Blog Post 👉 I think sometimes the things that I want get dangled in front of me. I say dangle because no matter how much I reach, I can't have that version of it...without paying a price I don't want to pay.
Maybe it would cost my peace of mind, my self-respect, or even my liberty. Whatever the costs, consequences, or dangers, the opportunity to have it now, and one's desperate hunger for that treasure - love, sex, fame - can drown out their logic - money, accolades, material possessions - so much so that they hear their voice of reason "You can't do this. You're jeopardizing yourself!" but it's like a little fly buzzing in their peripheral. Swat him away. He's still alive - still buzzing. But he's just far enough from them that they can ignore him - and then forget. Time passes. They realize there was a buzzing but the source is nowhere to be found now. They are free to grab that treasure without challenge or discention. They reach that which was dangled. Finally! After all this time! After all of that struggle! It's finally in their hands. Their clammy, sweaty, shaky hands. "Will I have to pay for this?" "Will they catch me?" "How long until it destroys me?" Then there's the other scenario. When you're on the brink of grabbing that thing - which is a shell of what you actually want (and you know it) - and you still hear the buzzing, and you want to listen to the buzzing, and you try to listen to the buzzing, BUT you don't know how to stop reaching anymore. That's where I am right now. It's not what I wanted, but I'm so hungry for the treasure - the one I've craved for over a decade - craved to the point of tears. But I must not take this version. It is not what I actually wanted! Just a glimpse of it... . What do I do?? I can't stop my hands! Why can't I have it?? No! How do I stop my hands?! There must be a way! Oh, I cant help it! It's useless! It's not that bad! They just don't want me to have it! There's nothing I can -! Self Discipline. Patience.
June 25th, 2017
up in the stars🙆🏻☄ living for this lip colour👼🏼DETAILS:
priming with @toofacedcosmetics hangover setting spray🤘🏼foundation is @lorealmakeup infallible pro glow in 201 mixed with @esteelauder double wear, then @tartecosmetics shape tape in 'fair' and @narsissist soft matte complete concealer in 'vanilla'🍦 setting with @rcmamakeup no colour powder! contouring with @katvondbeauty shade & light ✨ using @toofacedcosmetics love flush blush in 'love hangover' 🌷 highlight is @anastasiabeverlyhills aurora glow kit using 'Orion' 🌌
@anastasiabeverlyhills dipbrow pomade in 'ebony'
@tartecosmetics shape tape in 'fair' to prime, @anastasiabeverlyhills modern Renaissance using 'love letter' 💌 @morphebrushes single shadow in 'B.A.M.' , @dodolashes in d309 🎀
@tartecosmetics lip paint in 'fairytale' 💫
Opening tomorrow! ⠀
Tuesday is a good day to support young emerging artists. ⠀
#changelings Opening 27th 6pm at @dutchie_london, with @vics.adam @elliecbarrett @frillybrosby @sessasessasessa, Stuart Middleton, and myself. ( #📷 @christhomp1991 via @latermedia )
•Can you spot the kitten?🐱
•This is where I've been the last few days. Every ounce of my energy pouring through my fingertips into brushstrokes on paper. (A lot of them ending up in the garbage but still, It's the process that matters.) I've been painting until I can't keep my eyes open, I've been listening to nothing but music, my skin has been smudged with paint, my thoughts blurred into nothing. It's been amazing. With so much to do I have rarely been painting, and now that I've tapped into that part of me I can't get enough. 🎨 •I've also not been at home, but tomorrow I'll be back and ready to take some new photos for you🔮 then I'll be posting consistently again!
Keeping my cool after a long bright and shiny day!
Showing off my #whitetattoo
Go for unique and never take enough with something that's already out there.
There's already too much of a lot of things...
I will stand with you <3
Great color choices and gorgeous work Emily! Thanks for sharing 😊
#Repost @mlestudio ・・・
I attended the Golden Lecture at @universityart yesterday. Experimenting with my goodies from @goldenpaints I'm happy to be playing today. Thank you for the class, paint, and inspiration. 🤗 63/100
HEY!🚨🚨 THIS IS A WARNING🚨 TODAY AND TOMORROW ARE THE LAST DAYS TO SUBMIT YOUR ART FOR THE COMPETITION!! LETS SEE THAT AWESOME 👽🚀 SPACE🌑🤖 ART!!🖌 Wood Sticker art by @elsarhae (You can find this Wood Sticker @ elsarhae.com) !