Too many times to count.
The largest offense was in the spiritual community in Chicago where a man took advantage of my vulnerability and spent a year and a half disempowering me with his “spiritual teachings.” This lead to brainwashing and full on sexual abuse. In these years of dark night of soul I was the furthest away from myself than I had ever been. I was lost in a matrix of confusion and self damnation. He was a vampire disguised as a spiritual advisor, sucking the life out of me, programming me to be his prisoner.
It was a lesson of absolute discretion, a lesson of putting my Heart’s message first before letting my mind talk me out of it.
To the woman who have that feeling “something isn’t right here” - listen to it. It is a message from your heart of hearts and it is the ONLY thing that matters. You do not have to play nice. There is nothing wrong with you. There is nothing you’re missing here. There is nothing you did wrong. There is nothing you need to learn.
Stand in your power and own the absolute badassery that you are. Sometimes your mind will be the only thing standing in the way of you and Who You Really Are.
Don’t think, feel.
There is dark reptilian energy out there... a manipulative narcissism to the highest offense. Guard yourself from it. Take absolutely none of it. Do not let them into your space.
You are perfect and complete - exactly the way you are.
Go on Goddess, march fourth, guns blazin’ 💥💥💥 And if you’re ever in doubt, reach out to the sisterhood. You are not alone.
Photo (before font) by @photo_by_marta
The Dawning of Epiphany.
For those warriors who journey upon the long dark night of the soul.
For now, passing through the deep tempest, the pain subsides and realisation matures, as peace is reborn within. 🌞Dawn's Peace: To see the clouds part, and feel colour return to the skies, as reflected in your widened eyes.
Gold and silver of the Holy Soul within become the currency of the song of life, and the nourishment of golden light is love's healing messenger.
And as the echoes of darkness recede, the Golden Thread ignites the sparkling breath of dawn's light.
And hope is reborn.
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Rise Sister Rise
When your plans and schemes and your hopes and dreams beg for you to let them go
Rise sister rise
When the life you have so consciously created all comes crumbling down
Rise sister rise
When your soul is heavy and your heart is broken in two
Rise sister rise
When you gave it your best, and it wasn't quite enough
Rise sister rise
When you've been beaten and defeated and feel so far away from home
Rise sister rise
When you find yourself in a thousand pieces, with no idea what bit goes where
Rise sister rise
When you have loved and lost. And then lost again
Rise sister rise
When your wings have been clipped, your spirit dampened, and all you hear is a whisper
Rise sister rise
When you finally beg mercy to your calling but you have no idea where to start
Rise sister rise
Rise for you. And rise for me.
When you rise first, you make the path brighter for She. - Rebecca Campbell
On occasion....something as simple as sunstream through the clouds while you walk to the corner store will prove utterly cinematic. A thousand frames from past, unknown and future lives flash in quick, almost simultaneous succession. Three dozen songs that are the soundtrack to your beautiful awful life play as one while you smell the particular shade of musk belonging to the long ago player who kissed you one night in Southbank...which in turn is experienced as the thousand yard stare of the vagrant you locked eyes with when you were ten and standing on another waterfront in another city of what could easily be another world or lifetime.
Stills of the moments that make up a soul: the smell of your grandmother's baking when you were five, experienced as a tactile emotion caused by a Johnny Cash song. The time you stared at a slate-surface winter sea as a younger woman and wanted to die of love and pain...melding with the memory of yourself as an old, old man in his penultimate moments on earth. Yourself in utero. A billion specifics. An infinity of nuance and permutation. Your first kitten and your last. A yurt on the tundra in an unknown time and place. That time not so long ago in a sundrenched park when you closed your eyes just to open them to the startling, simple Truth. The defining moment of your life.
The mind... We all often experience a level of discomfort here, whether that be depression, anxiety, obsession, compulsion, addiction, etc... Truth is we all are fighting a war. There has been a lack of awareness on how to truly battle the discomfort. And thinking that something like depression has to be fought off is part of the problem. Choose to fight and the fight will continue. Choose peace and peace will manifest. First off, having any kind of disease at all, mental or physical, extreme or not, does not mean something is wrong with you. It just means there is something to be learned, an opportunity to grow. Second, choosing peace does not mean to not take action, it just means actions will be taken with the intention of peace. Fight or flight was the old choice, now I'm telling you peace is an option. We can choose peace by taking actions that bring about peaceful emotions; this part may require some trial and error to expand emotional awareness, but it's great practice for the Law of attraction. Unpleasant and pleasant emotions get brought up from the subconscious during this practice. Emotions from either side of the spectrum are there to guide us. However, the pleasant emotions have always been a joy to experience and understand, now it's time to find a way to enjoy understanding the unpleasant emotions. Do current efforts and practices have you in emotional relapse cycles? Anyone who is ready for a new approach because the old one didn't work or stopped working, read on. The path of peace is in emotion. Let me type that again, your path to experiencing peace all the time is found in PEACEFUL EMOTIONS AND the NOT SO PEACEFUL emotions. Having an awareness of both will make manifesting peace easy and fun. On my next post, we will discuss awareness of emotional language between your conscious and subconscious mind. Learning the language can cut trial and error by half! That means experiencing peace faster and for longer durations. LIGHTWORKERS ETC...⬇
"Transformation" is an interesting self awareness experiment. What is coming up for you when you feel uncomfortable in your energy? How are you looking at it? The best way to push through the mucky parts of life is to fully look at it and push through it knowing on the other side is something SO much better. Even if you don't believe it now, trust me, there is. 💜💕
“Show the World what a Soulful person is”!!!! How did he know what my Destiny is!!?? I Hope to! 🙌🏼I am SOULSTRUCK! Thomas Moore... I can’t begin to express how his books have changed my life, provoked my heart, my soul and has expanded my consciousness.... my all time favorite author and spiritual teacher...I have read so many of his books I could open my own bookstore!! Was so excited to finally meet him! Now If I could merge he and Idris Elba... I might have met my soulmate!!😂😂 oh and he has a book called #soulmates .... How our soul expresses itself thru love and relationships great! #careofthesoul#darknightofthesoul#asoulsreligion#agelesssoul#areligionofonesown#lifeatwork#thomasmoore#soul#destiny 😇🙏🏼💜✨🙇🏻♀️💫
“There is no coming to consciousness without pain. People will do anything, no matter how absurd, in order to avoid facing their own Soul. One does not become enlightened by imagining figures of light, but by making the darkness conscious.” ― C.G. Jung. #darknightofthesoul
(Image: Praamzius, from Planetary Gods & Goddesses Coloring Book, Kelley Hunter)
Luna has made some really interesting aspects over the last 24...notably to asteroid Praamzius, Lithuanian god, time lord, Master of Fate, god of finality, shocking events resulting in a decision made after a long process of deliberation, things set in stone, a fate is sealed. Praamzius is a Triple God of past, present and future, a reminder of the role we play in fate and karma. Luna also aspected asteroid Sila-Nunam, named for the Inuit Father/god-Mother/goddess symbolic of life force and that animates inanimate objects, it speaks of vampirism, people with no inner light that feed off of others, parasitic vs. symbiotic relationships, codependency, issues of reciprocity. With those asteroids as the main characters, we do have some supporting actors Karma, Apophis, Haumea, and Rhadamanthus...a pretty intense cast bringing intrigue, drama, karmic adversaries, ghosts from the past...death and resurrection and dark night of the soul type shit. Somewhere in the midst of nightmares and evil incarnate and manifesting in our waking life, there is a recognition of the longing for the love of another, the hearts' true desire, heartache and loss, unrequited love. The then aspected the north node and Uranus, and the August eclipse point. That eclipse was a heart chakra activation meant to clear blockages, open us to love and set us toward our hearts true desire. All this dredges up past ghosts we may have been long trying to suppress. Only suppression isn't exorcism, the demon must be named and called out just as our pain must be acknowledged before healing can begin. This picture shows a fire ritual to the Lithuanian god Praamzius, who holds the ruin Pertho which signifies initiation, also The Game. The fire is the testing and alchemical refining of the soul, being initiated into higher levels and greater expression of love ❤️ #darkestbeforethedawn#darknightofthesoul#astrology#horoscopes#aries#taurus#gemini#cancer#leo#virgo#libra#scorpio#sagittarius#capricorn#aquarius#pisces#moon#autumn#2017
Someone told me recently that my posts were too heavy, not chill enough and always so serious and dark 😅
I think that the suppression/repression of our negative traits & emotions in society is one of the largest barriers on a journey towards Self-Love and living an authentic life 🧙🏾♂️ How can you completely awaken and accept who you are and your purpose if there are sides of yourself that you’re too afraid to explore?😳 Trust me I'm a lover not a hater, i cherish light over darkness💫
But without fully facing and understanding our shadow self, there is no evolution🙅🏽♂️ Fear is the main challenge here.
These darker characteristics which are associated with ‘negativity’, are avoided, so often, purely out of fear😖
It is beautiful to focus on the light, but denying the darkness will only lead to disharmony🌩️ As people, we need to take responsibility for this divine life we are blessed with. Taking full ownership of ourselves, light and dark🌑☀️ Don't get it twisted, there is no need for an indulgence of the darker parts of us, but for an acceptance and direct experience of them in the facet of mindful awareness 🙋🏾♂️ The key to our liberation is in the darkness✴️ If you are starting on a spiritual path, it isn't all sunshine and lollipops (vegan of course) 🌱
It is a path that will bring you to your knees, have you staying up at night, questioning every interaction on a much deeper level and most likely cutting ties with lots of old acquaintances ✂️ But it is so fucking worth it. Pardon my french💁🏽♂️ Safe travels to you 🚇
Today is 7 years from the death of my dear mother. I was only 26 at the time. I remember trying to rationalise and intellectualise the shock of her untimely passing. I saw myself as philosophical and spiritual.
In reality, I had no clue how to process my grief. I couldn't say or talk about her death for years. I would choke and revert to something or someone else. I knew I would spill apart if I did.
That grief and the inability to express it and process it got stuck - in my body, in my throat, in my heart. It congested my whole life.
All I could do was distract myself and focus on other things in my life.
But 5 years after my mom's death it was my sister who followed in the exact same steps.
It was like a horrendous coincidence.
How is it possible that my two closest women disappear so quickly from my life?
What kind of nightmare was that?
How was I supposed to process it, continue living, being a mother, a partner, a healthy person?
Well, I couldn't.
I continued tending to my daily life but I had to journey into the darkness of my despair, depression, grief, hopelessness.
Oh, what a journey that is.
And here I am today.
Stronger - maybe.
More compassionate - perhaps.
More whole than ever - pretty sure.
More myself than ever before - certainly.
So the lesson, my dear souls, is that we can do it. We can handle whatever comes our way and heal from our deepest sorrow.
It takes years and it takes conscious decisions and actions in that direction but we are much more... everything! than we think.
Have faith in yourselves, continue taking tiny steps, don't lose hope and trust.
You can do anything!
Change is tough! Coming out of the darkness into the light requires courage & conviction. Janus, the ancient Roman God of doors, teaches us about new beginnings & transition; how the past and the present coexist to create the future.
Working with our internal darkness is very much part of our yoga & meditation practice: the dark inner womb poses that bring us into our feminine power; the mystical crocodile pose that reintroduces us to our breath; the dark night of the soul before spring awakens.
Symbolism, myth and yoga work to help bring us into a different part of ourselves; to help us find the light to guide us through the doorway of hope and potential.
Next week we are starting a new 6 week yoga and mindfulness series that will focus upon the healing elements of the practice.
Due to my own lived-experience, I have a particular desire to help people overcome the daily stresses that constrain life, energy, passion & happiness. This one-off series is particularly designed for those of you who need to reduce stress, manage anxiety & make space for healing energy to begin to emerge in our bodies & lives.
In addition, moving into the winter months can be tough going on our physical & emotional wellbeing. It is essential, therefore, that we take space out of our daily lives to give attention to restoring energy & vitality.
This time of year it is important to introduce deeply restorative poses into our practice. So, over the next few weeks we will be focusing upon the more healing elements of yoga, drawing upon deep mindful movement & pranayama (breath work). I'd love you to join me on this exciting journey.
Book your place by clicking on my biolink above. Happy Sunday everyone 💕
TRUTH OF CONNECTION -- Genetics show it… so does biology, genealogy, even theology … we are all connected … Loneliness is a painful illusion… isolation – always a mental concept and sometime a physical and emotional experience, but never, never a spiritual reality…. All practices that honor connection – gratitude, forgiveness, compassion, love, contemplation – open us up ... amazingly, loss can, too … Inspired by St. John of the Cross and his dark night of the soul “through which a soul journeys toward that divine light”, James Finley captures our movement towards wholeness beautifully in the quote below. For more - check out his meditation from the Center for Action and Contemplation ... https://cac.org/only-love-is-real-2017-10-13/ #weareallconnected#connection#gratitude#forgiveness#compassion#love#loss#darknightofthesoul#contemplation#jamesfinley#divine#oneness#meditation
“The most wonderful of all things in life, I believe, is the discovery of another human being with whom one’s relationship has a glowing depth, beauty, and joy as the years increase. This inner progressiveness of love between two human beings is a most marvelous thing, it cannot be found by looking for it or by passionately wishing for it. It is a sort of Divine accident.” – Hugh Walpole
😷ILLNESS AS AN OPPORTUNITY TO AWAKEN CONSCIOUSNESS....~~~We often grow and evolve from life’s greatest challenges and illness can be one of them. I know it was for me. Illness has been my greatest teacher and allowed me to see life in a whole new light! It has allowed me to align with my life’s purpose to help others heal and suffer less.
~~~Turning toward our suffering we’ll begin to understand its message and its means. When we learn to shift our relationship to our illness rather than create aversion we can open up for healing and transformation to take place.
Be Gentle 🙏🏻✨The most difficult times, are the ones we give ourselves - Pema Chodran
The past 4-5 months have not been particularly easy.
There has been a lot of shedding of old stories and beliefs; a lot of ups and down in close relationships, including family, but also with dear close friends and sisters.
It has definitely been one long dark night of the soul...
There have been great moments of despair, of grieving, of victimhood, of loss, heart break and betrayal.
There was no road map to navigate such pain. Whilst I have people I could've reached out to, I was so encased in a fog of depression that I couldn't even articulate what was going on.
It was a sensory overload of story's that had to be bought into the light to be released and healed.
I went to Mexico with the hope of leaving this all behind, and allowing that darkness to be washed away by Mama Gaia. That the beautiful warm oceans would wash it all away.
But the waters in Tulum where made up of the anger coming from Cyclone Irma. The waves were strong, the water dirty, and uncomfortable and not at all welcoming. The energy in the air was electric. It was hot, humid and an angry ocean
But toward the end of the week, the ocean calmed, and I felt myself calm. I felt a shift. I was ready to enter the ocean and allow Mama Gaia to wash away the darkness. Allow her to wash away the fog that had surrounded me for far too long. To release the stories, the pain, and allow space for forgiveness, for kindness, for joy and happiness and a healthy dose of laughter.
Since being home, and even with so many new creative ideas going through my mind, I've realised the importance of being gentle with myself, with my soul.
I've realised that whilst that bad things are going to happen, life cannot always be filled with light and joy, it is how we respond and react internally that will determine whether we walk our own dark night of the soul, or learn and grow and remain in a state of acceptance and grace. It is a choice, and I in this moment, I am choosing to be gentle with my soul, with the greatest of understanding and respect of the lessons my dark night bought to me 🙏🏻❤️🙏🏻❤️🙏🏻
The Monk Who Sold His Ferrari. Some more food for thought 😉 Probably won't be posting photos/DMing for a while as my phone's gone gaga again. Need to work through stuff anyway - just recovering from what I suppose was another IBS attack. Anyone else suffer from nausea so bad it leads to vom? Second time in a month and didn't feel like a stomach bug. Vaguely remember reading upper GI problems aren't an IBS issue.. Ah bloody hells. Down in the deepest of dumps, but I'll plough through. Laters 💛
Harness your innate gifts to turn the bitterest of vibrations into something magnificent. You will get yourself into a place so powerful that your knees hit the ground in reverence for the hardships you socked it to. Use tools of reinforcement if it helps. Dream catchers. White sage. Palo Santo. Crystals. But my bet is, the more second nature transmutation becomes, the more you'll realize it was you all along. 😄
Our natural negativity bias lingers from our caveman days when fear and distrust were necessary to survival. It's so easy and natural to let bitterness escalate. I've done it most of my life on some level. Unga bunga...I have an intact lizard brain. But the further this mind blowing journey and dark night of the soul shuffle me along...the more I find it's possible to integrate huge spiritual truths into everyday egoic life despite a natural emotional proclivity to spiral into the illusory...ie. anything beneath higher nondual infinite loveness.
And now I'm not only wanly accepting of bitter rifts, egoic reactions, egoic overreactions...but genuinely glad for them for the medicinal mirrors they've been. .
Hair as black as night makes me feel a little witchy-woo-woo. A dye job gone astray has a greater meaning for me, one of moving on from who I was and stepping into a new energy.
Tonight I realized that I went right from a Saturn Return into a Dark Night of the Soul. That's like five to six years of feeling all over the place. Thankfully, today my guides have passed on messages about my future and seeds have been sown. A new chapter is opening.
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