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Merienda:
- dos trozos de chocolate negro belga
Cena:
- 3 trozos de pizza artisana - 3 de barbacoa - 2 trozos de pizza 4 quesos
- 1 trozo de cabramelizada 
Llena no, lo siguiente pero todo buenísimo! Ahora a casa y a descansar!! Buenas noches 😴 .
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#healthy #health #healthychoices #prorecovery #cena #fitgirl #strongnotskinny #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #anarecovery #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #lunch #pan #comidasana #edfamily #beatingana #nutrition #yummy #food #salad #eatclean #fitness #fit #instafood #workout #followme #like4like #edfighter
Merienda: - dos trozos de chocolate negro belga Cena: - 3 trozos de pizza artisana - 3 de barbacoa - 2 trozos de pizza 4 quesos - 1 trozo de cabramelizada Llena no, lo siguiente pero todo buenísimo! Ahora a casa y a descansar!! Buenas noches 😴 . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . #healthy  #health  #healthychoices  #prorecovery  #cena  #fitgirl  #strongnotskinny  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #anarecovery  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #lunch  #pan  #comidasana  #edfamily  #beatingana  #nutrition  #yummy  #food  #salad  #eatclean  #fitness  #fit  #instafood  #workout  #followme  #like4like  #edfighter 
Gains are coming babes💪🏻💕#tiugirl #tiuxtarget
Sunday 21st January 2018.
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Dont have poached egg on fruit bread guys, its nasty! It wasnt my intentions, my partner thought he was being cute before realising I had no other bread 😂.
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Lunch then was cereal, and dinner wasnt nice at all!.
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Ive pretty much sat and read most of today, laughed a lot reading Adam Kays book "This is going to hurt", I might sit and finish "The Christmasaurus next.
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All the fun starts again tomorrow! Wont know till 9am but possibly seeing Mother, then all the youth stuff all week followed buy lots od preparing for Saturdays Fundraising!.
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I'm feeling more shit today than I was this time last week, the worse I feel the stronger everything else feels too!.
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Truthfully i'm scared, scared I wont make it through the week without dking something damadging, getting myself into trouble or ending in hospital.
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Anxiety is through the roof and i'm struggling to take much more, and ofc my wonderful partner isnt helping 😒 from the Miss Piggy jokes to lectures, then theres the annoying thought that I have with him being majorly underweight himself really are affecting me (he cant help it) to the a point it feels wrong to be fatter than he is!.
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#anorexia #AnorexiaNervosa #anorexiarecovery #anorexianervosarecovery  #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #fearfood #fearfoodchallenge #followerchallenge #food #challenge #mentalillness #recovery #outpatient #fooddiary #outpatinetrecovery #edrecovery  #MentalhealthRecovery #MentalIllnessRecovery #edwarrior #edfamily #eatingdisorderwarrior #eatingdisorderfamily #anorexiawarrior #food #foodie #foodblog #eatittobeatit #foodisfuel #fuckana #gainweight
Sunday 21st January 2018. 🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟 Dont have poached egg on fruit bread guys, its nasty! It wasnt my intentions, my partner thought he was being cute before realising I had no other bread 😂. - Lunch then was cereal, and dinner wasnt nice at all!. - Ive pretty much sat and read most of today, laughed a lot reading Adam Kays book "This is going to hurt", I might sit and finish "The Christmasaurus next. - All the fun starts again tomorrow! Wont know till 9am but possibly seeing Mother, then all the youth stuff all week followed buy lots od preparing for Saturdays Fundraising!. - I'm feeling more shit today than I was this time last week, the worse I feel the stronger everything else feels too!. - Truthfully i'm scared, scared I wont make it through the week without dking something damadging, getting myself into trouble or ending in hospital. - Anxiety is through the roof and i'm struggling to take much more, and ofc my wonderful partner isnt helping 😒 from the Miss Piggy jokes to lectures, then theres the annoying thought that I have with him being majorly underweight himself really are affecting me (he cant help it) to the a point it feels wrong to be fatter than he is!. 🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟 #anorexia  #AnorexiaNervosa  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexianervosarecovery   #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #fearfood  #fearfoodchallenge  #followerchallenge  #food  #challenge  #mentalillness  #recovery  #outpatient  #fooddiary  #outpatinetrecovery  #edrecovery   #MentalhealthRecovery  #MentalIllnessRecovery  #edwarrior  #edfamily  #eatingdisorderwarrior  #eatingdisorderfamily  #anorexiawarrior  #food  #foodie  #foodblog  #eatittobeatit  #foodisfuel  #fuckana  #gainweight 
Dinner is a delicious coconut veggies wrap. So good. I was still hungry after so I had a sweet potato too. .
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I don’t count calories anymore. My body knows what it needs more that counting does. If you’re hungry, eat. If you had dinner already but are still hungry then eat. Food is necessary for survival. Food gets us through the day and gives us energy to get stuff done. If you finished dinner but are craving some food then eat some more food. If you finished dinner but are craving some chocolate then eat some chocolate. I have some chocolate every day. The best thing I ever did was stop counting and measuring and being mindful of and giving my body what it needs.
Dinner is a delicious coconut veggies wrap. So good. I was still hungry after so I had a sweet potato too. . . I don’t count calories anymore. My body knows what it needs more that counting does. If you’re hungry, eat. If you had dinner already but are still hungry then eat. Food is necessary for survival. Food gets us through the day and gives us energy to get stuff done. If you finished dinner but are craving some food then eat some more food. If you finished dinner but are craving some chocolate then eat some chocolate. I have some chocolate every day. The best thing I ever did was stop counting and measuring and being mindful of and giving my body what it needs.
I FOUND THE CHERRY BAKEWELL MÜLLER RICE!! 🍒😍 been looking for this for about 2 weeks and finally stumbled across it in sainsbo’s yesterday 👌🏻👌🏻 and boy it’s gooooooood 😋 alongside an apple 🍎 hot chocolate and a galler chocolate 🍫☺️ just watched dancing on ice this evening and caught up on a few other programmes 👍🏻 and got school first thing so up bright and early 😭 sleep tight guys 💚
I FOUND THE CHERRY BAKEWELL MÜLLER RICE!! 🍒😍 been looking for this for about 2 weeks and finally stumbled across it in sainsbo’s yesterday 👌🏻👌🏻 and boy it’s gooooooood 😋 alongside an apple 🍎 hot chocolate and a galler chocolate 🍫☺️ just watched dancing on ice this evening and caught up on a few other programmes 👍🏻 and got school first thing so up bright and early 😭 sleep tight guys 💚
This was legitimately sooo good, and so easy to make! ☺️💚
All I did was take Green Giant frozen spiraled zucchini, canned water chestnuts, pre-cooked Chicken of the Sea Salmon (the kind from the pouches), 2 tablespoons gluten free soy sauce, and 1 teaspoon of McCormick sriracha black pepper spice, threw it in my wok and fried until the water chestnuts and salmon were nice and crispy.  It seriously tasted like sweet and spicy chow mein. Probably one of the best things I’ve ever made.
This was legitimately sooo good, and so easy to make! ☺️💚 All I did was take Green Giant frozen spiraled zucchini, canned water chestnuts, pre-cooked Chicken of the Sea Salmon (the kind from the pouches), 2 tablespoons gluten free soy sauce, and 1 teaspoon of McCormick sriracha black pepper spice, threw it in my wok and fried until the water chestnuts and salmon were nice and crispy. It seriously tasted like sweet and spicy chow mein. Probably one of the best things I’ve ever made.
I did it. I'm eating some of these cookies as a nightsnack.
Even though I feel horrible I managed to do it.
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I cut myself again. I have suicidal thoughts. Ana is screaming loud at me. But I'm managing. I'm still here. Thanks to my friends who tried to distract me. They're there for me even in this bad times. And I'm so thankful for that.

#personal #mentalillness #anorexia #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #edwarrior #recovery #anorexiarecovery #edrecovery #edfamily #fuckana #anawho #beatana #realrecovery #edsoldier #fighter #recoveryisworthit #selfharm #depressive #depression #foodstagram #snack #tea #tealover
I did it. I'm eating some of these cookies as a nightsnack. Even though I feel horrible I managed to do it. TW I cut myself again. I have suicidal thoughts. Ana is screaming loud at me. But I'm managing. I'm still here. Thanks to my friends who tried to distract me. They're there for me even in this bad times. And I'm so thankful for that. #personal  #mentalillness  #anorexia  #borderlinepersonalitydisorder  #edwarrior  #recovery  #anorexiarecovery  #edrecovery  #edfamily  #fuckana  #anawho  #beatana  #realrecovery  #edsoldier  #fighter  #recoveryisworthit  #selfharm  #depressive  #depression  #foodstagram  #snack  #tea  #tealover 
Second women’s march on the books for me, this one in my hometown. The body acceptance movement is inherently a feminist movement. It’s about recognizing the messages we hear as women daily, and how diet culture helps keep us stuck by allowing us to focus on something that is outside our control (aka changing our bodies into something they’re not) rather than focusing on growing ourselves. It keeps us stuck, and is a subtle tactic to keep us down. Accepting our bodies and allowing other parts of life to become more important is a subversive act. This is not meant to exclude any other groups, and also applies to the journeys of men and especially LGBTQ+ individuals. We all have our own unique experiences, and yet all share the struggle of cultivating our own identities in a world that tells us we need to change. Don’t change. Rise up. #edrecovery #edfamily #riseup #womensmarch
Second women’s march on the books for me, this one in my hometown. The body acceptance movement is inherently a feminist movement. It’s about recognizing the messages we hear as women daily, and how diet culture helps keep us stuck by allowing us to focus on something that is outside our control (aka changing our bodies into something they’re not) rather than focusing on growing ourselves. It keeps us stuck, and is a subtle tactic to keep us down. Accepting our bodies and allowing other parts of life to become more important is a subversive act. This is not meant to exclude any other groups, and also applies to the journeys of men and especially LGBTQ+ individuals. We all have our own unique experiences, and yet all share the struggle of cultivating our own identities in a world that tells us we need to change. Don’t change. Rise up. #edrecovery  #edfamily  #riseup  #womensmarch 
Well done to Blessington Musical and Dramatic Society on a wonderful pantomime Beauty and the Beast.  All cast and crew and Director did very well and provided great entertainment over the last few days. Last night Sheila came to see the show on her night out from hospital.  She was asked if she would like to play a small cameo at today's matinee. Would she what?  Of course she would and she did. She had a ball and now going back to hospital  tonight she wants to get better to be back on stage where she belongs. Thank you BMDS.
#pantomime #panto #beautyandthebeast #tramwaytheatre #diva #stage #edfighter #ed #ednos #edrecovery #bodywhys #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #anorexia #aware #fued #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthrecovery #parenthood #hope #dadanddaughter #family #edfamily
Well done to Blessington Musical and Dramatic Society on a wonderful pantomime Beauty and the Beast. All cast and crew and Director did very well and provided great entertainment over the last few days. Last night Sheila came to see the show on her night out from hospital. She was asked if she would like to play a small cameo at today's matinee. Would she what? Of course she would and she did. She had a ball and now going back to hospital tonight she wants to get better to be back on stage where she belongs. Thank you BMDS. #pantomime  #panto  #beautyandthebeast  #tramwaytheatre  #diva  #stage  #edfighter  #ed  #ednos  #edrecovery  #bodywhys  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #anorexia  #aware  #fued  #mentalhealth  #mentalhealthawareness  #mentalhealthrecovery  #parenthood  #hope  #dadanddaughter  #family  #edfamily 
Hi 💋 Today was kinda difficult... Ana was so loud and after skipping my MS and eating really disordered at lunch, my parents talked to me about about why I was relapsing. I ended up running upstairs crying 😢 My mom came to my room and we talked for a few hours... After that I felt a little better but today was still very difficult. Now I feel more motivation again so thats good 💪🏻 Tomorrow I’m going to the psychiatrist for the first time, who will hopefully help me with my depression. I also have a psychologist appointment so that good.
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- Breakfast: a bowl of Brinta porridge + seeds + a teaspoon of my new cranberry & cinnamon peanut butter (really good!)
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- Lunch: 1,5 bun with a piece of sweet red pepper 🌶, a small piece of herring 🐟 and half a slice of ham 🍖
- AS: 2 small bowls of granola + a few cereals + 1 prune + 6 lychees
- Dinner: a Mexican tortilla 🌯with beans and lentils and some veggies (cucumber 🥒, tomato 🍅, sweet red pepper 🌶) and 3/4 advocado 🥑
- NS: a small bowl of paprika chips (#fearfood!)
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Good night sleep tight xxx 💕💫
Hi 💋 Today was kinda difficult... Ana was so loud and after skipping my MS and eating really disordered at lunch, my parents talked to me about about why I was relapsing. I ended up running upstairs crying 😢 My mom came to my room and we talked for a few hours... After that I felt a little better but today was still very difficult. Now I feel more motivation again so thats good 💪🏻 Tomorrow I’m going to the psychiatrist for the first time, who will hopefully help me with my depression. I also have a psychologist appointment so that good. | | - Breakfast: a bowl of Brinta porridge + seeds + a teaspoon of my new cranberry & cinnamon peanut butter (really good!) - MS: / - Lunch: 1,5 bun with a piece of sweet red pepper 🌶, a small piece of herring 🐟 and half a slice of ham 🍖 - AS: 2 small bowls of granola + a few cereals + 1 prune + 6 lychees - Dinner: a Mexican tortilla 🌯with beans and lentils and some veggies (cucumber 🥒, tomato 🍅, sweet red pepper 🌶) and 3/4 advocado 🥑 - NS: a small bowl of paprika chips (#fearfood !) | | Good night sleep tight xxx 💕💫
I’m reading ‘The Gospel of Loki’ by Joanne Harris and this quote really got to me. Because isn’t this what we do every day of our lives when we choose our demons over our freedom. 
I’ve been on a path self destruction for a long time and feeling like I don’t deserve any better. 
My illness has always been a way of punishing myself for being worthless.
For being a failure.
For being an awful human being.
I let my past and sense of worth that has been built from that define my present and my future, and by being unable to let go it ensures that I never move on.
I punish myself for things that shouldn’t continue to matter and curse myself to a future of the same existence.
Hating myself and hurting myself for things I can’t change is a waste of energy. 
I have to realise that I can be whoever I want to be. 
That every new day is a chance to start over.
I deserve, as much as anyone else, to be happy and I need to learn to forgive myself. 
Experiencing love is such an unnatural feeling when you’ve spent your whole life hating yourself. But just try, for a moment, looking at the person staring back at you in the mirror, and if it’s too hard to say ‘I love you’...
...’I accept you’ is a good place to start.💪🏻💫💖 #anorexiarecovery #recoverywarrior #edfamily #anawarrior #anafamily #prorecovery #beyourownhero #nourishnotpunish #realrecovery #beatinganorexia #bdd #bulimiarecovery #bodydysmorphia #depression #mentalhealth #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #edwarrior #selfcare #believeinyourself #eatingdisorderawareness #edrecovery #recoveryisworthit #nevergiveup #mentalhealthawareness #selfacceptance #anxiety #selfworth #selfcare #positivity #selfacceptance
I’m reading ‘The Gospel of Loki’ by Joanne Harris and this quote really got to me. Because isn’t this what we do every day of our lives when we choose our demons over our freedom. I’ve been on a path self destruction for a long time and feeling like I don’t deserve any better. My illness has always been a way of punishing myself for being worthless. For being a failure. For being an awful human being. I let my past and sense of worth that has been built from that define my present and my future, and by being unable to let go it ensures that I never move on. I punish myself for things that shouldn’t continue to matter and curse myself to a future of the same existence. Hating myself and hurting myself for things I can’t change is a waste of energy. I have to realise that I can be whoever I want to be. That every new day is a chance to start over. I deserve, as much as anyone else, to be happy and I need to learn to forgive myself. Experiencing love is such an unnatural feeling when you’ve spent your whole life hating yourself. But just try, for a moment, looking at the person staring back at you in the mirror, and if it’s too hard to say ‘I love you’... ...’I accept you’ is a good place to start.💪🏻💫💖 #anorexiarecovery  #recoverywarrior  #edfamily  #anawarrior  #anafamily  #prorecovery  #beyourownhero  #nourishnotpunish  #realrecovery  #beatinganorexia  #bdd  #bulimiarecovery  #bodydysmorphia  #depression  #mentalhealth  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #edwarrior  #selfcare  #believeinyourself  #eatingdisorderawareness  #edrecovery  #recoveryisworthit  #nevergiveup  #mentalhealthawareness  #selfacceptance  #anxiety  #selfworth  #selfcare  #positivity  #selfacceptance 
I’ve been having a lot of these lately because I basically live on food I can travel with (forever in the car✌🏻) and because they have REAL ingredients that don’t mess with my body. these bars have been something I avoided for so long because they were so small for so “few” calories and in my head not worth it BUT I’ve come around and actually they are quite filling and I’m trying not to care so much about the cals..still working on trying the ones that are over 200 (cause those lousy 10 calories make a difference? 🙄 #logic) but one step at a time! In the meantime I’m seriously enjoying the ones I have tried! •
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#edrecovery #anorexiarecovery #bulimiarecovery #recoveryjourney #eatingdisorderrecovery #prorecovery #cheerstorecovery #cheerstobalance #livinglifewithbalance #foodisfuel #allfoodisgoodfood #edfamily #nourishnotpunish #mentalhealth #adultswitheds #recovery #effyourfearfoods
I’ve been having a lot of these lately because I basically live on food I can travel with (forever in the car✌🏻) and because they have REAL ingredients that don’t mess with my body. these bars have been something I avoided for so long because they were so small for so “few” calories and in my head not worth it BUT I’ve come around and actually they are quite filling and I’m trying not to care so much about the cals..still working on trying the ones that are over 200 (cause those lousy 10 calories make a difference? 🙄 #logic ) but one step at a time! In the meantime I’m seriously enjoying the ones I have tried! • • #edrecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #bulimiarecovery  #recoveryjourney  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #prorecovery  #cheerstorecovery  #cheerstobalance  #livinglifewithbalance  #foodisfuel  #allfoodisgoodfood  #edfamily  #nourishnotpunish  #mentalhealth  #adultswitheds  #recovery  #effyourfearfoods 
Had a peng dinner my fav! Quorn toad in the hole❤️, mash potato 🥔 , gravy, seasoned carrots 🥕& broccoli 🥦
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Hope you have all had a good day & all okay❤️
Had a peng dinner my fav! Quorn toad in the hole❤️, mash potato 🥔 , gravy, seasoned carrots 🥕& broccoli 🥦 😍👅 Hope you have all had a good day & all okay❤️
Yay okay👌🏼 new day, new possibilities
Today’s #breakfast was a baguette again and a got chocolate! Half of the baguette with nut-chocolate-spread thing idk and other half with ham and cheese(!!)
#snack was this thing on the second picture (what are they called in English?😅)
#dinner at a restaurant(!!!!) was a hamburger(!!) and fries! It was from the kids menu, and the burger was half of the size of the bread, but I ate most of it! Kind of proud☺️🎉
Today my cousin and I went home again after we ate dinner... while we ate I got a snap from a friend that made me so worried that I panicked and cried for about 3 hours on the bus home and after that too😶😣💕
But I’m a little better now I think, except that I’m really tired and nauseous(?) and I hope my friend has it better now too! So even though I actually have a lot of homework to do, I’m going to bed... Goodnight💜♥️💜 #anarecovery #iammenotmyed #edrecovery #edwarrior #foodisfuel #foodisyum #foodismedicine #iammorethananumber #edfamily #edfighter #ednos #ednoswarrior #ednosrecovery #food #eatittobeatit #depression #depressionrecovery #socialanxiety #fuckana #youdeserverecovery #recoveryisworthit
Yay okay👌🏼 new day, new possibilities Today’s #breakfast  was a baguette again and a got chocolate! Half of the baguette with nut-chocolate-spread thing idk and other half with ham and cheese(!!) #snack  was this thing on the second picture (what are they called in English?😅) #dinner  at a restaurant(!!!!) was a hamburger(!!) and fries! It was from the kids menu, and the burger was half of the size of the bread, but I ate most of it! Kind of proud☺️🎉 Today my cousin and I went home again after we ate dinner... while we ate I got a snap from a friend that made me so worried that I panicked and cried for about 3 hours on the bus home and after that too😶😣💕 But I’m a little better now I think, except that I’m really tired and nauseous(?) and I hope my friend has it better now too! So even though I actually have a lot of homework to do, I’m going to bed... Goodnight💜♥️💜 #anarecovery  #iammenotmyed  #edrecovery  #edwarrior  #foodisfuel  #foodisyum  #foodismedicine  #iammorethananumber  #edfamily  #edfighter  #ednos  #ednoswarrior  #ednosrecovery  #food  #eatittobeatit  #depression  #depressionrecovery  #socialanxiety  #fuckana  #youdeserverecovery  #recoveryisworthit 
ugh godamn i️ had this long ass inspiring caption typed out and ig deleted my post uggggghhhhh so salty but i’ll type again *************************************************************so as some of you may or may not know, i️ am a HUGE feminist. and i️ have been looking forward to going to this women’s march since last april. but when things got tough and ana got loud, i️ didn’t think i’d be out of the hospital to go. and my predictions were so close to becoming true. for the past week, the plan was for me to go back to inpatient today for the next 4-6 weeks. every morning i️ woke up and felt like this was so hopeless and so impossible and i️ couldn’t wait to be back in ip with my tube. but suddenly and spontaneously, i️ told my parents that i️ really did think i️ could recover on my own, and i️ begged them to give me another chance to prove it. so they did, and i️ will stay true to my word and i️ will recover at home. it’s going to be hard, really really hard, but so is recovery. but anywayyyys, guess what i️ did instead of going back to the hospital?? i️ paraded my ass around my town, holding protest signs and chanting with the strong, beautiful women around me. so recover to do beautiful things like this that you love, because feminism rocks and trump can smd😘😘 anorexiarecovery #anarecovery #anorexianervosa #edrecovery #edwarrior #edfamily #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #food
ugh godamn i️ had this long ass inspiring caption typed out and ig deleted my post uggggghhhhh so salty but i’ll type again *************************************************************so as some of you may or may not know, i️ am a HUGE feminist. and i️ have been looking forward to going to this women’s march since last april. but when things got tough and ana got loud, i️ didn’t think i’d be out of the hospital to go. and my predictions were so close to becoming true. for the past week, the plan was for me to go back to inpatient today for the next 4-6 weeks. every morning i️ woke up and felt like this was so hopeless and so impossible and i️ couldn’t wait to be back in ip with my tube. but suddenly and spontaneously, i️ told my parents that i️ really did think i️ could recover on my own, and i️ begged them to give me another chance to prove it. so they did, and i️ will stay true to my word and i️ will recover at home. it’s going to be hard, really really hard, but so is recovery. but anywayyyys, guess what i️ did instead of going back to the hospital?? i️ paraded my ass around my town, holding protest signs and chanting with the strong, beautiful women around me. so recover to do beautiful things like this that you love, because feminism rocks and trump can smd😘😘 anorexiarecovery #anarecovery  #anorexianervosa  #edrecovery  #edwarrior  #edfamily  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #food 
Sunday night snacking☕️with tea and bran flakes💙 I’m lying up all cozy watching shrek for the 101th🙄😂 what can I say I’m a softie for fairytales🤷‍♀️😁 happy Sunday everyone hope this week brings you more joy, happiness and peace❤️ we can smash it👊🏻💪🏻
Sunday night snacking☕️with tea and bran flakes💙 I’m lying up all cozy watching shrek for the 101th🙄😂 what can I say I’m a softie for fairytales🤷‍♀️😁 happy Sunday everyone hope this week brings you more joy, happiness and peace❤️ we can smash it👊🏻💪🏻
Wonderful, colourful, plentiful and flavourful 😋boiled egg and stir fried veg with rice. It's what I wanted and I wasn't going to give ANa the satisfaction of ruining it for me! 😼#EDStruggles #BattlingANa #ITried #fearfood #anorexia #ana #AN #anasoldier #anawarrior #beatana #beat #edfamily #edfighter #edwarrior #edrecovery #FoodBaby #mentalhealth #nourishnotpunish #boobsnotbones #prorecovery #progressnotperfection #recoverywarrior #realrecovery #thestruggleisreal
Wonderful, colourful, plentiful and flavourful 😋boiled egg and stir fried veg with rice. It's what I wanted and I wasn't going to give ANa the satisfaction of ruining it for me! 😼#EDStruggles  #BattlingANa  #ITried  #fearfood  #anorexia  #ana  #AN  #anasoldier  #anawarrior  #beatana  #beat  #edfamily  #edfighter  #edwarrior  #edrecovery  #FoodBaby  #mentalhealth  #nourishnotpunish  #boobsnotbones  #prorecovery  #progressnotperfection  #recoverywarrior  #realrecovery  #thestruggleisreal 
Snack: HOMEMADE CHOCOLATE PEANUT BUTTER POPCORN! a pot of MANGO ALPRO, an ALMOND BROWNIE, a PUNNET OF GRAPES, an APPLE, a SATSUMA, and a NECTARINE😋🍿🍨🍫🍇🍏🍊🍑
#ed #noslackingonsnacking #snackqueen #snackprincess #edfamily #edrecovery #anorexia #edfighter #anorexiarecovery
•21/01••Some meals from the past two days•
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I haven't really been active lately, I've just been taking a mental break, and honestly I feel so into recovery right now. Sure, I have some times when I feel so in the grasp of anorexia, but nowhere near how it used to be. This is what's it's like to be in recovery, to realise that a meal that's 100 calories more than normal isn't actually THAT much, because weight fluctuates normally, and even if weight does go a little over average that's ok, because if you can gain weight you can lose that weight too. Recovery is all about getting healthy, and if that means gaining weight then so be it but that's not the meaning of recovery. Recovery is realising you're sick enough to need treatment, that even though you might not look like that girl with a BMI of 13, you're still sick. It's realising that even though you feel like bran is your favourite cereal, it's really coco pops. it's about realising what part of you is sick, and working to heal that. That's what recovery is. And I'm actually in it.
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What I ate today: •Breakfast: 2 weetabix + 300ml milk + a crumpet + jam+ tea🥣☕️🥞🍞
•Morning snack: 8 breadsticks + a plum🍎🍇🍑🥖
•Lunch: A toasted tortilla + crab meat(not nice) + veggies + milkybar chocolate🍫🌯🥙🦀🥦🥕🥒🥗
•Afternoon snack: Frozen raspberries + cold strawberries🍓🍓
•Dinner: Char kuay teow (fried noodles with about 3 tbs oil)🍜🍛
•Night snack: Dates + a kinder surprise egg + cornetto ice cream + yogurt🍫🥚🍇🍦🍨
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 #recovery #edrecovery #prorecovery #foodisfuel #ana #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #delicious #edfamily #eatingdisorderrecovery #l4l #bodypositivity #foodporn #anorexic #anorexiawarrior #anasucks #recoverforboobs #fighter #recoverywin #edfam #anarecovery #fooddiary
•21/01••Some meals from the past two days• - I haven't really been active lately, I've just been taking a mental break, and honestly I feel so into recovery right now. Sure, I have some times when I feel so in the grasp of anorexia, but nowhere near how it used to be. This is what's it's like to be in recovery, to realise that a meal that's 100 calories more than normal isn't actually THAT much, because weight fluctuates normally, and even if weight does go a little over average that's ok, because if you can gain weight you can lose that weight too. Recovery is all about getting healthy, and if that means gaining weight then so be it but that's not the meaning of recovery. Recovery is realising you're sick enough to need treatment, that even though you might not look like that girl with a BMI of 13, you're still sick. It's realising that even though you feel like bran is your favourite cereal, it's really coco pops. it's about realising what part of you is sick, and working to heal that. That's what recovery is. And I'm actually in it. - 🍂 What I ate today: •Breakfast: 2 weetabix + 300ml milk + a crumpet + jam+ tea🥣☕️🥞🍞 •Morning snack: 8 breadsticks + a plum🍎🍇🍑🥖 •Lunch: A toasted tortilla + crab meat(not nice) + veggies + milkybar chocolate🍫🌯🥙🦀🥦🥕🥒🥗 •Afternoon snack: Frozen raspberries + cold strawberries🍓🍓 •Dinner: Char kuay teow (fried noodles with about 3 tbs oil)🍜🍛 •Night snack: Dates + a kinder surprise egg + cornetto ice cream + yogurt🍫🥚🍇🍦🍨 - #recovery  #edrecovery  #prorecovery  #foodisfuel  #ana  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #delicious  #edfamily  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #l4l  #bodypositivity  #foodporn  #anorexic  #anorexiawarrior  #anasucks  #recoverforboobs  #fighter  #recoverywin  #edfam  #anarecovery  #fooddiary 
UPDATE 1/21 (Possible trigger warning):
So a lot of you have been wanting an update... so here we go. In terms of self harm, I am doing a lot better. I had a bit of a resi scare, but I was able to stay clean for over a week, and so it’s still on the table but at least I won’t be going yet. I did relapse last night though, unfortunately. I feel really guilty about it though and it’s the first time I’ve ever really truly felt guilty about self harm. I’m also starting to finally realize that self harm doesn’t help me at all or actually make me feel any better, and so that’s helping me stay clean more. It’s been such a struggle though and I feel like a disappointment.
In terms of eating, I’m doing really well and gaining the weight I need to. However, I tend to gain and then lose what I gained and because of that I may need to go to a higher lever of care soon. Nothing major, just probably IOP or PHP, which we have here so I won’t need to go anywhere. But I’m really hoping I won’t have to do that ~Natalie
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#recovery #recoverywin #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #youarebeautiful #youcandoit #recoveryisworthit #selfharmmm #depression #selfhate #selflove #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatittobeatit #recoverforlife #positivity #recoveryispossible #recoverforyou #staystrong #staypositive #bebold #bebrave #orthorexia #youaremorethananumber #positivevibes #edfamily #rediscover #loveyourself #realrecovery #trustyourself #selfharmrecovery #positivity
UPDATE 1/21 (Possible trigger warning): So a lot of you have been wanting an update... so here we go. In terms of self harm, I am doing a lot better. I had a bit of a resi scare, but I was able to stay clean for over a week, and so it’s still on the table but at least I won’t be going yet. I did relapse last night though, unfortunately. I feel really guilty about it though and it’s the first time I’ve ever really truly felt guilty about self harm. I’m also starting to finally realize that self harm doesn’t help me at all or actually make me feel any better, and so that’s helping me stay clean more. It’s been such a struggle though and I feel like a disappointment. In terms of eating, I’m doing really well and gaining the weight I need to. However, I tend to gain and then lose what I gained and because of that I may need to go to a higher lever of care soon. Nothing major, just probably IOP or PHP, which we have here so I won’t need to go anywhere. But I’m really hoping I won’t have to do that ~Natalie • #recovery  #recoverywin  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #youarebeautiful  #youcandoit  #recoveryisworthit  #selfharmmm  #depression  #selfhate  #selflove  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatittobeatit  #recoverforlife  #positivity  #recoveryispossible  #recoverforyou  #staystrong  #staypositive  #bebold  #bebrave  #orthorexia  #youaremorethananumber  #positivevibes  #edfamily  #rediscover  #loveyourself  #realrecovery  #trustyourself  #selfharmrecovery  #positivity 
Sweet 🥐 vs. savory🥖?
What’s your preference? As you may already know, I’m more of a sweet tooth than savory. Although I’m all for #balance and equality 😛👇🏼
Second part of today’s #snack was a vanilla filled #croissant (altogether I ate 4 of those today 😨) and a small plaited bread that my mama baked.
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We need to be giving our body what it REALLY needs on a regular basis. SOMETIMES these cravings can actually be our bodies sending us a message that we are lacking important nutrients. #eattogrow
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Lately I’ve been mood swinging.. and also fighting a lot with my mom... 🤷🏼‍♀️ BUT this isn’t the sign #anorexia and all her company are becoming stronger than me, they’re just trying to hold onto the last tiny part of me. Not happening! #recovering
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As the night gets dark, let your worries fade. Sleep peacefully knowing you’ve done all you can do for today, good night sweets 😚
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#food #foody #eat #eating #edsoldier #foodporn #anorexic #foodcoma #foodgram #foodies #foodoftheday #edfamily #yummy #goodfood #foodshare #foodisfuel #blogger #foodblog #nourish #healthyfood #eatwell #beatana #recovery #baking
Sweet 🥐 vs. savory🥖? What’s your preference? As you may already know, I’m more of a sweet tooth than savory. Although I’m all for #balance  and equality 😛👇🏼 Second part of today’s #snack  was a vanilla filled #croissant  (altogether I ate 4 of those today 😨) and a small plaited bread that my mama baked. - We need to be giving our body what it REALLY needs on a regular basis. SOMETIMES these cravings can actually be our bodies sending us a message that we are lacking important nutrients. #eattogrow  - Lately I’ve been mood swinging.. and also fighting a lot with my mom... 🤷🏼‍♀️ BUT this isn’t the sign #anorexia  and all her company are becoming stronger than me, they’re just trying to hold onto the last tiny part of me. Not happening! #recovering  - As the night gets dark, let your worries fade. Sleep peacefully knowing you’ve done all you can do for today, good night sweets 😚 . . . . . . #food  #foody  #eat  #eating  #edsoldier  #foodporn  #anorexic  #foodcoma  #foodgram  #foodies  #foodoftheday  #edfamily  #yummy  #goodfood  #foodshare  #foodisfuel  #blogger  #foodblog  #nourish  #healthyfood  #eatwell  #beatana  #recovery  #baking 
Evening everyone 🌃 hope you all have had a AMAZING Sunday!!! I did 😊 swipe to see some photos from today!! Can't believe the weekend is over already!!! Anyway settling down with a bowl of gluten free frosties and 200ml of milk 🥛 and a cuppa 🍵 while watching Vera! Time for some evening positivity ✨ letting go of the eating disorder is one of the hardest, scariest and toughest thing you can do! But by letting it go you are gaining freedom, happiness, joy, energy, your life and so much more! So instead of being scared of letting it go be excited about the adventures that are going to come your way!!!! ✨ I hope you all have a lovely evening 🌃 and sleep well 😴 #goingtoeatwhatiwantto#recoveryispossible#recovery#prorecovery#recoveryistheonlyoption#countblessingsnotcalories#curvesnotcalories#curvesnotbones#healthynothungry#determined#anorexic#eatingdisorderrecovery#edfighter#edsoldier#fighter#nevergiveup#nomoreanorexia#nourishnotpunish#strongnotskinny#charversesana#edcommunity#eatclean#cleaneating#edfamily#realrecovery#f4f#recoverywin#eatittobeatit#fuckana#gainingweightiscool
Evening everyone 🌃 hope you all have had a AMAZING Sunday!!! I did 😊 swipe to see some photos from today!! Can't believe the weekend is over already!!! Anyway settling down with a bowl of gluten free frosties and 200ml of milk 🥛 and a cuppa 🍵 while watching Vera! Time for some evening positivity ✨ letting go of the eating disorder is one of the hardest, scariest and toughest thing you can do! But by letting it go you are gaining freedom, happiness, joy, energy, your life and so much more! So instead of being scared of letting it go be excited about the adventures that are going to come your way!!!! ✨ I hope you all have a lovely evening 🌃 and sleep well 😴 #goingtoeatwhatiwantto #recoveryispossible #recovery #prorecovery #recoveryistheonlyoption #countblessingsnotcalories #curvesnotcalories #curvesnotbones #healthynothungry #determined #anorexic #eatingdisorderrecovery #edfighter #edsoldier #fighter #nevergiveup #nomoreanorexia #nourishnotpunish #strongnotskinny #charversesana #edcommunity #eatclean #cleaneating #edfamily #realrecovery #f4f #recoverywin #eatittobeatit #fuckana #gainingweightiscool 
Celebrating our fifth year in Germany 🇩🇪!
So many things happened and for me tonight, being able to sit in a Vietnamese restaurant being able to enjoy 😊 food 🥘 🍲, smile 😃 to my husband ❣ and start again to live have no price!!! I told you... today is a new start... fight for it.. you deserve your happiness, you deserve to live!
 #nevergiveup #anorexia #healthyeating #eathealthy #eatclean #buildingmuscle #strongnotskinny #strongisthenewskinny #neverstopeating #edfamily #edwarrior #edsoldier #edfighter #edrecovery #recovery #recoveryforlife #recoverywarrior #recoverymeal #recoverywin #recoveryfood #recoveryisworthit #recoverydiary #recoveryforme #recoveryispossible #dca #dcarecovery  #anarecovery #fuckana
Celebrating our fifth year in Germany 🇩🇪! So many things happened and for me tonight, being able to sit in a Vietnamese restaurant being able to enjoy 😊 food 🥘 🍲, smile 😃 to my husband ❣ and start again to live have no price!!! I told you... today is a new start... fight for it.. you deserve your happiness, you deserve to live! #nevergiveup  #anorexia  #healthyeating  #eathealthy  #eatclean  #buildingmuscle  #strongnotskinny  #strongisthenewskinny  #neverstopeating  #edfamily  #edwarrior  #edsoldier  #edfighter  #edrecovery  #recovery  #recoveryforlife  #recoverywarrior  #recoverymeal  #recoverywin  #recoveryfood  #recoveryisworthit  #recoverydiary  #recoveryforme  #recoveryispossible  #dca  #dcarecovery  #anarecovery  #fuckana 
TB to last years Women’s March 👭👭
TB to last years Women’s March 👭👭
Food is Love, You Deserve Both
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I weighed less than 100lbs last summer. At 140 now. #loveconquersall
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Pumpkin Cornbread
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#anarecovery #edwarrior #edfamily #eatingdisorder #anorexic #anorexia #lovewins #anawarrior #foodgasm #2fab4ana #annoressia #eatittobeatit #edsoldier
#instafood #foodporn #vegan #vegetarian #dessert #sweettreats #cake #pumpkinspice #instachef #chef #song #love #lol #glutenfree
~ Cookie Dough Ben&Jerry’s is my absolute favourite ~

If you haven’t seen @elliemaysrecovery latest post about what you wish someone had told you before your eating disorder fully took over, I really think you should take the time to read it. It really hit me hard and got me thinking…my response to her post is:

I wish someone would have told me that losing weight was not going to make me more confident, make people like me more or even make me like myself more. I wish someone would have told me that my relationships with my family and friends would be destroyed. That all trust would be lost. That I’d be forced out of uni/have to quit my part time job. That I’d be on 24/7 bed rest for 3 months or forced inpatient. That at 19 years old I’d have no say in meals and my parents have to bring everything to me. That my mum would have to give up work (after getting a promotion) just to watch me 24/7 and ensure I stick with my meal plan. That my sister and brother would cry every time they’d see my parents worried or because I’d become a literally demon when I refused to eat. That I’d become distant from my grandparents who were like my second mum and dad. That they’d resent me because they don’t understand and all they see is the pain I’m putting my family through…the words of my granda; “you’re not just killing yourself you’re killing everyone around you” still haunt me. I wish someone would have told me I’d be in pain/cold/miserable all day every day. That I’d pass out and have to get multiple IV’s for fluids. That daily bloods and ECG’s would become the ‘normality’. But worst of all I’d wish someone would have told me that I would lose my entire personality/my entire self. I don’t know who I am anymore.
~ Cookie Dough Ben&Jerry’s is my absolute favourite ~ If you haven’t seen @elliemaysrecovery latest post about what you wish someone had told you before your eating disorder fully took over, I really think you should take the time to read it. It really hit me hard and got me thinking…my response to her post is: I wish someone would have told me that losing weight was not going to make me more confident, make people like me more or even make me like myself more. I wish someone would have told me that my relationships with my family and friends would be destroyed. That all trust would be lost. That I’d be forced out of uni/have to quit my part time job. That I’d be on 24/7 bed rest for 3 months or forced inpatient. That at 19 years old I’d have no say in meals and my parents have to bring everything to me. That my mum would have to give up work (after getting a promotion) just to watch me 24/7 and ensure I stick with my meal plan. That my sister and brother would cry every time they’d see my parents worried or because I’d become a literally demon when I refused to eat. That I’d become distant from my grandparents who were like my second mum and dad. That they’d resent me because they don’t understand and all they see is the pain I’m putting my family through…the words of my granda; “you’re not just killing yourself you’re killing everyone around you” still haunt me. I wish someone would have told me I’d be in pain/cold/miserable all day every day. That I’d pass out and have to get multiple IV’s for fluids. That daily bloods and ECG’s would become the ‘normality’. But worst of all I’d wish someone would have told me that I would lose my entire personality/my entire self. I don’t know who I am anymore.
snack: rice cakes with peanut butter and carrots. i’m home from vacation and i’m going to try my hardest to get back to following my meal plan. i’m feeling so dizzy and tired like i used to and i’m getting so frustrated with myself because obviously the way to fix it is to eat more and to drink gatorade like i’m supposed to. instead of letting that turn into self-hate, i’m going to try and use that as motivation! keep fighting 💪💕
snack: rice cakes with peanut butter and carrots. i’m home from vacation and i’m going to try my hardest to get back to following my meal plan. i’m feeling so dizzy and tired like i used to and i’m getting so frustrated with myself because obviously the way to fix it is to eat more and to drink gatorade like i’m supposed to. instead of letting that turn into self-hate, i’m going to try and use that as motivation! keep fighting 💪💕
I’m going to apologise now. I’m going to be very negative because I have no positivity left right now. So if you don’t want to read negativity please scroll past my post- this is just my way of trying to somehow get some thoughts out.

I’ve never felt quite so fat and disgusting and worthless. I literally am revolted by myself- I have to get rid of this awful fat- there’s just no point to keeping fighting when life just craps on you regardless. Things at home are shit, things at work are shit, social life doesn’t really exist, my head is full of crap and my future is not getting any better.

Over this weekend a lot of shit has gone done in work as well. Right- it’s not that I form lots of attractions really easily- but once I do I find it really hard to let do. Obviously without going into much detail all this shit has led to one of my favourite people being dismissed- don’t get me wrong it’s a rightful dismissal but I literally just feel betrayed and hurt. I guess I just thought he was genuine and kind and honesty we got in so well but turns out this shit has been going on god knows how long and now I feel like he’s been laughing at me the whole time and actually couldn’t give a flying fuck about anyone but himself. 
Nothing makes sense and this just adds to the mess in my head. I’m really and truly gutted- just shows you never know someone. More fool me for being trusting.

My head is screaming and I can’t stand it anymore. Self harm is becoming more of an issue. I need to lose this weight I’m just a problem in the world. It’s like I just can’t lose any but I have to now- I feel like there’s no reason to me. I know I’m being dramatic and ridiculous and pathetic but I’m just brain vomiting.

#anorexia #ana #eatingdisorder #ed #edfamily #anorexic
I’m going to apologise now. I’m going to be very negative because I have no positivity left right now. So if you don’t want to read negativity please scroll past my post- this is just my way of trying to somehow get some thoughts out. I’ve never felt quite so fat and disgusting and worthless. I literally am revolted by myself- I have to get rid of this awful fat- there’s just no point to keeping fighting when life just craps on you regardless. Things at home are shit, things at work are shit, social life doesn’t really exist, my head is full of crap and my future is not getting any better. Over this weekend a lot of shit has gone done in work as well. Right- it’s not that I form lots of attractions really easily- but once I do I find it really hard to let do. Obviously without going into much detail all this shit has led to one of my favourite people being dismissed- don’t get me wrong it’s a rightful dismissal but I literally just feel betrayed and hurt. I guess I just thought he was genuine and kind and honesty we got in so well but turns out this shit has been going on god knows how long and now I feel like he’s been laughing at me the whole time and actually couldn’t give a flying fuck about anyone but himself. Nothing makes sense and this just adds to the mess in my head. I’m really and truly gutted- just shows you never know someone. More fool me for being trusting. My head is screaming and I can’t stand it anymore. Self harm is becoming more of an issue. I need to lose this weight I’m just a problem in the world. It’s like I just can’t lose any but I have to now- I feel like there’s no reason to me. I know I’m being dramatic and ridiculous and pathetic but I’m just brain vomiting. #anorexia  #ana  #eatingdisorder  #ed  #edfamily  #anorexic 
I went to bed excited to have this in the morning! Back to work after spending all weekend writing reports so it feels like I’ve had exactly zero time off 😕
I went to bed excited to have this in the morning! Back to work after spending all weekend writing reports so it feels like I’ve had exactly zero time off 😕
So your girl Faye has had to take a week off life and uni and such things due to personal reasons in the family and ditch everything familiar in her routine and life to go and spend time with her family. 
This means for a solid week goodbye to the safety and routine of ana. Goodbye to the scales. Goodbye to her rituals. Goodbye to her control. Ana can't get her own way when I'm away from home as she has no control over routine and life when I'm away. She can't dictate every waking moment. 
A couple of weeks ago I would not have been able to cope with the idea of this. Yet here I am sat on my mums sofa, even though it may not be under the most happiest of circumstances or we may not be dealing with the happiest of times, I am really looking forward to spending the next week with my mum and nan. 
I'm going to be brave. I will push out of my comfort zone further. I will make anorexia as least present as possible because right now is it about her or me. It's about life and everything else that comes with it. I will keep challenging myself. I will keep pushing forward.  #realrecovery  #recovery #recovering #edfamily #edwarrior #edfighter #edfam #edcommunity #recoveryisworthit #recoverywin #eatittobeatit #ana #anarecovery #edrecovery #anorexianervosa #prorecovery #recoveryispossible #fuckana #fuckanorexia #bodypositive #mentalhealth #devon #pymouth #dmmeguys #anawho #anawarrior #anafighter #anarecovery #anorexia #anorexiarecovery
So your girl Faye has had to take a week off life and uni and such things due to personal reasons in the family and ditch everything familiar in her routine and life to go and spend time with her family. This means for a solid week goodbye to the safety and routine of ana. Goodbye to the scales. Goodbye to her rituals. Goodbye to her control. Ana can't get her own way when I'm away from home as she has no control over routine and life when I'm away. She can't dictate every waking moment. A couple of weeks ago I would not have been able to cope with the idea of this. Yet here I am sat on my mums sofa, even though it may not be under the most happiest of circumstances or we may not be dealing with the happiest of times, I am really looking forward to spending the next week with my mum and nan. I'm going to be brave. I will push out of my comfort zone further. I will make anorexia as least present as possible because right now is it about her or me. It's about life and everything else that comes with it. I will keep challenging myself. I will keep pushing forward. #realrecovery  #recovery  #recovering  #edfamily  #edwarrior  #edfighter  #edfam  #edcommunity  #recoveryisworthit  #recoverywin  #eatittobeatit  #ana  #anarecovery  #edrecovery  #anorexianervosa  #prorecovery  #recoveryispossible  #fuckana  #fuckanorexia  #bodypositive  #mentalhealth  #devon  #pymouth  #dmmeguys  #anawho  #anawarrior  #anafighter  #anarecovery  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery 
This is why recovery is worth it, having big ass slices of cake with my man because  there's nothing more romantic than sharing the sweet things in life ❤️ eating disorders make you lonely. You don't get to share food, you don't participate in any social events because there might be food involved, you miss out on birthday parties, spontaneous ice cream on a warm summer day, and endless other occasions. You miss out on the good stuff. Lonely and miserable. I'm sick of this! I wanna be surrounded by people who make me feel good. Who eat cake and watch netflix with me on a Sunday afternoon. It's so much better than being alone with your eating disorder! #dontgiveup #youareworthit #recoveryisworthit #recoveryispossible #edrecovery #edfamily #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #anawho #2fab4ana #prorecovery #realrecovery #eatittobeatit #nourishnotpunish #strongnotskinny #healthynotskinny #weightgain #memoriesovermacros #foodblogger #foodporn #foodlove #foodblog #strongereveryday #chooserecovery #caketime
This is why recovery is worth it, having big ass slices of cake with my man because there's nothing more romantic than sharing the sweet things in life ❤️ eating disorders make you lonely. You don't get to share food, you don't participate in any social events because there might be food involved, you miss out on birthday parties, spontaneous ice cream on a warm summer day, and endless other occasions. You miss out on the good stuff. Lonely and miserable. I'm sick of this! I wanna be surrounded by people who make me feel good. Who eat cake and watch netflix with me on a Sunday afternoon. It's so much better than being alone with your eating disorder! #dontgiveup  #youareworthit  #recoveryisworthit  #recoveryispossible  #edrecovery  #edfamily  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #anawho  #2fab4ana  #prorecovery  #realrecovery  #eatittobeatit  #nourishnotpunish  #strongnotskinny  #healthynotskinny  #weightgain  #memoriesovermacros  #foodblogger  #foodporn  #foodlove  #foodblog  #strongereveryday  #chooserecovery  #caketime 
Tea tonight is vegetable soup and a wheat cracker...I had a big dinner and some chocolate at my grandparents house so my mum took the cals of my tea down, I think she knows I’m always so full on a Sunday night so she doesn’t push me too much and she’d rather I have a bigger dinner and enjoy it instead🥣
Tea tonight is vegetable soup and a wheat cracker...I had a big dinner and some chocolate at my grandparents house so my mum took the cals of my tea down, I think she knows I’m always so full on a Sunday night so she doesn’t push me too much and she’d rather I have a bigger dinner and enjoy it instead🥣
Bloating in recovery is inevitable and you simply cannot avoid it. It is a normal and natural response from the body and a distended stomach doesn't mean you're fat! Even those who are healthy and don't suffer from an eating disorder bloat after a meal. It's totally normal and the food we eat has to reside somewhere 🤷🏻‍♀️ Since starting my real recovery, i've experienced severe, painful bloating day and night and it can be unbearable sometimes 😩 However it's normal for this kind of bloat to last several months and even though my first instinct would be to (TW) restrict, I know this will only make things worse! Restricting is not the answer and it will further reduce the trust between your mind and body and in no way will relieve your bloating. Unlike normal bloating which happens to all, bloating in recovery doesn't go away in the morning and you need to accept that you WILL be bloated pretty much 24/7. You cannot change your body's reaction to food at this point, you have already done enough damage - so it's time to change your mindset.

You need to just trust that your body knows what it is doing and just accept that you're going to be uncomfortable. Yes it's horrible to feel bloated, yes your confidence may not be sky high, yes you're scared, but the only way out is to eat and rest and relax. 
Here are my tips for dealing with bloat: 🍭 DO NOT restrict! 🍭 Drink ginger or peppermint tea at night
🍭Wear comfortable, loose clothing if you are feeling self conscious in tight clothing (although you should always aim to challenge yourself!)
🍭 Get enough sleep - really helps with digestion 🍭 Carbs and processed foods are better for bloating (yes they really are)
🍭 Change your mindset! There is no way to remove bloating completely, you have subjected your body to months/ years of damage so it's time to show it some love 💕

#anorexiarecovery #anorexiarecovery #anorexianervosa #ednos #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #edfighter #bloatedbelly #bloating #bloated #bodypositive
Bloating in recovery is inevitable and you simply cannot avoid it. It is a normal and natural response from the body and a distended stomach doesn't mean you're fat! Even those who are healthy and don't suffer from an eating disorder bloat after a meal. It's totally normal and the food we eat has to reside somewhere 🤷🏻‍♀️ Since starting my real recovery, i've experienced severe, painful bloating day and night and it can be unbearable sometimes 😩 However it's normal for this kind of bloat to last several months and even though my first instinct would be to (TW) restrict, I know this will only make things worse! Restricting is not the answer and it will further reduce the trust between your mind and body and in no way will relieve your bloating. Unlike normal bloating which happens to all, bloating in recovery doesn't go away in the morning and you need to accept that you WILL be bloated pretty much 24/7. You cannot change your body's reaction to food at this point, you have already done enough damage - so it's time to change your mindset. You need to just trust that your body knows what it is doing and just accept that you're going to be uncomfortable. Yes it's horrible to feel bloated, yes your confidence may not be sky high, yes you're scared, but the only way out is to eat and rest and relax. Here are my tips for dealing with bloat: 🍭 DO NOT restrict! 🍭 Drink ginger or peppermint tea at night 🍭Wear comfortable, loose clothing if you are feeling self conscious in tight clothing (although you should always aim to challenge yourself!) 🍭 Get enough sleep - really helps with digestion 🍭 Carbs and processed foods are better for bloating (yes they really are) 🍭 Change your mindset! There is no way to remove bloating completely, you have subjected your body to months/ years of damage so it's time to show it some love 💕 #anorexiarecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexianervosa  #ednos  #edfamily  #edrecovery  #edwarrior  #edfighter  #bloatedbelly  #bloating  #bloated  #bodypositive 
I give myself such a hard time for not being successful in a real career by now. Sometimes I let that take away from all the things I have accomplished. ••
For one, I think it is pretty incredible that I was able to graduate and receive a bachelor's degree even though I was struggling with an eating disorder, self harm, and depression. I probably should have taken a break from school, but my parents still didn't know what I was going through. Still don't. It is really hard when your family is the main cause. But anyways, I stayed strong and did it! That's when I was able to really start working towards recovery. Once I graduated, there was this huge weight lifted from my shoulders, but I realized it still didn't solve all my problems. Because college wasn't the cause of my ED, and I had to accept that first.••
Slowly and gradually everything starts to make more sense. I'm starting to understand more and more everyday why I am the way I am. It isn't always easy to make these realizations, but it absolutely key to a full recovery. 💜🖤
#happy #inspiration #icandothis #believeinyourself #edfamily #edwarrior #edthoughts #edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #bodymindsoul #bodydysmorphia #bepositive #believeinyourself #beautiful #hope #happy #edjourney
I give myself such a hard time for not being successful in a real career by now. Sometimes I let that take away from all the things I have accomplished. •• For one, I think it is pretty incredible that I was able to graduate and receive a bachelor's degree even though I was struggling with an eating disorder, self harm, and depression. I probably should have taken a break from school, but my parents still didn't know what I was going through. Still don't. It is really hard when your family is the main cause. But anyways, I stayed strong and did it! That's when I was able to really start working towards recovery. Once I graduated, there was this huge weight lifted from my shoulders, but I realized it still didn't solve all my problems. Because college wasn't the cause of my ED, and I had to accept that first.•• Slowly and gradually everything starts to make more sense. I'm starting to understand more and more everyday why I am the way I am. It isn't always easy to make these realizations, but it absolutely key to a full recovery. 💜🖤 #happy  #inspiration  #icandothis  #believeinyourself  #edfamily  #edwarrior  #edthoughts  #edrecovery  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #bodymindsoul  #bodydysmorphia  #bepositive  #believeinyourself  #beautiful  #hope  #happy  #edjourney 
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Night snack is raspberries, yoghurt and the rest of the questbar from yesterday.
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My head is a messy place to live ~not me~
My head is a messy place to live ~not me~
Hey guys! Today, I am proud of myself ☺️ I woke up feeling bloated, and I haven’t had great body image, and usually on days like this, I find myself caving in to anorexia and weighing myself- and obviously, often, it is a little up, and then I feel even more shit for the rest of the day 😩 BUT- today, I fought back, I won, I did not step on the scales, I did not give in to the monster within! I rationalised, BLOATING. IS. NORMAL! It’s a side effect of eating food guys, it’s a sign your body is digesting that food, it’s a bit of excess gas, and I am NOT going to let that make me feel shit 👍🏻 I ate a very large bowl of pasta last night, and tbh when I’d eaten I knew I would probably feel bloated today, but I enjoyed that food, and that’s far more important! 😊 had grilled cheese and marmite on toast with an orange 🍊 for an easy and simple Sunday supper today but it wasn’t particularly attractive so have a photo of me and my doggo instead bc she’s very cute 👍🏻 hope you’ve all had a nice Sunday 😘
Hey guys! Today, I am proud of myself ☺️ I woke up feeling bloated, and I haven’t had great body image, and usually on days like this, I find myself caving in to anorexia and weighing myself- and obviously, often, it is a little up, and then I feel even more shit for the rest of the day 😩 BUT- today, I fought back, I won, I did not step on the scales, I did not give in to the monster within! I rationalised, BLOATING. IS. NORMAL! It’s a side effect of eating food guys, it’s a sign your body is digesting that food, it’s a bit of excess gas, and I am NOT going to let that make me feel shit 👍🏻 I ate a very large bowl of pasta last night, and tbh when I’d eaten I knew I would probably feel bloated today, but I enjoyed that food, and that’s far more important! 😊 had grilled cheese and marmite on toast with an orange 🍊 for an easy and simple Sunday supper today but it wasn’t particularly attractive so have a photo of me and my doggo instead bc she’s very cute 👍🏻 hope you’ve all had a nice Sunday 😘
aghhh im home from my friends :( but tomorrow i’m going to start eating and exercising properly - abs here i come
aghhh im home from my friends :( but tomorrow i’m going to start eating and exercising properly - abs here i come
#nightsnack is a huge #recoverywin it's a pear, a #wholechocolatebarparty some nuts and fruit, a glass of alpro almond chocolate milk and a cup of tea. This is really hard, since i feel like this is a lot of food. But i missed my morning snack so i need to eat this much. And even with this i won't hit my calorie goal. I will now watch some tv with my mom. Have a nice evening. #anorexia #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #ed #edfamily
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Today's been pretty busy, to say the least! Usually Sunday's are my GYST (Get Your S*** Together ) days, but since I went back to my hometown for my (early) bday party, it's been LOTS and LOTS of traveling. This morning I woke up around 8:00 , had a bowl of my fav cereal (raisin bran) and hit the road for around 4 hours. I just got home a little while ago , just in time to make this (delicious) lunch! The rest of my day is probably going to be spent making this house look like Disney on ice 😂, doing laundry, etc. ... • • 
I hope you all have had an okay/good day!! Stay strong, loves! Xx ❤️❤️💕
Lunch this afternoon! • • • • Today's been pretty busy, to say the least! Usually Sunday's are my GYST (Get Your S*** Together ) days, but since I went back to my hometown for my (early) bday party, it's been LOTS and LOTS of traveling. This morning I woke up around 8:00 , had a bowl of my fav cereal (raisin bran) and hit the road for around 4 hours. I just got home a little while ago , just in time to make this (delicious) lunch! The rest of my day is probably going to be spent making this house look like Disney on ice 😂, doing laundry, etc. ... • • I hope you all have had an okay/good day!! Stay strong, loves! Xx ❤️❤️💕
Buonasera stelline! ☄☄☄
A pomeriggio ho fatto i compiti e studiato📚, ho pulito la stanzetta e poi ho sistemato zaino e vestiti...
Stasera cena con:
•Filetto di salmone🐟
•Broccoli,cavolfiore e broccoletti
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Ora finisco di ripetere per il compito di domani, metto la lavastoviglie, night snack e nanna...
Il clima in famiglia non è dei migliori e questo non mi fa piacere perchè vorrei fosse unita, ma si è creato un divario enorme...cerco di non pensarci e di provare ad essere serena e soprattutto a non punirmi con la malattia...
Comunque a pomeriggio ha piovuto un sacco e fuori fa freddissimo! ⛄
Voi cosa avete fatto oggi?La vostra cenetta?
Vi auguro buonanotte e sogni d'oro! 😘😘❤
#anoressia #anorexia #ana #recovery #edfamily #eatingdisorder #edrecovery #anarecovery #ed #food #anorexianervosa #healthy #anawho #diarioalimentare #realrecovery #anorexiarecovery #dca #healthyfood #staystrong #edfree #breakfast #recoveryispossible #dinner #anoressianervosa
Buonasera stelline! ☄☄☄ A pomeriggio ho fatto i compiti e studiato📚, ho pulito la stanzetta e poi ho sistemato zaino e vestiti... Stasera cena con: •Filetto di salmone🐟 •Broccoli,cavolfiore e broccoletti ------------------------------------- Ora finisco di ripetere per il compito di domani, metto la lavastoviglie, night snack e nanna... Il clima in famiglia non è dei migliori e questo non mi fa piacere perchè vorrei fosse unita, ma si è creato un divario enorme...cerco di non pensarci e di provare ad essere serena e soprattutto a non punirmi con la malattia... Comunque a pomeriggio ha piovuto un sacco e fuori fa freddissimo! ⛄ Voi cosa avete fatto oggi?La vostra cenetta? Vi auguro buonanotte e sogni d'oro! 😘😘❤ #anoressia  #anorexia  #ana  #recovery  #edfamily  #eatingdisorder  #edrecovery  #anarecovery  #ed  #food  #anorexianervosa  #healthy  #anawho  #diarioalimentare  #realrecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #dca  #healthyfood  #staystrong  #edfree  #breakfast  #recoveryispossible  #dinner  #anoressianervosa 
Cena con:
~ Rutabaga e cavoletti di Bruxelles al forno 🌳
~ Salmone al forno 🐟
~ Ultimo pezzetto di Pan brioche soffice semi integrale con spinaci 🌱
~ Una banana piccola 🍌
~ Mezza ostia ripiena di mamma
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Cena con: ~ Rutabaga e cavoletti di Bruxelles al forno 🌳 ~ Salmone al forno 🐟 ~ Ultimo pezzetto di Pan brioche soffice semi integrale con spinaci 🌱 ~ Una banana piccola 🍌 ~ Mezza ostia ripiena di mamma . . . #diarioalimentare  #eatingwithoutguilt  #eatingdiary  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #edfamily  #edfighter  #edrecovery  #mentalhealth  #healthyeating  #alimentazionesana  #dca  #dcafamily  #disturbialimentari  #disturboalimentare  #anorexianervosa  #anoressiaitalia  #anoressiarestrittiva  #stopana  #stopbingeating  #bedrecovery  #bingeeatingdisorder 
Today’s actually been a pretty good day meal plan wise! Mentally, I’m struggling and the guilt is unreal but I’m pushing through. I’ve even tried some new things today. For breakfast I had an egg white quesadilla, and for lunch I made some protein bread which I then turned into a sandwich! Hope everyone’s had a relaxing Sunday! #edfight #edfamily #edrecovery #eatittobeatit #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #healthyeats #anxiety #anorexia #anarecovery #anorexiarecovery #bulimia #bulimiarecovery #breakfast #lunch #mentalillness #depression #fight #fearfoods #fearfood #fooddiary #foodisfuel #foodisgood #recovery #recoverywin #roadtorecovery #recoveryisworthit #recoveryispossible
Today’s actually been a pretty good day meal plan wise! Mentally, I’m struggling and the guilt is unreal but I’m pushing through. I’ve even tried some new things today. For breakfast I had an egg white quesadilla, and for lunch I made some protein bread which I then turned into a sandwich! Hope everyone’s had a relaxing Sunday! #edfight  #edfamily  #edrecovery  #eatittobeatit  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #healthyeats  #anxiety  #anorexia  #anarecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #bulimia  #bulimiarecovery  #breakfast  #lunch  #mentalillness  #depression  #fight  #fearfoods  #fearfood  #fooddiary  #foodisfuel  #foodisgood  #recovery  #recoverywin  #roadtorecovery  #recoveryisworthit  #recoveryispossible 
Buonasera ragazze❣️
Scusatemi se mi faccio sentire così tardi è che ho avuto veramente tanto da studiare per domani e ancora non sono abbastanza soddisfatta del mio studio, ma pazienza... quel che sarà, sarà. 
Oggi con le foto non ci siamo proprio😂🙅🏼‍♀️ sono orribili, lo so. Le metto giusto per farmi sentire un po’😁😘
Sta sera per cena: •minestrina in brodo🍜
•tofu saltato in padella con salsa di soia😋 (giusto per dirvi...amo il tofu)
•insalata mista 🥗
Buonanotte♥️🌌
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#anoressia #anoressiaitalia #anoressianervosa #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #anorexianervosa #ana #anorexiafighter #anorexiawarrior #notproana #anawarrior #anafighter #fuckana #ed #edfamily #edfighter #edwarrior #warrior #anorexic #food #dinner #instafood
Buonasera ragazze❣️ Scusatemi se mi faccio sentire così tardi è che ho avuto veramente tanto da studiare per domani e ancora non sono abbastanza soddisfatta del mio studio, ma pazienza... quel che sarà, sarà. Oggi con le foto non ci siamo proprio😂🙅🏼‍♀️ sono orribili, lo so. Le metto giusto per farmi sentire un po’😁😘 Sta sera per cena: •minestrina in brodo🍜 •tofu saltato in padella con salsa di soia😋 (giusto per dirvi...amo il tofu) •insalata mista 🥗 Buonanotte♥️🌌 - #anoressia  #anoressiaitalia  #anoressianervosa  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexianervosa  #ana  #anorexiafighter  #anorexiawarrior  #notproana  #anawarrior  #anafighter  #fuckana  #ed  #edfamily  #edfighter  #edwarrior  #warrior  #anorexic  #food  #dinner  #instafood 
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Had this @lindtuk Egg😁😻
I no its rather cracked/broken in this picture but this chocolate could be ran over and left mashed up by a bus and still taste LUSHHH😛
One of best tasting fooood ever 👊🏼
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🍫🍫 Had this @lindtuk Egg😁😻 I no its rather cracked/broken in this picture but this chocolate could be ran over and left mashed up by a bus and still taste LUSHHH😛 One of best tasting fooood ever 👊🏼 - Hope you have all had a lovely weekend🌸 - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -#instafood #yumm  #lindt #desserts #darkchocolate  #edfamily #edwarrior  #eatingdisorder #delish  #anarecovery #orthorexia  #nomnom #prorecovery  #munchies #whitechocolate #anorexiarecovery #blogger #chocolates #pudding #eatingfortheinsta #amazing #beatana #ilovefood #eatittobeatit  #edsoldier #foodgram #junkfood #eatingdisorderrecovery #dessert #sweet 
another day, another bowl of oats 🌊 I'm so happy this weekend we bought frozen berries! The fresh ones are never good mid winter, and tbh o can't afford them 🙌🏻😂. So this bowl of oats was topped with almonds, raspberries, and blueberries (look how tiny they went!!). I find it so amazing to look back on the little progressions: so here we have 15 almonds, but (tw) two months ago I legitimately would have cried if you made me eat one! Sometimes, when you feel like you've made no progress, you need to look back at how far you've come 💛. ---------------------------
Being a bit honest, tonight's dinner was really v v hard. My mum still isn't here, so my dad was cooking lamb, veg and potatoes. He asked me what I wanted and I answer just that: I really felt like roasted veg! The problems started when I watched he make the veg 🙄 because obviously normal people roast things on oil. I kinda freaked out, and honestly this was just really hard for me.  He also caught me (tw) dabbing oil off, so yeah not great. ----------------------------
Tomorrow is a new day, a new week, so it's better just to forget today and move on 🌊
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another day, another bowl of oats 🌊 I'm so happy this weekend we bought frozen berries! The fresh ones are never good mid winter, and tbh o can't afford them 🙌🏻😂. So this bowl of oats was topped with almonds, raspberries, and blueberries (look how tiny they went!!). I find it so amazing to look back on the little progressions: so here we have 15 almonds, but (tw) two months ago I legitimately would have cried if you made me eat one! Sometimes, when you feel like you've made no progress, you need to look back at how far you've come 💛. --------------------------- Being a bit honest, tonight's dinner was really v v hard. My mum still isn't here, so my dad was cooking lamb, veg and potatoes. He asked me what I wanted and I answer just that: I really felt like roasted veg! The problems started when I watched he make the veg 🙄 because obviously normal people roast things on oil. I kinda freaked out, and honestly this was just really hard for me. He also caught me (tw) dabbing oil off, so yeah not great. ---------------------------- Tomorrow is a new day, a new week, so it's better just to forget today and move on 🌊 .. . .. ... .... ..... #recovery  #edrecovery  #recoveryispossible  #anorexianervosa  #anorexianervosarecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #edfam  #edfamily  #edcommunity  #balancednotclean  #bethebiggerbully  #recoverywin  #mentalhealthawareness  #prorecovery  #realrecovery  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatittobeatit  #fuckana  #gainingweightiscool  #edfighter  #edsoldier  #edwarrior  #anafighter  #anawho  #anawarrior  #anasoldier  #anarecovery  #eatingdisorder  #nourishnotpunish 
Hey Fighters 🦋 
This is what you call recovery win 💪🏼 had an twix and a slice of cake 🍰 for coffee time and dinner was two slices of bread with melted cheese and Philadelphia which was delicious 😋 as well I’m feeling full up right now and I’m in constant struggle with myself as I think I don’t deserve to eat but I was so hungry so I guess it was ok 😪 I don’t think I’ll be able to have my night snack as I’m really really tired and tomorrow morning is weighing time which I’m not so excited about as well 🙄  I’m scared and really home sick right now 😪 stay strong my lovelys 🦋💪🏼
#eatingdisorder #edsoldiers #anorexia #bodycheck #tothebone #edfighter #dinner #veggie #strongnotskinny #nourishnotpunish #anawarrior #recovering #eatingdisorderrecovery #anarecovery #recoverywin #foodphotography #foodpics #foodisfuel #foodblogger #instafood #realrecovery #like4like #follow4follow #bodypositive #bodypositivity #life #love #beautiful #selfcare #edfamily
Hey Fighters 🦋 This is what you call recovery win 💪🏼 had an twix and a slice of cake 🍰 for coffee time and dinner was two slices of bread with melted cheese and Philadelphia which was delicious 😋 as well I’m feeling full up right now and I’m in constant struggle with myself as I think I don’t deserve to eat but I was so hungry so I guess it was ok 😪 I don’t think I’ll be able to have my night snack as I’m really really tired and tomorrow morning is weighing time which I’m not so excited about as well 🙄 I’m scared and really home sick right now 😪 stay strong my lovelys 🦋💪🏼 #eatingdisorder  #edsoldiers  #anorexia  #bodycheck  #tothebone  #edfighter  #dinner  #veggie  #strongnotskinny  #nourishnotpunish  #anawarrior  #recovering  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #anarecovery  #recoverywin  #foodphotography  #foodpics  #foodisfuel  #foodblogger  #instafood  #realrecovery  #like4like  #follow4follow  #bodypositive  #bodypositivity  #life  #love  #beautiful  #selfcare  #edfamily 
Dinner - Beef lasagna, roast potatoes, broccoli, and mashed swede.
This is a MASSIVE challenge for me because my biggest food fear is red meat.
#nourishtoflourish #recoveryisworthit #edfighter #foodporn #prorecovery #fuckana #mentalhealth #edwarrior #eatittobeatit #strongnotskinny #anorexiarecovery #recovery #anarecovery #edrecovery #fooddiary #ensure #anorexia #eatingdisorder #edfam #edfighter #selectivemutism #socialanxiety #edfamily #fooddiary
Cena che ho adorato!! 😍😍 80g di farfalle con sugo preparato da mia mamma e zucca! 😍😍 e ovviamente due cucchiai di olio e uno di formaggio! ❤🌷 oggi ho dormito praticamente tutto il pomeriggio, ero stanchissima e al tempo stesso felice per ieri sera e ansiosa per giovedì... mamma mia, troppe emozioni tutte insieme che non mi fanno stare tranquilla 😑 ad ogni modo non riverso le mie emozioni sul cibo e mi attendo strettamente al piano della dietologa 💪💪 per cena c'era anche il mio fidanzato che resterà con me anche stanotte... finalmente passiamo un po' di tempo insieme, spero che pian piano recupereremo il rapporto che avevamo all'inizio ❤ vi abbraccio ❤🌷 #dinner #ed #edfamily #edwarriors #fitfam #eatless #eatclean #bingeeating #bulimia #anoressiaitalia #anorexia #obesity #obesa #weightloss #weightlossjourney #dca #disturbialimentari #eatingdisorder #pumpkin #healthyfood #nevergiveup #AbbuffiamociDiVita
Cena che ho adorato!! 😍😍 80g di farfalle con sugo preparato da mia mamma e zucca! 😍😍 e ovviamente due cucchiai di olio e uno di formaggio! ❤🌷 oggi ho dormito praticamente tutto il pomeriggio, ero stanchissima e al tempo stesso felice per ieri sera e ansiosa per giovedì... mamma mia, troppe emozioni tutte insieme che non mi fanno stare tranquilla 😑 ad ogni modo non riverso le mie emozioni sul cibo e mi attendo strettamente al piano della dietologa 💪💪 per cena c'era anche il mio fidanzato che resterà con me anche stanotte... finalmente passiamo un po' di tempo insieme, spero che pian piano recupereremo il rapporto che avevamo all'inizio ❤ vi abbraccio ❤🌷 #dinner  #ed  #edfamily  #edwarriors  #fitfam  #eatless  #eatclean  #bingeeating  #bulimia  #anoressiaitalia  #anorexia  #obesity  #obesa  #weightloss  #weightlossjourney  #dca  #disturbialimentari  #eatingdisorder  #pumpkin  #healthyfood  #nevergiveup  #AbbuffiamociDiVita 
Again, not extremely photogenic but seriously yummy ! Courgette, leek, cauliflower and spinach in spices and soya cream.

I had cake with my family in the afternoon so I went for a veggie only meal tonight to make up for it and it really doesn't feel like a punishment. 
Also I think it's the first time I actually compensate line this so I'm really proud of this new-found  wisdom 😆

#edfighter #edrecovery #bingeeatingrecovery #bingerecovery  #edfamily #veggies #organic #vegan #lchf
Again, not extremely photogenic but seriously yummy ! Courgette, leek, cauliflower and spinach in spices and soya cream. I had cake with my family in the afternoon so I went for a veggie only meal tonight to make up for it and it really doesn't feel like a punishment. Also I think it's the first time I actually compensate line this so I'm really proud of this new-found wisdom 😆 #edfighter  #edrecovery  #bingeeatingrecovery  #bingerecovery  #edfamily  #veggies  #organic  #vegan  #lchf 
#dinner challenging myself with kidney beans! They have turned into quite the fearfood lately. Feeling really guilty and like I didn’t deserve this at all. I didn’t really do anything active today...I hate this illness.

#prorecovery #edsoldier #edfamily #anorexia #eattobeat #recoverforboobs #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recovery #ana #fuckanorexia #eattoheal #antiana #edrecovery #recoveryisworthit #ednos #ednosrecovery #eattoheal #spiseforstyrrelse #anxiety #mentalhealth #anxietyattack #psykisksyg #psykisksygdom #anoreksi
#dinner  challenging myself with kidney beans! They have turned into quite the fearfood lately. Feeling really guilty and like I didn’t deserve this at all. I didn’t really do anything active today...I hate this illness. #prorecovery  #edsoldier  #edfamily  #anorexia  #eattobeat  #recoverforboobs  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #recovery  #ana  #fuckanorexia  #eattoheal  #antiana  #edrecovery  #recoveryisworthit  #ednos  #ednosrecovery  #eattoheal  #spiseforstyrrelse  #anxiety  #mentalhealth  #anxietyattack  #psykisksyg  #psykisksygdom  #anoreksi 
Guten Abend🙋🏼🌸
Das war mein Abendessen. Magerquark mit Flavourdrops, einem halben Apfel, einer halben Banane, einem zerdrückten Keks und ein paar Schokotropfen.😋
War sehr lecker!
Ich habe jetzt lange überlegt und beschlossen mit dem Kalorienzählen aufzuhören. Es bedrückt mich, langweilt mich, macht mich nervös und fertig. Früher hab ich schließlich auch nicht darauf geachtet wie viel Gramm ein Stück Apfel hat. 🤔
Ich werd einfach versuchen klein anzufangen und Schritt für Schritt davon wegzukommen. Aber vorallem möchte ich intuitiv essen da mir das die letzten Wochen sehr schwer gefallen ist. Entweder habe ich zu viel gegessen, nur wegen dem Ereichen der Kalorien gegessen oder zu wenig..
Ich fühle mich in meinem Körper zwar überhaupt nicht wohl, weil ich mittlerweile 53kg wiege. 8 Kilo in weniger als 2 Monaten zunehmen ist schon schlimm genug, aber damit klarkommen ist der Horror...
Mein Wunsch ist nach wie vor die 48 - 50 kg zu erreichen, aber vielleicht ist das ja der Fehler. Ständig habe ich daran gedacht wieder auf dieses Gewicht zu kommen, was warscheinlich auch zu den ganzen Essanfällen geführt hat.
Schönen Sonntag noch💓
#ed #edfamily #eatingdisorderrecovery #eating #eatingdisorder #anorexianervosa #anorexia #anorexie #ana #anawho #food #fooddiary #essstörung #essstörungrecovery #recovery #recoverywin #dinner
Guten Abend🙋🏼🌸 Das war mein Abendessen. Magerquark mit Flavourdrops, einem halben Apfel, einer halben Banane, einem zerdrückten Keks und ein paar Schokotropfen.😋 War sehr lecker! Ich habe jetzt lange überlegt und beschlossen mit dem Kalorienzählen aufzuhören. Es bedrückt mich, langweilt mich, macht mich nervös und fertig. Früher hab ich schließlich auch nicht darauf geachtet wie viel Gramm ein Stück Apfel hat. 🤔 Ich werd einfach versuchen klein anzufangen und Schritt für Schritt davon wegzukommen. Aber vorallem möchte ich intuitiv essen da mir das die letzten Wochen sehr schwer gefallen ist. Entweder habe ich zu viel gegessen, nur wegen dem Ereichen der Kalorien gegessen oder zu wenig.. Ich fühle mich in meinem Körper zwar überhaupt nicht wohl, weil ich mittlerweile 53kg wiege. 8 Kilo in weniger als 2 Monaten zunehmen ist schon schlimm genug, aber damit klarkommen ist der Horror... Mein Wunsch ist nach wie vor die 48 - 50 kg zu erreichen, aber vielleicht ist das ja der Fehler. Ständig habe ich daran gedacht wieder auf dieses Gewicht zu kommen, was warscheinlich auch zu den ganzen Essanfällen geführt hat. Schönen Sonntag noch💓 #ed  #edfamily  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eating  #eatingdisorder  #anorexianervosa  #anorexia  #anorexie  #ana  #anawho  #food  #fooddiary  #essstörung  #essstörungrecovery  #recovery  #recoverywin  #dinner 
#dinner was two big toasts a simolina pudding and a mars ice cream as dessert❤️😋I really love simolina pudding and I think it was the best part of my dinner😅💕
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Have a nice evening lovelies 😘❤️
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#dinner  was two big toasts a simolina pudding and a mars ice cream as dessert❤️😋I really love simolina pudding and I think it was the best part of my dinner😅💕 • • Have a nice evening lovelies 😘❤️ • • #edfighter  #edrecovery  #edfamily  #edwarrior  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #ana  #anarecovery  #anafighter  #anawarrior  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexia  #anorexianervosa  #anorexie  #anorexic  #anorexiafighter  #anorexiawarrior  #recovery  #recover  #recoveryisworthit  #recoverywin  #recovering  #food  #foodporn  #foodblogger  #foodlover  #fooddiary  #strongwoman  #strong 
Late post but lunch was veggies, apple and PB and a tuna sandwich with MAYO! While I was inpatient I constantly challenged myself at the cafeteria by picking egg salad or tuna. Those are huge fear foods when I don't make them myself because I don't know how much mayo they put in. But after challenging myself to it continuously I learned how to eyeball the correct portion and conquered that fear. Because truth is we all know tuna and egg salads are better with mayo#edfamily #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorderawareness #edrecovery #edawareness #ana #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #anorexic #anorexiaawareness #anawarrior #edwarrior #anawho #anarecovery #anaawareness #recoveryisworthit #recoveryispossible #eatittobeatit #healthynotskinny #healthynothungry #strongnotskinny #fuckana #countblessingnotcalories #2fab4ana #not1in5 #healthyisthenewskinny
Late post but lunch was veggies, apple and PB and a tuna sandwich with MAYO! While I was inpatient I constantly challenged myself at the cafeteria by picking egg salad or tuna. Those are huge fear foods when I don't make them myself because I don't know how much mayo they put in. But after challenging myself to it continuously I learned how to eyeball the correct portion and conquered that fear. Because truth is we all know tuna and egg salads are better with mayo#edfamily  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatingdisorderawareness  #edrecovery  #edawareness  #ana  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexic  #anorexiaawareness  #anawarrior  #edwarrior  #anawho  #anarecovery  #anaawareness  #recoveryisworthit  #recoveryispossible  #eatittobeatit  #healthynotskinny  #healthynothungry  #strongnotskinny  #fuckana  #countblessingnotcalories  #2fab4ana  #not1in5  #healthyisthenewskinny 
🌒✨Good Sunday evening! 🌃My fresh lovely dinner was: 75g vegan tempeh 🌱, 100g of light cottage cheese 🧀, 160g of tomatoes 🍅, 70g of fresh salad 🥗 and five rye crackers 🍞
🆘I’m feeling quite tired and sad today: sometimes I fear that I’ll never gonna return a “normal” person with a joyful and “normal” relationship with food. 🌧I hope these thoughts are going to pass quickly; in the meantime I WON’T restrict, I won’t give up this fight. I love myself enough. 🙌🏻💕
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 #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #anorexianervosa #fightingana #notproana #edfighter #notafraid #foodlover #healtyfood #healtylifestyle #bodypositive #selflove #vegan #vegetarian #aesthetic #edwarrior #fearfood #calories #strength #dinner #warrior #italianfood #food #tasty #italian #anoressiaitalia #edfamily #realrecovery #motivation #sunday
🌒✨Good Sunday evening! 🌃My fresh lovely dinner was: 75g vegan tempeh 🌱, 100g of light cottage cheese 🧀, 160g of tomatoes 🍅, 70g of fresh salad 🥗 and five rye crackers 🍞 🆘I’m feeling quite tired and sad today: sometimes I fear that I’ll never gonna return a “normal” person with a joyful and “normal” relationship with food. 🌧I hope these thoughts are going to pass quickly; in the meantime I WON’T restrict, I won’t give up this fight. I love myself enough. 🙌🏻💕 . . . . . #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexianervosa  #fightingana  #notproana  #edfighter  #notafraid  #foodlover  #healtyfood  #healtylifestyle  #bodypositive  #selflove  #vegan  #vegetarian  #aesthetic  #edwarrior  #fearfood  #calories  #strength  #dinner  #warrior  #italianfood  #food  #tasty  #italian  #anoressiaitalia  #edfamily  #realrecovery  #motivation  #sunday 
This green tea was so good and oh so pretty~ ✨ I drank it with some homemade sushi! #aesthetic #pink #tea #greentea #ed #edwarrior #edfamily #edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #2fab4ana
To whoever hates my vile old lady face and pictures so much, this one is for you. Byebye🖕🏻 Takes a lot of courage to bash someone on an anonymous website so good for you! So proud😘 To everyone else who supports me, I got some work to do today which is nice cause I’m really bored. Meals are still really hard. Positive: Saw my family and Dylan yesterday💕 This is day 7. Lots more to go.
To whoever hates my vile old lady face and pictures so much, this one is for you. Byebye🖕🏻 Takes a lot of courage to bash someone on an anonymous website so good for you! So proud😘 To everyone else who supports me, I got some work to do today which is nice cause I’m really bored. Meals are still really hard. Positive: Saw my family and Dylan yesterday💕 This is day 7. Lots more to go.