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"Colour therapy! When you feel emotion, paint it. Paint a whole canvas and see what the end result is. I started painting because of depression and to this day it helps. Everyone is an artist!"
- @daniel_angel_reiki 
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"Colour therapy! When you feel emotion, paint it. Paint a whole canvas and see what the end result is. I started painting because of depression and to this day it helps. Everyone is an artist!" - @daniel_angel_reiki _________ Want to be featured on our Instagram? Submit your artwork here: www.howamifeeling.org
First day at @defqon1 #defqon1 #hardcore #maddog #black #weekend #disorder
#prophetea #angermanagement please excuse the handwriting. I was breaking down as i wrote this.
To już #269 #dzień od kiedy podjąłem wyzwanie #22pompki dla weteranów. Miało trwać #22 dni, ale mam mały poślizg 😉. Teraz pompuję każdego dnia, dla tych, którzy w swojej służbie położyli na szali swoje życie i dla wszystkich którzy toczą nadal walkę w swoich duszach. Zespół stresu pourazowego, zaburzenie stresowe pourazowe (#posttraumatic #stress #disorder, #PTSD) – zaburzenie psychiczne będące formą reakcji na skrajnie stresujące wydarzenie (traumę), które przekracza zdolności danej osoby do radzenia sobie i adaptacji. Pośród tego rodzaju wydarzeń wymienić można działania wojenne, katastrofy, kataklizmy żywiołowe, wypadki komunikacyjne, bycie ofiarą napaści, gwałtu, uprowadzenia. W samych Stanach Zjednoczonych z powodu PTSD średnio 22 weteranów rocznie odbiera sobie życie. #staystrong #22kill #22pushups #22challenge #pushups  #instaboy #Giżycko #back  #instaman #instavideo #uglyface #polishman #polishsoldier  #polskiżołnierz #nevergiveup
To już #269  #dzień  od kiedy podjąłem wyzwanie #22pompki  dla weteranów. Miało trwać #22  dni, ale mam mały poślizg 😉. Teraz pompuję każdego dnia, dla tych, którzy w swojej służbie położyli na szali swoje życie i dla wszystkich którzy toczą nadal walkę w swoich duszach. Zespół stresu pourazowego, zaburzenie stresowe pourazowe (#posttraumatic  #stress  #disorder , #PTSD ) – zaburzenie psychiczne będące formą reakcji na skrajnie stresujące wydarzenie (traumę), które przekracza zdolności danej osoby do radzenia sobie i adaptacji. Pośród tego rodzaju wydarzeń wymienić można działania wojenne, katastrofy, kataklizmy żywiołowe, wypadki komunikacyjne, bycie ofiarą napaści, gwałtu, uprowadzenia. W samych Stanach Zjednoczonych z powodu PTSD średnio 22 weteranów rocznie odbiera sobie życie. #staystrong  #22kill  #22pushups  #22challenge  #pushups  #instaboy  #Giżycko  #back  #instaman  #instavideo  #uglyface  #polishman  #polishsoldier  #polskiżołnierz  #nevergiveup 
Esther's #story Part 2: I grew up being called fat by my mom (there's lots of pressure in #korean #culture regarding appearance eg wearing brand named clothes, being stylish, being thin, having certain facial features or getting plastic surgery to achieve them, etc). My appearance didn't bother me until I dated someone who constantly mentioned my appearance, "why don't you ____ (eg wear make up, cut your bangs, look more "fobby")?" "Don't wear ___ because ___". One time he laughed at me for being thicker than him and that's when the mindset sunk in "I'm fat and ugly". Even after we broke up in spring 2012, I struggled with my appearance. His laughs and words replayed in my head over and over. Then the words of my mom started bothering me too.  I started eating 1,200 calories and burned at least 700, dropping down to 106 lbs until I got sick.  Summer 2012 I "yo yo dieted" gaining and losing weight until I tried to eliminate certain foods from my diet. Soon after, it became a binge eating disorder with long periods of splurging on food, regretting and crying, purging, and "punishing" myself the next morning with long runs and workout sessions.  People didn't think anything of it. They thought I ate and worked out a lot. The one person who knew the most about my disorder was the person I started dating that summer and forced to eat more than his body could handle (this happened later on in our relationship). I compared myself to him. I don't know why and I regret how I treated him. All I cared about was, "if he eats a lot and gains weight, I'll feel better of myself". I feel ashamed now looking back at what a monster I became. He'd eat until he threw up but that went through my mind was "great, he threw up the calories he was supposed to take in" instead of caring for his health and well being.  My lack of self #love and struggle with eating was a factor in our break up. I was constantly jealous of him and constantly fearful of losing him to a prettier girl with a better personality. (To be continued in next post)

#mentalhealthawareness #binge #bingeeating #disorder #skinny #fat #ugly
Esther's #story  Part 2: I grew up being called fat by my mom (there's lots of pressure in #korean  #culture  regarding appearance eg wearing brand named clothes, being stylish, being thin, having certain facial features or getting plastic surgery to achieve them, etc). My appearance didn't bother me until I dated someone who constantly mentioned my appearance, "why don't you ____ (eg wear make up, cut your bangs, look more "fobby")?" "Don't wear ___ because ___". One time he laughed at me for being thicker than him and that's when the mindset sunk in "I'm fat and ugly". Even after we broke up in spring 2012, I struggled with my appearance. His laughs and words replayed in my head over and over. Then the words of my mom started bothering me too. I started eating 1,200 calories and burned at least 700, dropping down to 106 lbs until I got sick. Summer 2012 I "yo yo dieted" gaining and losing weight until I tried to eliminate certain foods from my diet. Soon after, it became a binge eating disorder with long periods of splurging on food, regretting and crying, purging, and "punishing" myself the next morning with long runs and workout sessions. People didn't think anything of it. They thought I ate and worked out a lot. The one person who knew the most about my disorder was the person I started dating that summer and forced to eat more than his body could handle (this happened later on in our relationship). I compared myself to him. I don't know why and I regret how I treated him. All I cared about was, "if he eats a lot and gains weight, I'll feel better of myself". I feel ashamed now looking back at what a monster I became. He'd eat until he threw up but that went through my mind was "great, he threw up the calories he was supposed to take in" instead of caring for his health and well being. My lack of self #love  and struggle with eating was a factor in our break up. I was constantly jealous of him and constantly fearful of losing him to a prettier girl with a better personality. (To be continued in next post) #mentalhealthawareness  #binge  #bingeeating  #disorder  #skinny  #fat  #ugly 
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That's exactly how I am! And this every day.. it consumes me that I think nobody cares and everybody hates me. I am so tired all the time, I'm just sleeping the whole day and I just can't socialize with anybody. I hate myself. 
#bipolardisorder #bipolar #disorder #selfharm #svv #depression #anxiety #tired #sad #broken #eatingdisorder #suicidial #suicide #dead #follow #like
Yep, if I can turn back time I rather hide more. [#sigh #tears #cry #crying #crybaby #hide #true #time #turnbacktime #deep #depression #depressed #anxious #anxiety #disorder #sadness #sad #suicide #suicidal #mom #past #tell #me #quotes #quote #end]
La silla Desorden chorrea para arriba ☝

#desorden #desordre #disorder #d❤
Sorry for the bad quality. Picture is more than five years old. 
#borderline #PTBS #depression #disorder #ill #psycho #sick #mental #blood #selfharm #hate #cutting #wounds #scars #narben #ritzen #svv #me #art #anorexic #magersucht #essstörung #cry #sad #hatemyself #suicide #suicidal #fear #razor #blade
You know what makes me sad? People seem to enjoy staring at selfharm. Likes and followers are rising. This world is sick. 
#borderline #PTBS #depression #disorder #ill #psycho #sick #mental #blood #selfharm #hate #cutting #wounds #scars #narben #ritzen #svv #me #art #anorexic #magersucht #essstörung #cry #sad #hatemyself #suicide #suicidal #fear #razor #blade
So this is a more #personal piece for me. I struggle with a #panicdisorder that runs in my family which often makes it hard to #communicate or #feel sufficient. I also have #socialanxiety that interacts with my #disorder quite frequently I thought it might release a lot of feelings I deal with to show what going through a #panicattack feels like #emotional #artistic #pain
When you need to break a razor for at least a small blade... #borderline #PTBS #depression #disorder #ill #psycho #sick #mental #blood #selfharm #hate #cutting #wounds #scars #narben #ritzen #svv #me #art #anorexic #magersucht #essstörung #cry #sad #hatemyself #suicide #suicidal #fear #razor #blade
First cut with a razor blade after I had to hurt myself with my fingernails. #borderline #PTBS #depression #disorder #ill #psycho #sick #mental #blood #selfharm #hate #cutting #wounds #scars #narben #ritzen #svv #me #art #anorexic #magersucht #essstörung #cry #sad #hatemyself #suicide #suicidal #fear #blade #razor
希望一覺醒來世界末日
結果醒來發現地球照常運轉
而毀滅的是我心中原本構築有我們的世界🎠
#photooftoday #lifesucks #endoftheworld #collapse #lovesucks #suffering #fellow #getdrunk #benormal #insomnia #disorder #friendstime #sisters #不是瘋子是傻子 #姐妹崧
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(Tags cuz fuck me)
#sad #daddy #goals #ana #mia #depressed #ugly #selfharn #tumblr #axniety #love #sèx #fuck
#kink #saveme #selfhate #hate #fat #disorder #black #cutting #cut
Οι καλύτερες ατάκες που έχουν ακουστεί στην αίθουσα των δικαστηρίων!  #thessaliatimes #freepress #volos #trikala #larisa #karditsa #lawyer #court #disorder #in #the #american #court #funtime #atakes #linkinbio
Coucou mes douceurs 😊 , votre journée s'est bien passé ?
Moi jetais trop fatigué je me suis endormie presque 2h sur le canapé devant la télé et j'ai très mal a l'estomac 😩😩 mais c'est de ma faute je mange n'importe quoi donc bien fait 😟 ! 
Petite photo de mon #soupopo d'amour 😍 jadore je me régale a chaque fois !
Je suis dans mon lit avec mon bambou d'amour 💗 , j'ai fais des vidéos vous avez vu comment il est trop mignon😍😍 ! Je regarde les informations sur #tf1 après c'est #pblv sur France 3 et ce soir #enquetedaction sur #w9 😀 , ma soirée est programmé comme tout les soirs 😜! Je vous fais pleins de bisous mes douce 😘😘💋💗 #tca #troubleducomportementalimentaire #reequilibragealimentaire #healthy #healthyfood #food #fooddisorder #disorder #eat #eats #eating #eatdisorder #regime #regimeuse #diet #eatclean #dietclean #pertedepoids #perdredupoids #nonauxkilos #nonauxkilos2017 #sante #maladie #bienetre #mangersainement
Coucou mes douceurs 😊 , votre journée s'est bien passé ? Moi jetais trop fatigué je me suis endormie presque 2h sur le canapé devant la télé et j'ai très mal a l'estomac 😩😩 mais c'est de ma faute je mange n'importe quoi donc bien fait 😟 ! Petite photo de mon #soupopo  d'amour 😍 jadore je me régale a chaque fois ! Je suis dans mon lit avec mon bambou d'amour 💗 , j'ai fais des vidéos vous avez vu comment il est trop mignon😍😍 ! Je regarde les informations sur #tf1  après c'est #pblv  sur France 3 et ce soir #enquetedaction  sur #w9  😀 , ma soirée est programmé comme tout les soirs 😜! Je vous fais pleins de bisous mes douce 😘😘💋💗 #tca  #troubleducomportementalimentaire  #reequilibragealimentaire  #healthy  #healthyfood  #food  #fooddisorder  #disorder  #eat  #eats  #eating  #eatdisorder  #regime  #regimeuse  #diet  #eatclean  #dietclean  #pertedepoids  #perdredupoids  #nonauxkilos  #nonauxkilos2017  #sante  #maladie  #bienetre  #mangersainement 
Thanks to @sweetmelodicmusic  for premiere the remix of @eleonora_zaripova "Confess" from @modularproject !
It will be released Monday 26th!
#disorderrecords #deep #dark #blackandwhite #glitch #beatport #ep #modular #project #disorder #label #electronic #electronica #electronicmusic #techno #deephouse #bomb #synth #analog
Manifestaciones de desorden de personalidad. Me dieron cátedra hoy. #MultitaskingNotGood #Disorder
Found my old Joy Division shirt... so therefore I'm jammin some JD while running errands with wifey #disorder #neworder
Found my old Joy Division shirt... so therefore I'm jammin some JD while running errands with wifey #disorder  #neworder 
What means to you, what means to me, and we will meet again,
I'm watching you, I'm watching her, I'll take no pity from your friends,
Who is right, who can tell, and who gives a damn right now,
Until the spirit new sensation takes hold, then you know 🎵
#joydivision #joydivisionshirt #unknownpleasures #black #disorder #favoritesong
A summer story 2K17  1er día #Festival #ASummerHistory #Disorder #Fiesta
On a trip to a new area and beach 😊😊 #did #dissociativeidentitydisorder #disorder #mpd #multiplepersonality #blue #clouds #sky #snow ❄uki
Affirmation of the day: i am changing at the speed of light. •
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Affirmation of the day: i am changing at the speed of light. • • •
"Art is therapeutic. At the moment I'm going through trauma treatment for 12 years of sexual abuse and neglect. I suffer from Dissociative Identity Disorder (short DIDnos) not otherwise specified and Complex PTSD. Art is a cleansing process but it's hard sometimes as well since it awakens things that been buried for so long. At the moment I'm working on coping with relapse in self harm and the storms of trauma treatment. But I believe in recovery, in hope.
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First image is Screaming Alter. It's one of the child alters stuck in trauma.
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Second one is called Shattered. It's the feeling of loss of identity do to severe trauma.
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Third is Wreck shifting romance and in that one I tried to capture dissasociation.
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I wish people knew: That it's not what's wrong with me, it's what happened to me."
- @alajarviart 
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"Art is therapeutic. At the moment I'm going through trauma treatment for 12 years of sexual abuse and neglect. I suffer from Dissociative Identity Disorder (short DIDnos) not otherwise specified and Complex PTSD. Art is a cleansing process but it's hard sometimes as well since it awakens things that been buried for so long. At the moment I'm working on coping with relapse in self harm and the storms of trauma treatment. But I believe in recovery, in hope. . First image is Screaming Alter. It's one of the child alters stuck in trauma. . Second one is called Shattered. It's the feeling of loss of identity do to severe trauma. . Third is Wreck shifting romance and in that one I tried to capture dissasociation. . I wish people knew: That it's not what's wrong with me, it's what happened to me." - @alajarviart _________ Want to be featured on our Instagram? Submit your artwork here: www.howamifeeling.org
https://youtu.be/AaBQyG-3yjU
其實這個問題已經存在很久了
只是覺得有時候第一線的人真的很可憐

Ps:今天遇到一個問題一直重複問的阿媽😌😌😌,不知道該生氣還是該笑!聽到阿媽的回答整個黑人問號

#aids #emt #disorder
https://youtu.be/AaBQyG-3yjU 其實這個問題已經存在很久了 只是覺得有時候第一線的人真的很可憐 Ps:今天遇到一個問題一直重複問的阿媽😌😌😌,不知道該生氣還是該笑!聽到阿媽的回答整個黑人問號 #aids  #emt  #disorder 
#Repost @endee.hq (@get_repost)
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Happy to be supporting the new campaign of Time To Change @timetochangecampaign .. #iwantyoutoknow that when we start speaking up about our mental health issues and battles, we soon realize we are NOT alone! Speaking up changed my life! It can change yours too!! #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #letstalk #endthesilence #depression #anxiety #ocd #personality #disorder #endthestigma #timetochange #hope #love #life #tuesdaymotivation
#Repost  @endee.hq (@get_repost) ・・・ Happy to be supporting the new campaign of Time To Change @timetochangecampaign .. #iwantyoutoknow  that when we start speaking up about our mental health issues and battles, we soon realize we are NOT alone! Speaking up changed my life! It can change yours too!! #mentalhealth  #mentalhealthawareness  #letstalk  #endthesilence  #depression  #anxiety  #ocd  #personality  #disorder  #endthestigma  #timetochange  #hope  #love  #life  #tuesdaymotivation 
Sometimes suffering from a mental illness can be troubling at times 👌🏻 But always remember to look after yourself 🦄 Self care is so important and I recommend everyone to do it. Do something you love ❤️Do something that relaxes you ☕️😴 Do sometimes that makes you happy 😊Spending time to look after yourself is exactly what we need. In times of stress, depression and high anxiety we forget to look after ourselfs. So if your have done at least one of these things (from the pic above) then you are awesome👏 I recommend trying to accomplish some of these things during the week. Take time to look after you 🐝🌈Maybe take a bath, read a book, go for a walk, watch a movie, practice your makeup skills, play video games etc. Just make sure your enjoying yourself and that you are relaxed 🌈📖☕️🤓
Sometimes suffering from a mental illness can be troubling at times 👌🏻 But always remember to look after yourself 🦄 Self care is so important and I recommend everyone to do it. Do something you love ❤️Do something that relaxes you ☕️😴 Do sometimes that makes you happy 😊Spending time to look after yourself is exactly what we need. In times of stress, depression and high anxiety we forget to look after ourselfs. So if your have done at least one of these things (from the pic above) then you are awesome👏 I recommend trying to accomplish some of these things during the week. Take time to look after you 🐝🌈Maybe take a bath, read a book, go for a walk, watch a movie, practice your makeup skills, play video games etc. Just make sure your enjoying yourself and that you are relaxed 🌈📖☕️🤓
👻👻#multiple#disorder 😁😝😝
Having EDS is difficult sometimes 🤐
Having EDS is difficult sometimes 🤐
Stimmt. Wie geht's euch so? Mir geht's komischer Weise ganz ok. Habe aber heute in einem Test eine 6 bekommen. Joa. Steht für meine Dummheit. In der Schule war es nicht so gut. Hatte Musikschule und das War gut. Ich muss noch mit dem Hund und dann putzen. Das wird anstrengend :( naja egal. Habe heute bis jetzt wieder viel gegessen, aber keine Kalorien gezählt. Ich bin so verfressen. Selbst meine Eltern haben das gesagt. Das muss ich ändern. Werde es auch. Habe bis jetzt 1 kg abgenommen. Noch 500 Gramm und dann reicht das. Ich darf ja nicht unter mein Mindestgewicht. Komme ich schon irgendwie mit klar. Aber habe heute angefangen nichts Süßes mehr zu essen. Ausgenommen Eis an heißen Tagen. Ich wünsche euch noch einen schönen Tag ich habe jetzt einiges zu tun.
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Ignore that shit: #ritzen #recovery #recover #anorexia #depressed #depression #svv #hate #quotes #sadquotes #cut #cutting #anxiety #sad #selfhate #lonely #alone #ana #schneiden #depressiv #allein #disorder #traurig #hatemyself
Stimmt. Wie geht's euch so? Mir geht's komischer Weise ganz ok. Habe aber heute in einem Test eine 6 bekommen. Joa. Steht für meine Dummheit. In der Schule war es nicht so gut. Hatte Musikschule und das War gut. Ich muss noch mit dem Hund und dann putzen. Das wird anstrengend :( naja egal. Habe heute bis jetzt wieder viel gegessen, aber keine Kalorien gezählt. Ich bin so verfressen. Selbst meine Eltern haben das gesagt. Das muss ich ändern. Werde es auch. Habe bis jetzt 1 kg abgenommen. Noch 500 Gramm und dann reicht das. Ich darf ja nicht unter mein Mindestgewicht. Komme ich schon irgendwie mit klar. Aber habe heute angefangen nichts Süßes mehr zu essen. Ausgenommen Eis an heißen Tagen. Ich wünsche euch noch einen schönen Tag ich habe jetzt einiges zu tun. . . . . . . . . Ignore that shit: #ritzen  #recovery  #recover  #anorexia  #depressed  #depression  #svv  #hate  #quotes  #sadquotes  #cut  #cutting  #anxiety  #sad  #selfhate  #lonely  #alone  #ana  #schneiden  #depressiv  #allein  #disorder  #traurig  #hatemyself 
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bipolar is not Easy. It's not something you can do something about. You can't Run away from the feelings Because they're always there haunting you in You're mind. When you have mani you can kind of rule the world. But it can last for 1 sec to 1 year.. in some cases Ofcourse. Then ur down again. Somebody can tell you a joke and then you maybe feel like: "i did not laugh hard enough at it. Maybe he's/She's not going to like me Because of that. Maybe i am A bad friend.. i am worthless.. etc.. and You're back down again and feel useless. Please understand Why i can't do all the things other people can. I can have My downs for like months. You know that the highest suicide rate when it comes in disorders is bipolar. So please it's not A joke and no you can't throw away the feelings. That's Why we have stimulating medicine. Our brains is different from yours. Sorry i wanted just to say how i feel. Just A little bit but it's totally different from person to person and i have adhd too and other stuff. Don't judge please ~
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~ READ!! READ!! READ!! READ!! READ!! • • bipolar is not Easy. It's not something you can do something about. You can't Run away from the feelings Because they're always there haunting you in You're mind. When you have mani you can kind of rule the world. But it can last for 1 sec to 1 year.. in some cases Ofcourse. Then ur down again. Somebody can tell you a joke and then you maybe feel like: "i did not laugh hard enough at it. Maybe he's/She's not going to like me Because of that. Maybe i am A bad friend.. i am worthless.. etc.. and You're back down again and feel useless. Please understand Why i can't do all the things other people can. I can have My downs for like months. You know that the highest suicide rate when it comes in disorders is bipolar. So please it's not A joke and no you can't throw away the feelings. That's Why we have stimulating medicine. Our brains is different from yours. Sorry i wanted just to say how i feel. Just A little bit but it's totally different from person to person and i have adhd too and other stuff. Don't judge please ~ • • • • • • •{ignore this}• #emo  #instagram  #worthless  #piercing  #follow  #suicide  #adhd  #depression  #like4like  #mani  #read  #comment  #boobs  #alternative  #punk  #scene  #likeforlike  #metalcore  #tumblr  #bipolar  #l4l  #music  #scars  #metal  #sad  #anxiety  #help  #tears  #bipolardisorder  #disorder  ❤
Oh people are so trying to make me go insane. If I go insane I will kill them or kill myself tbh.
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#worthless #emo #eatingdisorder #ugly #unhappy #imperfect #insecure #overdose #anxiety #sad #sadgirl #suicide #suicidal #disorder #depressed #depression #disappear #depressingquotes #fat #hate #hatemyself #harm #hurt #lost #cut #cutting #moon
Hey ho 🐼 mein Name ist Amy und ich möchte auf dieser Seite meinen Gedanken und Gefühlen einfach freien Lauf lassen. Vielleicht gefällt es ja dem ein oder anderem.
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#depression #depressed #lonely #loneliness #scars #scared #hurt #hate #selfhate #hatemyself #disorder #ill #lies #help #mentalhealth #sad #sadness #crying #tears #cry #suicide #life #end #pain #useless #alone #empty #lost #dying #dyinginside