I couldnt imagine my life without you before you past away and now that it has been 2 years, i still cant imagine my life without you. So many times i wanted to call you and tell you about my day. And then i remember you are no longer here. I miss you. I miss your voice and your laugh. I miss your hugs. I love you always my mother #missmymom#doesitevergetbetter
Depression and anxiety suck. I don't think people clearly understand the difficulty of dealing and living with it. On top of it all I have Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. Every night I struggle just to sleep without nightmares or the consistent fear of something happening. Every morning I wake up trying to hope for a better day. I try my hardest to be the kind loving person I was brought up to be. I try my best to respect everyone, and not let people's hate and meanness get to me. But it does, I overly care about people and keep getting my heart stomped on by family and so called friends. I try so hard to put on a smile and be funny and loving towards all. I've been told I have a heart of gold by many but really when it comes down to it, I'm just a sad soul, who's literally dying on the inside. I can't hold the tears back nomore.
And no its not something I can "just get over" or "move past from" It's like me breaking your legs and telling you to walk it off. No different.
#tears#sad#depressionsucks#anixetysucks#ptsd#mentalhealthmatters#thetruth#howifeel#pain#sadsoul#deepermeaning#heartache#crying#nofilter#whydoicare#lifesucks#depression#mentalhealth#sadness #😢 #😭