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Eating disorders are one of the most misunderstood and misinterpreted illnesses of the mind. Fitness professionals, sports coaches, dance teachers and PE teachers are in a prime position to identify when a person is developing or is experiencing the worsening of a problem with an eating disorder, disordered eating and/or excessive exercise.
Learn how to identify, how to communicate and how to work with allied health professionals for early intervention, which is absolutely crucial!

Register now for this CEC approved workshop coming to Syndey and Wodonga in February 2018!

Register now! Follow link on bio & go to courses #mentalillness #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorderawareness #sydney #fitness #personaltrainer #wodonga #albury #makeadifference #education @awwintersolstice @lisaannesweeney
Eating disorders are one of the most misunderstood and misinterpreted illnesses of the mind. Fitness professionals, sports coaches, dance teachers and PE teachers are in a prime position to identify when a person is developing or is experiencing the worsening of a problem with an eating disorder, disordered eating and/or excessive exercise. Learn how to identify, how to communicate and how to work with allied health professionals for early intervention, which is absolutely crucial! Register now for this CEC approved workshop coming to Syndey and Wodonga in February 2018! Register now! Follow link on bio & go to courses #mentalillness  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatingdisorderawareness  #sydney  #fitness  #personaltrainer  #wodonga  #albury  #makeadifference  #education  @awwintersolstice @lisaannesweeney
Hey lovelies! I hope you are all doing well. ❤️ For part of my night snack, I faced a fear food for my 400 follower fear food challenge! 😱 Read below for details! 👇🏼
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MEAL DETAILS: Maple Brown Sugar Instant Oatmeal (made w/ Soy Milk) + 3 REESES PEANUT BUTTER 🥜CUPS! 🍫 (🚨)
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This fear food actually wasn’t as scary as I thought it would be! Peanut butter cups are actually SO delicious and I can’t believe I ever deprived myself of them! 😍 Today was a really hard day for me, but those PB cups made me feel a little bit better. 😉 Have a great night everyone! Stay strong and never stop believing in yourself. 😘
Hey lovelies! I hope you are all doing well. ❤️ For part of my night snack, I faced a fear food for my 400 follower fear food challenge! 😱 Read below for details! 👇🏼 - - MEAL DETAILS: Maple Brown Sugar Instant Oatmeal (made w/ Soy Milk) + 3 REESES PEANUT BUTTER 🥜CUPS! 🍫 (🚨) - - This fear food actually wasn’t as scary as I thought it would be! Peanut butter cups are actually SO delicious and I can’t believe I ever deprived myself of them! 😍 Today was a really hard day for me, but those PB cups made me feel a little bit better. 😉 Have a great night everyone! Stay strong and never stop believing in yourself. 😘
(Swipe left). Tots bothered me that my post from earlier today was 10x larger than my other ones. So here I am reposting it properly. 🤣
Here’s a little preview of what goes down in my fave class @cielostudiosmtl 🥊 (The class is called Hit Fit). If you want a workout that combines strength training, cardio, endurance building, sick music, a great way to relieve stress, anger & anxiety, good vibes & the sweetest most motivating instructor in the world @mindiesalonin, come try it out!!! 👌🏻 (She literally transformed my body!!!) Btw, this is not an ad & I’m not paid to say this. I’m simply sharing my life with you & letting you guys in on the things I love & enjoy (& secretly hoping you guys will come join me!!! 💕). #fitness #fitspo #fitnessinspiration #fitnessjourney #workout #workoutmotivation #boxing #punching #cardio #strengthtraining #endurance #morningworkout #progress #stressrelief #workoutwear #athleisure #strongnotskinny #killingit #gymmotivation #healthy #healthylife #healthyliving #healthylifestyle #healthfirst #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #accomplishments #strong
(Swipe left). Tots bothered me that my post from earlier today was 10x larger than my other ones. So here I am reposting it properly. 🤣 Here’s a little preview of what goes down in my fave class @cielostudiosmtl 🥊 (The class is called Hit Fit). If you want a workout that combines strength training, cardio, endurance building, sick music, a great way to relieve stress, anger & anxiety, good vibes & the sweetest most motivating instructor in the world @mindiesalonin, come try it out!!! 👌🏻 (She literally transformed my body!!!) Btw, this is not an ad & I’m not paid to say this. I’m simply sharing my life with you & letting you guys in on the things I love & enjoy (& secretly hoping you guys will come join me!!! 💕). #fitness  #fitspo  #fitnessinspiration  #fitnessjourney  #workout  #workoutmotivation  #boxing  #punching  #cardio  #strengthtraining  #endurance  #morningworkout  #progress  #stressrelief  #workoutwear  #athleisure  #strongnotskinny  #killingit  #gymmotivation  #healthy  #healthylife  #healthyliving  #healthylifestyle  #healthfirst  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #edrecovery  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #accomplishments  #strong 
Good morning lovelies❤
#Breakfast was a bowl of hazelnut müsli with a cup of tea.
Today I decided to go to a psychiatrist.My doctor always suggests that but I refuse it always so she writes that on my papers and it doesn't look good.So I will listen to her and go arrange an appointment.I had a number of psychiatrists but I hated them all,whish this one good luck.😂 Have a great day.❤
#anorexia #eatingdisorder #ana #anarecovery #anorexiarecovery #prorecovery #edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #anafighter #realrecovery #recovery #anawarrior #recoveryisworthit #recoverywin #fearfood #2fabforana
#edrecovery #anarecovery #prorecovery #realrecovery #beatana #2fabforana #recoverywin #fearfood #eatingdisorderrecovery #anorexiarecovery #anorexianervosarecovery #edfighter #anafighter #anawho #anawarrior #edwarrior #togetherwecan #strongnotskinny #balancednotclean #recovery #recoveryisworthit #anorexia #ed #ana #eatingdisorder #fearfoodfriday #anafamily #edfamily
Good morning lovelies❤ #Breakfast  was a bowl of hazelnut müsli with a cup of tea. Today I decided to go to a psychiatrist.My doctor always suggests that but I refuse it always so she writes that on my papers and it doesn't look good.So I will listen to her and go arrange an appointment.I had a number of psychiatrists but I hated them all,whish this one good luck.😂 Have a great day.❤ #anorexia  #eatingdisorder  #ana  #anarecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #prorecovery  #edrecovery  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #anafighter  #realrecovery  #recovery  #anawarrior  #recoveryisworthit  #recoverywin  #fearfood  #2fabforana  #edrecovery  #anarecovery  #prorecovery  #realrecovery  #beatana  #2fabforana  #recoverywin  #fearfood  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexianervosarecovery  #edfighter  #anafighter  #anawho  #anawarrior  #edwarrior  #togetherwecan  #strongnotskinny  #balancednotclean  #recovery  #recoveryisworthit  #anorexia  #ed  #ana  #eatingdisorder  #fearfoodfriday  #anafamily  #edfamily 
following the theme of my last few posts...i've been thinking a lot lately about EYES.
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my eyes smile.
people have told me this for most of my life.
whether i'm on stage dancing, or just with friends...my eyes smile. sparkle. shine.
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those who know me best noticed when the sparkle began to fade.
when my eating disorder crept in, i no longer had smiling eyes.
i was still jenna,
i still had a nice smile...but it didn't stretch up to my eyes anymore. there was a dullness to my face and my energy and i had no way to hide this.
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i am only now beginning to realize what they meant. only now can i look back at "sick pictures" and actually see the vacant and empty eyes.
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the top set of eyes (and second pic) is me, in mexico, back in 2012.
the bottom set of eyes (and third pic) is me, just home from work, summer 2017.
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i am smiling in both pictures, but my eyes are only smiling in one.
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this post is as much for my own processing than anything else...but maybe it will encourage someone else too.
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my smiling eyes are back and they're not worth losing again.
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some lessons i've learned from these photos...
1. the people who love me offer an important perspective.
2. it's okay if it takes years to understand what they were talking about all along.
3. empty eyes can smile again.
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#recovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #edrecovery #eatingdisorder #bulimiarecovery #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #bulimia #healing #livebrave #daringgreatly #eyes #emptyeyes #smilingeyes
following the theme of my last few posts...i've been thinking a lot lately about EYES. • my eyes smile. people have told me this for most of my life. whether i'm on stage dancing, or just with friends...my eyes smile. sparkle. shine. • those who know me best noticed when the sparkle began to fade. when my eating disorder crept in, i no longer had smiling eyes. i was still jenna, i still had a nice smile...but it didn't stretch up to my eyes anymore. there was a dullness to my face and my energy and i had no way to hide this. • i am only now beginning to realize what they meant. only now can i look back at "sick pictures" and actually see the vacant and empty eyes. • the top set of eyes (and second pic) is me, in mexico, back in 2012. the bottom set of eyes (and third pic) is me, just home from work, summer 2017. • i am smiling in both pictures, but my eyes are only smiling in one. • this post is as much for my own processing than anything else...but maybe it will encourage someone else too. • my smiling eyes are back and they're not worth losing again. • some lessons i've learned from these photos... 1. the people who love me offer an important perspective. 2. it's okay if it takes years to understand what they were talking about all along. 3. empty eyes can smile again. • • • #recovery  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #edrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #bulimiarecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexia  #bulimia  #healing  #livebrave  #daringgreatly  #eyes  #emptyeyes  #smilingeyes 
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🌸 Breakfast today was muesli with dark chocolate and a slice of bread with cheese and ham. ☺ There is so much snow outside! I'm excited, it really starts to feel like Christmas 🎅❄💗
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#breakfast #butfirstcoffee #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatittobeatit #nourishtoflourish #foodisfuel #foodisnotenemy #winthisfight #youcandothis
Facing a fear food tonight 😓💪🏻💪🏻 Here’s a fun fact for you: I hate fish and I’m allergic to chicken (yup legitimately allergic like hives and swollen throat allergic) so that leaves either beef teriyaki or vegetarian sushi 🍣 However, due to sushi being a fear food I try to avoid choosing the disordered option- vegetarian (in my head meat is also a fear food lol). •
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#ana#anorexia#anorexiarecovery#food#foodblog#recovery#recover#edrecovery#eatingdisorderrecovery#healthy#lifestyle#healthylife#exercise#ed#positivevibes#mindfulness#recoverybandwagon#foodporn#wellness#mentalhealth#mentalhealthawareness#mentalillness#lifequotes#lifestyleblogger#student#study#selflove#sushi
Facing a fear food tonight 😓💪🏻💪🏻 Here’s a fun fact for you: I hate fish and I’m allergic to chicken (yup legitimately allergic like hives and swollen throat allergic) so that leaves either beef teriyaki or vegetarian sushi 🍣 However, due to sushi being a fear food I try to avoid choosing the disordered option- vegetarian (in my head meat is also a fear food lol). • • Check out my story to vote for what you want this account to focus on/talk about 💕💕• • • • • • #ana #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #food #foodblog #recovery #recover #edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #healthy #lifestyle #healthylife #exercise #ed #positivevibes #mindfulness #recoverybandwagon #foodporn #wellness #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalillness #lifequotes #lifestyleblogger #student #study #selflove #sushi 
Repost @jktfoodventure
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[Menu Jaman Now] Udah pada taw donk ayam geprek?! Ada ayam geprek yang baru buka nih di Kelapa Gading. Namanya Ayam Chipok! Ayamnya cukup garing luarnya dan ga kering juga dagingnya. Bumbunya pun berasa ampe kedalem mungkin karena dimarinate juga. Gurih and crispy! Hehe. Ada level untuk seberapa pedas ayamnya juga loh.. Selain itu disini kulit ayam goreng dan Tahu Tempe juga loh yang dijamin bikin nafsu makan kamu nambah! 😁
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Ayam Geprek Chipok @ayamchipok
Price : IDR 18 .
📍Kelapa Gading (sebelah Warung WKK)
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#ayamgeprek #ayamchipok
Repost @jktfoodventure ・・・ [Menu Jaman Now] Udah pada taw donk ayam geprek?! Ada ayam geprek yang baru buka nih di Kelapa Gading. Namanya Ayam Chipok! Ayamnya cukup garing luarnya dan ga kering juga dagingnya. Bumbunya pun berasa ampe kedalem mungkin karena dimarinate juga. Gurih and crispy! Hehe. Ada level untuk seberapa pedas ayamnya juga loh.. Selain itu disini kulit ayam goreng dan Tahu Tempe juga loh yang dijamin bikin nafsu makan kamu nambah! 😁 . . Ayam Geprek Chipok @ayamchipok Price : IDR 18 . 📍Kelapa Gading (sebelah Warung WKK) . #veratheexplorer  #kulinerkelapagading  #dailyfoodies  #foodporn  #foodgasm  #dailyfeed  #foodblogger  #foodstagram  #dietstartstomorrow  #foodphotographer  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #makananenak  #foodies  #rusuhstagram  #eatinearyid  #eatandtreats  #anakjajan  #instafoodies  #ayamgoreng  #reviewmakanan  #seriouseats  #forkfeed  #snapfoodie  #makansiang  #makanmalam  #infokuliner  #eatstagram  #ayamgeprek  #ayamchipok 
BBG: Week 1 • Ready to get stronger mentally and physically. No more binging and purging, not eating at all, etc. Might be down 15 lbs but it wasn’t done the right way. Hopefully this program will help.
BBG: Week 1 • Ready to get stronger mentally and physically. No more binging and purging, not eating at all, etc. Might be down 15 lbs but it wasn’t done the right way. Hopefully this program will help.
Restricting // Recovered 
Five years, 30lbs gained, and so much more happiness. 
I count my blessing each and every day I was able to fight and gain my life back. More importantly I get to have a job that allows me to help others overcome similar struggles.
Recovery is completely possible. 
#edfam #edfamily #edwarrior #edfighter #edrecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #anorexiarecovery #bulimiarecovery #selfcare #selflove #bopo #bopowarrior #bodypositivity #bodypositive
Restricting // Recovered Five years, 30lbs gained, and so much more happiness. I count my blessing each and every day I was able to fight and gain my life back. More importantly I get to have a job that allows me to help others overcome similar struggles. Recovery is completely possible. #edfam  #edfamily  #edwarrior  #edfighter  #edrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #bulimiarecovery  #selfcare  #selflove  #bopo  #bopowarrior  #bodypositivity  #bodypositive 
Akhir bulan pengin nyemil enak dan hemat? Bisa kok peeeps, kamu tinggal ke  #Titikkumpulsby aja

Disini ada promo pizza 50K get 2 pizza, Ini pizzanya bisa dimakan berdua bareng pacar atau rame rame bareng gengs kamu peeps 😍 .

Varian pizza yg promo antaranya .
✔ classic pizza
✔mozarella style pizza ✔mushroom lovers

Soo tunggu apalagi, buruan kesini ya peeps 🙌 .
Akhir bulan pengin nyemil enak dan hemat? Bisa kok peeeps, kamu tinggal ke #Titikkumpulsby  aja Disini ada promo pizza 50K get 2 pizza, Ini pizzanya bisa dimakan berdua bareng pacar atau rame rame bareng gengs kamu peeps 😍 . Varian pizza yg promo antaranya . ✔ classic pizza ✔mozarella style pizza ✔mushroom lovers Soo tunggu apalagi, buruan kesini ya peeps 🙌 .
Dinner was my fav veges sausages with sweet potatoe mash and veges 🌽🥕🍠
Also had an extra sausage tonight than usual because I didn’t have much for my afternoon snack 💜
{ #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderfamily #edrecovery #edfamily #strongnotskinny #boobsoverbones #nourishnotpunish #nourishtoflourish #recoveringanorexic #recoveryisworthit #recoveryispossible #anorexia #anarecovery #anorexiarecovery #anorexianervosa #anorexianervosarecovery }
Dinner was my fav veges sausages with sweet potatoe mash and veges 🌽🥕🍠 Also had an extra sausage tonight than usual because I didn’t have much for my afternoon snack 💜 { #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderfamily  #edrecovery  #edfamily  #strongnotskinny  #boobsoverbones  #nourishnotpunish  #nourishtoflourish  #recoveringanorexic  #recoveryisworthit  #recoveryispossible  #anorexia  #anarecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexianervosa  #anorexianervosarecovery  }
With the #victoriassecretfashionshow coming up- I can’t help but reflect & remember the painful, empty, ashamed, insignificant feelings I would feel as a freshman in high school wide eyed sitting in front of the TV with my stomach growling and my limbs cold. I remember looking at each model and wishing I had a flat stomach, thin thighs, and defined cheekbones like them. 
I would want to grab a snack to eat but didn’t after looking down at my stomach and seeing a little fold of skin. My eating habits and exercise habits weeks after the show revolved around how I felt after watching it. I would starve myself and make sure I wasn’t going over 250 calories a day.......A DAY. A FREAKING DAY. 
Years later, reminiscing back on that sick lifeless body I can only be grateful for my own inner strength that now manifests outwardly. I feel myself becoming healthier and healthier each day. I weighed myself today- 149. That is 45 pounds more than that misaligned girl on the left. I am so proud of who I have become- and I’m only aligining closer to my divinity each day. 
Please- remember who you are. Remember your Truth. Remember your worth. Remember your soul. Remember your beauty. Remember your strength. You are sexy. You are empowered. You are confident. You are YOU. And that is ENOUGH. ⚡️
#bodypositive #bodyimage #selfcare #eatingdisorderrecovery #recoverywin #recoveryjourney #health #fitness #workout #spiritualawakening #healing #bodytransformation #TransformationTuesday
With the #victoriassecretfashionshow  coming up- I can’t help but reflect & remember the painful, empty, ashamed, insignificant feelings I would feel as a freshman in high school wide eyed sitting in front of the TV with my stomach growling and my limbs cold. I remember looking at each model and wishing I had a flat stomach, thin thighs, and defined cheekbones like them. I would want to grab a snack to eat but didn’t after looking down at my stomach and seeing a little fold of skin. My eating habits and exercise habits weeks after the show revolved around how I felt after watching it. I would starve myself and make sure I wasn’t going over 250 calories a day.......A DAY. A FREAKING DAY. Years later, reminiscing back on that sick lifeless body I can only be grateful for my own inner strength that now manifests outwardly. I feel myself becoming healthier and healthier each day. I weighed myself today- 149. That is 45 pounds more than that misaligned girl on the left. I am so proud of who I have become- and I’m only aligining closer to my divinity each day. Please- remember who you are. Remember your Truth. Remember your worth. Remember your soul. Remember your beauty. Remember your strength. You are sexy. You are empowered. You are confident. You are YOU. And that is ENOUGH. ⚡️ #bodypositive  #bodyimage  #selfcare  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #recoverywin  #recoveryjourney  #health  #fitness  #workout  #spiritualawakening  #healing  #bodytransformation  #TransformationTuesday 
This is a passage from my new blog post on itgetsbettermentalhealth.com 🌸 Recently I have begun writing about my eating disorder experience, with the hopes that one day I might be able to condense all of these passages, into a memoir to help others. It is a very scary feeling, being so open and vulnerable with you all, but I know that it is worth it. I hope that through sharing my journey, I can make others feel less alone. 💕❤️💜 .
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#eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorderawareness #eatingdisorder #ednos #anorexianervosa #bingepurgedisorder #recovery #edwarrior #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthadvocacy #mentalhealthrecovery #mentalillness #itgetsbetter #blogger #blog #writer #writing #igwriters #igbloggers
This is a passage from my new blog post on itgetsbettermentalhealth.com 🌸 Recently I have begun writing about my eating disorder experience, with the hopes that one day I might be able to condense all of these passages, into a memoir to help others. It is a very scary feeling, being so open and vulnerable with you all, but I know that it is worth it. I hope that through sharing my journey, I can make others feel less alone. 💕❤️💜 . . . . #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatingdisorderawareness  #eatingdisorder  #ednos  #anorexianervosa  #bingepurgedisorder  #recovery  #edwarrior  #mentalhealth  #mentalhealthawareness  #mentalhealthadvocacy  #mentalhealthrecovery  #mentalillness  #itgetsbetter  #blogger  #blog  #writer  #writing  #igwriters  #igbloggers 
afternoon snack of blueberries, dates, a bliss ball and green tea. i feel super fat today and it makes me sad, but the weather’s cloudy and i got new books, so that makes me feel better 🌿
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#vegan #ana #mia #anorexia #bulimia #recovery #mentalhealth #mentalillness #anorexiarecovery #bulimiarecovery #ed #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #adultswitheds #health #nervosa #BED #binge #purge #vegetarian #calories #depression #anxiety #dates #blueberries #blissballs #white
afternoon snack of blueberries, dates, a bliss ball and green tea. i feel super fat today and it makes me sad, but the weather’s cloudy and i got new books, so that makes me feel better 🌿 . . . . . . #vegan  #ana  #mia  #anorexia  #bulimia  #recovery  #mentalhealth  #mentalillness  #anorexiarecovery  #bulimiarecovery  #ed  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #adultswitheds  #health  #nervosa  #BED  #binge  #purge  #vegetarian  #calories  #depression  #anxiety  #dates  #blueberries  #blissballs  #white 
Good #morning 🌻
fast #breakfast today was a lil #apple #juice 🍎💦 didn’t had time for anything else, really thought ‚bout to buy anything to #eat but ya...🤷🏼‍♀️ going to school now what a fun thing ^^
wish everyone a wonderful #day ✨💕
#recovery #edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryisworthit #recoverywin #fooddiary #eddiary #anarecovery #anorexiarecovery #anawho #bulimia #bpd #mentalhealth #mentalillness #cleaneating #caloriecounting #weightloss #weightlossjourney
Good #morning  🌻 fast #breakfast  today was a lil #apple  #juice  🍎💦 didn’t had time for anything else, really thought ‚bout to buy anything to #eat  but ya...🤷🏼‍♀️ going to school now what a fun thing ^^ wish everyone a wonderful #day  ✨💕 #recovery  #edrecovery  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #recoveryisworthit  #recoverywin  #fooddiary  #eddiary  #anarecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #anawho  #bulimia  #bpd  #mentalhealth  #mentalillness  #cleaneating  #caloriecounting  #weightloss  #weightlossjourney 
So, I'm not sure how to feel, or really how it's acceptable for me to feel right now, and I actually almost don't care. 
Have a skills group tomorrow afternoon and then will probably crash. Have a physical with my doc Thursday. 
Rented a car, hoping to get a Beetle again (:) ). Terrified of what's going to happen given my ekg and lad results were fucked. Seriously I know we're all about technology advancement, but it doesn't take a genius to look at the numbers and realize I'm not in "at risk" zone, I'm in the "I've done permanent damage and I'm fucked zone". I know what I need to do, but it's taking every gram of self control in my being to not just dice my jugular or aorta. I'm so tired of this shit and as guilty as I feel for being born in a 1st world country and having the right to earn the privilege of going to university and having a high power career, I really actually just wish every ounce of blood would leave my body and I could just die right now and leave not 1 soul hurt. I hate this illness. And I just don't have anything left to fight. Know I need to be back in treatment, and also have a high functioning life. How in the fuck am I supposed to figure that out.
#bulimiarecovery #bulimia #recoverywin #recoveryispossible #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatittobeatit #relapse #sober #soberlife #edrelapse #edwarrior #edsoldier #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #ana #balancednotclean #goals #healthylifestyle #healthyeating #recovery #recoveryisworthit #lifegoals #family #divorce #grateful #blessed🙏#nedic #neda
So, I'm not sure how to feel, or really how it's acceptable for me to feel right now, and I actually almost don't care. Have a skills group tomorrow afternoon and then will probably crash. Have a physical with my doc Thursday. Rented a car, hoping to get a Beetle again (:) ). Terrified of what's going to happen given my ekg and lad results were fucked. Seriously I know we're all about technology advancement, but it doesn't take a genius to look at the numbers and realize I'm not in "at risk" zone, I'm in the "I've done permanent damage and I'm fucked zone". I know what I need to do, but it's taking every gram of self control in my being to not just dice my jugular or aorta. I'm so tired of this shit and as guilty as I feel for being born in a 1st world country and having the right to earn the privilege of going to university and having a high power career, I really actually just wish every ounce of blood would leave my body and I could just die right now and leave not 1 soul hurt. I hate this illness. And I just don't have anything left to fight. Know I need to be back in treatment, and also have a high functioning life. How in the fuck am I supposed to figure that out. #bulimiarecovery  #bulimia  #recoverywin  #recoveryispossible  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatittobeatit  #relapse  #sober  #soberlife  #edrelapse  #edwarrior  #edsoldier  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #ana  #balancednotclean  #goals  #healthylifestyle  #healthyeating  #recovery  #recoveryisworthit  #lifegoals  #family  #divorce  #grateful  #blessed 🙏#nedic  #neda 
•you must go on adventures to find out who you truly are• vegan frozen hot chocolate 😳 it was made with coffee ice cubes 😍 #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #anorexia #bulimia #depression #anxiety #bipolar #selfharn #suicide #suicidal #vegan #plantbased
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1. Gimana cara dapetin vouchernya kak?
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2. Bisa dengan gofood atau grabfood?
- Mohon maaf kak, untuk promo ini hanya berlaku untuk dine in (makan di tempat) dan take away (bungkus) aja 💕
3. Harganya berapa kan pizzanya?
- Rata2 harga pizza kita antara 19-29k, gak pake mahal kok guys! Kalau Hot Spot Pizza ada di harga 29k sebelum diskon, jadi kalau diskon tinggal jadi 14.500 aja! Murah kannn! Kapan lagi makan pizza cuma 10ribuan kalau bukan di @pantiespizzadepok 😍😘
4. Hot Spot Pizza itu paan sih kak?
- Varian terbaru dari @pantiespizzadepok yaitu pizza khas kita dengan keju mozarella yang lumer dipadu dengan lezatnya sosis sapi super pedaassss 🔥😘👌
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#reviewmakanan #review #eatstagram #foodies24hours #eatingdisorderrecovery #eat #delicious
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Happy #pizzapora
Don’t forget guys! Hari ini adalah kesempatan terakhir kamu buat dapetin voucher disc 50% khusus untuk Hot Spot Pizza 😍😘 event persembahan dari @pantiespizzadepok dalam rangka launching menu terbaru kita, Hot Spot Pizza 🔥🌶🌋 . FAQ seputar promo, tolong disimak ya guys #budayakanbacacaption  🙏 1. Gimana cara dapetin vouchernya kak? - Cukup pizza di @pantiespizzadepok varian apa pun, 1 pizza akan mendapatkan 1 voucher diskon. Berlaku kelipatan loh! Jadi misalkan nih lur, kamu beli 5 pizza berarti dapet 5 voucher diskon!! 💗 2. Bisa dengan gofood atau grabfood? - Mohon maaf kak, untuk promo ini hanya berlaku untuk dine in (makan di tempat) dan take away (bungkus) aja 💕 3. Harganya berapa kan pizzanya? - Rata2 harga pizza kita antara 19-29k, gak pake mahal kok guys! Kalau Hot Spot Pizza ada di harga 29k sebelum diskon, jadi kalau diskon tinggal jadi 14.500 aja! Murah kannn! Kapan lagi makan pizza cuma 10ribuan kalau bukan di @pantiespizzadepok 😍😘 4. Hot Spot Pizza itu paan sih kak? - Varian terbaru dari @pantiespizzadepok yaitu pizza khas kita dengan keju mozarella yang lumer dipadu dengan lezatnya sosis sapi super pedaassss 🔥😘👌 . #reviewmakanan  #review  #eatstagram  #foodies24hours  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eat  #delicious  #udahdiperut  #dietstartstomorrow  #likeforlike  #jakarta  #indonesia  #jktfoodie  #l4l  #pantiespizza  #depok  #hotspot  #pizza  #indonesian  #jktfoodbang  #jktfooddestination  #foodreview  #eatstagram  #culidiary  #rusuhstagram  #lezatnikmat  #eatinc  #foodstagram  #depok  #depokfood  Repost @pantiespizzasurabaya Happy #pizzapora 
..Gestern Abend den Mut gehabt T. von meinen Verlustängsten zu schreiben.
Weiß im Nachhinein nicht, ob das die richtige Entscheidung war.
Ich kann ihre Antwort absolut nicht einschätzen..
..Gestern Abend den Mut gehabt T. von meinen Verlustängsten zu schreiben. Weiß im Nachhinein nicht, ob das die richtige Entscheidung war. Ich kann ihre Antwort absolut nicht einschätzen..
A year of recovery and relapse. Life’s a roller coaster 🎢📈📉#anorexiarecovery #anorexia #recovery #relapse #weight #weightchart #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #rollercoaster
Night snack was an orange. Good night everyone, I’m having a lot of loud and awful voices/thoughts so I’m going to try and go to sleep. #eatingdisorderrecovery #anorexia #ed #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorder #anorexiarecovery #edfamily #tuesday #guilty #hate #fullaf #tired #feelingreallyfat #bloated #badthoughts #loudvoices #headache #nightsnack #tuesdaynight
I’m on the verge of a relapse so I’m filling my mind with truth. I’m not throwing away almost 6 years without a fight. I will continue to be Sober one day at a time.
I’m on the verge of a relapse so I’m filling my mind with truth. I’m not throwing away almost 6 years without a fight. I will continue to be Sober one day at a time.
Some of you may have seen this picture of me already. This is me at my thinnest, my lowest weight. Sure, I may have lost a lot of weight, but you know what else I lost? My muscle mass; my healthy hair, skin, and nails; my smile; my friends; my family; my will to live; my creativity; my compassion; my sanity; and I almost lost my life. I may have gained weight, a lot of it, but I've also gained back my freedom and appreciation for life. This is for those who may be struggling with accepting weight gain while recovering from an eating disorder. Your weight and body size does not dictate your worth. You deserve love and respect UNCONDITIONALLY. Hang in there; it gets better. I promise. 🤘💖#eatingdisorderrecovery
Some of you may have seen this picture of me already. This is me at my thinnest, my lowest weight. Sure, I may have lost a lot of weight, but you know what else I lost? My muscle mass; my healthy hair, skin, and nails; my smile; my friends; my family; my will to live; my creativity; my compassion; my sanity; and I almost lost my life. I may have gained weight, a lot of it, but I've also gained back my freedom and appreciation for life. This is for those who may be struggling with accepting weight gain while recovering from an eating disorder. Your weight and body size does not dictate your worth. You deserve love and respect UNCONDITIONALLY. Hang in there; it gets better. I promise. 🤘💖#eatingdisorderrecovery 
••Spicy Korean Beef Noodles••🔥💕 Mmmm!! This was soooo good! Noodles and Co is actually really good! I definitely plan to go more and more in the future 😄 GUYS IM FINALLY ON BREAK! Woooo! Tomorrow I’m spending the day with my family which should be fun! The rest of the week will be really laidback 🤘🏽 Nervous for thanksgiving to be honest. Not the most fun holiday for those with EDs but I’m gonna try and make it a good one! #anorexia #edrecovery #eatingdisorder #depressed #eatingdisorderrecovery #anorexiarecovery #anxiety #depression
••Spicy Korean Beef Noodles••🔥💕 Mmmm!! This was soooo good! Noodles and Co is actually really good! I definitely plan to go more and more in the future 😄 GUYS IM FINALLY ON BREAK! Woooo! Tomorrow I’m spending the day with my family which should be fun! The rest of the week will be really laidback 🤘🏽 Nervous for thanksgiving to be honest. Not the most fun holiday for those with EDs but I’m gonna try and make it a good one! #anorexia  #edrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #depressed  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #anxiety  #depression 
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Repost from @malvinthio @TopRankRepost #TopRankRepost Dinner Time!!!
Bahaya banget nih makan makanan khas Manado di @sarangoci beuhhhh! Gak bisa berenti deh. Semua makanan yg di sajikan di sini enakkkk banget! Apalagi aku paling suka sm ikan cakalang dan kesukaan semua orang bakwan jagung yg udh terkenal di mana-mana! Kalian belum pernah makan di sini?! Apaaa!? Yg belum pernah kalian harus wajib buruan coba!!! Nih aku kasih tau mereka ada di mana aja:
📍Sahid Sudirman-Bulungan-Jl.Panjang-Tebet-Kelapa Gading-Alam Sutra(cooming soon)
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Repost from @malvinthio @TopRankRepost #TopRankRepost  Dinner Time!!! Bahaya banget nih makan makanan khas Manado di @sarangoci beuhhhh! Gak bisa berenti deh. Semua makanan yg di sajikan di sini enakkkk banget! Apalagi aku paling suka sm ikan cakalang dan kesukaan semua orang bakwan jagung yg udh terkenal di mana-mana! Kalian belum pernah makan di sini?! Apaaa!? Yg belum pernah kalian harus wajib buruan coba!!! Nih aku kasih tau mereka ada di mana aja: 📍Sahid Sudirman-Bulungan-Jl.Panjang-Tebet-Kelapa Gading-Alam Sutra(cooming soon) • • • • • • #reviewmakanan  #review  #eatstagram  #foodies24hours  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eat  #delicious  #dietstartstomorrow  #likeforlike  #jakarta  #indonesia  #jktfoodie  #l4l  #eeeeeats  #bigtwincup  #indonesian  #jktfoodbang  #jktfooddestination  #foodreview  #eatstagram  #culidiary  #rusuhstagram  #lezatnikmat  #eatinc  #foodstagram  #manado  #masakanmanado  #indonesianfood  #masakanindonesia 
#compassionnotcalories #presentnotperfect 
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"The doctors don't know whether the depression or the eating disorder came first. I was too young. But they both terrify me the same. The depression hits me full force, more than just a wave - more like a tsunami. It paralyzes me. I used to fight it, but if you fight the current you just drown. So, now I let it wash over me and do its damage. It's like sitting in a room with all the lights turned off. You stay in that black hole for so long sometimes that you forget about any chromatic colors. But, you learn to adjust. Develop a sort of night vision. And you can still navigate in that dark wash, still enjoy life even when you can barely see anything that isn't black. I'm still learning how. Depression sucks when there's no clear map. But then, if you're lucky and you keep searching, you flip a switch. And the lights turn back on. And you see color again, even if it's just for a little bit before the lights begin to dim.  Those are the moments I live for. That's why I'm still here. I think the thing I want most is not for all the lights to turn on forever. I know that's impossible. I think I want someone to give the darkness a chance, and help guide my way through before I give up on searching for a switch."
#compassionnotcalories  #presentnotperfect  Anonymous 3💕 •••••••••••••••••••••• "The doctors don't know whether the depression or the eating disorder came first. I was too young. But they both terrify me the same. The depression hits me full force, more than just a wave - more like a tsunami. It paralyzes me. I used to fight it, but if you fight the current you just drown. So, now I let it wash over me and do its damage. It's like sitting in a room with all the lights turned off. You stay in that black hole for so long sometimes that you forget about any chromatic colors. But, you learn to adjust. Develop a sort of night vision. And you can still navigate in that dark wash, still enjoy life even when you can barely see anything that isn't black. I'm still learning how. Depression sucks when there's no clear map. But then, if you're lucky and you keep searching, you flip a switch. And the lights turn back on. And you see color again, even if it's just for a little bit before the lights begin to dim. Those are the moments I live for. That's why I'm still here. I think the thing I want most is not for all the lights to turn on forever. I know that's impossible. I think I want someone to give the darkness a chance, and help guide my way through before I give up on searching for a switch."
Photography challenge- beautiful light. 
This is a photo I took while I was in Fiji a few years back. I 💕 sunsets. 
#sunset #sunny #fiji #fijiwater #peaceful #emotional #depression #photochallenge #beautifulplace #edfamily #edfamilyrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingissues #empowerment
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Can this week be over already 😫 I hate how triggering my mom is. I know it's not her fault but I feel that she judges every single thing I do. I hate how little self control I have. I am fucking up my health. I feel dizzy all day, I am pre-diabetic, but all I eat is sugar until I can no more in the nights. Fuck this Im tired.
#anorexia #anorexiarecovery #recovery #edrecovery #ed #ana #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #edwarrior #anorexianervosa #recoverywin #recoveryisworthit #eatittobeatit #edfighter #anarecovery #anorexiafighter #depression #edfamily #anorexiawarrior #prorecovery #bulimia #strongnotskinny #anawho #recovering #realrecovery #beatana #fuckana #healthy #anorexiarecover #eatingdisorders
Can this week be over already 😫 I hate how triggering my mom is. I know it's not her fault but I feel that she judges every single thing I do. I hate how little self control I have. I am fucking up my health. I feel dizzy all day, I am pre-diabetic, but all I eat is sugar until I can no more in the nights. Fuck this Im tired. #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #recovery  #edrecovery  #ed  #ana  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #edwarrior  #anorexianervosa  #recoverywin  #recoveryisworthit  #eatittobeatit  #edfighter  #anarecovery  #anorexiafighter  #depression  #edfamily  #anorexiawarrior  #prorecovery  #bulimia  #strongnotskinny  #anawho  #recovering  #realrecovery  #beatana  #fuckana  #healthy  #anorexiarecover  #eatingdisorders 
From "Goodness Pt. 2" by the Hotelier, off their album Goodness 💕
I can't begin to express how much I love the Hotelier. Their raw, cathartic music has been my best friend for much of this year. I feel as though their lyrics are specially tailored to my life experiences- "and on New Year's, you resolved to make your chaos external" and "you saw yourself in those days" (referring to someone's time in a mental hospital) speak vividly to my struggle with and recovery from anorexia. I can't wait to see the Hotelier one day (hopefully they'll come to my city, Tulsa) and scream-cry to every heart-wrenching, life-affirming song, from "An Introduction to the Album" to "Dendron." Bands like this really do save lives.
From "Goodness Pt. 2" by the Hotelier, off their album Goodness 💕 I can't begin to express how much I love the Hotelier. Their raw, cathartic music has been my best friend for much of this year. I feel as though their lyrics are specially tailored to my life experiences- "and on New Year's, you resolved to make your chaos external" and "you saw yourself in those days" (referring to someone's time in a mental hospital) speak vividly to my struggle with and recovery from anorexia. I can't wait to see the Hotelier one day (hopefully they'll come to my city, Tulsa) and scream-cry to every heart-wrenching, life-affirming song, from "An Introduction to the Album" to "Dendron." Bands like this really do save lives.
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Hullo, sweetpeas! 😊
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Today, I learned that when you shop while hungry, you tend to buy things you think you'll like. 😂😂
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Long story short: I actually don't like skittles, but I enjoyed sucking all the sour coating off.
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Today's been a good day. I'm thinking of joining Twitter to post makeup looks, but I'm not sure, yet as I get super paranoid about stuff like that and worry that people will take my pictures and make fun of me. 😔😔
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Hullo, sweetpeas! 😊 - Today, I learned that when you shop while hungry, you tend to buy things you think you'll like. 😂😂 - Long story short: I actually don't like skittles, but I enjoyed sucking all the sour coating off. - Today's been a good day. I'm thinking of joining Twitter to post makeup looks, but I'm not sure, yet as I get super paranoid about stuff like that and worry that people will take my pictures and make fun of me. 😔😔 - #edfam  #recovery  #againstana  #anorexiarecovery  #recovering  #edrecovery  #recoveryispossible  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #prorecovery  #realrecovery  #anorexiafighter  #bulimia  #bulimiarecovery  #2fab4ana #recoveryisworthit  #edcommunity  #mentalhealthawareness  #nourishnotpunish  #edsoilder  #fooddiary  #foodisfuel  #edsurvivor  #staystrong 
Health isn't about the weight you gain. It's about the life you gain. 
Just smashed out my fifth pt session. 
As an anorexic I've spent my life pushing myself to essentially create a strong mind and body. Strong?? You say... How much mental determination does it take to push past hunger? To push past the sickness that ensues. Let me tell you it takes a lot. I once spent a couple of weeks drinking 4.5 litres of juice to fill my stomach and push past the hunger signals. I'd start exercise routines that you'd find on the internet and do over what they told you to do. For instance... 10 crunches... I'd do 200 instead, 20 squats... I'd do another couple of hundred. My body would be screaming and I'd be dedicated to smashing it out so I could be perfect. So I could have the perfect little body I so desperately wanted. 
Part of my condition to bring trained is I have to keep my weight above 50kgs. I'm switching my determination to again creating strength. But in a bigger and physically stronger body. I only get to work out 1.5 hours a week Max and it's with a trainer. 
I'm not quite at the point where I can or am allowed to go alone but slow steps get there quicker than not moving at all. I still war with my annorexia. I still fast at points. I'm not perfect. Nor have I "recovered" but I am fucking battling this bitch. 
I WILL WIN. I will smash the statistic saying that if you've had it for more than (I think) 13 years you'll die from it. Middle finger up to that statistic. 
#imnoquitter #annorexia #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #anawarrior #thintofit #thintofitinprogress #postgymselfie #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #ednos #smashingmygoals #determination
Health isn't about the weight you gain. It's about the life you gain. Just smashed out my fifth pt session. As an anorexic I've spent my life pushing myself to essentially create a strong mind and body. Strong?? You say... How much mental determination does it take to push past hunger? To push past the sickness that ensues. Let me tell you it takes a lot. I once spent a couple of weeks drinking 4.5 litres of juice to fill my stomach and push past the hunger signals. I'd start exercise routines that you'd find on the internet and do over what they told you to do. For instance... 10 crunches... I'd do 200 instead, 20 squats... I'd do another couple of hundred. My body would be screaming and I'd be dedicated to smashing it out so I could be perfect. So I could have the perfect little body I so desperately wanted. Part of my condition to bring trained is I have to keep my weight above 50kgs. I'm switching my determination to again creating strength. But in a bigger and physically stronger body. I only get to work out 1.5 hours a week Max and it's with a trainer. I'm not quite at the point where I can or am allowed to go alone but slow steps get there quicker than not moving at all. I still war with my annorexia. I still fast at points. I'm not perfect. Nor have I "recovered" but I am fucking battling this bitch. I WILL WIN. I will smash the statistic saying that if you've had it for more than (I think) 13 years you'll die from it. Middle finger up to that statistic. #imnoquitter  #annorexia  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #anawarrior  #thintofit  #thintofitinprogress  #postgymselfie  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #ednos  #smashingmygoals  #determination 
I’m still learning to live in the moment every single day 💕 It’s not easy, but every day I can learn and everyday I get stronger 👊🏻
Just a reminder that no matter how small an achievement might seem, it’s still an achievement. It’s still a step in the right direction 😘👊🏻
I’m still learning to live in the moment every single day 💕 It’s not easy, but every day I can learn and everyday I get stronger 👊🏻 Just a reminder that no matter how small an achievement might seem, it’s still an achievement. It’s still a step in the right direction 😘👊🏻
#lunch 
終於吃到了@hangzr 親自弄的蝦米辣醬🌶️
以往都是他媽媽弄的,味道可以媲美他媽媽的蝦米辣醬🌶️🌶️
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#lunch  終於吃到了@hangzr 親自弄的蝦米辣醬🌶️ 以往都是他媽媽弄的,味道可以媲美他媽媽的蝦米辣醬🌶️🌶️ - 總覺得不夠辣,加點小辣椒來提味,太好吃了😋 - #workoutfood #lunchmade #love_life #2eat2gether #heathyfood #foodshare #lunchbox #yummy #igfood #instagood #tagforlikes #l4l #foodstagram #foodporn #foodphotography #foodie #youarewhatyoueat #mmmmm #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingfortheinsta #healthyeating #eatgoodfeelgood #friednoodles #ricenoodles #chili #spicy #chickenbreast #cabbage 
Had a bunch of studying to do for an evaluation at work tomorrow📃It called for The Good Bean to snack on
#eatingdisorder #ed #anorexia #prorecovery #thinkpositive #edfamily #beated #wecandothis #recover #edfight #eattobeatit #anorexiarecovery #eattogrow #edfighters #nourishnotpunish #eattolive #foodisfuel #fooddiary #eatingdisorderrecovery
i ended up eating a butt load when i got home from the gym, which brought my intake up to 2023, but i managed to keep it up, which i’m proud of. 
i haven’t been hungry today and i’m not going to the gym, so this is the first meal of the day at 2pm. it’s 20 strawberries, 30 blueberries and fangks sugar free hot chocolate with just water. 
on my walk home from work i went to my favourite second hand bookstore and bought four books (even though i have a billion i still need to read) and one of them is a dream dictionary, so please send me or comment things from your dreams so i can test it out! 🌿
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i ended up eating a butt load when i got home from the gym, which brought my intake up to 2023, but i managed to keep it up, which i’m proud of. i haven’t been hungry today and i’m not going to the gym, so this is the first meal of the day at 2pm. it’s 20 strawberries, 30 blueberries and fangks sugar free hot chocolate with just water. on my walk home from work i went to my favourite second hand bookstore and bought four books (even though i have a billion i still need to read) and one of them is a dream dictionary, so please send me or comment things from your dreams so i can test it out! 🌿 . . . . . . #vegan  #ana  #mia  #anorexia  #bulimia  #recovery  #mentalhealth  #mentalillness  #anorexiarecovery  #bulimiarecovery  #ed  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #adultswitheds  #health  #nervosa  #BED  #binge  #purge  #vegetarian  #calories  #depression  #anxiety  #gym  #strawberries  #blueberry  #hot  #chocolate  #sugarfree 
We serve a new menu for our lovely cuatomers. And today we have Ayam Bumbu RW👈 must TRY👌| Kakap Woku | Daun Ganemo tumis Bunga Papaya | Pampis Roa | Terong Rica2 | Cakalang Gr Saos | Bakwan Jagung #eatintangerang #eatingdisorderrecovery #manadofood #gadingserpongculinary #kulinertangerang #spicyfood #halalfood #waroengwoka #indonesianfood #kulinergadingserpong
Salmon teriyaki jyu from @sekai_shabu for lunch 😍 #jktinstafood #halal
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🏠 Jl. Suryo no 46, kebayoran
🍴Salmon teriyaki jyu = Rp. 56.000
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Salmon teriyaki jyu from @sekai_shabu for lunch 😍 #jktinstafood  #halal  . . 📍 @sekai_shabu 🏠 Jl. Suryo no 46, kebayoran 🍴Salmon teriyaki jyu = Rp. 56.000 . . . . . #f52grams  #explorejakarta  #jktfoodbang  #food  #foods  #tasty  #eeeeeats  #foodpic  #foodpics  #feedfeed  #foodie  #foodphotography  #delicious   #foodgasm  #foodstagram  #instafood  #foodporn  #kulinerjakarta  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #foodtruck  #foodofinstagram  #foodblogger  #foodgawker  #bonappetit  #deliciousness  #salmon  #teriyaki  #japan 
Good night lovelies ☺️ Papa made waffles the other day🥞
I put Pb and syrup on them 🙌🏻 they were actually so yummy! I hope you are all doing well! —————————————————— Hello darlings ☺️
Went out for breakfast today! Got pancakes and home fries 🥔 it was the little restaurant I went to for thanksgiving🙂  The food was really good ❣️
Have a great day loves! -------------------------------
#vegan#vegansofinstagram#veganfoodshare#veganfoodporn#recoveryispossible#recoveryisworthit#anorexìanervosarecovery#eatingdisorderrecovery#edfam#hclf#plantbasedfood#crueltyfree#weightrestored#eattolive#fightinged#selflove#foodisfuel#positiverecovery#edfree#veganeats#strawberry#recoverywin#fearfood#mentalhealthawareness #epilepsy #nicecream#pancakes#maplesyrup#gofruityourself#carbthefuckup
Good night lovelies ☺️ Papa made waffles the other day🥞 I put Pb and syrup on them 🙌🏻 they were actually so yummy! I hope you are all doing well! —————————————————— Hello darlings ☺️ Went out for breakfast today! Got pancakes and home fries 🥔 it was the little restaurant I went to for thanksgiving🙂 The food was really good ❣️ Have a great day loves! ------------------------------- #vegan #vegansofinstagram #veganfoodshare #veganfoodporn #recoveryispossible #recoveryisworthit #anorexìanervosarecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #edfam #hclf #plantbasedfood #crueltyfree #weightrestored #eattolive #fightinged #selflove #foodisfuel #positiverecovery #edfree #veganeats #strawberry #recoverywin #fearfood #mentalhealthawareness  #epilepsy  #nicecream #pancakes #maplesyrup #gofruityourself #carbthefuckup 
When you consider relapse but wise mind comes in like: 
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Доброе утро
Сегодня все как то нервно, и фотография не получилась нормально
Хорошего дня
Namaste
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7:00am хлопья 7 злаков на кокосовом молоке с бананом и кофий на кокосовом молоке
#anorexia #ed #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder#рационпитания #vegetarian #healthy #healthyfood#foodblog #food #foodporn #recovery #breakfast #рпп#рппуходи #рппголовногомозга #нетанорексии#анорексияуходи #анорексия #восстановление #завтрак#кушаю #вегетарианство #хочукд #мотивация#восстановлениерпп #мирдолжензнатьчтояем#дневник #дневникпитания #мысли
Доброе утро Сегодня все как то нервно, и фотография не получилась нормально Хорошего дня Namaste . . 7:00am хлопья 7 злаков на кокосовом молоке с бананом и кофий на кокосовом молоке #anorexia  #ed  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatingdisorder #рационпитания  #vegetarian  #healthy  #healthyfood #foodblog  #food  #foodporn  #recovery  #breakfast  #рпп #рппуходи  #рппголовногомозга  #нетанорексии #анорексияуходи  #анорексия  #восстановление  #завтрак #кушаю  #вегетарианство  #хочукд  #мотивация #восстановлениерпп  #мирдолжензнатьчтояем #дневник  #дневникпитания  #мысли 
Mum bought me chocolate because yesterday I was craving but we didn’t have any, she’s the best 😍😍 see below for an update after my  psychologist appointment (TW: SUICIDE)
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Soooo this is something i’ve kept to myself for quite a while but my depression is really really bad. I told my psychologist about my increasing SI which has been going on for a few months now and she was really concerned, so we made a safety plan (the alternative was calling an ambulance to take me to hospital straight away). Basically it’s a contract stating that before I do anything to deliberately harm myself, I have to call my safety people (the list we made includes members of my treatment team, some of my closest friends who we thought would be okay handling stuff this heavy, and a couple of 24 hour helplines in case I can’t get ahold of anyone else). She also spoke to my mum about keeping an eye on me - so now I’m not allowed to travel to work by myself and I have to be monitored at home by someone at all times which kinda sucks 😔 the general consensus is that i’m doing extremely badly and i’m not really functional, and at the moment there’s a huge safety concern so a ward is looking like it might be a good option. I switched meds about 2-3 weeks ago which is probably not helping as they haven’t really kicked in yet, so I’m seeing my psychologist again next week for another risk assessment. Honestly she was pretty reluctant to let me go and made me promise that nothing would happen in the next seven days before we left. So far it looks like if I haven’t improved by my next appointment, she’ll be calling my psychiatrist and I’ll probably be admitted to a youth inpatient program. So yeah. Life kinda sucks rn.
Mum bought me chocolate because yesterday I was craving but we didn’t have any, she’s the best 😍😍 see below for an update after my psychologist appointment (TW: SUICIDE) . . . . Soooo this is something i’ve kept to myself for quite a while but my depression is really really bad. I told my psychologist about my increasing SI which has been going on for a few months now and she was really concerned, so we made a safety plan (the alternative was calling an ambulance to take me to hospital straight away). Basically it’s a contract stating that before I do anything to deliberately harm myself, I have to call my safety people (the list we made includes members of my treatment team, some of my closest friends who we thought would be okay handling stuff this heavy, and a couple of 24 hour helplines in case I can’t get ahold of anyone else). She also spoke to my mum about keeping an eye on me - so now I’m not allowed to travel to work by myself and I have to be monitored at home by someone at all times which kinda sucks 😔 the general consensus is that i’m doing extremely badly and i’m not really functional, and at the moment there’s a huge safety concern so a ward is looking like it might be a good option. I switched meds about 2-3 weeks ago which is probably not helping as they haven’t really kicked in yet, so I’m seeing my psychologist again next week for another risk assessment. Honestly she was pretty reluctant to let me go and made me promise that nothing would happen in the next seven days before we left. So far it looks like if I haven’t improved by my next appointment, she’ll be calling my psychiatrist and I’ll probably be admitted to a youth inpatient program. So yeah. Life kinda sucks rn.
New blog post!!! Link in bio. Follow your heart ♥️
New blog post!!! Link in bio. Follow your heart ♥️
FDOE
-breakfast: oats with cinnamon, nutmeg, coconut sugar, vanilla and apple 🍎. Topped with strawberries 🍓, a mini banana 🍌 (so freaking cute + fear food!), chia seeds, flax seeds, almond butter, sliced almonds and almond milk 🥛 -lunch: a GIGANTIC sweet potato 🍠  filled with a chili kind of thing (lentil, tomato 🍅, spinach, green peas, zucchini, liquid aminos and spices), nooch cilantro. On a bed of romaine lettuce with tahini and lemon 🍋 dressing. -afternoon snack: an apple 🍎
-dinner: pasta 🍝 with the leftover “chili” from lunch, nooch, green onion, flax seeds, basil and oregano 🌿. On a bed of romaine lettuce.
DAMN MY MEALS WERE DELICIOUS TODAY. But I did experience horrible nausea after breakfast, and I think it’s because I drank too much water again 😒🙄. But I just laid downing and took a nap to calm it down. I have to stop chugging so much water in the morning, honestly. Anyway, I’m still proud of myself for pushing through and not restricting whatsoever. I also didn’t increase my snack because I was afraid I might get nauseous again. 
#anorexianervosarecovery #edwarrior #anorexiawarrior #anawontwin #anorexiafighter #edrecovery #edrecoverywarrior #roadtorecovery #beatana #edfam #prorecovery #anawho #fuckana #recoveryisworthit #strongnotskinny #bootynotbones #fightingana #edfighter #eatingdisorderrecovery #recoveringfromanorexia #anorexia #screwana #anasucks #chooserecovery #anawarrior #edrecoveryfam
FDOE -breakfast: oats with cinnamon, nutmeg, coconut sugar, vanilla and apple 🍎. Topped with strawberries 🍓, a mini banana 🍌 (so freaking cute + fear food!), chia seeds, flax seeds, almond butter, sliced almonds and almond milk 🥛 -lunch: a GIGANTIC sweet potato 🍠 filled with a chili kind of thing (lentil, tomato 🍅, spinach, green peas, zucchini, liquid aminos and spices), nooch cilantro. On a bed of romaine lettuce with tahini and lemon 🍋 dressing. -afternoon snack: an apple 🍎 -dinner: pasta 🍝 with the leftover “chili” from lunch, nooch, green onion, flax seeds, basil and oregano 🌿. On a bed of romaine lettuce. DAMN MY MEALS WERE DELICIOUS TODAY. But I did experience horrible nausea after breakfast, and I think it’s because I drank too much water again 😒🙄. But I just laid downing and took a nap to calm it down. I have to stop chugging so much water in the morning, honestly. Anyway, I’m still proud of myself for pushing through and not restricting whatsoever. I also didn’t increase my snack because I was afraid I might get nauseous again. #anorexianervosarecovery  #edwarrior  #anorexiawarrior  #anawontwin  #anorexiafighter  #edrecovery  #edrecoverywarrior  #roadtorecovery  #beatana  #edfam  #prorecovery  #anawho  #fuckana  #recoveryisworthit  #strongnotskinny  #bootynotbones  #fightingana  #edfighter  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #recoveringfromanorexia  #anorexia  #screwana  #anasucks  #chooserecovery  #anawarrior  #edrecoveryfam 
Dinner was oatmeal with cinnamon and banana at my aunt’s house (sorry the picture quality may be lower this week as I’m visiting family and trying to manage my own food there too) TW!! I’m so stressed I had way more anxiety than I anticipated eating if front of my family. They just make such a fuss about food and it felt like the focus was all on me cause I was the only one eating...hopefully tomorrow is easier. Goodnight everyone✨🌙
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#eatittobeatit #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #edrecovery #disorderedeating #disorderedeatingrecovery  #nourishyourbody #vegetarian #fightforfreedom #iamincontrol #fightforlife #iamincharge #loveyourself #foodisfuel 
#bodypositive #believeinyourself #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #morethananumber #honoryourhunger #treatyoself #loveyourself #not1in5
Dinner was oatmeal with cinnamon and banana at my aunt’s house (sorry the picture quality may be lower this week as I’m visiting family and trying to manage my own food there too) TW!! I’m so stressed I had way more anxiety than I anticipated eating if front of my family. They just make such a fuss about food and it felt like the focus was all on me cause I was the only one eating...hopefully tomorrow is easier. Goodnight everyone✨🌙 . . #eatittobeatit  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #edrecovery  #disorderedeating  #disorderedeatingrecovery  #nourishyourbody  #vegetarian  #fightforfreedom  #iamincontrol  #fightforlife  #iamincharge  #loveyourself  #foodisfuel  #bodypositive  #believeinyourself  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #morethananumber  #honoryourhunger  #treatyoself  #loveyourself  #not1in5 
Random picture of my kitty...
Anyway,I am legit the biggest non-pregnant weight I have ever been in and I don't have a single pair of clothes that fit...no pants or non-hoodie shirts.  I'm calling my therapist, doctor, and dietician to see what they recommend with exercise and weight loss.  I have been weight restored for 14 months and have gained 10 pounds just in the past 2 weeks.  I've already been told that I am allowed to lose 10...before I gained the 10 so probably more like 20...but I want to do it the right way. To go from extreme to the other is equally not healthy. I am going to get my meal plan and activity into a personalized, APPROVED plan so I can take control of my life.
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#anorexianervosa #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #anorexiaawareness #ana #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderawareness #eatingdisorderrecovery #ed #adultswithed #adultswithanorexia #edfam #fight #edwarrior #edsoldier #edfighter #anxiety #depression #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #bpd #borderline #agoraphobia #ptsd
Random picture of my kitty... Anyway,I am legit the biggest non-pregnant weight I have ever been in and I don't have a single pair of clothes that fit...no pants or non-hoodie shirts. I'm calling my therapist, doctor, and dietician to see what they recommend with exercise and weight loss. I have been weight restored for 14 months and have gained 10 pounds just in the past 2 weeks. I've already been told that I am allowed to lose 10...before I gained the 10 so probably more like 20...but I want to do it the right way. To go from extreme to the other is equally not healthy. I am going to get my meal plan and activity into a personalized, APPROVED plan so I can take control of my life. - #anorexianervosa  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexiaawareness  #ana  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderawareness  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #ed  #adultswithed  #adultswithanorexia  #edfam  #fight  #edwarrior  #edsoldier  #edfighter  #anxiety  #depression  #borderlinepersonalitydisorder  #bpd  #borderline  #agoraphobia  #ptsd 
Not many people know this about me, but in the past I struggled with body image issues....which eventually led to a full-blown eating disorder that almost destroyed my life. To make a long story short, fast forward 20-something years later, I can finally say, I’m 💯% healthy now... However, while my body & soul have recovered beautifully, unfortunately it wasn’t so when it came to my teeth😫😣, after doing inconceivable damage to it for so many years, full dental implants was my last resort. This pretty smile you see here, I owe it to my amazing dentist Dr. Goth Siu @dr.gothsiu and his team at @finchsmiles88 - if it wasn’t for these wonderful, talented folks, I know I would NEVER be able to eat or chew, or function again, like a normal person. I certainly wouldn’t be allowing myself to smile as freely or as often as I do, or be so excited and confident to share my story here on social media.  So to Dr. Goth, who I consider my good friend (as he also shares great advice on how to score on Instagram🤘🏻👨‍⚕️with me — you’ve changed my life to something I did not think would ever be possible, you gave me my life back. Thank you from the bottom of my heart!!!🙏🏻💓 #smile #dental #teeth #dentistry #dentalwork #dentalimplant #instasmile #blogger #blog #canadianblogger #fashionblogger #mylook #mystyle #instahair #instagirl #eatingdisorderrecovery #positivebodyimage #igdaily #igfashion #photooftheday #britishcolumbia #selfie #ageless #beautifulsmile #makeyousmilestyle #followme #dentalimplants #influencer #lifestyleblogger #fashiongirl
Not many people know this about me, but in the past I struggled with body image issues....which eventually led to a full-blown eating disorder that almost destroyed my life. To make a long story short, fast forward 20-something years later, I can finally say, I’m 💯% healthy now... However, while my body & soul have recovered beautifully, unfortunately it wasn’t so when it came to my teeth😫😣, after doing inconceivable damage to it for so many years, full dental implants was my last resort. This pretty smile you see here, I owe it to my amazing dentist Dr. Goth Siu @dr.gothsiu and his team at @finchsmiles88 - if it wasn’t for these wonderful, talented folks, I know I would NEVER be able to eat or chew, or function again, like a normal person. I certainly wouldn’t be allowing myself to smile as freely or as often as I do, or be so excited and confident to share my story here on social media. So to Dr. Goth, who I consider my good friend (as he also shares great advice on how to score on Instagram🤘🏻👨‍⚕️with me — you’ve changed my life to something I did not think would ever be possible, you gave me my life back. Thank you from the bottom of my heart!!!🙏🏻💓 #smile  #dental  #teeth  #dentistry  #dentalwork  #dentalimplant  #instasmile  #blogger  #blog  #canadianblogger  #fashionblogger  #mylook  #mystyle  #instahair  #instagirl  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #positivebodyimage  #igdaily  #igfashion  #photooftheday  #britishcolumbia  #selfie  #ageless  #beautifulsmile  #makeyousmilestyle  #followme  #dentalimplants  #influencer  #lifestyleblogger  #fashiongirl 
My life feels like a compass 
Spinning round and round so fast I can barely breathe
I don’t know what is the right course 
It just keeps spinning and spinning 
Faster and faster 
So fast that I fall and land hard on the ground and scrape my knees and cut my hands 
The world is telling me to slow down but I can barely stop to breathe it’s air.
I scream to the sky to tell me what the fuck to do. 
I just want to live a normal life. 
Scared out of my witts and I just keep gasping. 
Gasping, grasping, someone shake me and stop this from happening.
I need help. 
Divine intervention. 
I don’t know what the fuck I am doing. 
A walking disaster without a plan. 
Im not okay. 
How about you? 
After another day on the planet,
I check in again tonight. 
With sore knees and a bruised ego. 
117lbs, less fear foods this week, a guy I was supposed to meet with this weekend is treating me like garbage. 
All my insecurities come bubbling up when men come back in the picture. 
I worry they love my photos but this person In real life will they still love me? 
Apart of my new life goals is too look fear in the eye and do my best before I die. 
Today my therapist asked me, don’t you want someone to love you know matter what weight you are? 
I said yes. 
However, in this hook up culture it’s hard to believe. 
Hard to breathe, hard to breathe. 
She hasn’t even had a drink yet and she’s already dating. 
Barely a month ED free, struggling with assignments and life it may seem. 
Don’t hold your breathe your just getting started. 
The roller coaster has just begun. 
Prepare your heart to be martyred. 
#365daysofpoetry #eatingdisorderrecovery #bulimiarecovery #addiction #harmreduction #bipolar #bipolardisorder #eatingdisorder #bingeeatingdisorder #bruisedbutnotbroken #mad #madworld #madones
My life feels like a compass Spinning round and round so fast I can barely breathe I don’t know what is the right course It just keeps spinning and spinning Faster and faster So fast that I fall and land hard on the ground and scrape my knees and cut my hands The world is telling me to slow down but I can barely stop to breathe it’s air. I scream to the sky to tell me what the fuck to do. I just want to live a normal life. Scared out of my witts and I just keep gasping. Gasping, grasping, someone shake me and stop this from happening. I need help. Divine intervention. I don’t know what the fuck I am doing. A walking disaster without a plan. Im not okay. How about you? After another day on the planet, I check in again tonight. With sore knees and a bruised ego. 117lbs, less fear foods this week, a guy I was supposed to meet with this weekend is treating me like garbage. All my insecurities come bubbling up when men come back in the picture. I worry they love my photos but this person In real life will they still love me? Apart of my new life goals is too look fear in the eye and do my best before I die. Today my therapist asked me, don’t you want someone to love you know matter what weight you are? I said yes. However, in this hook up culture it’s hard to believe. Hard to breathe, hard to breathe. She hasn’t even had a drink yet and she’s already dating. Barely a month ED free, struggling with assignments and life it may seem. Don’t hold your breathe your just getting started. The roller coaster has just begun. Prepare your heart to be martyred. #365daysofpoetry  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #bulimiarecovery  #addiction  #harmreduction  #bipolar  #bipolardisorder  #eatingdisorder  #bingeeatingdisorder  #bruisedbutnotbroken  #mad  #madworld  #madones 
ขอบคุณลูกค้าทุกๆท่านนะคะ ที่ช่วยยืนยันความอร่อย ของ #เนื้อวัวไร้เทียมทาน จะทานที่ร้านหรือสั่งกลับบ้านก็อร่อยไม่แพ้กันค่ะ เพราะเราใส่ใจทุกขั้นตอน ทำให้ได้น้ำซุปที่หอมอร่อยจนหยดสุดท้าย เนื้อหอม นุ่ม เด้ง แม้กระทั่งน้ำจิ้มที่ทานคู่กับอะไรก้อร่อย ใครยังไม่เคยลอง รีบมาจัดเลยค่าาาา
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The universe is crying for her, as she ignores the helpless cries she's cought up in her own mind. "I can't listen to you when I have a million and a half voices telling me what to be, it's not easy being me" she said. Darling don't  you know it's not easy being anyone? I created you to suffer my harsh edges, don't wince when you get cut.. it's just me showing you my love. -Harsh world- 🌹×🌹×🌹 #Depressed #depressive #depression #depressing #anxiety #anxious #sad #sadgirl #ana #anorexia #mia #bulimia #EDNOS #ednos #anarecovery #anorexiarecovery #miarecovery #bulimiarecovery #ednosrecovery #edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #selfharm #cut #selfharmrecovery #flowersofthevalley #pretending #poem #lies #flowerforyourthoughts
The universe is crying for her, as she ignores the helpless cries she's cought up in her own mind. "I can't listen to you when I have a million and a half voices telling me what to be, it's not easy being me" she said. Darling don't you know it's not easy being anyone? I created you to suffer my harsh edges, don't wince when you get cut.. it's just me showing you my love. -Harsh world- 🌹×🌹×🌹 #Depressed  #depressive  #depression  #depressing  #anxiety  #anxious  #sad  #sadgirl  #ana  #anorexia  #mia  #bulimia  #EDNOS  #ednos  #anarecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #miarecovery  #bulimiarecovery  #ednosrecovery  #edrecovery  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #selfharm  #cut  #selfharmrecovery  #flowersofthevalley  #pretending  #poem  #lies  #flowerforyourthoughts 
Night snack tonight. Today has been really hard for me. I have had such terrible anxiety and it has affected my school and basketball playing. I hate having anxiety and having to deal with these feelings. Eating food hasn’t been too much of a problem but my anxiety has worsened. My sister thinks it’s because I’m giving up my eating control which was a coping mechanism. I think she’s right. My anxiety and how much I compare myself to others is so much. It’s just very hard for me right now. I’m trying my hardest. I hope you all had a great day. Also I have a 6am practice so I won’t be posting much tomorrow. 💕🌻
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Night snack tonight. Today has been really hard for me. I have had such terrible anxiety and it has affected my school and basketball playing. I hate having anxiety and having to deal with these feelings. Eating food hasn’t been too much of a problem but my anxiety has worsened. My sister thinks it’s because I’m giving up my eating control which was a coping mechanism. I think she’s right. My anxiety and how much I compare myself to others is so much. It’s just very hard for me right now. I’m trying my hardest. I hope you all had a great day. Also I have a 6am practice so I won’t be posting much tomorrow. 💕🌻 #recovery  #edrecovery  #edwarrior  #food  #eatingdisorderrecovery 
Hmmm. I don't know.
(And why is there no pie emoji? Come ON.)
Hmmm. I don't know. (And why is there no pie emoji? Come ON.)
Night snack was 2 cups of chex, 2 cups of milk, an apple, a banana, and 1 1/2 cups of caramel corn
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Have a great night lovelies.
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If you don't instagram your Starbucks, did you even have Starbucks? Also, Thailand's soy milk game is next level 😍
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This was kinda my dinner but it's sort of a snack
It's nature valley bars with hot chocolate
I don't have nearly enough calories for today so I'm going to challenge myself and have an ice cream cone with my family! Ice cream is probably my favorite thing 🍦
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I hear all the time that I am “obsessed” with working out and eating healthy and that this obsession has changed who I am as a person. And those people are half right, yes I am a different person, an arguably better person actually. However I love to eat healthy and workout but that is not what I am obsessed with. What I am obsessed with is learning to love myself. And to love everything that I am and to become everything I so desperately want to be. And I think that is the most important thing to me right now, and if that makes me obsessed, so be it. I’d rather love myself then go back to my old lifestyle any day 🌸
I hear all the time that I am “obsessed” with working out and eating healthy and that this obsession has changed who I am as a person. And those people are half right, yes I am a different person, an arguably better person actually. However I love to eat healthy and workout but that is not what I am obsessed with. What I am obsessed with is learning to love myself. And to love everything that I am and to become everything I so desperately want to be. And I think that is the most important thing to me right now, and if that makes me obsessed, so be it. I’d rather love myself then go back to my old lifestyle any day 🌸