We are a product of a society full of people who will judge u faster then the thought even comes to there head we get ridiculed for being different but like I always say different is always the best but I realize I truley an the weirdest person but trust me get to know me and you will learn TheBrokenMindedLegacy of me but in the end I will love u all and be there for u yet at times I may be in the dark but to see all my true friends support me and stay by side and the biggest gift I can give u all is your all going to be a part of my life forever<3 love always Your friend #poetsofinstagram#poetry#deep#friends#acceptance#love#friendshipquotes
🌵🌓🌵I took a photo of a cactus with the moon out in the daytime, and fused it with a photo of a cactus and the moon at nighttime, because it seems to be the only thing that can describe my mood today... 🌵🌗🌵#deep .
I HOPE YOU GUYS WILL READ THIS 😊
Honestly in the past couple of months I've really being feeling more and more myself again than I had over the summer and xmas.
Just writing this to kinda open up about this topic again, it's something I haven't talked about in awhile. It's weird but I feel angry when I'm in the gym and I get a pain in my back or my leg because I wanna be able to do what everybody else is doing but it's pretty obvious that I can't.
I feel scared.... scared of how 40-50 year old me is going to be suffering with horrible pain. I see this first hand with what my father goes through every single day and it scares me to think that in a few years down the line im more than likely going to be the same way.
I feel self conscious, even around my best friends because they all look at the way I curve, those who aren't used to noticing it always seem to bring it up when they see it. I hate that.... I hate it being noticed or talked about.
This on top of depression leaves me feeling lost, empty, confused and pretty much really shit. I spend most days being the quietest guy in the group and only a rare few see me as I was before all of this..... happy.
Just because I've began smiling and acting myself lately doesn't mean I don't struggle daily with the pain of this disease and the struggle of depression each and every single day.
I'm the first to admit I wear my heart on my sleeve on every situation and I react with full emotion ( as half of who follows me sees through all my dumb posts). But this one is the most serious post and most honest post I've ever written a caption for.
But that's reality, nobody is perfect. For people like me you make the most of the good days, the days out with friends, the days you're actually included in things because when that stuff isn't going on you're usually left locked inside with your own thoughts, worries and problems and trust me the longer you sit there the darker your days get and the worse your depression becomes. But honestly I'm glad of those days sometimes because it makes the better days so much more enjoyable for me.
So I just want to say thank you to everyone I've got with me 😁