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This is my entry for the #everybodystartssmall thing.
First, I didn't wanna do it because it felt kinda demotivating.
Then I started thinking. It's true that everyone starts small - but "small" is a matter of definition. So is progress. Seeing improvement can be motivating - but what if there ain't any or you can't see it? What if we don't get "better" at something, even if we keep doing it for some time?
Above you see my Ashlynn Ella from 2015 and my Lilia from 2017. It's obvious that Ashlynn is much more fancy and detailed. I needed more skills, knowledge, materials and money to do this cosplay. The Arkham Asylum dress was a lot easier and cheaper. However, this is just one example but it made some things clear for me:
1. Progress is not linear.
2. Progress is not a duty. I don't owe it to anyone - myself included.
3. Progress can be invisible: maybe I did a cosplay and felt incredibly uncomfortable wearing it. Some time later, I may have a different view on myself and feel more comfortable. This too is progress - only no one else can SEE it.
4. Progress depends on various aspects like time, money, motivation, talent, education, (mental) health etc. We are all in different places.
So why the long caption? I often felt a huge pressure to make progress and I want to tell you (and myself^^) that it's totally okay to move at your own pace and walk your own way.
Do what feels right and comfortable for you💜💜💜