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There is a saying about how there is no love like a mother’s love for her child. When I was pregnant with Aquila people repeatedly told me I would experience this and sure enough they were right. It is a love like no other, for no other. A wonderful, beautiful, selfless love.
But no one ever told me what this great love feels like, and how it can (sometimes) feel awfully dreadful.
Like when she falls onto the cement footpath and scrapes her knees and hands. Her wails of pain make you desperately wish it was your skin and your blood scraped across the ground. And her wails of pain and hot tears into your neck are agony because there’s nothing you can do but hold, and rock, and hold her tighter still. Agony.
Like when she’s at the playground and some other kid doesn’t want to include her in the group’s little game and her happy little face falls into confusion and she’s just experienced her first sour taste of rejection. I feel sick. I want to scoop her up and kiss her and tell her I’d never reject her, ever ever ever.
But instead I watch, in agony, as she learns important lessons about the world and the people in it.
Sometimes it’s things that have never happened (and probably never will happen). My mind is a crazy place and can imagine the most terrible things that only mothers can really dream up. Accidents. Sexual abuse. Getting lost in the wilderness. Abduction. Death. Sometimes, it’s dream that I bolt awake from in the middle of the night. And they are so real that lying in bed in the dark next to my blissfully sleeping husband is torment because what if it was real? What if she isn’t in her bed? And so I’ll tiptoe into her room to check she’s still breathing. To convince myself, and as if to say,
“See, it was only just a dream you nutcase.” And those little puffs of sleepy breath escaping her perfect little nostrils calm my racing heart just enough.
PODZIĘKOWANIE ZA ZBIÓRKĘ KARMY I AKCESORIÓW DLA ZWIERZĄT❗😊 PODZIĘKOWANIE dla WAS Kochani 😍
W imieniu własnym oraz całej psiej ekipy serdecznie Wam dziękuję, za aktywny udział w zbiórce żywności oraz innych darów dla bezdomnych i chorych zwierzaków 🐕🐶🐈🐱 Jestem niezmiernie wdzięczna każdemu z osobna za wsparcie zwierzaków miseczką jedzenia, ciepłym kocykiem oraz zabawkami ❤️ Dzięki Wam przekonałam się, że istnieją jeszcze życzliwi ludzie o wielkich sercach, którym los braci mniejszych nie jest obojętny.
DZIĘKUJĘ! ❣️ „Uśmiech psa znajduje się w jego ogonie.” – W. Hugo
Wasza szczodrość nie może być nagrodzona słowami - ale szczęśliwe psiaki i koty długo nie zapomną Waszych dobrych i wielkich serc.
W ich imieniu serdecznie dziękuję 😍😘 #goodmorning#goodnews#goodpeople#love#bighearts#thankyou#gifts#presents#animal#dog#cat#schronisko#winter#cold#january#styczen#pomoc#help
“I just really miss [him].”
— one middle school student about his classmate
Spent some time this afternoon with @dj.mdub and @msaddiesmith, spreading #loverocks at a middle school in our community.
My students made over a hundred rocks today to share messages of love and empathy, remembering a student we lost this week.
While they may have never met him or ever get to see the impact that their gesture will make tomorrow morning on his friends and teachers, this is why I am #proudtobeHSD#bighearts#spreadthelove#notonemore
Who takes pictures of their guy putting in contacts? ME!!!!!! I challenge you to try it. Take a picture of something in your life that’s totally normal and boring, because these are the moments you really live for. These are the magic. 💫💛💫
Some of our Teacher Trainees practicing in a studio with a view . Learning how to teach yoga is a great way to overcome your fears and realise you CAN actually do more than you think you are capable of. You learn so much about yourself, your mind and body. Knowing that we all have the same fears and go through similar feelings is a great way to STRENGTHEN the pathways in the brain that recognise the gifts that are already in you!
Keep confronting self doubt with a smile and just do it anyway . This is one of the key actions to practice the meaning behind “Namaste “ 🙏 Tammy 🕉500 hour Level 2 & Mentoring Program Open now for Applications 🕉Assisting Adjusting Energetic Alignment 🕉Advancing Sequencing 🕉Mindfulness Mudras & Metaphor 🕉Developing workshops, programs and Retreats + more #yogateachertraining#yoganrg#yogateacher#personaldevelopment#meditation#mindfulness#mindful#bighearts#makeadifference#youcandoit#level2yogateachertraining#500hrytt
I said I would do something but right now I REALLY DON’T WANT TO... the thing is, no one would know except me if I skip it and go to bed. That right there is entrepreneurship. We have to do what we said we would LONG after the mood we said it in has passed. 💫 I’ve failed this test too many times. Tonight I will pass. Tonight I will WIN! 💪🏾
Kindness goes further than you think. 💕 I Challenge you to step out of the routine and explore how one random act of kindness changes everything. 🙏🏻 what’s that? Your kind all the time? Sweet!?!!!! Now kick it up a notch, it will still change everything. #randomactsofkindness
I don’t understand the bodybuilding world as much as I thought I did. The ones who build strength in their physical bodies have more potential to build strength in their mental and emotional bodies than most. Yet they trap themselves in a prison of their own ego, insecurities and fears. They get stuck in those bottom 3 chakras of survival, power, money, sex and food... but there’s so much more to life. Yea I like lifting and fitness but it’s not LIFE, feel me. Why limit yourself or your mind? You can have physical strength AND emotional/mental strength. I look at some of these posts so strange when I see fitness and bodybuilding being the only thing you dedicate your life and energy to. Don’t you want to experience more? Don’t you want to build strength in places other than your body? Yea it’s cool to have muscles but what happens when your mind is weak? When your emotions are easily stirred by others? When anyone can push your buttons and bring out your insecurities. The bodybuilding community has so much potential, just needs to escape the confinement’s of the mental prison they put themselves in. Woke bodybuilders is on the uprise, keep building that inner strength just as much as the outer strength and watch the real transformation. One of the biggest reasons why I am such a good healer of the physical body is because I am so in tune with my own. Another reason why I’m so good at picking up and clearing other peoples emotions is because I honor and love my own. I’m just saying, big muscles ain’t shit without a big heart. It’s admirable to see others who crave more strength then just in the physical 🤷🏻♀️ #fitness#fitfam#healer#motivation#morningthoughts#spirituality#reiki#bigmuscles#bighearts#reikimaster#innertransformation#npc#npcfigure#ifbb#ifbbpro#fitandhappy#allaboutbalance#fitnessmotivation#realstrength#indigo#innerstrength#fitchick#tatted#starseed#positivemindpositivelife#oldsoul#woke
So the neighbor dog was starting to sleep on our porch. With the cold temps made sure she had heat and a blanket. Fast forward a few weeks she is now sleeping in our tiny house at night! Notice she'd rather sleep on the couch we made vs her doggy bed😂😂 What can we say, we love the fur babies!
Love these 2 humans because they both have big hearts ♥️ and big hearts are what matters most in life! 📷 taken at my dear friend Anita’s Hens lunch down @osteriacasuarina ... if you haven’t been there you should check ‘em out 💁🏼♀️
Heath and I found this little one on the way to the bus stop. Sadly, he had been run over by something. I walked back home to get B who moved it out of the road because I am a big baby. I appreciate having a spouse who shares the same values as I do. Salamanders remind us to go with the flow and refrain from fighting change. #respecteachother#transformation#bighearts
Tomorrow is almost here!!! Thank you so much to the lovely and amazing Desiree Haller, for coming on and recording with me! I'm excited for people to hear about your gigantic heart, and the wonderful charitable organization you have been working with! This week's podcast will focus on an amazing NON PROFIT charitable organization that Desiree is very passionate about, and extremely active in their cause. You'll also find out ways you can help, or ways you can find an amazing charity that speaks to what inspires you. Want to make sure the majority, if not all of your donations to any organization actually go to the people, places and things in need? LISTEN IN tomorrow and find out how you can!! Please visit my FB page and share this post with your friends and family...spread the word, bring stories to life and make miracles happen! If you know an amazing woman you would like to nominate for #WarriorWomanWednesday please message me on any of my social media platforms and I would love to hear their story and get them on! #ChooseYourCharity#WarriorWomanWednesday#FineLinesWithLauren#HelpWanted#BigHearts#SupportLocally#FindWhatInspiresYou