UPDATE: I had my 2nd Zoladex injection 5 days ago, since having it I've been in a lot of pain, to the point where I was constantly in my bed and using my tens machine 4-5 times a day.
I think the reason for the pain is when the implant starts working for some reason it causes pain for about a week. Right this moment my pain out of 10 is about a 4. This happened last month with the injection also.
I was also given hormone replacement patches for the menopause side effects which also made me feel worse and I don't take anymore.
I just wanted to update you all.
Still holding on to some shape in my off season!
I decided not to go to the finals as I have bigger plans and my body needed a Rest!
The hardest part of competing for me is the mindset afterwards! And let's face it us girls are mental!
You feel massive, your structured 24/7 OCD'ness is gone and you feel like a hippo! Especially after Ibiza!
As I said this is mental battle you feel like you are losing everything you worked so hard for.
But in order to grow and progress we need to do this! My strength is on the up and hopefully I smash this off season!
Selfie season is over soon 😂 🤳🏼
"You endure what is unbearable, and you bear it. That is all." I never see this word used in terms of invisible illness but it is something that is tested every time I have a flare up and have to go on regardless. Today I feel like my pain levels are unbearable, the pain is so severe I'm constantly on the edge of tears. It's so frustrating to feel limited by my health and holding it together is a real test of strength and endurance.
People with invisible illnesses do not want your pity or attention. We want you to see and understand the struggles we face and overcome just to have a "normal" day.
Tonight I couldn't start this beast as I couldn't find neutral! Lol brain fog. This has happened before. Thankfully this time I asked the neighbour for help and he gave me some pointers. Must think I'm a noob by now, but really my brain just doesn't work so well every now and then haha! But seriously so thankful that this neighbour lets me use his ATV, it's a game changer when the horses are down the back of our lease block! Walking all that way with feed buckets and hay nets would be killer!!
You change the world. All of you. All of us. Every birth brings someone new, different and special onto our planet. Every death changes the dynamic of things in some way or another. Everything you say that is kind, puts kindness into our world. Every bit of learning and exploration you do changes our society in some way. Your existence has a purpose and a reason, even if you don't know what it is. You are part of this huge population, part of people's lives, a member of a family or groups that value you. You influence other people everyday and are meant to be here, no matter how lost you may feel right now. Without you, many good things, happy memories, friendships or achievements would never have happened. Without you, the things that you've written on walls or tables over the years, wouldn't be there. Without you, the people you have helped and befriended and supported may not have made it this far. Without you, the strangers you've helped in public, the animals you've petted, the flowers you have planted, the photographs you have taken, the messages you have expressed and every other incredible thing you have put into this world, would be missing. Everyone has a purpose and everyone must strive to bring their individuality and love into the lives of others. You must love yourself, assure yourself of your place here, because whether you see it or not, you change the world and we need you to be here. 🌼⚡️✨
I've been sooo tired recently and not really on top of my eating or medicating. I've got mild cold symptoms, I'm fine but it just makes me more tired and makes my blood sugars harder to control. I'm trying sooo hard to stay motivated and passionate in terms of college, I'm on my second week and doing as much extra work and following advice, as best I can. My body is not on my side (what's new🌝) but I'm still trying my best. I hope you're all keeping yourselves safe and doing whatever you need to do to help with that! 💓
I had to share this with you this morning as I really feel like Sarah aka @strongerthanpots popped into my brain foggy head & explained something that I've never in 17 years been able to explain: 'this feeling of being detached from your body...like an outside observer.' My M.E/Fibro/POTS brain fog affects me in many ways; memory problems, speech issues, spelling & maths, basic thinking abilities, reading, retaining information, sometimes even just reading the time can be impossible but as well as all of that (and more) is a very strange concept of time where hours feel like weeks & as Sarah aptly described I live my life detached from my own mind and body, never truly feeling like I'm here & it's just awful. Thank you for explaining it so well @strongerthanpots 😘I know so many others will relate ❤️ #brainfog#spoonielife#spooniesymptoms#lifeofaspoonie#chronicillnesslife#awareness#understanding
"Its all about finding the calm in the chaos."~D.Karan 💜🌿🙏✨
Monashee and I took a small walk through the paddock this afternoon. My mind burdened with tasks, decisions, in search of answers. A part of me wants to hide amongst the shadows. A part of me is continually in the process of stretching and growing. A part of me has to truly learn to let go. My feet bare, grateful for the grounding that I feel while walking over mother earth. Grateful for Mon always trying his best to keep me present.
A part of me longs for a break from the lessons that are flying my way. A part of me always prays for strength, love and light. A part of me is always open, seeing, feeling, expanding. A part of me doesn't want to find peace with my chronic illness. A part of me will never give up. Life is for us to dive into and submerge ourselves with the goodness that is always present. Everyday we may not be blessed with a rainbow. Yet everyday, we deserve to feel the sun upon our face, the earth beneath our feet, the simple pleasures that make life whole.
Every day is a chance to start again. Sending love and light to all. Particularly those who are doing their best with what they have right now. Be open to the rawness, vulnerability and growth. 🌻🌿🌏💛
F O O D & W E L L B E I N G
This autumn weather makes me want to eat soup all the time. Yesterday I didn't manage to eat a warm meal and felt cold all day long. Trying to eat as much raw as I can but can't wait for my steamed potato and broccoli dinner tonight.
Sometimes I feel weak because of my illness. Mentally. Physically. Emotionally. I feel done and spent and like I'm a burden to those around me. But I want you to remember how strong you are! You live life through your pain everyday, you keep going! You are stronger than most and strong than you believe. You can do this! Keep going, you got this!
Sweet potato Curry Recipe I promised 😊
(I'm terrible with measurements, I just cook by feel am afraid 😬 ) * Sweet potatoes
* Cauliflower * Sweetcorn
* Coconut Cream
* Your favourite Curry powder * Cumin
* Onion & Garlic * Salt & Pepper
* Olive oil * Water
I boiled the Sweet potatoes with the skin, which peels off easily once cooked.
The cauliflower rice is simply made with the food processor by placing it in raw and chopped up into pieces.
Chop the onion and garlic and fry it in a large pot with olive oil, curry and cumin. (You can add chilli at this point if you want)
Once the onions have soften add the coconut cream and water. Stir and let it warm up.
I then added the precooked sweet potatoes and used a blender until the potatoes are completely smooth.
Add the sweet corn and blend again. You decide if you want the corn completely blended, I blended only a bit to diffuse the flavour but left some corn bits.
Add the cauliflower rice and stir. If the curry is too thick add a bit more water until you are happy.
To finish add salt and taste, adding any more spices if you want to.
I had to add more curry powder at this point, just stir really well to mix it in, as powder tend to clump up when added at the end. Let it simmer.
As I cook for the whole family I can't make it spicy. Instead I chopped some fresh chilli and added it to my plate. Fresh chilli tastes the best anyways 😉
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Somedays you feel let you got this, other days you can't get out of bed. Life is tough, chronic Illness is horrible, living life this way doesn't seem fair... but I know your tougher... and I know you can make it through. Keep your head held high. You're doing amazing! Keep going!
I've been struck down by a gross head cold! (Chronic autoimmune condition = over-exaggerated symptoms and a long recovery from a simple virus 🙄)
This means I'm way behind on blogging, emails and work deadlines so please don't mind me if I take a while to get back to you and generally fail at life right now. Today is just mylk chocolate, Leslie Knope + trying to breathe. 🤧
📷 by @timpatrick90 at FNQ's highest lookout, looking out towards Queensland's highest mountain.
So sieht das Rook Piercing aus wenn man den Stab nicht mehr reinbekommt 🙈 muss ich wohl zum piercer .. Im MRT gestern sind keine neuen Herde oder was aktives zu sehen. Das ich Schübe hatte die nicht sichtbar sind , ist nicht ungewöhnlich meinte sie. Der Sehnerv dagegen sieht nicht schön aus, der hat sich im Vergleich zu 2015 richtig ausgedünnt... da meinte die sieht man sicher das dort was abgelaufen ist.. am meisten hat sie sich, wie die meisten Radiologen auch für meine Gyrierungsstörung interessiert , weil die ja so ausgeprägt mit rausforderndem Effekt ist .. #mrt#piercing#rook#sehnerv#ms#multiplesklerose#gyrierungsstörung#msawarness#mswarrior#msfighter#chronicillness#girlswithpiercing