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Gonna go to the gym later... My thighs are ridiculously massive, they're the same size as my waist used to be 😬 I will get back to how I was. 
#eatingdisorder #ednos #weightloss #anamia #ana #mia #eddiary #anorexia #bulimia #fatty #fat #skinny #wannabethin #wannabeskinny
Hello! I haven’t posted in a couple days. I was feeling terrible and I don’t wanna fake positivity. But today’s a bit better. I had an epileptic attack last night and even though I slept for 13 hours, I’m still exhausted. But I’ll be fine!! Take care x
Hello! I haven’t posted in a couple days. I was feeling terrible and I don’t wanna fake positivity. But today’s a bit better. I had an epileptic attack last night and even though I slept for 13 hours, I’m still exhausted. But I’ll be fine!! Take care x
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dinner ☪︎
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✱チーズフォンデュ
✱パン・南瓜・さつま芋・ブロッコリー・キャベツ・
✱スパゲッティ
✱お魚(カレイ)
✱果物(みかん・グレープフルーツ・りんご・プルーン)
✱酸辣湯麺春雨(アカサカエイリンスーラータン)
✱ダノンビオ完熟ストロベリーヨーグルト(少し)
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写真+アイスと野菜チップス食べました ◎
春雨と南瓜とスパゲッティとキャベツは残してしまいましたが、ほとんど完食です。
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夜もあまり罪悪感なく食べられて本当に嬉しいです ⍤⃝♡
よく噛んで美味しいと思って食べられて良かった。
少し罪悪感はあるけど、死にたいくらいにはならなかったから ◎
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お魚のカレイが少し美味しかった!
やっぱりお魚好きっ。
ヨーグルトもイチゴの果肉が入ってて本当に美味しかった…
BIOのヨーグルト美味しいからおすすめです ︎☺︎
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今日はまたまた信頼している友達とお出掛けしてきました。
本当に本当に楽しかったです。
こんなに仲良くしてくれる子はなかなかいないので嬉しいし、いつも感謝してます。
悩みなのですが、その子に入院する事を伝えようか迷っています…
皆さんならどうしますか?
本当に迷っています。
意見くだされば嬉しいです。
コメントやDM待っています。
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#拒食 #拒食症 #拒食症克服 #拒食症克服中 #摂食 #摂食障害 #摂食障害克服 #摂食障害克服中 #鼻チューブ #鼻管 #経鼻栄養 #経管栄養 #栄養 #栄養剤 #辛い #入院 #病気 #病院 #体重 #体型 #精神科 #下剤 #下剤依存 #下剤乱用 #anorexia #eatingdisorder
  dinner ☪︎  ✱チーズフォンデュ ✱パン・南瓜・さつま芋・ブロッコリー・キャベツ・ ✱スパゲッティ ✱お魚(カレイ) ✱果物(みかん・グレープフルーツ・りんご・プルーン) ✱酸辣湯麺春雨(アカサカエイリンスーラータン) ✱ダノンビオ完熟ストロベリーヨーグルト(少し)  写真+アイスと野菜チップス食べました ◎ 春雨と南瓜とスパゲッティとキャベツは残してしまいましたが、ほとんど完食です。  夜もあまり罪悪感なく食べられて本当に嬉しいです ⍤⃝♡ よく噛んで美味しいと思って食べられて良かった。 少し罪悪感はあるけど、死にたいくらいにはならなかったから ◎  お魚のカレイが少し美味しかった! やっぱりお魚好きっ。 ヨーグルトもイチゴの果肉が入ってて本当に美味しかった… BIOのヨーグルト美味しいからおすすめです ︎☺︎  今日はまたまた信頼している友達とお出掛けしてきました。 本当に本当に楽しかったです。 こんなに仲良くしてくれる子はなかなかいないので嬉しいし、いつも感謝してます。 悩みなのですが、その子に入院する事を伝えようか迷っています… 皆さんならどうしますか? 本当に迷っています。 意見くだされば嬉しいです。 コメントやDM待っています。   #拒食  #拒食症  #拒食症克服  #拒食症克服中  #摂食  #摂食障害  #摂食障害克服  #摂食障害克服中  #鼻チューブ  #鼻管  #経鼻栄養  #経管栄養  #栄養  #栄養剤  #辛い  #入院  #病気  #病院  #体重  #体型  #精神科  #下剤  #下剤依存  #下剤乱用  #anorexia  #eatingdisorder 
Agreed. No one can hurt you if you're alone. ♥
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Done this awful drawing, I know this is so bad, just wanna post it. Never draw in pen if you not sure what you're drawing. 
Staying in medical two days ago, they not even make me feeling better, kinda worse.
Hopefully I will be back at 2 or tea.

#sad #depression #depressed #anxiety #worried #anxious #tired #worthless #wierd #selfhate #fat #sick #disgusting #awful #boring #bored #awfuldrawing #drawing #crying #eatingdisorder #mentalillness
Einkauf von vorgestern. 
Hab mich die tage wieder geschnitten. War auch im kh und wurde genäht. Mir gehts zur zeit überwiegend Grotten schlecht. 
Und wenns mir mal gut geht dann sind das vielleicht 15min. 
Naja. Egal. 
#binge #bingefood #bingeeating #bingepurge #purge #eatingdisorder #essstörung #borderline #borderlinepersonality #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #cut #cutting #cutmyself #svv #selfharm #scars #ptbs #flashbacks #hatemyself #dissoziation
I use marijuana to help with my #ptsd and #anorexia and #bipolar disorders. ❤️🌺❤️ #kitty #bong #marlboro #cowboykillers #reds #blackcat #spookykitty #anorexic #homeremedy #stayhigh #ednos #ed #eatingdisorder #ana #ed
-Life planning for my future👼🙂 Nursing or translation/language ?
Actually I just want to be normal yup recovery for normal 其實自己一個都可以生存落去 回顧中彷彿一步一生
每一級一世都難忘 如何吸引
曾碰上每個過路人 跟我漸行漸遠
懸崖上我始終都企穩 #以前成日以前自己會做老師#但今日追求既野已經唔同#staystrong#my#goldbrownhair#anorexia#life#university#choices #beateatingdisorder#anarecovery#skinny#skinnylove#lovemyself#thin#healthy#reborn#gainweight#eatingdisorder #edrecovery#厭食#寶寶#black#mentalhealth#gainweight#ptsd#borderlinerecovery
-Life planning for my future👼🙂 Nursing or translation/language ? Actually I just want to be normal yup recovery for normal 其實自己一個都可以生存落去 回顧中彷彿一步一生 每一級一世都難忘 如何吸引 曾碰上每個過路人 跟我漸行漸遠 懸崖上我始終都企穩 #以前成日以前自己會做老師 #但今日追求既野已經唔同 #staystrong #my #goldbrownhair #anorexia #life #university #choices  #beateatingdisorder #anarecovery #skinny #skinnylove #lovemyself #thin #healthy #reborn #gainweight #eatingdisorder  #edrecovery #厭食 #寶寶 #black #mentalhealth #gainweight #ptsd #borderlinerecovery 
PTW
Breakfast today was a banana sprinkled with a few almonds and some coconut chips. I really didn't wanna eat anything for breakfast cause I felt like I'd eaten too much yesterday, so the fact that I managed to eat just a little bit is progress, I guess. A few weeks ago I probably would have just "forgotten" about it and wouldn't have eaten breakfast. Even though I've been vegan this week, I'm still struggling occasionally, but it's been less than normal, so I'm pretty sure I'm gonna continue being vegan after this week. 🌸
PTW Breakfast today was a banana sprinkled with a few almonds and some coconut chips. I really didn't wanna eat anything for breakfast cause I felt like I'd eaten too much yesterday, so the fact that I managed to eat just a little bit is progress, I guess. A few weeks ago I probably would have just "forgotten" about it and wouldn't have eaten breakfast. Even though I've been vegan this week, I'm still struggling occasionally, but it's been less than normal, so I'm pretty sure I'm gonna continue being vegan after this week. 🌸
Ziemlich bescheidene Lichtverhältnisse, aber gestern Abend war es schon dunkel und so musste ich mein Abendessen halt zusätzlich mit Blitz fotografieren. Der Vorteil, keiner ist neidisch und würde es mir klauen, denn es sieht #bäh aus, war aber mega lecker und soo einfach😍 Gefüllte Tortellini auf Salat. Und genau das wird es heute Abend nochmal geben☺️Später fahre ich wieder zum reiten, da freu ich mich schon mega drauf, weil es mir einfach so viel Spaß macht und total gut tut. In meiner Therapie am Donnerstag habe ich festgestellt, dass mir momentan nicht viel Halt gibt.. Das klingt ziemlich traurig, aber mit dem Reiten habe ich eine Kleinigkeit für mich entdeckt, die mir dies doch auf eine Art und Weise gibt. Deswegen hoffe ich, dass es weiterhin genau so toll sein wird. UND ehe ich es vergesse: Es wird ein Kaninchen😍Das gibt es aber noch nicht, ich muss erst das passende finden:) Habt ihr Haustiere?😍
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#anawho #edfighter #anawarrior #antiana #anorexia #anorexic #anorexianervosa #anorexianervosarecovery #ed #svv #edfamily #edrecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #instagood #recovery #recoveryisworthit #magersucht #mentalillness #instadaily #mentalhealth
Ziemlich bescheidene Lichtverhältnisse, aber gestern Abend war es schon dunkel und so musste ich mein Abendessen halt zusätzlich mit Blitz fotografieren. Der Vorteil, keiner ist neidisch und würde es mir klauen, denn es sieht #bäh  aus, war aber mega lecker und soo einfach😍 Gefüllte Tortellini auf Salat. Und genau das wird es heute Abend nochmal geben☺️Später fahre ich wieder zum reiten, da freu ich mich schon mega drauf, weil es mir einfach so viel Spaß macht und total gut tut. In meiner Therapie am Donnerstag habe ich festgestellt, dass mir momentan nicht viel Halt gibt.. Das klingt ziemlich traurig, aber mit dem Reiten habe ich eine Kleinigkeit für mich entdeckt, die mir dies doch auf eine Art und Weise gibt. Deswegen hoffe ich, dass es weiterhin genau so toll sein wird. UND ehe ich es vergesse: Es wird ein Kaninchen😍Das gibt es aber noch nicht, ich muss erst das passende finden:) Habt ihr Haustiere?😍 . . . #anawho  #edfighter  #anawarrior  #antiana  #anorexia  #anorexic  #anorexianervosa  #anorexianervosarecovery  #ed  #svv  #edfamily  #edrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #instagood  #recovery  #recoveryisworthit  #magersucht  #mentalillness  #instadaily  #mentalhealth 
Favourite breakfast/snack at the moment ♥️ @alpro frothed unsweetened almond drink, artificial sweetener and cinnamon 🙊 soo good
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#anorexianervosa #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosarecovery #edwarrior #edfamily #edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #depression #depressed  #lawstudent #university #foodisfuel #vegetables #cleaneating #vegan #veganism #veganrecipes #chailatte #cinnamonspice #almondmilk #alprosoya #starbucks #autumn #fall #winter #cozy
Favourite breakfast/snack at the moment ♥️ @alpro frothed unsweetened almond drink, artificial sweetener and cinnamon 🙊 soo good . . . #anorexianervosa  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexia  #anorexianervosarecovery  #edwarrior  #edfamily  #edrecovery  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #depression  #depressed  #lawstudent  #university  #foodisfuel  #vegetables  #cleaneating  #vegan  #veganism  #veganrecipes  #chailatte  #cinnamonspice  #almondmilk  #alprosoya  #starbucks  #autumn  #fall  #winter  #cozy 
Questa è la SICILIA !!!!"gradite un pò di crudo ? " "si giusto un assaggino!" #friends#fridaynight#love#live#like#italia#siciliabedda#sicilian#catania#fish#follow#drink#eat#eatingdisorder#
Wish this was me😭 goalllllls 😍😍
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Hey leute habe heute morgen  2 Pfannkuchen  mit zimt und zucker gegessen. .die waren sehr lecker auch wenn sie nicht so aussehen 😂#food #recoverygoals #recoveryisworthit #recoveryfromed #ed #gesundwerden #food #essen #anorexia #eatingdisorder #recovery #essstörung #recoveryisworthit
Really worried about everything in my life... Including the fact that my throat hurts so fucking much 
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I just want to introduce myself
🌸Hello(  I don't want to say my name because I fear someone recognize me).I'm 19 and since 9 I have anorexia,actually since I was younger than this I had some  anorexia behaviors, but I realized that it was actually anorexia since 9, and suffering anxiety and depression .Like 3 weeks ago I started to try to recover because I just couldn't handle eating a pea and being bloated,and unable to use my clothes because I have to use baggy clothes to no one see my bones ,and all the anxiety around food and not eating almost anything anymore because It makes me "feel full" or is "unhealthy" and fearing to drink water. (TW!!) I'm  5'02 fts and I reached 51 pounds now after this weeks I'm 52,9 pounds.
I still don't know if I'm making the right choice I don't know if I really need this , and I'm freaking afraid of everything .But I'm here.. trying 🌻 I made this account to not feel so alone and lost on this jouney.
#anorexia #anorexianervosa #anorexiarecovery #orthorexianervosa #orthorexia #recovery #ed #eatingdisorder #mentalillness #edfighter #edwarrior #depression #marshmallow #pop #candy #food
I just want to introduce myself 🌸Hello( I don't want to say my name because I fear someone recognize me).I'm 19 and since 9 I have anorexia,actually since I was younger than this I had some anorexia behaviors, but I realized that it was actually anorexia since 9, and suffering anxiety and depression .Like 3 weeks ago I started to try to recover because I just couldn't handle eating a pea and being bloated,and unable to use my clothes because I have to use baggy clothes to no one see my bones ,and all the anxiety around food and not eating almost anything anymore because It makes me "feel full" or is "unhealthy" and fearing to drink water. (TW!!) I'm 5'02 fts and I reached 51 pounds now after this weeks I'm 52,9 pounds. I still don't know if I'm making the right choice I don't know if I really need this , and I'm freaking afraid of everything .But I'm here.. trying 🌻 I made this account to not feel so alone and lost on this jouney. #anorexia  #anorexianervosa  #anorexiarecovery  #orthorexianervosa  #orthorexia  #recovery  #ed  #eatingdisorder  #mentalillness  #edfighter  #edwarrior  #depression  #marshmallow  #pop  #candy  #food 
Ive stayed in bed all day what a lazy fuck I am 
This could be me if I lost some weight 😫
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When I feel like I can't keep on my fast I think and look at this. One day this will be me.
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Guys omg, I did something that I haven't done for more than a year ...
I TASTED SOMETHING OUT OF MY MEAL PLAN !!!
I'm so proud of myself and idc if the photo looks crappy, I did it !!!
My mother offered me this and I was shaking but she insisted and the look on her face when I took that fckng straw and had a small sip has no price.
Guys live the life, it's so worth it !!!
#anarecovery#anawarrior #eatingdisorderwarrior #anorexia#eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #ed#edwarrior #anorexianervosa #strongnotskinny#nourishtoflourish #2fab4ana #edsoldier #edfamily #anorexiarecovery
Guys omg, I did something that I haven't done for more than a year ... I TASTED SOMETHING OUT OF MY MEAL PLAN !!! I'm so proud of myself and idc if the photo looks crappy, I did it !!! My mother offered me this and I was shaking but she insisted and the look on her face when I took that fckng straw and had a small sip has no price. Guys live the life, it's so worth it !!! #anarecovery #anawarrior  #eatingdisorderwarrior  #anorexia #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #ed #edwarrior  #anorexianervosa  #strongnotskinny #nourishtoflourish  #2fab4ana  #edsoldier  #edfamily  #anorexiarecovery 
Lost 800 grams today and I think the weight is broken(?) bcause I ate about 900..
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Picture: 70g cucumber (10), 30g yellow bell pepper (8) and 130g 3% cottage cheese (100).
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#breakfast #calories #food #fat #ugly #skinny #thin #healthinspo #gap #weight #weightloss #sadness #depression #life #fucklife #thin #eatingdisorder #ed #anorexia #ana #goals #dreams #cucumber #healthyfood #vegetables #morning #thighgap #tothebone
Breakfast is a breakfast biscuit again bc this has become a safe food tbh 😌 I’m not sure what I’m doing today, might be going to the cinema with mum!! (Has anyone seen daddy’s home 2) is it good?? Anyway I hope you all have a lovely day!! ❤️
Breakfast is a breakfast biscuit again bc this has become a safe food tbh 😌 I’m not sure what I’m doing today, might be going to the cinema with mum!! (Has anyone seen daddy’s home 2) is it good?? Anyway I hope you all have a lovely day!! ❤️
#fooddiary 17. November 2017

#Breakfast porridge and kiwi

#Lunch protein bar and latte Macchiato 
#dinner apple and a whole fcking pizza :/ #ana #mia #edfamily #toofat #neverskinny #tattoo #girl #fattie #anorexia #bulimia #ed #eatingdisorder #disgusting #fat #fatso #whale
На завтрак творог с сахзамом, зелёный чай и дохуя кефира на заднем плане. Вышло 513 ккал. Чувствую тяжесть и хочется проблеватся. Но нет.
Сейчас пойду поиграю на клавире, а потом буду пить зелёный чаёк и залипать на какой нибудь сериальчик☺
Всем хороших выходных, отдохните кошечки мои♥
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#рпп #анорексия #рекавери #набираювес #голод #еда #та #булимия #анорексичка #anorexia  #recovery #bulimia #eat #ed #edfighter #eatingdisorder #пп #ип #худею #мирдолжензнатьчтояем #наборвеса #фудпорн #фудблог #фудблогер #дневникпитания #диета #калории #food #instafood #foodblog
На завтрак творог с сахзамом, зелёный чай и дохуя кефира на заднем плане. Вышло 513 ккал. Чувствую тяжесть и хочется проблеватся. Но нет. Сейчас пойду поиграю на клавире, а потом буду пить зелёный чаёк и залипать на какой нибудь сериальчик☺ Всем хороших выходных, отдохните кошечки мои♥ . . . #рпп  #анорексия  #рекавери  #набираювес  #голод  #еда  #та  #булимия  #анорексичка  #anorexia   #recovery  #bulimia  #eat  #ed  #edfighter  #eatingdisorder  #пп  #ип  #худею  #мирдолжензнатьчтояем  #наборвеса  #фудпорн  #фудблог  #фудблогер  #дневникпитания  #диета  #калории  #food  #instafood  #foodblog 
#buonpranzo a tutte 😍😍😍 questa pasta semintegrale è buonissima 😍😍😍
#pranzoitaliano #pranzosano #eatsmart #eatclean #ana #anafighter #anorexia #pesce #pasta #rucola #proteine #foodie #cucinare #foodporn #food #eating #eatingdisorder #fooddiary
Вкусный борщик от бабушки😋 ммммммммм так скучалааа💕💕💕
Вкусный борщик от бабушки😋 ммммммммм так скучалааа💕💕💕
Lunch today 👉 roasted bellpepper #soup with a glas of #proviva 🤔 ~ #grandma is talking about food while we eat and it made me so uncomfortable. Well, that is something i have to #practice on and normalise in the future 😉

#lunch #bellpepper #tomato #sidesallad #juice #berry #meal #liquid #grandparents #anorexia #eatingdisorder #realeatingdisorder #anxiety #motivation #recovery #weightrestoring #fighter #trying #fuckanorexia #fuckfood #life
Lunch today 👉 roasted bellpepper #soup  with a glas of #proviva  🤔 ~ #grandma  is talking about food while we eat and it made me so uncomfortable. Well, that is something i have to #practice  on and normalise in the future 😉 #lunch  #bellpepper  #tomato  #sidesallad  #juice  #berry  #meal  #liquid  #grandparents  #anorexia  #eatingdisorder  #realeatingdisorder  #anxiety  #motivation  #recovery  #weightrestoring  #fighter  #trying  #fuckanorexia  #fuckfood  #life 
Buongiornooooooooo🍞🍯🍴🥛
Pan bauletto integrale bello tostato con marmellata di arance amare e marmellata di ribes... Poi il mio bel bicchiere di latte caldo e il tè nero nella mia super tazza @mrwonderful_it CHE IL SABATO ABBIA INIZIOOOOOO!!!
Can you make your daily morning exercise into a part of something you already do in the morning?

If you can, get off one station before your normal stop for work and walk the rest of the way, and do this every morning. Going to work is already part of your daily routine, so alter it a bit to add some daily exercising fun.
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#food #edrecovery #lunch #dinner #ciboitaliano #fitness #iifym #diarioalimentare #lasagna #edfamily #ihbcommunity #healthyfood #sharefood #eatingdisorder #ana #anarecovery #bestrong #dailyispiration #foodporn #cibo #pranzodomenicale #famiglia #pranzoitaliano #cena #snack #breakfast #snacks
Buongiornooooooooo🍞🍯🍴🥛 Pan bauletto integrale bello tostato con marmellata di arance amare e marmellata di ribes... Poi il mio bel bicchiere di latte caldo e il tè nero nella mia super tazza @mrwonderful_it CHE IL SABATO ABBIA INIZIOOOOOO!!! Can you make your daily morning exercise into a part of something you already do in the morning? If you can, get off one station before your normal stop for work and walk the rest of the way, and do this every morning. Going to work is already part of your daily routine, so alter it a bit to add some daily exercising fun. . #food  #edrecovery  #lunch  #dinner  #ciboitaliano  #fitness  #iifym  #diarioalimentare  #lasagna  #edfamily  #ihbcommunity  #healthyfood  #sharefood  #eatingdisorder  #ana  #anarecovery  #bestrong  #dailyispiration  #foodporn  #cibo  #pranzodomenicale  #famiglia  #pranzoitaliano  #cena  #snack  #breakfast  #snacks 
61.9kg yesterday 
I felt really fat in this #outfit and everything is just shitty atm... #ana #mia #edfamily #toofat #neverskinny #tattoo #girl #fattie #weightloss #legs #belly #purge #binge #anorexia #bulimia #ed #eatingdisorder #disgusting #fat #fatso #whale
Handsome ♥️@beingsalmankhan #@amitabhbachchan @beingsalmankhan @tamannaahspeaks @azhar5384 @grazinggoatpictures @beingsalmankhan @justinbieber #b @#hsr #chocolate #chocolate #eatingdisorder #df #isiss #äss #gyakusou #pagalpanti #vape #vartika #vartika @vartikacools99 @varundvn @varundvn @sweet_vartika ,#vape #marriage #var #farmersmarket #vanlife #x
Today I'm celebrating my birthday with my family so I'm at my father's house. We're having self made pizza for lunch and later cake😍❤️ days ago I was planning how much I could eat today but now I don't care. I'll eat as much as I want! I wasted to many days of my life with anorexia and but I'll enjoy more days with a healthy mind. I know what I'm fighting for and I'm grateful for my life, my family for recovery.
I hope you have a lovely day. Take care of you and don't listen to the voice inside your head. It is just an illusion, nothing which deserves to have control about you.
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#ana #anarecovery #aneroxia  #aneroxianerviosa #aneroxie #aneroxiarecovery #ed #eatingdisorder #edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #fuckyouana  #fuckyoued #eatforlife #loveyourself #healthynotskinny #edwarrior #recovery #recoveryispossible #food #realrecovery #fearfood #badbodyimagetoday
Today I'm celebrating my birthday with my family so I'm at my father's house. We're having self made pizza for lunch and later cake😍❤️ days ago I was planning how much I could eat today but now I don't care. I'll eat as much as I want! I wasted to many days of my life with anorexia and but I'll enjoy more days with a healthy mind. I know what I'm fighting for and I'm grateful for my life, my family for recovery. I hope you have a lovely day. Take care of you and don't listen to the voice inside your head. It is just an illusion, nothing which deserves to have control about you. ❤️ #ana  #anarecovery  #aneroxia  #aneroxianerviosa  #aneroxie  #aneroxiarecovery  #ed  #eatingdisorder  #edrecovery  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #fuckyouana  #fuckyoued  #eatforlife  #loveyourself  #healthynotskinny  #edwarrior  #recovery  #recoveryispossible  #food  #realrecovery  #fearfood  #badbodyimagetoday 
Been fasting for almost 16 hours. Just 8 more and I've finally had a 24 hour fast for the first time in soooooo long😊
#skinny#skinnygirl#thin#thinspo#ana#proana#anorexia#bulimia#eatingdisorder#depression#anxiety#mentaldisorder#mentalhealth
@grenadeofficial Dark chocolate Mint bar for morning snack 👌🏼 first time trying this flavour and it didn’t disappoint! Recommend by @peanutbutterinprogress 💚 Been for a nice walk this morning and now chilling before lunch and then off out this afternoon! #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #edrecovery #recovery #nourishtoflourish #healthoverbones #strongnotskinny #gains #girlgains #healthy #health #fitness #positivity #motivation #newday #lifestyleblogger #foodblogger #grenade #chocolate #protein #postworkout #mint #foodie #chocolatelover #love
@grenadeofficial Dark chocolate Mint bar for morning snack 👌🏼 first time trying this flavour and it didn’t disappoint! Recommend by @peanutbutterinprogress 💚 Been for a nice walk this morning and now chilling before lunch and then off out this afternoon! #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #edrecovery  #recovery  #nourishtoflourish  #healthoverbones  #strongnotskinny  #gains  #girlgains  #healthy  #health  #fitness  #positivity  #motivation  #newday  #lifestyleblogger  #foodblogger  #grenade  #chocolate  #protein  #postworkout  #mint  #foodie  #chocolatelover  #love 
Very bad Picture but I'm home and this is lunch 🍴
Very bad Picture but I'm home and this is lunch 🍴
Hey♥

als späten #morningsnack gab es 1 zartbitter lebkuchen, 1 kleinen lion riegel und ein snickers *-* Ja heute hatte der snack viel mit schokolade zu tun XD (hatte sogar noch ein kakao siehe story). Aber ich hatte irgendwie lust auf lion und snickers also hab ich sie mir geholt :3

Nur sollte ich mir mal angewöhnen meinen morningsnack etwas früher zu mir zu nehmen, da ich ja für gewöhnlich um halb eins oder eins zu mittag esse ._. 
Aber egal....ich verschiebe die uhrzeit nicht nur weil ich gerade den snack hatte!★ ich weiß dass der körper nahrung braucht, also gebe ich sie ihm! Und das solltet ihr auch!★♥ Dann bis gleich ihr süßen♥

#eatingdisorderrecovery
#eatingdisorder #eatittobeatit #strongnotskinny #staystrong #food #fooddiary #weighttowin #weightgain #lifeisbeautiful #loveyourself #recoverygirl #recoverwin #ana #mia #anafighter #miafighter #anawarrior #miawarrior #fuckana #fuckmia #essstörung #magersucht #bulumie #anarecovery #miarecovery
Hey♥ als späten #morningsnack  gab es 1 zartbitter lebkuchen, 1 kleinen lion riegel und ein snickers *-* Ja heute hatte der snack viel mit schokolade zu tun XD (hatte sogar noch ein kakao siehe story). Aber ich hatte irgendwie lust auf lion und snickers also hab ich sie mir geholt :3 Nur sollte ich mir mal angewöhnen meinen morningsnack etwas früher zu mir zu nehmen, da ich ja für gewöhnlich um halb eins oder eins zu mittag esse ._. Aber egal....ich verschiebe die uhrzeit nicht nur weil ich gerade den snack hatte!★ ich weiß dass der körper nahrung braucht, also gebe ich sie ihm! Und das solltet ihr auch!★♥ Dann bis gleich ihr süßen♥ #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #eatittobeatit  #strongnotskinny  #staystrong  #food  #fooddiary  #weighttowin  #weightgain  #lifeisbeautiful  #loveyourself  #recoverygirl  #recoverwin  #ana  #mia  #anafighter  #miafighter  #anawarrior  #miawarrior  #fuckana  #fuckmia  #essstörung  #magersucht  #bulumie  #anarecovery  #miarecovery 
Hallo ihr lieben💗
Hier mal ein Schnappschuss von mir. Ja, auf diesem Bild hat man mich nicht gerade vorteilhaft getroffen, aber ich war glücklich in diesem Moment und ich denke das sieht man auch. 
Vergesst nie, euch an die Momente eures Lebens zu erinnern, an denen ir Spaß hattet, an denen es euch gut ging oder an denen ihr glücklich wart. Auch wenn es noch so wenige sind. Ich hab es in der Klinik gelernt und bin dabei es zu üben. In dunklen Zeiten is es umso schwerer, sich an gutes zu erinnern, aber nur wenn man es hartnäckig versucht, kann es öfter klappen!
Ihr seid alle wundervolle Personen! Bleibt stark💗💗💗
#fight #recovery #bps #eatingdisorder #svv
Hallo ihr lieben💗 Hier mal ein Schnappschuss von mir. Ja, auf diesem Bild hat man mich nicht gerade vorteilhaft getroffen, aber ich war glücklich in diesem Moment und ich denke das sieht man auch. Vergesst nie, euch an die Momente eures Lebens zu erinnern, an denen ir Spaß hattet, an denen es euch gut ging oder an denen ihr glücklich wart. Auch wenn es noch so wenige sind. Ich hab es in der Klinik gelernt und bin dabei es zu üben. In dunklen Zeiten is es umso schwerer, sich an gutes zu erinnern, aber nur wenn man es hartnäckig versucht, kann es öfter klappen! Ihr seid alle wundervolle Personen! Bleibt stark💗💗💗 #fight  #recovery  #bps  #eatingdisorder  #svv 
11.18 Dinner
今日からは黒米とハトムギと長芋のおかゆです😎
おかゆって言っても3倍粥のほぼ軟飯状態だけど、ご飯に比べるとやっぱりこっちの方が消化しやすくて胃腸に負担かからない😇
#eatingdisorder#eatingdisorderrecovery#anorexia#anxiety#edfighter#edwarrior#fooddiary#fightinged#everythingwillbeok#摂食障害#拒食症#摂食障害克服#摂食障害克服中#拒食症克服#拒食症克服中#食事記録#キムチ納豆#ラー油きくらげ#かぼちゃの煮物#らっきょう#黒米とハトムギと長芋のお粥
11.18 Dinner 今日からは黒米とハトムギと長芋のおかゆです😎 おかゆって言っても3倍粥のほぼ軟飯状態だけど、ご飯に比べるとやっぱりこっちの方が消化しやすくて胃腸に負担かからない😇 #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #anorexia #anxiety #edfighter #edwarrior #fooddiary #fightinged #everythingwillbeok #摂食障害 #拒食症 #摂食障害克服 #摂食障害克服中 #拒食症克服 #拒食症克服中 #食事記録 #キムチ納豆 #ラー油きくらげ #かぼちゃの煮物 #らっきょう #黒米とハトムギと長芋のお粥 
My mother saw me in a pullover that made me look thinner than I actually am and now she keeps talking about that I should gain weight
My mother saw me in a pullover that made me look thinner than I actually am and now she keeps talking about that I should gain weight
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Some recovery wisdom for the weekend.
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It's not about the food. It's not about weight. It's not about meal plans. It's all about letting go of the past. Forgiving yourself, forgiving others and moving on. It's about looking to the future, allowing yourself to hope and dream, to make plans. To imagine a life where you're healthy, free from your illnesses and thriving. Happy. Recovered.
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But you need to really want it and it needs to come from the heart. You can't be forced and no one can do it for you. You can be helped and supported but only you can recover when you're ready and at a pace that's right for you.
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If you're not truly ready to recover then be honest with yourself and wait for your time. Better to accept you're not ready and explore the reasons why than to keep setting yourself up to fail.
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But at the true heart of recovery is self care. Recovery comes from the heart and for it to be meaningful you have to start looking after yourself and talking to yourself the way you would to someone you love deeply. And loving yourself will naturally follow on.
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Self care, self love and respect are at the core of recovery and are the route towards healing. Make today the day you start making your recovery a priority ✨💖💫
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#sherecovers #recovery #chooserecovery #selfcare #selflove #loveyourself #takegoodcareofyourself #makepeacewithyourpast #chooseyourownpath #looktothefuture #babysteps  #recoverycomesfirst
. . Some recovery wisdom for the weekend. . It's not about the food. It's not about weight. It's not about meal plans. It's all about letting go of the past. Forgiving yourself, forgiving others and moving on. It's about looking to the future, allowing yourself to hope and dream, to make plans. To imagine a life where you're healthy, free from your illnesses and thriving. Happy. Recovered. . But you need to really want it and it needs to come from the heart. You can't be forced and no one can do it for you. You can be helped and supported but only you can recover when you're ready and at a pace that's right for you. . If you're not truly ready to recover then be honest with yourself and wait for your time. Better to accept you're not ready and explore the reasons why than to keep setting yourself up to fail. . But at the true heart of recovery is self care. Recovery comes from the heart and for it to be meaningful you have to start looking after yourself and talking to yourself the way you would to someone you love deeply. And loving yourself will naturally follow on. . Self care, self love and respect are at the core of recovery and are the route towards healing. Make today the day you start making your recovery a priority ✨💖💫 . . . #sherecovers  #recovery  #chooserecovery  #selfcare  #selflove  #loveyourself  #takegoodcareofyourself  #makepeacewithyourpast  #chooseyourownpath  #looktothefuture  #babysteps  #recoverycomesfirst 
Up to 94.4kg or nearly 15 stone , put on 6.5kg in just over a month , winter bulk 😂heaviest I’ve been in a long time 💪🏻 #gym #bulk #saturday #cut #muscle #winter #food #gains #eatingdisorder #bulking #fatty #heavy #weightlifting #bulksgym #protein
SWE: Till #frukost i morse gjorde mamma det vanliga, hällakulla med smör, kalkon skiva, gurka o tomat🥒🍅, yoghurt med havreringar, hallon🍓 och medicin på. Proviva och kaffe!💪🏼🙂 idag är det lördag och vi ska ha ett leende på läpparna och ha positiva tankar!🤛🏼💗😇
-( jag glömde igen fota mitt m/s🙌🏻.. Men det är för att jag blir så trött på förmiddagen av mina mediciner som jag tar till frukosten.🙌🏻.. Men mamma gjorde det vanliga till m/s. 👆🏼sån likadan macka, 1 päron🍐, 1 glas Vatten och ND med choklad smak🍫!)-
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-(🙌🏻 I forgot to take a picture on my #morningsnack, and the reason is that I get so tired of my medicine I take with the breakfast!.. But the snack was a sandwich like 👆🏼that one, 1 pear🍐, glass of water and one ND with chocolate flavor🍫🙌🏻)-
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#yum#anorexia#recovery#fuckanorexia#nervosa#eatingdisorder#recovering#win#anorexiarecovery#sweden#fuckana#eatingdisorderrecovery#ed#bestrong#ätstörning#foodislife#eatingdisorderrecovery#edwarrior#edfamily#foodisfuel#realrecovery#foodporn#instalike#instafood#morning#follow##foodpics
SWE: Till #frukost  i morse gjorde mamma det vanliga, hällakulla med smör, kalkon skiva, gurka o tomat🥒🍅, yoghurt med havreringar, hallon🍓 och medicin på. Proviva och kaffe!💪🏼🙂 idag är det lördag och vi ska ha ett leende på läpparna och ha positiva tankar!🤛🏼💗😇 -( jag glömde igen fota mitt m/s🙌🏻.. Men det är för att jag blir så trött på förmiddagen av mina mediciner som jag tar till frukosten.🙌🏻.. Men mamma gjorde det vanliga till m/s. 👆🏼sån likadan macka, 1 päron🍐, 1 glas Vatten och ND med choklad smak🍫!)- • ~ •ENG: For #breakfast  this morning my mom made me the usual, 1 sandwich with butter, turkey slice, cucumber and tomato🥒🍅, yoghurt whit cereal, raspberries🍓 and medicine on top. Juice🍹and coffee☕️. 💪🏼🙂. Today it is #saturday  and we will have positive energy and a smile on the face!🤛🏼💗😇 -(🙌🏻 I forgot to take a picture on my #morningsnack , and the reason is that I get so tired of my medicine I take with the breakfast!.. But the snack was a sandwich like 👆🏼that one, 1 pear🍐, glass of water and one ND with chocolate flavor🍫🙌🏻)- - - - #yum #anorexia #recovery #fuckanorexia #nervosa #eatingdisorder #recovering #win #anorexiarecovery #sweden #fuckana #eatingdisorderrecovery #ed #bestrong #ätstörning #foodislife #eatingdisorderrecovery #edwarrior #edfamily #foodisfuel #realrecovery #foodporn #instalike #instafood #morning #follow ##foodpics 
This was my snack before training that I really didn’t want because I was upset with mum. But I still had it, I felt super dizzy and sat out most of my training!! I feel so bad because I missed Thursday aswell!! #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #mentalillness #selflove #fighting #fightingdemons #food #happiness #eatingdisorderrecovery #lunch #dinner #breakfast #champion #eatingdisorder #ED #recovery #lifeisbeautiful
What is anxiety? Feeling anxious in certain situations can help us avoid danger, triggering our 'fight or flight' response. It is how we’ve evolved to keep ourselves safe. Sometimes though, we can become overly worried about perceived threats – bad things that may or may not happen. When your worries are persistent or out of proportion to the reality of the threat, and get in the way of you living your life, you may have an anxiety disorder. What type of anxiety do you have? #quote #positive #positivethinking #mentalhealth #mentalillness #lemons #depression #anxiety #eatingdisorder #personalitydisorder #selfharn
What is anxiety? Feeling anxious in certain situations can help us avoid danger, triggering our 'fight or flight' response. It is how we’ve evolved to keep ourselves safe. Sometimes though, we can become overly worried about perceived threats – bad things that may or may not happen. When your worries are persistent or out of proportion to the reality of the threat, and get in the way of you living your life, you may have an anxiety disorder. What type of anxiety do you have? #quote  #positive  #positivethinking  #mentalhealth  #mentalillness  #lemons  #depression  #anxiety  #eatingdisorder  #personalitydisorder  #selfharn 
My mother bought me this huge disney comic because I jus't can't read my books anymore I can't focus and my depression doesn't cope ,so she said maybe I should try to read a comic first ,that is more easy to read,and and then try to read a real book again ,but it's not really working 😓 I'm finding the same difficulty to focus on this.I feel bad because she was so excited about this.I used to read a very thick book very quickly now I can't read a single comic.
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Another thing that happened today is that my mother bought peanuts ro make a peanut butter ,and I'm so afraid ,when we leaved the market with the bag of peanuts I started to have a anxiety atack 😥Peanuts in general is a freaking fear since I was little .😔
#anorexianervosa #anorexia #anorexiarexovery #ed #eatingdisorder #edrecovery #edwarrior #edfighter #mentalillness #orthorexianervosa #orthorexia #comic #disney
My mother bought me this huge disney comic because I jus't can't read my books anymore I can't focus and my depression doesn't cope ,so she said maybe I should try to read a comic first ,that is more easy to read,and and then try to read a real book again ,but it's not really working 😓 I'm finding the same difficulty to focus on this.I feel bad because she was so excited about this.I used to read a very thick book very quickly now I can't read a single comic. ---- Another thing that happened today is that my mother bought peanuts ro make a peanut butter ,and I'm so afraid ,when we leaved the market with the bag of peanuts I started to have a anxiety atack 😥Peanuts in general is a freaking fear since I was little .😔 #anorexianervosa  #anorexia  #anorexiarexovery  #ed  #eatingdisorder  #edrecovery  #edwarrior  #edfighter  #mentalillness  #orthorexianervosa  #orthorexia  #comic  #disney 
Restrictive eating mindset made this amazing pomegranate and coconut lassi impossible to finish. My mind said no to having the whole thing but my body wanted it.
Ed won this time and I had about 1/3. Fed up of missing out on life experiences due to this head. Anyone got any tips for coming out of restrictive eating? 
#tashcan #edrecovery #eatindisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #edrecoverywarrior #edrecoveryfamily #strongnotskinny #foodisfuel #iifym #flexibleeating #edfam #dailyfoodchallenge #nourishnotpunish  #recoveryisworthit #gaininglifenotweight #recoveryishard #eatingdisorderhelp #lassi #bluelassi #pomegranate #coconut #eatingdisordertips
Restrictive eating mindset made this amazing pomegranate and coconut lassi impossible to finish. My mind said no to having the whole thing but my body wanted it. Ed won this time and I had about 1/3. Fed up of missing out on life experiences due to this head. Anyone got any tips for coming out of restrictive eating? #tashcan  #edrecovery  #eatindisorderrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #edrecoverywarrior  #edrecoveryfamily  #strongnotskinny  #foodisfuel  #iifym  #flexibleeating  #edfam  #dailyfoodchallenge  #nourishnotpunish  #recoveryisworthit  #gaininglifenotweight  #recoveryishard  #eatingdisorderhelp  #lassi  #bluelassi  #pomegranate  #coconut  #eatingdisordertips 
MASSIVE RECOVERY WIN!!!!! I had this MASSIVER wrap with some UNKNOWN sauce, FRIES and chicken. I AM FUCKING PETRIFIED AND THIS WAS REALLY HARD BUT I DID IT. This was also UNKNOWN CALORIE!!! ngl I'm feeling so so so guilty because it was so much and I'm just imagining how many calories it has...... But I will try my best to push through. I cant purge. I cannot purge. Purging is NOT AN OPTION. Fuck ana and her bullcrap. -
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#recovery #fuckana #edwarrior #edfighter #eatingdisorder #ed #anorexiarecovery #foodisfuel #anorexia #edrecovery #realrecovery #anawarrior #anafighter #eatingdisorderrecovery #recoverywin #lunch #strongnotskinny #boobsnotbones #fuckanorexia #anorexic #foodblogger #yummyfood
MASSIVE RECOVERY WIN!!!!! I had this MASSIVER wrap with some UNKNOWN sauce, FRIES and chicken. I AM FUCKING PETRIFIED AND THIS WAS REALLY HARD BUT I DID IT. This was also UNKNOWN CALORIE!!! ngl I'm feeling so so so guilty because it was so much and I'm just imagining how many calories it has...... But I will try my best to push through. I cant purge. I cannot purge. Purging is NOT AN OPTION. Fuck ana and her bullcrap. - - - - - - - - #recovery  #fuckana  #edwarrior  #edfighter  #eatingdisorder  #ed  #anorexiarecovery  #foodisfuel  #anorexia  #edrecovery  #realrecovery  #anawarrior  #anafighter  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #recoverywin  #lunch  #strongnotskinny  #boobsnotbones  #fuckanorexia  #anorexic  #foodblogger  #yummyfood 
Реакция близких на переход на «необычное» питание🤔
Пока никому ничего не говорила о переменах в жизни,т.к боюсь в очередной раз быть вруньей без силы воли😪
Максимальное количество времени,когда я была веганом это месяц,и естественно со срывами раз в неделю на всякую гадость,поэтому думаю,что можно будет отвечать на вопросы по питанию четко(я веган и точка) через 2 месяца!не раньше.
Но забавные моменты уже случаются,поделюсь некоторыми из них🤗
Вчера в гости приходил мой друг,соседка попросила его купить нам вкусняшек к чаю(она же ничего не знает пока),он купил,я ей отдаю и она говорит ну это же наааам,я такая нет,соре,я не буду.В итоге она съела оставшуюся половину моих сушеных бананов😱🤬😭 и оставила немного грейпфрута:с но зато печеньки и вафельки все мои,ага.
Ночью мы пошли с другом пить чай,я медленно уплетала остатки грейпфрута,а он кушал вкусняшки.Потом вдруг говорит,попробуй эту трубочку,она безумно вкусная,тебе ничего не будет от одной трубочки!я говорю нет,спасибо.Он берет трубочку и тянет ее к моему рту,я верчу головой,мол не надо,а он берет и кладет ее мне в чай😓 в итоге я больше не притронулась к этому чаю,потом заставила заварить новый💪🏼😅
Может показаться,что я стала одержимой веганством,что это бред полнейший и можно делать послабления,но нет,я либо буду питаться чисто,либо я не веган!
Я никого не принуждаю и не пытаюсь привлечь на «свою» сторону,я просто верю и знаю то,что моему организму,моему мозгу(буля это все-таки психологическая болезнь)так будет лучше.
#ана #анорексия #анорексичка #буля #булимия #булимияуходи #рпп #рппдневник #рекавери #рекаверивин #веган #веганство #дневниквегана #похудение #еd #foodblog #eatingdisorder #худею #дневникпитания #diet #dietdiary #fat #питание #похудение
Реакция близких на переход на «необычное» питание🤔 Пока никому ничего не говорила о переменах в жизни,т.к боюсь в очередной раз быть вруньей без силы воли😪 Максимальное количество времени,когда я была веганом это месяц,и естественно со срывами раз в неделю на всякую гадость,поэтому думаю,что можно будет отвечать на вопросы по питанию четко(я веган и точка) через 2 месяца!не раньше. Но забавные моменты уже случаются,поделюсь некоторыми из них🤗 Вчера в гости приходил мой друг,соседка попросила его купить нам вкусняшек к чаю(она же ничего не знает пока),он купил,я ей отдаю и она говорит ну это же наааам,я такая нет,соре,я не буду.В итоге она съела оставшуюся половину моих сушеных бананов😱🤬😭 и оставила немного грейпфрута:с но зато печеньки и вафельки все мои,ага. Ночью мы пошли с другом пить чай,я медленно уплетала остатки грейпфрута,а он кушал вкусняшки.Потом вдруг говорит,попробуй эту трубочку,она безумно вкусная,тебе ничего не будет от одной трубочки!я говорю нет,спасибо.Он берет трубочку и тянет ее к моему рту,я верчу головой,мол не надо,а он берет и кладет ее мне в чай😓 в итоге я больше не притронулась к этому чаю,потом заставила заварить новый💪🏼😅 Может показаться,что я стала одержимой веганством,что это бред полнейший и можно делать послабления,но нет,я либо буду питаться чисто,либо я не веган! Я никого не принуждаю и не пытаюсь привлечь на «свою» сторону,я просто верю и знаю то,что моему организму,моему мозгу(буля это все-таки психологическая болезнь)так будет лучше. #ана  #анорексия  #анорексичка  #буля  #булимия  #булимияуходи  #рпп  #рппдневник  #рекавери  #рекаверивин  #веган  #веганство  #дневниквегана  #похудение  #еd  #foodblog  #eatingdisorder  #худею  #дневникпитания  #diet  #dietdiary  #fat  #питание  #похудение 
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#ed #eatingdisorder #essstörung #edrecovery #magersucht #anorexia #ednos #ednosrecovery #depression #recovery #ana #secretsociety #svv #selfharm #selfhate #anxiety #emetophobia #bpd #triggerwarning