👩🏻⚕️Let’s talk about a #reallife moment right now. My husband and I snuck into a restaurant bathroom together and it’s not for the reason we probably would have 5 years ago 💁🏻
When it comes to #IVF there are often some awkward moments, but we sure didn’t mind the weird stares as we walked out of the men’s restroom together! 😜 If this is what it takes for us to become parents, we’re on our way! #sorrynotsorry
•Like the rest of y’all, I LOVE to eat and I really, truly enjoy always trying new foods! However, my husband and I have found this amazing restaurant here in El Paso, TX and I seriously can’t get enough!!! 😍•
My love for raw fish is a little out of hand and I surely eat more than I’m supposed to but I just can’t help myself... I literally dream about it!
Today for lunch we went to Stonewood Modern Grill and I ordered soup, a (giant!) potato with manchego cheese, TWO orders of Tuna Tartare (seriously, obsessed...), Habanero shrimp, and the fanciest creme brûlée I’ve ever seen & ohhh soo yummy! 🙌🏼😩 My cute hubby ordered a sandwich, lol (he’s not a foodie like me 😂). Now it’s time to relax with our Lana and be depressed over the fact that Netflix is getting rid of Family Guy in just a few days! 😢 Honestly feel a little betrayed.... Family Guy keeps me going. Guess I’ll be activating my Hulu account and putting that to some good use now! 🙄
Have a good night everyone 💕
🌿I created a separate account that is going to chronicle our journey to becoming parents! 🌿
🌸As some of you know (and lots of you DON’T know), making a baby is hard work!! Over there is where I will be talking about our struggles while TTC and •hopefully• someday we will be able to share the amazing news that all of our efforts finally paid off!! 🌸
Follow @growingourgang if you’re at all curious about what making a baby is all about 😉🌿
Never in my life did I anticipate that making a baby would be so dang hard!
If someone would have told me, “Mikayla, you’re most likely not going to get pregnant the first time you try!”, I would’ve called them crazy. I know my body! And if someone had said, “Mikayla, you’re not going to get pregnant after a YEAR of trying.” well, I probably wouldn’t have even dignified that with a response. That surely couldn’t happen to me... until it did.
My mother had no problem popping out children left and right, and same goes for my two older sisters! They have beautiful children and seemingly had no problems trying to conceive them.
So whyyyy is it different for me?! The simple answer is: I have no flippin’ clue. We’ve been trying for a full year now and it’s only heartache, month after month. The only upside to trying this long and not succeeding is that now I’ll be able to see a doctor for help! I have an appointment on October 26th so keep your fingers crossed with me that we finally get some answers! (More) Baby Dust, y’all!! -Mikayla 💕
•••This husband & wife are beyond ready to become mom & dad!!•••
🌿I’m Mikayla and my husband’s name is Jake. We’ve been married since January 27, 2017 and have been actively TTC for a year now with no luck.🌿
🍃I’m using this page as a way to interact with all the moms out there, no matter what stage in your journey you’re at!! I’ll be posting about our struggles TTC and the rest of our (mis)adventures moving forward! 🍃
Baby dust to everyone!!! ✨
XOXO, Mikayla 💕
After 2 miscarriages (both naturally conceived, lost 1st baby at 8.5 weeks and had to carry lifeless baby around for 2 weeks and then have a d&c, 2nd "miscarriage" was PPROM...loss at 18 weeks, had to give birth to a baby that wasn't alive, and 1 failed IVF attempt this past summer: 1st cycle: had 14 eggs retrieved, 8 fertilized, 3 went past blastocyst stage and 0 were viable), we are feeling positive and being optimistic based on our new Dr & his review of all of our tests we recently have done. 1 step at a time.... 🌹.... #ivfsupport#ivfjourney2017#ivfjourney#positivevibes#happiness#optimistic#lifeafterloss#ppromawareness#miscarriageawareness#babydust
The palms bear witness,
To several quests on laboured breaths and feverish nights.
The things i do for my child even in the still of the night,
With this same palm have i led you from wrong to right.
In the palm of my hands did i carry you,
My bent back, testifies to your several burps,
Flesh wrinkled from the pain I'd bore to bring you forth,
My child the one in whom I found love.
Let not my tears and strength come to naught,
Let not the tales of the world be to us a stumbling block,
Find strength in the palm of my hands and it'll lead you to paths foretold.
I have put things to right,
For the ones i did wrongly , know that I did try,
When the time comes, the roles will change,
And with your Palm, you will lay me to rest.
PICTURE CREDIT : MY NIKON 😀
MODEL : MY GRANDMA AND HER GRANDCHILD
WORDS BY : ME (ODUNZE ESTHER NKIRUKA)
#theinterpreter#BecomeMore#TheJourneyWithin#poetry#thelineswillfallinpleasantplaces#Grace#GraduallyGetThere#poem#poet#Amother 'slove #love#liquidlove#letlovelead#BabyDust#Thepalm
Nb : ATELE OWO means The palm of our hands 😀
PEAK OVULATION DAY!! Do any of you suffer with ovulation pains? Woke up at 4 this morning with horrible shooting pains down the left bottom side of my tummy (gyno told me big egg on left side at scan on monday) so guessing related to ovulation?? First time I have ever felt this and still feels really tender now 🤔🤔 this is all so new, feel like such a rookie! 2 more nights of BD then the dreaded 2ww. Hope things are going great for all of you, love and baby dust as always 💛 #ttcwithpcos#ttccommunity#pcos#infertilitysucks#infertilityuk#clomid#clomid50mg#ovulation#babydust
Trusting is very difficult for me!
-👩🏻 35, 👨🏻43
-TTC 8 months
-Tracking ovulation and temp
-Every single person in my life is pregnant and some got pregnant on their first cycle, hopefully I'm NEXT 🤰
Enter our Storktober contest to win a #Giveaway of 2 Stork OTC kits, an Ovulation Predictor kit, and 2 surprise items! To enter the giveaway, follow our page, post a pic of anything pumpkin related 🎃 , and use both hashtags (#storkotc & #storktober ) in the image above in your post. We are running this contest from October 18th to #Halloween (10/31). We will pick one winner on November 1st. *this giveaway is not sponsored in any way by Instagram*
Hi Insta Family. So, our RE is just wonderful. He talked us through my baseline levels yesterday and everything looks good for someone my age (33 shhh 🤐) so that is promising.
Now, to the HSG test 😰Yes, my HSG was terrible and shows signs of total blockage. I wanted to redo the test or keep diagnosing and so does he. 🎉He gave us the option of
1-doing a sedated HSG
2- Laparoscopy surgery to see what's going on
3-going forward with an IUI despite the test results and "just see" what happens
4- Or I can go in for a sedated Fallopian tube recanalization (FTR) .
After discussing we think the FTR is the right move. I'll be sedated and not only is it a test to see if or how much my tubes are blocked but is also a procedure to help clear blockages in the tubes. Since my blockage is close to the uterus he's hoping it will both show the first test was a false positive (more like false 💔) or if they are blocked it may help open them up. It is like the HSG but there is a wire in the catheter. .
Honestly, I've not done a lot of research yet and there is another name for the procedure I don't remember, but I feel better. Nothing invasive like surgery yet. Still no real answers but he was reassuring and that feels good. I.am.exhausted. No clue how y'all do this ❤️
👩🏻⚕️The pineapple is a symbol widely used in the #ttccommunity to celebrate the hope of new life. New life, for many in the infertility community, that does not come easy. It is a personal journey that many choose not to share with anyone, but their partners.
I have chosen to share my journey because staying silent felt like I was hiding a secret, as if I should feel ashamed about something so huge going on in my life. Sharing has helped me connect deeper with friends and coworkers as they have a real understanding of where my headspace may be, not to mention why I’m constantly leaving work or coming in late, sometimes red-faced and teary eyed 😔
That being said, I have truly struggled whether to share the exact details of our transfer date, given the weight of two very different outcomes that could occur. Although I have shared everything along the way, I have decided to keep this to ourselves until some time has passed and we can share (hopefully) very happy news. I know that with #IVF I’ll never have that exciting “I’m pregnant!” announcement or surprise, but at least there will be a little excitement in knowing that once the day does finally come, I get to share with each of you!
An action shot during an egg retrieval...
It’s no surprise I love IVF.
It combines understanding hormone pathways, procedures, and technology. And...the science is very, very cool. 🤓
The actual egg retrieval is done under IV sedation. A needle guide is attached to a vaginal ultrasound and each follicle in the ovary is entered and aspirated. The embryologist then evaluates the follicular fluid and identifies the oocytes (eggs). The eggs are then fertilized with sperm, and embryos grow out in culture until they are ready for either transfer or freezing (typically now day 5 or 6). Alternatively, eggs themselves can be frozen to preserve fertility options for later use (either due to medical illness or for family planning). As a side note, when a patient tells you that they follow you on Instagram - all the feels 🙌🏻
#womeninmedicine#girlboss [posted with permission]
Though my days of you-tubing have taken a backseat...still receiving messages like this today, nearly 4 years after filming, made making my struggle known, worth every ounce of uncomfortable vulnerability.
Knowing people I know in "real life" we're watching always made me want to quit, as I knew some of them were watching for the wrong reasons. Yet this difficult and beautiful journey turned complete strangers into friends. It also led some people that I knew to reach out to me and share their story, uniting us in a way that nothing else could.
Maybe you only want people to see your life through a filtered lense, and that's fine if that's you. But for me, speaking from experience, to allow yourself to really be seen is the starting point for someone else to be set free. "In the beginning, people think vulnerability will make you weak, but it does the opposite. It shows that you are strong enough to care." - Victoria Pratt
Here we go again!
🇪🇪 Postkaart minu kallitele munasarjadele ja emakale, tähistamaks uue IVF katse algust ja soovimaks sellele edu! Üks pildilolevatest pliiatsitest on võimeline meie tuleviku väga ilusaks joonistama 😍!
🔸Homsest alustan Gonal-F süstimist 💉! Eesmärk on doose tõsta, et saada rohkem rakke kui eelmisel korral (8). Loodetavasti mu munasarjad üle ei reageeri ja peole liiga palju külalisi ei kutsu. Muidu on oht, et siirdamine lükatakse edasi ja kõik meie tulevased embrüod külmutatakse.
🔸Loodan, et seda ei juhtu ja ma ei pea meie pisikese ime kojutoomist kauem ootama aga püüan võtta päev ja samm korraga, mitte liigselt ette mõelda ja ootusi tekitada. Iga samm on lihtsalt osa protsessist ja viib lähemale meie unistuseni 💞 🌈 💞!
🇬🇧 Postcard to my precious ovaries and uterus! To celebrate and wish luck to the start of our next IVF attempt! One of the pencils on that photo can draw a really beautiful future for us 😍!
🔸Starting Gonal-F injections from tomorrow 💉! Aim is to use slightly higher doses to retrieve more eggs than last time (8). Hopefully my ovaries won't overreact and won't invite too many guests to the party. Otherwise the transfer can be postponed and all of our future embryos will be frozen.
🔸I hope this scenario won't come to reality but I'm trying to take one day and one step at a time, not to think too much ahead and not to build myself expectations. Every step is just a part of the process and will take us closer to our dream 💞 🌈💞!