Today is day 11 in #21daysinmyartworld , and the post is TURNING POINT. I’m entering my third year of #austincoloring , and the turning point that stands out most was leaving @voxtable, to work full time in the arts.
For two years I waited tables at Vox while illustrating the coloring book. I truly believe without them, I would not be working full time in the arts today. The people were my family, and the income was the container that protected my small creative endeavor from the stress and fear of the outside world. When young artists ask me how to get started I always say: Get a day job (or in my case a night job), and stay at it as long as you can!! Seriously! Stay as long as possible. The day job lets you do your thing ONE HUNDRED percent on your own terms. It’s certainly less sexy than jumping off a cliff and starting from scratch, and to be fair I know many artists who figured it out that way. For me though, I don’t fare well in a stressful environment, and I knew trying to monetize my art to pay bills out the gate would kill my love for it. I tried two restaurants before I landed there. It was a 3 bears situation. The first was great income but treated servers like junk. The second treated its servers like gold but I couldn’t pay my bills. Vox was the baby bear: JUST RIGHT. They became my foundation and the coloring books had zero pressure to make money those first years. I know that’s why my situation is so sustainable today.
Even as I got too busy in late summer of 2016 to maintain a healthy work schedule, I still hesitated to leave. I loved working there. I miss it to this day. Many of the original servers are still there, a testament to a restaurant in a town like Austin. In August of 2016 I put in my notice to leave. Two days after, HEB reached out to request what was the biggest art partnership I’d had up until that time. I was validated. I knew it was time, but I also I knew I was leaving the nest. The coloring book (and I) are now susceptible to real world pressure everyday. Yet as I am grateful to good parents for giving me the safe start I needed in life, I’m grateful to them for the safe start I needed in business.
"Aceptalo querida, sos rara"...
La frase que me dije a mi misma hace un tiempo y que ha causado una liberacion en mi.
Y por eso amo el arte, porque puedo expresarme y simplemente ser.
Trato de mantener mi vida lo mas transparente posible y claro, cuesta. Cuesta ser honesta con los demas y sobretodo con una misma. Cuesta aceptarse con los defectos y partes negativas sin culpar a los demas.
Desde joven me senti super extraña y trataba de ser alguien que no era para encajar. Siendo siempre la "oveja negra" de mi familia, la rebelde o la que hacia todo lo contrario a lo usual, creci con muchos complejos y sentimientos de culpa o rechazo por no poder expresar lo que realmente era y soy.
Uno de mis retos en esta vida ha sido trabajar en mi valor personal y auto-estima. Aceptarme y amarme exactamente como soy mientras trabajo en convertirme en la mejor version de mi misma. Es un reto constante y una afirmacion que debo hacer diariamente. Y pues si, lo acepte.. soy fokin rara y me amo asi como soy, y espero que vos te aceptes y te ames exactamente como SOS ❤ Unica y especial 😚
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Today’s #21daysinmyartworld post is a current challenge. I think the post is supposed to be a challenge with materials: Like, “I can’t seem to control the saturation of my watercolor.” My challenges never feel material. For me the largest challenge has always been boundaries. ***
Ever since I was a kid everything I set my mind to would WORK... and work really well. I’ve never had a hard time when I decided to put my mind to something. It’s hard to ask for help when your “problem” is that you’re too good at making things work. I sat on the #austincoloringbook illustrations for 6 months back in 2015. I was terrified to publish them. Legit scared. I remember J asking me candidly one night: “what are you so scared of?” I told him I was afraid it would fail, but that wasn’t the truth. I always knew it would work. What I was most scared of was the part that would come after it worked. ***
The challenge for me is that I don’t have an off switch when it comes to boundaries. Pretty soon the thing I set my mind to is keeping me up at night, my email is blowing up, requests for paid work, not paid work, cool events, conferences, art shows, pop ups are flowing in... and I try to do it all. Before I know it I’m not seeing my friends, waking up all hours of the night worried about some work thing I forgot, or even more hysterical, worrying about stuff that’s not even mine. I’ve had a few past incarnations where I’ve burned out and started over. Each fresh start gave me a ton of perspective to do better, and the first years after both start overs were glorious. I would see friends, work normal hours, and take care of my health. ***
I want to say I’ve done things differently with the coloring book, but I’m definitely still learning the same lessons. This time however I’m hopeful I can grow through the business rather than feeling like I need to quit. I’ve actively worked to keep things small. Can you believe that? It’s like holding back a tidal wave. The coolest part of this challenge, is that it’s forced me to ask for help. I’ve learned then you don’t need to hold back the wave in the first place. You can let that b*** go and ride together 🌊 💖
I’ve been doing the #21daysinmyartworld this week. Today’s post is a fave book. I had to resist posting the #austincoloringbook (y’all see that book SO MUCH.) This is an oldie but goodie in the art world, but I find a lot of people don’t know about it. If you’ve ever found yourself saying: “I can’t draw a straight line with a ruler,” but wish you could draw better, you need this book. ***
I used Betty Edward’s techniques when I was an art school teacher with third grade. Incidentally that’s the grade kids begin desiring to draw realistically, and the level many of them stay at into their adult lives, because we teach them drawing realistically is a talent rather than skill. ***
I can’t speak for everyone, but most people struggle with drawing realistically because they rely on their left brain more than they should. The left brain makes things into symbols. Like the sun as this ☀️ or a flower as this 🌼. But when trying to draw a sun or flowers realistically, those symbols get in the way of what’s actually there. This book is full of techniques for training your brain to relax into right brain mode. Right brain mode sees lines shapes and relationships but not THINGS. Haha, on a side note, that’s why nude drawing is infinitely less weird then you might think. This is all moot in my world now of course. I turn everything into alllll the swirls, but I’m glad I started with it. Truly truly truly EVERYONE can learn to draw, just like everyone can learn to read.*