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do not fall in love with me, I will idealize you and make you into someone you’re not just by the small good things that you may do. Do not fall in love with me because I’ll put you so high up on a pedestal that you’ll become scared of heights and beg for me to take you down. Do not fall in love with me because I use my mental illnesses as a blanket at night to keep me warm when your arms can’t hold me. Do not fall in love with me because I “overreact” on the smallest of things and instantly want to die. Do not fall in love with me because I will kiss you in places that will haunt your dreams when you hurt me. Do not fall in love with me because I will love you too much and you will begin to feel suffocated. Do not fall in love with me because my baggage is so heavy that it’s hard for me to drag across the busy street late at night when I’m walking to your house. Do not fall in love with me because I will count your heartbeats when my head lays softly on your chest and I will somehow convince myself that it only beats for me. Do not fall in love with me and please... do not make me fall in love with you for I will stay up for 3 days crying my eyes out because your lips will be pressed up against hers and you left me.
- k.l via darlingkenzi on ig
We are not locked by our past decisions, you owe no one a life commitment who you committed to with an awareness that lacked the ability to see the truth.
As time passes we gain knowledge, experience and insights, we build strength, we learn, and sometimes we unlearn lifelong stories and patterns. ⠀⠀
The death of a family member, health scares and something as simple as a book wakes us up to our destructive choices, behaviours, and even to the disruptive people around us.
It's interesting once this light comes on... Because you can't turn it off. You can't unlearn spiritual growth and a lighting bolt to your soul. In these moments we are literally being invited to rise up and become who we were always meant to be... Or continue down a path which is neither healthy, nor happy.
Answer this call. Take the road that appears to be tougher... Because I promise that the work only appears hard, but that work - is a gift, and all those fears you have are really fears of staying the same.
You are meant to dream big, love big and live big, you are meant to live as someone with virtue and in the integrity of your heart. Be someone of great character and only invite those with great character to surround you. ⠀⠀ ⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀
Her friend asks her, “How do you know when you’re over someone?”
“I think,” she begins, “it’s when you stop remembering the way he used to do all the things that would make you smile when you were sad, or how you’d stay up late with him, talking and laughing about everything. It’s when it no longer hits you hard when you accidentally come across his favorite TV shows, when it doesn’t hurt to hear his favorite songs on the radio.”
“It’s when you feel nothing at the thought of him, when it doesn’t suffocate you to hear his name from a friend’s mouth. It’s when you stop fantasizing about him, when you stop wishing for him to come back whenever it’s 11:11.”
“Instead,” she breathes, “you start to wish for your own happiness, for your own smile and none of them will have anything do with him anymore.”
“So, have you gotten over him?”
She stalls for a second, a bit taken aback by the sudden question.
“Well,” she replies, “no, not really but I’m getting there,”
“I’m almost there, I think.”
- almost ”