I have had this since as long as i can remember. It will die down for a few years then come back and hit me hard. I have been yelled at and slapped by my friends and family members to make me stop. I know they are just trying to help but its really hard being told how awful and disgusting my legs look. Even though my parents tell me this to try to “convince” me to stop i dont think they understand that i cant stop. It is an addiction. Its not that I don’t want to have beautiful scar free skin its just that i cant stop. I have tried everything from cutting down my nails to little stubs, to painting them a million times to make them super thick, but my nails grow to fast, and even when i find something that works i get so frustrated when i cant pick my skin, that i have resulted to sticking pencils in my skin to carve the “imperfections” out. Its like my whole body tenses up until i pick the scab, then i get a huge rush of dopamine. If any of you have dermatillomania or something similar (such as with nails, eyelashes, hair, etc) i just wanted to let you know that you are not alone, it gets better, and if you ever need to talk i am here.
So I'm backing from my little break from posting (so sorry, i was just a bit busy). Anyways, i got a dm asking to post about sensory processing disorder (SPD), which is common amongst misophonia sufferers- we generally tend to be very aware of our surroundings and have heightened senses, and I can definitely relate to some of these symptoms, though I don't think i have the actual disorder🙂 is there anyone who does? Comment below! •
Hi!I want to discuss something on here.Lately we hear many psychological disorder names in regular verbal conversations but do we really know that much about what is considered as a personality disorder?"A personality disorder is a type of mental disorder in which you have a rigid and unhealthy pattern of thinking, functioning and behaving. A person with a personality disorder has trouble perceiving and relating to situations and people. This causes significant problems and limitations in relationships, social activities, work and school."There are many PD's that became popular recently such as Anorexia Nervosa,Manic-Depressive Disorder,Multiple Personality Disorder etc.Let's find out what causes us to have personality disorders:
Let's not label people and use mental disorders as adjectives.
10:00am #Breakfast .. I hit my lowest weight today.. make me want to restrict/purge even more ughhhhhh — Breakfast was 2 weetbix, 2 strawberries, 3 slices of canned peaches and a spoonful of low-fat plain Greek yogurt! #HappySaturday ///
/// ate about half, will eat the other half later in the day!
Maybe it can help some people fight same demons. To know that you are not alone 😢💪😧🤔
When people keep asking what's wrong with you, then I sometimes wish they could be in my skin for a day. Then lets see how tired, confused, scared etc they'll be.
The amount of cleaning I do every single day, same time I have to mentally prepare myself for days to take a shower. Give pep talks, cry...And then the hour of hell of scrubbing...Wouldn't wish it on my worst enemies.
And these are just some of my problems.
So yeah, welcome to my hell where everything coming into house has to be cleaned, be it shopping goods, clothes I've been wearing etc. The amount of paper towels is huge to say lightly.
EDIT: this is also one of the main reasons I don't cook nor clean. I have to wipe every package, carton etc.
So as you must have noticed, my IG is not very easy reading or seeing only the good, funny, beautiful things.
And that's okay too, my IG is like a revolving door but who cares. What is the most important thing in my life is stability but whatever. The ones who care will stay and get to know troubles, bad days and good things, strange thoughts and just plain me... Love you, guys
Sorry to lay it all on you but it's like a therapy session and maybe trying to help somebody, too.
One day we can do everything the others do without thinking twice, my co-fighters 😘👊 Everbody else, I ADMIRE YOU, AM JEALOUS AND WANNA BE LIKE YOU ONE DAY! 😊😘😘 #realstruggles#ocd#anxiety#lifewithanxiety#depression#limits#disorder#disorders#sotired#life#mylife#honestconfessions#confessions#mental#mentalhealth#mentalhealthawareness
I’m being such an emotional crybaby this last few days. Getting irritated and mad and sad for everything I don’t like. I got my period today so well that makes sense. But this is exactly the way I feel and act when I’m starving myself and am hungry but not eat. Anyone else that has the same?