My evening snack is a bowl of Rice Krispies and semi-skimmed milk.
I feel so bad after dinner but I’m fighting all the urges and still having a snack!! I’m watching The Woman In Black to help me distract myself.
Hope you’ve all had a good day and have a good evening. Thank you all for your support over the last week it’s been amazing!! 💗💗
10 years between these photos...that was my first #pregnancy and that baby turns 10 today. Often times people scoff at pregnancy pics as “befores”, and that’s not the point here. My before doesn’t involve being overweight, in fact it was me being underweight, filled with self-loathing and fighting a constant battle with body dysmorphia. But for 9 months...I didn’t fight that battle. It was the first time in my life that I truly loved myself and my body...because I was doing something incredible...I had to take care of myself, mind, body and spirit because of that baby. It wasn’t about me. 🔹
After the birth of my 2nd son, in 2010, I struggled badly with the #BDD until very recently. I finally sought help and identified what the triggers are, what the root cause is, and how to cope. It’s like any other mental health issue, not “curable”, but I can work every day to be stronger than the negative self-hate that ruled my life for so long. 🔹
So today, here I am, stronger, more confident and truly happy with who I am AND the body I am in. I celebrate that today because my son’s birth was a turning point for me. He made me see that I could love...I could and should love myself. It is a daily struggle...but each day it gets easier to shake off those blahs...but I am not less than because I struggle...WE ALL STRUGGLE with different levels of this...it make us stronger because we keep fighting...so, yes, today is my son’s birthday...but I also celebrate all warrior women... #transformation#womensupportingwomen#vcntribe#vcnstrong#fitmom#momwithmuscles#fitat40#momsofIG#fitnessentreprenuer#vcnfitness
My lunch is the usual.
I feel so so guilty today. I did a massive workout after my snack and now I feel so guilty after lunch and I feel so awful.
I just have to ignore any urges I’m getting though as guilt is going to happen in recovery, we are giving up everything we’ve grown to ‘love’ but there is no way to recover from an ED without giving up ALL ED behaviours, no matter how scary it is! -
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I got a call from the CAMHs crisis team and they’re coming on a home visit to see me at 2. I have no idea what for or what’s going to happen so I’m pretty scared, I don’t know why.
Hope you’re having a good day 💗
I couldn’t be happier to be hosting my first IG challenge!!! 🙈🤗💕🌈📲 We have some incredible sponsors so don’t forget to join in for a chance to WIN!!! Today’s prompt (note: the challenge starts tomorrow Jan 22, your hosts are posting 1 day ahead to give everyone time to think about their post!) for the #iamwhereiam2018 challenge is to talk about one KIND thing you can do for yourself today and possibly every day. Uff. Admittedly, as I sit and write this I am struggling to think of something kind I can do for myself. I am, more often than not, impossibly hard on myself as I know so many of us (especially those of us in recovery) are. However, I have not given up hope! Self acceptance is a journey. Join me?
One little practice I’ve been working on lately is just naming emotions as they come up. Ever since I can remember I’ve been highly sensitive. I’ve always been an empath with a deep well of emotions. However, through recovery I’ve been able to identify and understand them more effectively. Naming each emotion as it comes up helps. That being said, one kind thing I will do for myself today and any day I can remember is to whisper to myself what I am feeling or thinking. For example, if I am judging myself for being negative about...whatever... I will gently say to myself “judging, judging”. I’ve been concentrating on this for a couple of weeks and it has helped a lot!
Posture: supta badda konasana
Good morning!! My breakfast is the usual, butttt I am challenging myself hugely today and not having cereal for most (if not all) my snacks! Rice Krispies have become a huge safe food for me so I’ve got to challenge myself!
I’ve just come back from getting my ultrasound and she said everything’s okay and the possible reason my blood test readings are so high is because my liver is storing fat in its cells instead of spreading it around my body. My mum says this shows how desperate my body is for fat but I don’t believe her.
I’m going to watch the women in black later and try and get some work done!
Hope you all have a good Sunday, in the snow!
Ok I finally braved kale... meh. But fucking tasty with roast chicken, fried hot sopresa crumbles, a mix of Paul Newman’s caesar and hot sauce topped with some freshly grated parmigiana #keto#meat#eatingdisorder#osfed#bdd#highrestriction
Full as a goog now and im getting my keto headache that I had for a week or so last time, so I’d say I’m in #ketosis
Last post for the night, but certainly not the least. I want to send a HUGEEEEEE THANKKK YOUUUU to my dawg Dixon for the Massive Set Owt for Aiden and I. John travels and helps to put Dinosaur Time Trek together, one of the many productions he is a part of.
When you think you are behind schedule, but you end up being right on time 🙌🏾. We saw him as we were coming in, and it wasn’t by chance. Walked us past the lines, took care of us at the door, and showed great hospitality! Can’t say thank you enough! That’s why I love this frat, nothing else like it! Truly Essential! Much love to my fellow teamers from BDD!
Hello there. Please read.
It seems I haven't posted in a while. Trying to make a living out of a passion is truly hard, but you should never give up. Even saying those words feel a little hypocritical given the fact that I feel like giving up A LOT. I don't especially like what I do, it is extremely rare for me to be proud of myself, and there are so many talented people out there, why would anyone care for the things I have to offer? But the answer is so god damn simple it's almost ridiculous how much thought and effort we put into denying it. Because I'm special. Because you're special. I don't care if it's cheesy. I don't care if you don't believe it. I don't care if you make fun of me for saying such embarrassing things. You're special. You're worth it. I know it's hard. I can't possibly imagine what you're going through, or how brave you're being just trying to breathe without choking on your own worries.. Yeah. You're not alone either. Message me if you need to talk, you're not disposable and you're not a bother.
I'm sorry for the rant, I just felt the need to let you know. - - - - - -
Now as for the drawing, this is Viper while morphing. Simplified, they're a shapeshifter. Technically they're advanced human beings able to accelerate and stop any ongoing process in their body. They have complete control over themselves. Therefore they can stop the shed of dead skin and amplify it at any given time so that when they shed it completely they can regenerate and take any appearance they desire. They suffer from BDD ( body dysmorphic disorder ) which is what caused them to acknowledge their ability.
Current body// 28 LEBANON/NATIVE AMERICAN WOMAN; ART PROFESSOR.
Aimee is a uni student who recently shared her inspirational story with the BBC where she talked in an unfiltered fashion about her experiences of Body Dysmorphic Disorder (BDD), which is an anxiety disorder related to body image. We are so proud to have her as an ambassador, she empowers young people to be confident in who they are and how they look. Now in recovery Aimee set up The Happiness Bootcamp at her university and, quite frankly, we think she's ace. 💖 "From February-October 2015 I wasn’t living, surviving yes but not living. It felt like everything was going wrong, something great would happen then I’d be kicked to the floor again. My anxiety was so bad I was terrified to go outside and work or even see friends. I’d stay indoors long enough that friends wouldn’t see me. Panic attacks would strike at nights, I was a mess.
I believe now the fashion industry NEEDS to change. It needs to stop promoting unhealthy stereotypes to young people, it needs to step up and realise the damage it is doing. This is why I adore UNFILTERED SOCIETY; this brand is changing the way fashion is influencing people. By raising money for mental health charities and showing such a strong message through their clothing, it shows that together we are stronger and can make a difference." Join the movement - www.unfilteredsociety.com #empowering#university#student#bdd#bodypositive#mentalwellbeing#mentalhealth#anxiety#fashion#fashionstyle#casualstyle#gymwear#charity#beconfident#beyourself#talk#unfiltered
My evening snack is a bowl of Rice Krispies.
Feeling really really low at the moment so I’m going to watch Spectre with my Mum. I’m having a really bad evening so I’m going to have a ‘chilled’ evening, as for some reason I am also pretty bloated after my snack. I also might do some of the self care things as I feel like I really need it today.
Tomorrow my breakfast is going to be a little later as I’m having an ultrasound tomorrow morning and I’m not allowed to eat before hand so I’m going to have breakfast when I come home.
I hope you have a good evening and keep fighting 💪💗