drinks!!) 👊🏼☕️🍪
#edrecovery #edwarrior #edfam #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #anawarrior #ana #anarecovery #recovery #recoveryisworthit #eatittobeatit #healthynotskinny #strongnotskinny #health #glutenfree #tea #cookies
Having a night snack? Who dis???? But really, gonna make this a new habit! Saying goodbye to another stupid ED rule and saying hello to evening snacks! I have a cup of vanilla chai tea with stevia and almond milk with three gf oatmeal raisin cookies! So warm and yummy and makes me excited for fall (alllll the hot drinks!!) 👊🏼☕️🍪 #edrecovery  #edwarrior  #edfam  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #anawarrior  #ana  #anarecovery  #recovery  #recoveryisworthit  #eatittobeatit  #healthynotskinny  #strongnotskinny  #health  #glutenfree  #tea  #cookies 
some days you feel sick all day and lie in bed, so you figure out how to work "chicken" nuggets and sweet potato fries into your calories 🤷🏽‍♀️
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some days you feel sick all day and lie in bed, so you figure out how to work "chicken" nuggets and sweet potato fries into your calories 🤷🏽‍♀️ • • • • • #halfmarathon  #anorexia  #journey  #bulimia  #halfmarathontraining  #bulimiarecovery  #foodstagram  #eatingdisorder  #edrecovery  #edfighter  #edcommunity  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #recovery  #healthy  #healthyliving  #girlswhorun  #fitspo  #inspiration  #runnergirl  #foodfreedom  #fitnessmotivation  #fitness  #health  #selflove  #foodporn  #cleaneats  #loveyourself  #foodfreedom  #strongisthenewskinny  #edwarrior 
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WE GOT OUR PUPPY EARLY TODAY! - I went to meet him for the first time! Because he was born just before I went into hospital when I was really sick and was in and out for a week, before I got held in. So I met him and they said we could take him home!! I'm so happy, we needed something like this after all the shit we've both had to go through cause it's not just the ED suffer who is affected.. Friends, family, partners, husbands, wives almost everyone close to you is affected sadly. So im so glad there's a little glint of joy in our lives again! So content :) #ed #edrecovery #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #bpd #bipolardisorder
WE GOT OUR PUPPY EARLY TODAY! - I went to meet him for the first time! Because he was born just before I went into hospital when I was really sick and was in and out for a week, before I got held in. So I met him and they said we could take him home!! I'm so happy, we needed something like this after all the shit we've both had to go through cause it's not just the ED suffer who is affected.. Friends, family, partners, husbands, wives almost everyone close to you is affected sadly. So im so glad there's a little glint of joy in our lives again! So content :) #ed  #edrecovery  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #bpd  #bipolardisorder 
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v important PSA 🐕 (Popcorn Service Announcement): • i do not understand you humans; how you can be so enamored with all these celestial happenings, yet in this exponentially V A S T universe... you still feel too big. or too much. or like a waste of space. i don't understand how you could even possibly believe that there isn't anywhere you fit or belong in this big wide world. so the next time you feel overwhelmed, have some compassion with yourself; remind yourself of how infinitesimally small we ALL are. and, without invalidating your feelings, how truly insignificant many of the things you upset yourselves over are as well. i do sure hope you enjoyed the eclipse though, i know i enjoyed getting out of the shop for a few minutes with my human so she could sneak a peek 🌒🤸🏼‍♀️🐕💕 #shopgirlz4lyfe  xoxo, gossip dog • (feat: my Favorite™ satellite ear; JFC this dog kills me) . . . . . #edfam  #psa  #popcornserviceannouncement 
You know that feeling you get?
That feeling where it's like you're watching everyone's life through some dirty, fake, tainted glass.
That feeling that you're invisible, unseen and unclear to the world; like you don't even matter.
That feeling where you can't even understand the human beings around you,
Are they from a different planet?
What language are they speaking?
Because I swear you're sitting right next to me but the way you're talking makes you seem eons away.

That feeling where no one understands you,
or you don't understand anyone else.

That moment where you feel like a bystander,
watching through a movie screen,
as the others live their lives,
play their games,
and catch their fun.

That moment has been with me for days and months
its creeping up me like a pariah.

Making me feel,
no making me un-feel.

I am isolated,
isolated by myself.

They say no man is an island,
Well i am no island,
But i am a black house on a road with colorful apartments
all changing their decorations as the year passes

But i still remain,
black and alone.

sad and isolated.

I would ask for help but
they wouldn't understand.
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#adultswitheds #ed #eatingdisorder #edcommunity #edfamilly #edfam #anorexia #ana #bulimia #bulimic #bingeeatingdisorder #bingeeating #binge #bingefree #food_diary #diet #dietplan #dietfood #dietingstruggles #support
You know that feeling you get? That feeling where it's like you're watching everyone's life through some dirty, fake, tainted glass. That feeling that you're invisible, unseen and unclear to the world; like you don't even matter. That feeling where you can't even understand the human beings around you, Are they from a different planet? What language are they speaking? Because I swear you're sitting right next to me but the way you're talking makes you seem eons away. That feeling where no one understands you, or you don't understand anyone else. That moment where you feel like a bystander, watching through a movie screen, as the others live their lives, play their games, and catch their fun. That moment has been with me for days and months its creeping up me like a pariah. Making me feel, no making me un-feel. I am isolated, isolated by myself. They say no man is an island, Well i am no island, But i am a black house on a road with colorful apartments all changing their decorations as the year passes But i still remain, black and alone. sad and isolated. I would ask for help but they wouldn't understand. ------------ #adultswitheds  #ed  #eatingdisorder  #edcommunity  #edfamilly  #edfam  #anorexia  #ana  #bulimia  #bulimic  #bingeeatingdisorder  #bingeeating  #binge  #bingefree  #food_diary  #diet  #dietplan  #dietfood  #dietingstruggles  #support 
I wanna be loved by you ❤ ❤❤
First night of tech week! And I head back to college the day after I close this show! Aauuughhh!!!! Today's video is a vlog on being productive while feeling overwhelmed and stressed 😊 #youtuber  #youtube #vlog #vlogger #veganyoutuber #veganvlogger #veganlife #vegansofig #vegan #veganrecovery #edrecovery #prorecovery #anorexia #actress #theatre #model #artist #hair #fitness #fitnessmotivation #workout #yoga #body #bodypositive #healthyfood #healthy #healthyeating #plantbased #wslf #fashion
I wanna be loved by you ❤ ❤❤ First night of tech week! And I head back to college the day after I close this show! Aauuughhh!!!! Today's video is a vlog on being productive while feeling overwhelmed and stressed 😊 #youtuber  #youtube  #vlog  #vlogger  #veganyoutuber  #veganvlogger  #veganlife  #vegansofig  #vegan  #veganrecovery  #edrecovery  #prorecovery  #anorexia  #actress  #theatre  #model  #artist  #hair  #fitness  #fitnessmotivation  #workout  #yoga  #body  #bodypositive  #healthyfood  #healthy  #healthyeating  #plantbased  #wslf  #fashion 
{not me} I hate it when my parents always force me to eat even when I'm not hungry 
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Ich liebe dich!!! Keine Sorge ist ein altes Bild. Ich werde es versuchen die Tage zu schaffen

#ritzen #ritzengegendenschmerz #lovehurts #liebetutweh #cut #cutting #cry #magersucht #needu #hatemyself #depression #deprigirl #depri #sterben #suicidial #suizid #willnichtmehr #wanttodie #tod #ithurts #allesvorbei #anorexia
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-I see my nurse in the morning and I'm actually pretty relieved that it's tomorrow. Since Friday when I had that meal out I've just spiralled a Bit and have barley eaten anything since then. That night was probably the worst night that I've had in a long time. It was all going smoothly until my cousin said how much weight I've gained since he last saw me which of course made me so anxious and upset that I got up and left in tears. I came back in hoping that everyone had finished as I hadn't driven in and had to rely on my grandma to get me home so just as I came in they were ordering pudding. I had a scoop of mango sorbet just to make it a tad easier around my family but that turned out bad and came up. Since then I only had a cup of tea yesterday and what I've posted today. Thoughts to do something very dangerous are so intense at the moment too and I feel like anything I see turns into a thought of me harming myself with it. I don't know whether to tell my nurse any of this tomorrow either because I'm trying to get my license back and I don't want anything to jeopradise it in anyway. 
#positive #anarecovery #edfighter #edfamily #support #foodisfuel #anorexianervosarecovery #edwarrior #anorexianervosa #anorexia #edfam #edsoldier #recoverywin #recovery #anafighter #bpd #staystrong #keepfighting
Tea was a ham toastie and a cuppa up at my grandma's 🌸 - - - -Update with TW -I see my nurse in the morning and I'm actually pretty relieved that it's tomorrow. Since Friday when I had that meal out I've just spiralled a Bit and have barley eaten anything since then. That night was probably the worst night that I've had in a long time. It was all going smoothly until my cousin said how much weight I've gained since he last saw me which of course made me so anxious and upset that I got up and left in tears. I came back in hoping that everyone had finished as I hadn't driven in and had to rely on my grandma to get me home so just as I came in they were ordering pudding. I had a scoop of mango sorbet just to make it a tad easier around my family but that turned out bad and came up. Since then I only had a cup of tea yesterday and what I've posted today. Thoughts to do something very dangerous are so intense at the moment too and I feel like anything I see turns into a thought of me harming myself with it. I don't know whether to tell my nurse any of this tomorrow either because I'm trying to get my license back and I don't want anything to jeopradise it in anyway. #positive  #anarecovery  #edfighter  #edfamily  #support  #foodisfuel  #anorexianervosarecovery  #edwarrior  #anorexianervosa  #anorexia  #edfam  #edsoldier  #recoverywin  #recovery  #anafighter  #bpd  #staystrong  #keepfighting