So I’ve gone to write this so many times. I was going to upload a generic post that I didn’t have to think about but I want to be authentic with you and my recovery in all aspects of my life.
The past two days my depression has not taken its normal form of numbness but instead sadness. Real sadness that isn’t cured by something making you laugh or someone cheering you up because nothing can make you laugh. Nothing seems important, I’m indifferent to my life and most people in it except Tom. I haven’t felt this way in about a year so at least that’s an achievement.
I’m also grateful that my depressive episode has manifested itself in this way rather than anxiety or numbness because although I feel alone, I don’t feel distant from Tom. I feel like he’s my constant, my rock and my love for him is boundless. Having varieties of ways mental illness can manifest itself allows you to be grateful for experiencing the one you can cope with better. This I can cope with because I’m still tethered to him, when I feel numb I feel like an island, the same with anxiety so I still feel blessed today.
Another thing is how important it is to vent these emotions. It’s healthy. My episode has been brought on by a change in hormones due to being back on my pill so I’m a lot more sensitive than normal too. I’ve been hurt the past few days by things I wouldn’t normally be hurt by. I let myself be vulnerable and that’s opened myself to old emotions from when my depression first began and that’s okay.
Recovery is a process. It’s not linear. It’s taken me a few stumbles to realise this but now I do. When I hit a depressive episode now, I first of all analyse my thoughts to find out if I’m in an episode. Once I recognise it for what it is I take a breath and ride the wave. I take my self care steps: meds, water, bed on time, up on time, keep a routine and remind myself as many times a day as I remember what I’m grateful for, the biggest one of those being the most supportive partner I could ever ask for.
Want to know the true cause of Crohn's and ulcerative colitis? Let me share with you the information I've gleaned from the @medicalmedium books and radio shows that has helped me to heal.
The true cause is:
Feeding off of heavy metals.
Aided by bacteria.
Let's get into the details. Ulcerative colitis is caused by a specific strain of the shingles virus and/or Human Herpesvirus 6 (HHV6) infecting the lining of the colon and feeding off of the heavy metal mercury.
Crohn's is caused by a combination of 2 viral pathogens (think shingles, HHV6, Epstein-Barr Virus) infecting the lining of the intestines and feeding off of a mixture (alloy) of aluminum and mercury.
Some of the bacteria that can partner up with the viruses and contribute to these disease processes are: streptococcus, E. coli, C. diff, and H. pylori.
These pathogens and metals are the true cause of all the pain, inflammation, cramping, spasms, constipation, diarrhea, ulcers, bleeding, strictures, fistulae, etc. that we can experience with Crohn's and ulcerative colitis. 😱😢
So, what can we do about it? How do we heal?
We need to get the viruses and bacteria under control and eliminate the heavy metals from our bodies. The catch is that viruses and bacteria not only feed off of toxins like heavy metals, they're also able to feed off of certain foods that we eat! 🍳
One of the most important steps we can take toward healing these diseases is to eliminate from our diet foods and supplements that feed pathogens.
These include: eggs, dairy, gluten, corn, soy, canola, processed beet sugar, pork, farmed fish, fish oils, iron supplements, glandular supplements, L-carnitine, and whey protein. .
Any food additive is potentially suspect, but be sure to avoid MSG, natural flavors, artificial flavors, artificial sweeteners, and citric acid.
Stay tuned! 👍 I've got a bunch of posts coming up on which foods kill pathogens, how to eliminate heavy metals, trendy gut health fads to avoid, top foods for flares, and even colon cancer.
💉💉💉 Morphine!! Like a conquering hero at a Tuesday party 🎉. I have made a career of disease attacks and close-calls at the hospital. Last night was no different. I’m sharing my story for others who can relate. Awoke at 3 am in distress with extreme bowel pain and dripping sweat. Followed by constipated bowel movements - a trickle of stool immediately followed by vomiting 🤢. I took my strong #crohnsdisease pain killer with no success. I began to weep as I started to accept how hard the day would be. By 6am the BMs stopped but I was still vomiting, sweating profusely 😰 and shaking uncontrollably. By 6:30 I was here at the hospital but my #multiplesclerosis was in high gear snowballing the scenario. No coordination and looking to my right made me dizzy and nauseous. I didn’t wait to be seen but collapsed on the triage floor. I was then wheeled to a bed and given my regular #gravol and #morphine intravenous cocktail. They know my meds well here 😳😁. A CT scan revealed no obstruction but bad inflammation in the ileal area (ileocecal valve removed years ago). A surgeon is involved but indicated no need for a procedure. I’m staying overnight under observation and may be released tomorrow. But the worst is over. I made it through. Again!! During the horror I focused on what happens every time - eventually being okay! 👌 I try to approach life like that. You have to get through the BAD to enjoy the GOOD. Otherwise you won’t know what “good” even is! Never quit folks, and happy Tuesday. 🙌
Why should you attend The Healthy Gut Experts Summit? Here's reason 1:
The average doctor is incredibly busy, and while he or she means well, it’s rare that they will recommend natural solutions for digestive problems. You deserve to know that not only are there people who have healed their digestive problems naturally...but you could possibly be one of them, too. Sometimes, meds are necessary, but they are certainly not necessary 100% of the time. You can finally learn your options!
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Here are some reasons to chow down on some garlic…
*so many studies to prove it’s cardioprotective efficacy
*it helps lower blood pressure
*antimicrobial, antifungal, & antiviral (hint hint cold & flu season)
*vampires won’t get you
*it contains manganese, vit C, calcium, and selenium
*you can easily grow it at home and thats cool & fun
Note: it is a natural blood thinner so be careful if that’s an issue for you/if you’re taking certain meds. Consume in culinary doses.
Booty pump 🍑👀 man thank god today was booty day which is basically a laying down workout with resistance bands. I had a work dinner that ran until 10pm but I still came home and did my 60 min workout! Now I must sleep and wake back up at 5am for tomorrow's workout since I have another work dinner tomorrow night. 🙈 #girlsgotgoals
The view from my seat on Saturday at #CCCongress . We are Tweeting, Facebooking, and taking notes on presentations. It’s exhausting to attend medical conferences and I don’t know how our HCP and industry friends do it. BUT—what we gain in knowledge and in networking is invaluable to us and to the #IBD patient community. There’s so much more to come! #jpouch#UC#Crohns
One of my coworkers mentioned today that I get up crazy early to workout. Yes, getting up at 4:45 to get my preworkout in is pretty early but if I find if I don’t workout in the morning, I generally won’t do it at the end of the day. I will come up with a crap ton of excuses. And it does help that the hubby wakes up that early to go to work. He’s as quiet as a bull in a freaking china shop, so I’m up anyway. 😂
Pages : The Process : Iately.. i’ve been driving around with my doors locked.. sunroof open but guards up.. removing myself from any situation at the first sign or inkling of a red flag.. a red flag for me is a disrespect committed against me.. a person can ‘not’ know they did a thing that made me feel a feeling I didn’t like.. & they can continue about their lives unbothered.
I‘m always the one left feeling all of the things so.. if I remove myself it’s because I have the sharpest tongue & an affinity for words & when mixed together, you get an asshole.. I’m an asshole when I’m hurt, & I make no apologies cause at this point.. well really, at ‘no’ point have I ever deserved hurt.. I’ve had too much of it.. y’all can keep the rest.
This is why I don’t make a good friend.. don’t choose me.. choose the better people. Choose the sane folks.
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Gaining a little weight, scars are slowly stretching, and feeling so good... but I seem to have misplaced my buttocks. It’s been missing for a while, and it was somehow replaced with a weird skin flap that rests on the back of my thighs like a limp beaver tail. 🤨 Not suitable for sitting on hard surfaces or filling out leggings, so if you see a cute round butt, please return it to its worried owner. 😂😂
Love a good Sunday Funday? How about one with a kickass workout while benefiting a good cause? If this sounds like your jam, sign up for my Cycle for Crohn's charity event raising money for the Crohn's and Colitis Foundation on Sunday 2/11 at 2:00pm in the Loop. Ride includes free shoes and water (plus some other perks) and will be followed by cocktails and samples of Vital Protein varieties.
Can't make the ride? You can still follow the link below (and in my bio) to donate. You can include any amount you would like on the "T-Shirt" line item, and also score a workout shirt. Anyone riding can also donate extra for a shirt on the day of the ride.
All proceeds go to the Crohn's and Colitis Foundation, which is dedicated to finding cures, or ways to live more comfortably, for people living with both diseases.
It’s National Pie Day! 🍒We thought we had a picture of the actual pie. Nikki remembered that every time she heated up a slice, the insides exploded everywhere. She kept thinking she’d get a better picture and never did. 🙈A picture of the box will have to work for today. 🙊 Nikki LOVES @katzglutenfree & really loves their pie! 😋😋
Congrats to Team Challenge @crohnscolitisfoundation teammate @bevhess31.... YOU'RE GOING TO KONA!!
Bev has raised $20,000 since joining our Team Challenge tri team here in SD in 2014 when she could barely swim. .
NOW she'll be at the #IMkona start line! Thank you @ironmanvoice & @ironmantri !
I love #sunbeams !
Today's the first day in a week I've been able to tolerate sunlight, so took a few photos of my bedroom window from the corner of the preserve while walking @gizmo_the_sd. When I'm hurting, I take pics showing my view from bed of the trees, birds, squirrels, and fur-kids, so this is a nice change. Today is a perfect #TexasWinter day, and I'm #grateful I was able to enjoy a little of it.
Recipe on blog!
#whole30 spicy mini hot dogs
All you need is ...
• mini hot dogs
• @franksredhot sauce original
• 1/2 lemon
Recipe on blog! Link in profile! Shared how I made it on my stories as well!
Like I’m going to let a foot of snow stop me. Me and my buddy “hopeful” navigated through the freshly packed snow like a champ! Hopeful is the name I gave my IV catheter. I’m trying to keep things normal as possible while undergoing IV nutritional feeding (TPN). Not eating food for six months to a year is wearing on me. I want a hamburger with extra cheese, avocado and onions. Just thinking about the burger makes my mouth water. But if I take a bite, I’ll be in extreme pain from Crohn’s disease, so I abstain. Meanwhile, today was a bit challenging. The cold temps harden up my IV line, sending very cold fluid through my veins. However, I didn’t let the situation prevent me from completing my news story. A big thank you to my coworker, Delane for working quickly. It’s amazing what you can endure, when you’re forced to overcome a situation. I keep repeating the same Bible verse in my head. “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me!” #Crohns#tpn#SonyaStrong
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Can’t believe it’s been a year since I left Cramlington hospital! It was so sudden it was such a scary time but after 3 more hospital stays and surgery I’m so much stronger than I was 💪🏻 here’s to living 🥂 #crohns#hospital#surgery#strongnotsick
Overnight oats and the most delish fresh fruits from a roadside fruit stall 🍓🍑 Soaked the oats in @vitasoy_aus_nz high protein soy milk. Unsweetened, made with whole soy beans and with 10g of protein per serve this is a great option for any plant based peeps who are struggling to get enough protein in at breakfast!
It’s crazy knowing that there’s just 1 week between these photos.. Today I decided to get up and make myself feel a little better by putting on a bit of makeup. My boyfriend Jake took me out for a walk 😂🐶 I thought it would be nice to get out of the house and to be more active. No one would even know that I’d had surgery just a week ago.. that’s why it’s called invisible illness, and that’s what I’m most passionate in raising awareness of. You have NO idea what someone has to go through.. So always try your best to be nice, kind & supportive to everyone around you ☺️ You never know what’s behind closed doors!