En liten yoghurt ochh lite fanta pink grapefruit (bra kombo!😅)
Ska på på 80-års fest kl 14, vilket betyder att vi ska äta lunch OCH FIKA där!! Tårta etc😳
Huge #recoverywin Har inte kompenserat NÅNTING idag trots gårdagen och vad som kommer idag!!
Ps. Får ni ångest av yoghurten på skeden? Det får jag😅😩😖
After STORIES ONCE AND FOR ALL: 1️⃣ and 2️⃣ are HEALTHY.
3️⃣ IS FAT (!)👏🏻
and no misunderstandings, bullshit or other possible use of this word ESPECIALLY followed by 'NOT GOOD.' NOT. On my. Account 😑✋🏻 GOOD-MORNING PEOPLE 💪🏻☀️ Let's start with some #motivation : do you have any other definition? 😛👆🏻
1. Telling someone who suffered of Anorexia 'right now you got fat' is hit into his/her state of mind.
2. Believing (and writing on a social) that a bare minimum healthy BMI looks 'fat' is DANGEROUS (and absurd; what the fuc* is the idea of HEALTH ?! 😳)
3. Anyway regardless all USING FAT AS 'WRONG' is nothing but BIG BULLSHIT.
And this culture's worst fault 💁🏼
- CHANGING doesn't mean 'getting fat.'
- Putting on weight doesn't mean 'becoming fat.'
- We HAVE fat we ARE NOT 'fat.'
And btw 'fat' is not the worst thing a woman can become (I'm way more scared of becoming that superficial and insensitive 😱🙄)
What to answer to someone who tells you that (?)🤔 stay united and keep spreading GOOD VIBES 👊🏻💌
▶️ EDIT: As regard yesterday, I already texted to most of you but I really don't know why ppl can be so mean 😓🔙 I was not worry for myself but it has been terrible to see girls around me ATTACKED by haters BECAUSE of me. I felt I a danger towards my followers and it has been even worse than being personally insulted. I don't know if it make sense but I hope I could explain myself 🙈 I'm beyond words thankful the #edsoldiers and couldn't stand that ❤️
I drew this at 4am this night when I couldn't sleep. If i eat during the day, no matter how small the portion, I cant sleep at night. First of all thats because of physical complaints I get. Tummy aches, cramps etc. I also get insane energy boosts out of pathetic little foods that keep me awake. Besides that theres the mental side. My state of mind when i eat gets worse at night. My thoughts and feelings keep me up. I've pulled many all-nighters and went to sleep the evening after. Anyways, do you guys have trouble sleeping too? I got sleeping meds, but they make me feel nauseous and dizzy throughout the next day so I don't really take them as I should.
had a cute little coffee date with my ma today. and had a mocha latte (huge recovery win) it tasted like fricken heaven y’all. i’ve been trying challenging myself to try all these foods that i’ve been missing out on. - remember recovery is worth it, and you deserve it. recover to drink fab coffee. so let’s crush her together. n have a good day☕️
Dear fellow anxious messes! Our @lauravennison has been working on a illustrative side project, separate to Not Plant Based, that you lot might be interested in. It’s a diary for those who suffer with #anxiety , and each month focuses on activities (writing, doodling, drawing, scrunching) aimed to aid an anxiety provoking topic. January focuses on dieting, and February on love and relationships. The first couple of months are up on #Etsy (the link to which you can find on her insty bio) if you’re interested in spending a couple of quid 😘😘😘
Very important reminder of what exercise should be: pleasure to maintain and use the extraordinary mother nature machine that is our body! Not punishment, or buying the right to eat « bad » food or any food. Thanks to @anna_k_mackay for this reminder, I needed this! go check her words about this! And thanks to @kristamurias for sharing. Please, dear sweet lovely readers, exercise only when pleasure is here, not for guilt! You deserve to eat food you like whenever your body tells you it is time to eat! There is no good or bad food, there is food and the need to eat! Do not minimize the impact of controlling food and rewarding yourself for a good controlling or not controlling and blaming yourself with mandatory exercise. Free yourself from these diet thoughts, learn to hear your body signs, your body will find its natural weight when you will be at peace with yourself and fully authorize you to eat with pleasure and exercise with pleasure! Enjoy the ride, this is not a rehearsal, this is really your life, YOURS. Take care 💜🧡❤️💙💛💚
Today I do not have a picture of dinner, because I relapsed. Throughout the day I was feeling more and more guilty about what I was consuming until I eventually just lost all control and purged.
I hate this... so unbelievably much. I don’t want to die, I want to experience the rest of my life but instead I’m not only seriously harming myself, I’m dragging my loved ones down with me. But at the same time I can’t stand the thought of gaining weight, it sends me into hysterics... I can’t handle this.
My parents try to understand and help but they can’t. Unless you have experienced an eating disorder you will never understand. I need them to work with me but they can’t.
Talking to my friends about it is super hard as well, it’s like some forbidden topic that everyone’s far to awkward to talk about and I feel like I have no one.
Schools starting back up really soon, and that means uniforms which freaks the absolute hell out of me. This means my whole body is just going to be on display for everyone to see... I’ve already had people tell me “You aren’t skinny enough to have anorexia” and “I can’t even see your bones” and although they are just meaningless words they really hit me hard.
Sorry for the rant😅 I know I will recover because I AM stronger than this. It’s just a kind of a two steps forward, three steps back kind of situation which people struggle with. Please be strong♥️💪🏻 Don’t let Ana win this.
First Bodycheck this year I post💫 I ate about 400kcal yesterday and this morning I weighted 59.1kg so my mood is pretty good right now. I skipped dinner but lunch will be a challenge because it’s going to be pancakes with salad and soup. I’m planning to eat some soup and one of the pancakes with lots of salad. I just don’t want to eat this fucking pancake🙄 it’s so oily and full of fat and carbs and calories and ugh. For dinner, I’ll eat half of a slice of full wheat bread with some vegetables. I think I‘ll stay at 400kcal even though this shitty pancake is going to ruin my mood. Wish you all a nice weekend💫
OMG!! Ich hab das gegessen und nicht nur einmal :0
Ich liebe warme Marshmellows.
Gestern hatte ich Therapie und es ging natürlich um mein Essverhalten. Ebenso darum das ich mich mehr um mich selbst kümmern soll. Puuh ich hasse das kennt ihr das auch ? Das es zu anstrengend ist auf sich selbst auf zu passen. 😧😖
Ach und ich will das dass Wochende einfach schnell vergeht. :/
🥥Weekend #BatchPrep Coconut and Lime Curry🥥
🙋♂️Morning everyone, I hope your weekend has started off with a win!
🛒So, at the start of the week I put up the shopping list for this zesty creamy curry and now here’s the recipe for nailing some big batches.
✌🏻✌🏻This batch represents 4 portions at around 550 calories each, so if you want to do more or less, just divide the ingredients by 4 and there’s your single portion to work from.
20ml sesame oil
600g chicken breast or thigh
4 sticks of lemongrass
600ml coconut milk
40 ml honey
40ml soy sauce
1 ½ tbsp chilli flakes
Large handful of coriander
450g cooked basmati rice
3 big handful of spinach
20g desiccated coconut
Batched calories: 2,200
Heat the sesame oil in a large non-stick frying pan and gently cook your chicken for 3-4 mins until nicely coloured on one side, turn the chicken over and turn the heat down.
Meanwhile make the sauce. In a bowl mix together the lime juice, lime peel, lemongrass, coconut milk, honey, soy sauce and chilli flakes. Give a good mix then pour in the pan with the chicken, gently simmer for 8-10 mins or until the chicken is cooked through. Finish the sauce by stirring through the desiccated coconut, spinach and fresh coriander.
Serve the chicken and sauce with a nice bowl of freshly cooked rice.
👃🏻This is such a delicious and simple curry to knock up in a big batch, throw everything in one pan and let it simmer away – the kitchen will smell so insane as well lol!
😋Hope you enjoy it and if you make it let me know what you think😋
REAL TALK: There’s no denying that I like taking selfies (you know, in case you haven’t realized by now). I’ve been into them since the MySpace era. A few things have changed since then, like the invention of the front-face camera & slightly more technologically advanced phones. But, one thing hasn’t really changed: I like selfies.
Last year around this time, the darkest & most dangerous period of my anorexia, suddenly, selfies were a rarity. My life became all about FOOD. Sadly, although I wished it was, that food wasn’t for me. My life became all about preparing beautiful & delicious food for others & vicariously feeding my brain & body through those actions. Making food for others was my way to compensate for the fact that no matter how badly I wanted to eat, ED didn’t let me. It was also a way for me to pass the time until my next permitted snack or meal. Cooking meant I could get my mind off of what I would eat & focus on what I would make for others. So, I cooked & baked my life away. I went to grocery stores for hours & bought food I didn’t eat but wished I could. I spent hours there to make the time go by & to subconsciously feed my mind through vision instead of nourishment. Little did I know that this fake form of nourishment was slowly killing me.
Selfies also became something I loathed cause contrary to popular belief, I absolutely HATED the way I looked. People with EDs are NOT VAIN. They’re not going through a fad/phase to look thin, bony, frail, lose their hair, grow a protective layer to keep them warm or to feel so weak they can hardly make it up a staircase. People with EDs look at themselves & they’re scared. Every reflection is a warning sign that their life is on the line, that they just might collapse & never make it out of ED’s trap. I hated how I looked so much that there were days where I made a conscious effort not to look at myself in the mirror, let alone reach for my phone & take a selfie. Every time I looked at myself, I was reminded of what I was doing to my body, how it was affecting those around me & how I was simply “too weak” to stop, even if I wanted to. Nobody likes to be reminded that they’re weak.
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👍🏻BACK TO JUST JUST WALKING... BUT THAT WAS OK👍🏻
🚶🏻♂️So, as I came to the end of Month 3, and to the half way point of my 6-month journey, I had to revert to just walking, due to pushing things a little too hard.
💪In the main though, I felt better from an injury perspective overall and actually for the majority of month 3, was able to do some boxing, battle ropes and, even a little light resistance work.
😊Walking for me was a great way to relax and, if you can’t do much training for whatever reason, using steps as a little daily target is a nice subtle way of keeping active.
🤔Looking back at this time and following on from my post earlier on in the week, I wonder how many people have put off or stopped something because they felt their current situation wasn’t ideal enough to begin.
🗣I hear this quite a lot when I speak with people, who are keen to lose weight or improve on their fitness. It seems like people are looking at their current lives and waiting for the “perfect” time to start something.
🤦🏻♂️There really is no perfect time to start anything. Yes, there may be a “better” time to do so, but that may not last for long or even happen in the end. I personally think one of the best times to start something is when things are NOT going well.
👌How about trying to work towards your goals when your life is pretty crap? Because if you are able to make positives steps towards achieving something when things are not great, you will build a tremendous resilience towards obstacles that come about later on down the line.
👩👦This is exactly what I did. My wife’s disability and my son’s chronic illness were at their worst. My stress levels at work were off the charts and my injuries were very painful had pretty much made me immobile.
🙂But, I chose that moment because it gave me something really positive to focus on and when I woke up each day, had this incredible sense of accomplishment.
🏆It’s important to be realistic and not set goals too high, but just achieving small things eventually add up to big wins and you will be so happy you started.
🤝So why not start something now…
👍🏻Have a Saturday day everyone👍🏻
Breakfast is 3 small bananas with soy milk. Today I have to go to the mall because I want to take a bag I bought back to the store and change it for another one. Then I'll probably go home and do nothing for the rest of the day... TW!!! Lunch will be difficult for me because I've been skipping whenever I go out since I can't find safe foods. I weighed myself today and I feel almost overweight. My weight has stayed the same the past couple days and I hate it. I've gained 15kg from my lowest. I know I should be happy I'm healthy. Sorry for being negative.
That was my #breakfast today.
I topped it with more chocolate & Flakes..now I'm so full and I'm feeling bad. :( We maybe wanted to go in the city and eat there, but I feel so bad. Idk, why.. but chocolate is a fear food and it was so much. .-. I know, that its good for myself, but I'm feeling so full.
Ciao a tutti, mi chiamo Antonella, ho 22 anni e sono una ragazza che ha sempre avuto problemi col cibo da quando ne aveva 15 ( passata da anoressia a ipo e iper tiroidismo, con 25 kg messi), negli anni sono riuscita a perderli in gran parte, ma ora da un 6 mesi ( con altri problemi non alimentari però) ho iniziato altri buttarmi sul cibo aumentando di 7 kg, ho deciso quindi di postare ciò che mangio, anche per non sentirmi sola in questo percorso :), mi piacerebbe comunque ascoltare se avete consigli o confronti
Day 1 : siccome mi sono svegliata tardissimo colazione con una galletta alla marmellata di fragole, the e due prugne secche