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Hey lovelies! I hope you are all doing well. ❤️ For part of my night snack, I faced a fear food for my 400 follower fear food challenge! 😱 Read below for details! 👇🏼
MEAL DETAILS: Maple Brown Sugar Instant Oatmeal (made w/ Soy Milk) + 3 REESES PEANUT BUTTER 🥜CUPS! 🍫 (🚨)
This fear food actually wasn’t as scary as I thought it would be! Peanut butter cups are actually SO delicious and I can’t believe I ever deprived myself of them! 😍 Today was a really hard day for me, but those PB cups made me feel a little bit better. 😉 Have a great night everyone! Stay strong and never stop believing in yourself. 😘
following the theme of my last few posts...i've been thinking a lot lately about EYES.
my eyes smile.
people have told me this for most of my life.
whether i'm on stage dancing, or just with friends...my eyes smile. sparkle. shine.
those who know me best noticed when the sparkle began to fade.
when my eating disorder crept in, i no longer had smiling eyes.
i was still jenna,
i still had a nice smile...but it didn't stretch up to my eyes anymore. there was a dullness to my face and my energy and i had no way to hide this.
i am only now beginning to realize what they meant. only now can i look back at "sick pictures" and actually see the vacant and empty eyes.
the top set of eyes (and second pic) is me, in mexico, back in 2012.
the bottom set of eyes (and third pic) is me, just home from work, summer 2017.
i am smiling in both pictures, but my eyes are only smiling in one.
this post is as much for my own processing than anything else...but maybe it will encourage someone else too.
my smiling eyes are back and they're not worth losing again.
some lessons i've learned from these photos...
1. the people who love me offer an important perspective.
2. it's okay if it takes years to understand what they were talking about all along.
3. empty eyes can smile again.
BBG: Week 1 • Ready to get stronger mentally and physically. No more binging and purging, not eating at all, etc. Might be down 15 lbs but it wasn’t done the right way. Hopefully this program will help.
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With the #victoriassecretfashionshow coming up- I can’t help but reflect & remember the painful, empty, ashamed, insignificant feelings I would feel as a freshman in high school wide eyed sitting in front of the TV with my stomach growling and my limbs cold. I remember looking at each model and wishing I had a flat stomach, thin thighs, and defined cheekbones like them.
I would want to grab a snack to eat but didn’t after looking down at my stomach and seeing a little fold of skin. My eating habits and exercise habits weeks after the show revolved around how I felt after watching it. I would starve myself and make sure I wasn’t going over 250 calories a day.......A DAY. A FREAKING DAY.
Years later, reminiscing back on that sick lifeless body I can only be grateful for my own inner strength that now manifests outwardly. I feel myself becoming healthier and healthier each day. I weighed myself today- 149. That is 45 pounds more than that misaligned girl on the left. I am so proud of who I have become- and I’m only aligining closer to my divinity each day.
Please- remember who you are. Remember your Truth. Remember your worth. Remember your soul. Remember your beauty. Remember your strength. You are sexy. You are empowered. You are confident. You are YOU. And that is ENOUGH. ⚡️
Some of you may have seen this picture of me already. This is me at my thinnest, my lowest weight. Sure, I may have lost a lot of weight, but you know what else I lost? My muscle mass; my healthy hair, skin, and nails; my smile; my friends; my family; my will to live; my creativity; my compassion; my sanity; and I almost lost my life. I may have gained weight, a lot of it, but I've also gained back my freedom and appreciation for life. This is for those who may be struggling with accepting weight gain while recovering from an eating disorder. Your weight and body size does not dictate your worth. You deserve love and respect UNCONDITIONALLY. Hang in there; it gets better. I promise. 🤘💖#eatingdisorderrecovery
••Spicy Korean Beef Noodles••🔥💕 Mmmm!! This was soooo good! Noodles and Co is actually really good! I definitely plan to go more and more in the future 😄 GUYS IM FINALLY ON BREAK! Woooo! Tomorrow I’m spending the day with my family which should be fun! The rest of the week will be really laidback 🤘🏽 Nervous for thanksgiving to be honest. Not the most fun holiday for those with EDs but I’m gonna try and make it a good one! #anorexia#edrecovery#eatingdisorder#depressed#eatingdisorderrecovery#anorexiarecovery#anxiety#depression
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"The doctors don't know whether the depression or the eating disorder came first. I was too young. But they both terrify me the same. The depression hits me full force, more than just a wave - more like a tsunami. It paralyzes me. I used to fight it, but if you fight the current you just drown. So, now I let it wash over me and do its damage. It's like sitting in a room with all the lights turned off. You stay in that black hole for so long sometimes that you forget about any chromatic colors. But, you learn to adjust. Develop a sort of night vision. And you can still navigate in that dark wash, still enjoy life even when you can barely see anything that isn't black. I'm still learning how. Depression sucks when there's no clear map. But then, if you're lucky and you keep searching, you flip a switch. And the lights turn back on. And you see color again, even if it's just for a little bit before the lights begin to dim. Those are the moments I live for. That's why I'm still here. I think the thing I want most is not for all the lights to turn on forever. I know that's impossible. I think I want someone to give the darkness a chance, and help guide my way through before I give up on searching for a switch."
From "Goodness Pt. 2" by the Hotelier, off their album Goodness 💕
I can't begin to express how much I love the Hotelier. Their raw, cathartic music has been my best friend for much of this year. I feel as though their lyrics are specially tailored to my life experiences- "and on New Year's, you resolved to make your chaos external" and "you saw yourself in those days" (referring to someone's time in a mental hospital) speak vividly to my struggle with and recovery from anorexia. I can't wait to see the Hotelier one day (hopefully they'll come to my city, Tulsa) and scream-cry to every heart-wrenching, life-affirming song, from "An Introduction to the Album" to "Dendron." Bands like this really do save lives.
Health isn't about the weight you gain. It's about the life you gain.
Just smashed out my fifth pt session.
As an anorexic I've spent my life pushing myself to essentially create a strong mind and body. Strong?? You say... How much mental determination does it take to push past hunger? To push past the sickness that ensues. Let me tell you it takes a lot. I once spent a couple of weeks drinking 4.5 litres of juice to fill my stomach and push past the hunger signals. I'd start exercise routines that you'd find on the internet and do over what they told you to do. For instance... 10 crunches... I'd do 200 instead, 20 squats... I'd do another couple of hundred. My body would be screaming and I'd be dedicated to smashing it out so I could be perfect. So I could have the perfect little body I so desperately wanted.
Part of my condition to bring trained is I have to keep my weight above 50kgs. I'm switching my determination to again creating strength. But in a bigger and physically stronger body. I only get to work out 1.5 hours a week Max and it's with a trainer.
I'm not quite at the point where I can or am allowed to go alone but slow steps get there quicker than not moving at all. I still war with my annorexia. I still fast at points. I'm not perfect. Nor have I "recovered" but I am fucking battling this bitch.
I WILL WIN. I will smash the statistic saying that if you've had it for more than (I think) 13 years you'll die from it. Middle finger up to that statistic.
I’m still learning to live in the moment every single day 💕 It’s not easy, but every day I can learn and everyday I get stronger 👊🏻
Just a reminder that no matter how small an achievement might seem, it’s still an achievement. It’s still a step in the right direction 😘👊🏻
Mum bought me chocolate because yesterday I was craving but we didn’t have any, she’s the best 😍😍 see below for an update after my psychologist appointment (TW: SUICIDE)
Soooo this is something i’ve kept to myself for quite a while but my depression is really really bad. I told my psychologist about my increasing SI which has been going on for a few months now and she was really concerned, so we made a safety plan (the alternative was calling an ambulance to take me to hospital straight away). Basically it’s a contract stating that before I do anything to deliberately harm myself, I have to call my safety people (the list we made includes members of my treatment team, some of my closest friends who we thought would be okay handling stuff this heavy, and a couple of 24 hour helplines in case I can’t get ahold of anyone else). She also spoke to my mum about keeping an eye on me - so now I’m not allowed to travel to work by myself and I have to be monitored at home by someone at all times which kinda sucks 😔 the general consensus is that i’m doing extremely badly and i’m not really functional, and at the moment there’s a huge safety concern so a ward is looking like it might be a good option. I switched meds about 2-3 weeks ago which is probably not helping as they haven’t really kicked in yet, so I’m seeing my psychologist again next week for another risk assessment. Honestly she was pretty reluctant to let me go and made me promise that nothing would happen in the next seven days before we left. So far it looks like if I haven’t improved by my next appointment, she’ll be calling my psychiatrist and I’ll probably be admitted to a youth inpatient program. So yeah. Life kinda sucks rn.
My life feels like a compass
Spinning round and round so fast I can barely breathe
I don’t know what is the right course
It just keeps spinning and spinning
Faster and faster
So fast that I fall and land hard on the ground and scrape my knees and cut my hands
The world is telling me to slow down but I can barely stop to breathe it’s air.
I scream to the sky to tell me what the fuck to do.
I just want to live a normal life.
Scared out of my witts and I just keep gasping.
Gasping, grasping, someone shake me and stop this from happening.
I need help.
I don’t know what the fuck I am doing.
A walking disaster without a plan.
Im not okay.
How about you?
After another day on the planet,
I check in again tonight.
With sore knees and a bruised ego.
117lbs, less fear foods this week, a guy I was supposed to meet with this weekend is treating me like garbage.
All my insecurities come bubbling up when men come back in the picture.
I worry they love my photos but this person In real life will they still love me?
Apart of my new life goals is too look fear in the eye and do my best before I die.
Today my therapist asked me, don’t you want someone to love you know matter what weight you are?
I said yes.
However, in this hook up culture it’s hard to believe.
Hard to breathe, hard to breathe.
She hasn’t even had a drink yet and she’s already dating.
Barely a month ED free, struggling with assignments and life it may seem.
Don’t hold your breathe your just getting started.
The roller coaster has just begun.
Prepare your heart to be martyred.
Night snack tonight. Today has been really hard for me. I have had such terrible anxiety and it has affected my school and basketball playing. I hate having anxiety and having to deal with these feelings. Eating food hasn’t been too much of a problem but my anxiety has worsened. My sister thinks it’s because I’m giving up my eating control which was a coping mechanism. I think she’s right. My anxiety and how much I compare myself to others is so much. It’s just very hard for me right now. I’m trying my hardest. I hope you all had a great day. Also I have a 6am practice so I won’t be posting much tomorrow. 💕🌻
I hear all the time that I am “obsessed” with working out and eating healthy and that this obsession has changed who I am as a person. And those people are half right, yes I am a different person, an arguably better person actually. However I love to eat healthy and workout but that is not what I am obsessed with. What I am obsessed with is learning to love myself. And to love everything that I am and to become everything I so desperately want to be. And I think that is the most important thing to me right now, and if that makes me obsessed, so be it. I’d rather love myself then go back to my old lifestyle any day 🌸