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Weight gain is such a hard thing to cope with during recovery from a restrictive eating disorder. You have to learn to accept with the changes in your body, your body becoming more shapely, your body beginning to work properly, your body looking healthier... and to most ED sufferers the thought of looking healthy is something you would rather die than become. 
I wish I had a magic cure to help take the pain away but I can’t, I’m only left with advice from my experiences.
🌷Try and reduce bloating by eating more calorie dense foods as you will see you’re not as ‘big’ (in your mind- in no way am I calling you ‘big’ at ALL) as you think you are. 🌷Wear loose fitting clothes so you don’t feel uncomfortable.
🌷Get rid of your ED clothes- you know, the ones we hold onto for security? Chuck ‘em- they aren’t helpful for you to hold onto.
🌷TALK about how your feeling to someone you trust. 🌷Don’t torture yourself. We all have triggers, don’t try to trigger yourself to hurt yourself.
🌷Don’t compare yourself to others. This is a hard one but you have to try and tell yourself that everyone is different. You can’t compare yourself to others as we are all unique. It will only hurt you- avoid it.
🌷Learn to love yourself. This one’s probably the hardest as there are no steps to this but tell yourself things you like about YOU, do things YOU enjoy, take care of yourself. These are all things that help build a positive self image. Accept that you have to gain weight. You may not see it but trust me, you will look better for it and by better I don’t necessarily mean healthier- I mean happier, more free, more yourself and more...alive.
I hope this was able to help you in some way. Sending you all loads of love ❤️
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#anawho #prorecovery #positivity #eatittobeatit #recovery #anorexia #ed #anorexiarecovery #edrecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #boobsnotbones #fuckyouana #fuckana #edfam #edfamily #edwarrior #edfighter #edsoldier #ana #beatana #nourishnotpunish #realrecovery #realcovery #healthynothungry #nourishtoflourish #weightrestoreddoesnotmeanfat #selflove #bodypositivity
Weight gain is such a hard thing to cope with during recovery from a restrictive eating disorder. You have to learn to accept with the changes in your body, your body becoming more shapely, your body beginning to work properly, your body looking healthier... and to most ED sufferers the thought of looking healthy is something you would rather die than become. I wish I had a magic cure to help take the pain away but I can’t, I’m only left with advice from my experiences. 🌷Try and reduce bloating by eating more calorie dense foods as you will see you’re not as ‘big’ (in your mind- in no way am I calling you ‘big’ at ALL) as you think you are. 🌷Wear loose fitting clothes so you don’t feel uncomfortable. 🌷Get rid of your ED clothes- you know, the ones we hold onto for security? Chuck ‘em- they aren’t helpful for you to hold onto. 🌷TALK about how your feeling to someone you trust. 🌷Don’t torture yourself. We all have triggers, don’t try to trigger yourself to hurt yourself. 🌷Don’t compare yourself to others. This is a hard one but you have to try and tell yourself that everyone is different. You can’t compare yourself to others as we are all unique. It will only hurt you- avoid it. 🌷Learn to love yourself. This one’s probably the hardest as there are no steps to this but tell yourself things you like about YOU, do things YOU enjoy, take care of yourself. These are all things that help build a positive self image. Accept that you have to gain weight. You may not see it but trust me, you will look better for it and by better I don’t necessarily mean healthier- I mean happier, more free, more yourself and more...alive. I hope this was able to help you in some way. Sending you all loads of love ❤️ - - - - #anawho  #prorecovery  #positivity  #eatittobeatit  #recovery  #anorexia  #ed  #anorexiarecovery  #edrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #boobsnotbones  #fuckyouana  #fuckana  #edfam  #edfamily  #edwarrior  #edfighter  #edsoldier  #ana  #beatana  #nourishnotpunish  #realrecovery  #realcovery  #healthynothungry  #nourishtoflourish  #weightrestoreddoesnotmeanfat  #selflove  #bodypositivity 
#afternoonsnack ... still tired 😫😞 i don’t feel any better ;-;
Buongiorno fitfam! Maledetto lunedì di 🌧 ma iniziato al meglio con una colazione da urlo 👉🏻 TORTA PROTEICA SENZA FARINA SUPER SOFFICIOSA, HEALTHY 👉🏻 come sempre trovate la ricetta sul mio blog 💕 e con un allenamento dove ho dato il massimo! Da oggi a giovedì sarò veramente incasinata in quanto inizieranno le maledette prove d’esame (Ho studiato?Sono pronta?NO! ma non mi importa perché dopo aver passato anni ed anni ad eseguire tutti i miei doveri come un soldatino ora ho imparato a mettere prima me stessa e la mia serenità e soprattutto ho capito qual è il lavoro che voglio fare e come voglio investire il mio tempo) Ad ogni modo sarà una bella prova di sopravvivenza (7 ore di esame e altrettante di attesa.. tre giorni di fila.. accessibilità al bagno limitata - questo è ciò che più mi preoccupa!) 👉🏻 anyway per realizzare questa torta proteica ho usato le whey vanilla di @naturalmojo_it le mie preferite ❤️ Ed inserendo il codice FITNESSFREAK20 avrete un 20% di sconto —#healthyishappy #francescafitnessfreak
Buongiorno fitfam! Maledetto lunedì di 🌧 ma iniziato al meglio con una colazione da urlo 👉🏻 TORTA PROTEICA SENZA FARINA SUPER SOFFICIOSA, HEALTHY 👉🏻 come sempre trovate la ricetta sul mio blog 💕 e con un allenamento dove ho dato il massimo! Da oggi a giovedì sarò veramente incasinata in quanto inizieranno le maledette prove d’esame (Ho studiato?Sono pronta?NO! ma non mi importa perché dopo aver passato anni ed anni ad eseguire tutti i miei doveri come un soldatino ora ho imparato a mettere prima me stessa e la mia serenità e soprattutto ho capito qual è il lavoro che voglio fare e come voglio investire il mio tempo) Ad ogni modo sarà una bella prova di sopravvivenza (7 ore di esame e altrettante di attesa.. tre giorni di fila.. accessibilità al bagno limitata - questo è ciò che più mi preoccupa!) 👉🏻 anyway per realizzare questa torta proteica ho usato le whey vanilla di @naturalmojo_it le mie preferite ❤️ Ed inserendo il codice FITNESSFREAK20 avrete un 20% di sconto —#healthyishappy  #francescafitnessfreak 
(Possible trigger warning) Sometimes I can't stand to look at myself in the mirror. I can't look at my legs when I walk and I can't take a shower without breaking down. This picture was me bodychecking and then I realized it's a perfect example of BDD. Seeing things 100x bigger than they're supposed to be and with my ED anything that squishes is automatically bad. And I felt like this picture showed how "disgusting" I let myself get. My ed went on a rampage because I could grab my stomach and squish it. .
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It's frustrating to live with these thoughts and I have to try and look at this picture and tell myself it's beautiful to have squish and it's okay that my stomach isn't completely flat with rock hard abs. I just gotta take a deep breath and try to distract from the thoughts 🌼

@learning.moonlight

#selfcare #realrecovery #recoverywin #recovery #selflove #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #mentalhealth #mentalillness #myrecoverybody #mentalhealthawareness #perfectlyflawed #perfectlyimperfect #imperfectlyme #imperfectlyperfect #scars #bodiposi #bellyrolls #bodypositive #bodypositivity #embracethesquish #authenticself #edwarrior #edfighter #recoverywarrior
(Possible trigger warning) Sometimes I can't stand to look at myself in the mirror. I can't look at my legs when I walk and I can't take a shower without breaking down. This picture was me bodychecking and then I realized it's a perfect example of BDD. Seeing things 100x bigger than they're supposed to be and with my ED anything that squishes is automatically bad. And I felt like this picture showed how "disgusting" I let myself get. My ed went on a rampage because I could grab my stomach and squish it. . . It's frustrating to live with these thoughts and I have to try and look at this picture and tell myself it's beautiful to have squish and it's okay that my stomach isn't completely flat with rock hard abs. I just gotta take a deep breath and try to distract from the thoughts 🌼 @learning.moonlight #selfcare  #realrecovery  #recoverywin  #recovery  #selflove  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #mentalhealth  #mentalillness  #myrecoverybody  #mentalhealthawareness  #perfectlyflawed  #perfectlyimperfect  #imperfectlyme  #imperfectlyperfect  #scars  #bodiposi  #bellyrolls  #bodypositive  #bodypositivity  #embracethesquish  #authenticself  #edwarrior  #edfighter  #recoverywarrior 
A LONG BUT IMPORTANT POST SO KICK BACK, RELAX, GRAB A CUPPA AND A CHOCCIE AND GET IN YER COMFY ASS CLOTHES AND A CAT/DOG/HAMSTER/FISH (jk fish cannot survive w/o water if u didn't know #imanactualeinstein) ON UR LAP READ ON....
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One very very important thing my care coordinator said to me once was 'your eating disorder will always find a way to ''put off'' food', in other words, 'save for later'.
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And this is part of the mindset that many people with eating disorders, including me, contain.
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And you know what? Over the past couple of weeks, I've learnt to completely reduce that cognition from controlling me.
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Imagine this scenario: you crave something, maybe you're not 'hungry' but suddenly a yummy food which you know you have access to pops into your mind. You're on the train or bus back from college, you have an hour or so until you know you'll get back and have dinner or something (which will still take a little bit of time to make to) but you really crave this certain chocolate bar in your bag. Immediately you try to cover up that cognition and your mind hurriedly attempts to 'justify' why you should 'wait', and then have the chocolate bar 'as a night snack' along with whatever your mind is most likely planning to have anyway.
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A LONG BUT IMPORTANT POST SO KICK BACK, RELAX, GRAB A CUPPA AND A CHOCCIE AND GET IN YER COMFY ASS CLOTHES AND A CAT/DOG/HAMSTER/FISH (jk fish cannot survive w/o water if u didn't know #imanactualeinstein ) ON UR LAP READ ON.... -------------------------------------------- One very very important thing my care coordinator said to me once was 'your eating disorder will always find a way to ''put off'' food', in other words, 'save for later'. -------------------------------------------- And this is part of the mindset that many people with eating disorders, including me, contain. -------------------------------------------- And you know what? Over the past couple of weeks, I've learnt to completely reduce that cognition from controlling me. -------------------------------------------- Imagine this scenario: you crave something, maybe you're not 'hungry' but suddenly a yummy food which you know you have access to pops into your mind. You're on the train or bus back from college, you have an hour or so until you know you'll get back and have dinner or something (which will still take a little bit of time to make to) but you really crave this certain chocolate bar in your bag. Immediately you try to cover up that cognition and your mind hurriedly attempts to 'justify' why you should 'wait', and then have the chocolate bar 'as a night snack' along with whatever your mind is most likely planning to have anyway. -------------------------------------------- Continued 👇🏽
Happy Monday 🎉 New week, and I'm gonna work hard to get my sleeping pattern back on track. I'm so tired of wasting the day sleeping and not being able to sleep during the night 😠 It's super annoying!! Haha anywaaaay .. have an awesome week everyone! 😍
Happy Monday 🎉 New week, and I'm gonna work hard to get my sleeping pattern back on track. I'm so tired of wasting the day sleeping and not being able to sleep during the night 😠 It's super annoying!! Haha anywaaaay .. have an awesome week everyone! 😍
#2017bestnine thank you for all of your support this year, i can’t thank you enough 💖💖💖
#2017bestnine  thank you for all of your support this year, i can’t thank you enough 💖💖💖
apricot yoghurt is my new favourite, just as peanut butter sandwiches with bananas are  an old favourite 😋 selling cards this morning went really well, I’ve raised over £50 selling my handmade cards after two church services 😌 I’ve also been selling Ana down the river where she’ll hopefully drown because I’m doing everything in my power to abolish her nasty whiny voice and instead listen to my friends, family, God and everyone who loves me. Let’s do this! #sandwichporn #recovery #recovering #recoverywin #edrecovery #2fab4ana #anarecovery #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #realrecovery #recoveryispossible #recoveryisworthit  #anorexiarecovery #beatana #fuckana #anawho #anawarrior #anafighter #anasoldier #edfighter #edsoldier #edfamily #edfam #edcommunity #mentalhealthawareness #orthorexia #eatittobeatit #nourishnotpunish #prorecovery
apricot yoghurt is my new favourite, just as peanut butter sandwiches with bananas are an old favourite 😋 selling cards this morning went really well, I’ve raised over £50 selling my handmade cards after two church services 😌 I’ve also been selling Ana down the river where she’ll hopefully drown because I’m doing everything in my power to abolish her nasty whiny voice and instead listen to my friends, family, God and everyone who loves me. Let’s do this! #sandwichporn  #recovery  #recovering  #recoverywin  #edrecovery  #2fab4ana  #anarecovery  #anorexianervosa  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #realrecovery  #recoveryispossible  #recoveryisworthit  #anorexiarecovery  #beatana  #fuckana  #anawho  #anawarrior  #anafighter  #anasoldier  #edfighter  #edsoldier  #edfamily  #edfam  #edcommunity  #mentalhealthawareness  #orthorexia  #eatittobeatit  #nourishnotpunish  #prorecovery 
Omg this was incredible! 😊 Pudding was lots of @swedishglace Vanilla ICE CREAM with 2 crushed @oreo and @sweetfreedomuk Choc Shot(!!!)😱😍 100% Vegan and so so yummy! I've only recently tried this vegan icecream and omg I'm in love. It's so creamy and vanillary! 😊 Which is surprising. Like I never thought it be so good! 👌 Anorexia might hate me for inventing this amazing creation but who cares! Cos when cravings strike, you have to listen to them. 👍Earlier I met my care coordinator to discuss starting therapy again. Like I've had it in the past but it's not really helped much. I've had CBT and all that. 😂 But I'm hoping to restart things now I'm in a different head space. Tbh I'm struggling with my mood and anxiety quite a lot at the moment, so I'm hoping that should help me manage things a bit better. Not much apart from that. Time to watch some TV and chill. 😊 I hope you have a great evening everyone! 💕#recovery #dessert #vegan #foodporn #instafood #nofilter #nutrition #eat #edrecovery #staystrong #edfamily #food #anorexiarecovery #strongnotskinny #edfighter #ana #anorexia #anawho #ed #vsco #healthy #yummy #delicious #chocolate #balancednotclean #realrecovery #recoveryisworthit #prorecovery #anarecovery #happy
Omg this was incredible! 😊 Pudding was lots of @swedishglace Vanilla ICE CREAM with 2 crushed @oreo and @sweetfreedomuk Choc Shot(!!!)😱😍 100% Vegan and so so yummy! I've only recently tried this vegan icecream and omg I'm in love. It's so creamy and vanillary! 😊 Which is surprising. Like I never thought it be so good! 👌 Anorexia might hate me for inventing this amazing creation but who cares! Cos when cravings strike, you have to listen to them. 👍Earlier I met my care coordinator to discuss starting therapy again. Like I've had it in the past but it's not really helped much. I've had CBT and all that. 😂 But I'm hoping to restart things now I'm in a different head space. Tbh I'm struggling with my mood and anxiety quite a lot at the moment, so I'm hoping that should help me manage things a bit better. Not much apart from that. Time to watch some TV and chill. 😊 I hope you have a great evening everyone! 💕#recovery  #dessert  #vegan  #foodporn  #instafood  #nofilter  #nutrition  #eat  #edrecovery  #staystrong  #edfamily  #food  #anorexiarecovery  #strongnotskinny  #edfighter  #ana  #anorexia  #anawho  #ed  #vsco  #healthy  #yummy  #delicious  #chocolate  #balancednotclean  #realrecovery  #recoveryisworthit  #prorecovery  #anarecovery  #happy 
peace🍃created this account to track my training. Spent 6 months in treatment for an eating disorder and now I finally have my life back, and I’m not turning back any time soon.
peace🍃created this account to track my training. Spent 6 months in treatment for an eating disorder and now I finally have my life back, and I’m not turning back any time soon.
night snack: apple and decaf almond milk latte. body dysmorphia is messing with me so that’s not fun but i’ve managed to follow my meal plan fully anyway tonight. i’m going to study and then go to bed and try not to worry too much about weigh-in 👍 have a good night 💕
night snack: apple and decaf almond milk latte. body dysmorphia is messing with me so that’s not fun but i’ve managed to follow my meal plan fully anyway tonight. i’m going to study and then go to bed and try not to worry too much about weigh-in 👍 have a good night 💕
I’ve seen a lot of these cookies in the community and last night I finally had the chance to try one!(thanks S, love ya) 🍪 It was surprisingly good for a “healthy” cookie and it was definitely a challenge. For me, it wouldn’t be normal to have one serving which is half a cookie??? I know they’re big but...? so I ate the entire thing. Emotions like guilt and frustration still come up when I eat particularly challenging things but it’s getting better ~Mae
I’ve seen a lot of these cookies in the community and last night I finally had the chance to try one!(thanks S, love ya) 🍪 It was surprisingly good for a “healthy” cookie and it was definitely a challenge. For me, it wouldn’t be normal to have one serving which is half a cookie??? I know they’re big but...? so I ate the entire thing. Emotions like guilt and frustration still come up when I eat particularly challenging things but it’s getting better ~Mae
Breakfast was a light coffee {40}
Lunch was most of a sleeve of saltines with hummus and a coffee {650}
Snacks were celery, carrots with sauce, 2 clementines, a pomegranate, and 2 apples {510}
So munch
#vegan #food #veganfood #meal #fooddiary #recovery #bulimiarecovery #edfighter #ed #strongnotskinny #calories #caloriecounting #loseit #intake #hclf #hclfvegan #edfighter #edfam #edwarrior #balance #bulimia #beatingbulimia #eatingdisorder #disorderedeating #coffee #snack #afternoonsnack
Breakfast was a light coffee {40} Lunch was most of a sleeve of saltines with hummus and a coffee {650} Snacks were celery, carrots with sauce, 2 clementines, a pomegranate, and 2 apples {510} So munch #vegan  #food  #veganfood  #meal  #fooddiary  #recovery  #bulimiarecovery  #edfighter  #ed  #strongnotskinny  #calories  #caloriecounting  #loseit  #intake  #hclf  #hclfvegan  #edfighter  #edfam  #edwarrior  #balance  #bulimia  #beatingbulimia  #eatingdisorder  #disorderedeating  #coffee  #snack  #afternoonsnack 
For #dinner tonight I made grilled chicken 🐔 with my panini grill, potatoes 🥔 , some broccoli 🥦 and a homemade squash sauce 🔥🤤❤️
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#anorexia #anorexiarecovery #beatanorexia #fuckanorexia #anarecovery #beatana #fuckana #anaisabitch #anawarrior #annafighter #anasoldier #edrecovery #beateatingdiscorder #fuckeatingdiscorder #edwarrior #edfighter #edsoldier #recoveryisworthit #eatittobeatit #boobsnotbone #healthynotskinny #healthynothungry #recoverywin ❤️
For #dinner  tonight I made grilled chicken 🐔 with my panini grill, potatoes 🥔 , some broccoli 🥦 and a homemade squash sauce 🔥🤤❤️ - - - - - #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #beatanorexia  #fuckanorexia  #anarecovery  #beatana  #fuckana  #anaisabitch  #anawarrior  #annafighter  #anasoldier  #edrecovery  #beateatingdiscorder  #fuckeatingdiscorder  #edwarrior  #edfighter  #edsoldier  #recoveryisworthit  #eatittobeatit  #boobsnotbone  #healthynotskinny  #healthynothungry  #recoverywin  ❤️
Recovering is one of the bravest things a person can do.
Recovering is one of the bravest things a person can do.
Better yet, skip the scale! You are always a person of value and worth regardless of your body 😊
Better yet, skip the scale! You are always a person of value and worth regardless of your body 😊
We are all enough, never forget it.
We are all enough, never forget it.
Guilt is a powerful emotion that can consume me from time to time. I have learned that the truth is I don’t need to feel guilty for having needs.
Guilt is a powerful emotion that can consume me from time to time. I have learned that the truth is I don’t need to feel guilty for having needs.
How bout dem apples 🍎🍏 #recoveryeeeats .
.These used to be the biggest trigger. I would go to them every single day and just dream about all the foods I wish I could have. I used to fantasize about the meals I’d make with all the fresh ingredients. Early into PHP, we went on a walk to a farmers market. We actually planned out a meal that we would prepare and had to go back to treatment and present it. As a chef, this was easy, but being that this was exactly what I did in my ED, made it feel like one of the most disordered things I could possibly do. I can’t believe how freely I can walk around farmers markets now. Free of urges to pick at the berries or steal the snap peas, free of fantasizing of food I can’t have, free of any disordered thoughts. I can actually walk past it and recognize it for what it is, pure beauty. #soulself #feedyoursoul #recovery #recover #recoverywin #edrecovery #edfighter #edwarrior #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorderawareness #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #food #farmersmarket #unionsquare #nyc #eeeeeats
How bout dem apples 🍎🍏 #recoveryeeeats  . .These used to be the biggest trigger. I would go to them every single day and just dream about all the foods I wish I could have. I used to fantasize about the meals I’d make with all the fresh ingredients. Early into PHP, we went on a walk to a farmers market. We actually planned out a meal that we would prepare and had to go back to treatment and present it. As a chef, this was easy, but being that this was exactly what I did in my ED, made it feel like one of the most disordered things I could possibly do. I can’t believe how freely I can walk around farmers markets now. Free of urges to pick at the berries or steal the snap peas, free of fantasizing of food I can’t have, free of any disordered thoughts. I can actually walk past it and recognize it for what it is, pure beauty. #soulself  #feedyoursoul  #recovery  #recover  #recoverywin  #edrecovery  #edfighter  #edwarrior  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatingdisorderawareness  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #food  #farmersmarket  #unionsquare  #nyc  #eeeeeats 
You deserve it! For so long I told myself that a happy, healthy life wasn’t something I deserved. I know now that that is so far from the truth!
You deserve it! For so long I told myself that a happy, healthy life wasn’t something I deserved. I know now that that is so far from the truth!
Part of me longs to be sick
To see my bones again
I know I romantize my illness
And treat bones as the holy grail
But I'm trying to let that go
I don't want to be another fatality 
Another soul lost to disorder
I want to rise above this 
Yes, being sick was comfortable 
I felt at home there
But I wasn't truly living
By numbing my emotions
I was but the shell of a girl
Wallowing in self pity and hatred 
And I'm getting so tired
Of merely surviving 
It's hard to let go
Of the things we know best
Even when they're not best for us
But each day I'll fight
I'll fight for my life
Cause that's what it comes down to
Do I want to die from this illness
Or conquer it and live
Today I choose the latter .
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#poem #poet #poetry #selfie #shamelessselfie #hippie #hippiegirl #oldsoul #purple #purplehair #purplegirl #edfighter #edrecovery #inspirational #smile #septumpiercing #girlswithpiercings #lebretpiercing #alternative #artsy #2fab4ana #lettinggo
Part of me longs to be sick To see my bones again I know I romantize my illness And treat bones as the holy grail But I'm trying to let that go I don't want to be another fatality Another soul lost to disorder I want to rise above this Yes, being sick was comfortable I felt at home there But I wasn't truly living By numbing my emotions I was but the shell of a girl Wallowing in self pity and hatred And I'm getting so tired Of merely surviving It's hard to let go Of the things we know best Even when they're not best for us But each day I'll fight I'll fight for my life Cause that's what it comes down to Do I want to die from this illness Or conquer it and live Today I choose the latter . . #poem  #poet  #poetry  #selfie  #shamelessselfie  #hippie  #hippiegirl  #oldsoul  #purple  #purplehair  #purplegirl  #edfighter  #edrecovery  #inspirational  #smile  #septumpiercing  #girlswithpiercings  #lebretpiercing  #alternative  #artsy  #2fab4ana  #lettinggo 
You are so strong, never underestimate what you can do when you set your mind to it!
You are so strong, never underestimate what you can do when you set your mind to it!
I was tagged by the amazing @be.you_not.ed to do 10 non-ed related facts about myself so here we go! 
1. I recently got a new puppy who we named Madelyn Atlantic, but we call her Maddy and she is my entire heart ❤️ 2. This past year I travelled to Italy for three weeks and it was one of the most amazing experiences of my life 🇮🇹 3. I'm an Aries but truthfully I don't know anything about what astrology signs mean 😬
4. I absolutely love cleaning...a bit odd I know but I find it therapeutic 
5. I absolutely love learning new things 📖
6. One of my fav tv shows is Greys Anatomy 
7. I'm 5'10" but I've always wanted to be 5' 11.5" that way I could round up to 6' or round down to 5'11" depending on my mood 😂
8. I know it's cheesy but my mom is probably my best friend 😊
9. My fav two tv channels are HGTV 🏘and Food Network 🍝
10. My dream is to one day own my own bakery/baking company and name it Sammie's Bakery Shoppe 🍰🎂 So that's just a few fun facts about me! I now challenge @happy.healthy.elle @lovedatmydarkest @zoealexiswong @chasing_cass @jlivingwell @sprouting.sunflower to complete your own lists! And every single one of you reading this, what are some fun facts about you guys?! #ed #edrecovery #edwarrior #edfighter #edsoldiers #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #morethananumber #anorexiarecovery
I was tagged by the amazing @be.you_not.ed to do 10 non-ed related facts about myself so here we go! 1. I recently got a new puppy who we named Madelyn Atlantic, but we call her Maddy and she is my entire heart ❤️ 2. This past year I travelled to Italy for three weeks and it was one of the most amazing experiences of my life 🇮🇹 3. I'm an Aries but truthfully I don't know anything about what astrology signs mean 😬 4. I absolutely love cleaning...a bit odd I know but I find it therapeutic 5. I absolutely love learning new things 📖 6. One of my fav tv shows is Greys Anatomy 7. I'm 5'10" but I've always wanted to be 5' 11.5" that way I could round up to 6' or round down to 5'11" depending on my mood 😂 8. I know it's cheesy but my mom is probably my best friend 😊 9. My fav two tv channels are HGTV 🏘and Food Network 🍝 10. My dream is to one day own my own bakery/baking company and name it Sammie's Bakery Shoppe 🍰🎂 So that's just a few fun facts about me! I now challenge @happy.healthy.elle @lovedatmydarkest @zoealexiswong @chasing_cass @jlivingwell @sprouting.sunflower to complete your own lists! And every single one of you reading this, what are some fun facts about you guys?! #ed  #edrecovery  #edwarrior  #edfighter  #edsoldiers  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #morethananumber  #anorexiarecovery 
This is something I have to remind myself of every single day.
This is something I have to remind myself of every single day.
dinner: chicken breast, spinach, and quinoa except the quinoa tasted really bad so i ended up eating brown rice instead 😂 weigh in tomorrow which always makes me so nervous. still have to eat though! alright i’m going back to work on homework. have a good night 💕
dinner: chicken breast, spinach, and quinoa except the quinoa tasted really bad so i ended up eating brown rice instead 😂 weigh in tomorrow which always makes me so nervous. still have to eat though! alright i’m going back to work on homework. have a good night 💕
favorite food EVER if you couldn't tell.
favorite food EVER if you couldn't tell.
took a break from posting bc taking pics of every single meal i had made me feel a bit weird. but im back now, this was dinner today (yes my only meal heh 😕). how are you all?💞
took a break from posting bc taking pics of every single meal i had made me feel a bit weird. but im back now, this was dinner today (yes my only meal heh 😕). how are you all?💞
Nothing worth having in life comes easy. Be patient and give yourself the time you need to become the best you!
Nothing worth having in life comes easy. Be patient and give yourself the time you need to become the best you!
Todays #MakeDecemberSparkle challenge was Jelly Babies, not just any ordinary Jelly Babies ether but the cutest Pudsey Bear Jelly Babies.
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I love Jelly Babies, they are so delicious and full of flavour. I have really picked up quite a sweet tooth and and a rather strong craving for chocolate recently, but do you know what? Thats OK!!.
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Instead of ignoring those cravings and depriving my tastebuds of those yummy flavours it enjoys i'm filling my tummy with sugary goodness (no I dont mean healthy food ether, I mean the goodness of enjoying not so healthy food because I can ).
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Is there any sweets or chocolate thst you really enjoyed but deprived yourself from for so long? If so, are you enjoying those foods not? If not, why don't you challenge yourself to them during this festive period?.
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Lets finish 2017 slaying those fears together!.
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#AnorexiaNervosa #Anorexia #AnorexiaRecovery #EatingDisorder #HealthyNotSkinny #BoobsNotBone #EDFighter #EDRecovery #MentalHealthRecovery #AnaRecovery #EDRecovery #EatItToBeatIt #EdWarrior #EDFighter #RecoveryWin #EatItToBeatIt #FuckAna #NourishToFlourish #FearFood #Breakfast #FearFoodChallenge #ChristmasChallenge #December #DecemberChallenge #JellyBabies #JellyPudsey #PudseyBabies #Sweets #Jelly #Babies
Todays #MakeDecemberSparkle  challenge was Jelly Babies, not just any ordinary Jelly Babies ether but the cutest Pudsey Bear Jelly Babies. - I love Jelly Babies, they are so delicious and full of flavour. I have really picked up quite a sweet tooth and and a rather strong craving for chocolate recently, but do you know what? Thats OK!!. - Instead of ignoring those cravings and depriving my tastebuds of those yummy flavours it enjoys i'm filling my tummy with sugary goodness (no I dont mean healthy food ether, I mean the goodness of enjoying not so healthy food because I can ). - Is there any sweets or chocolate thst you really enjoyed but deprived yourself from for so long? If so, are you enjoying those foods not? If not, why don't you challenge yourself to them during this festive period?. - Lets finish 2017 slaying those fears together!. - #AnorexiaNervosa  #Anorexia  #AnorexiaRecovery  #EatingDisorder  #HealthyNotSkinny  #BoobsNotBone  #EDFighter  #EDRecovery  #MentalHealthRecovery  #AnaRecovery  #EDRecovery  #EatItToBeatIt  #EdWarrior  #EDFighter  #RecoveryWin  #EatItToBeatIt  #FuckAna  #NourishToFlourish  #FearFood  #Breakfast  #FearFoodChallenge  #ChristmasChallenge  #December  #DecemberChallenge  #JellyBabies  #JellyPudsey  #PudseyBabies  #Sweets  #Jelly  #Babies 
dinner // scrambled egg whites with butter, melons and blueberries & some toast with jam. ❤ School has been such a bother lately but I'm managing to keep my grades up 😊
#anorexiarecovery #anorexianervosarecovery #anarecovery #edfighter #edcommunity #edwarrior #edrecovery #edfamily #fuckana #prorecovery #fearfood #eatittobeatit #eatingdisorderrecovery #nourishtoflourish
Hey everyone! This was my breakfast from a few days ago which was almond & cashew vanilla yogurt topped with mandarin orange, raisins, cheerios, chia seeds (being true to my username and all) and more cashews because you can never have too many!! 🍊🍇
This is actually not something I'd typically eat as I have this fear around combining foods of different textures and temperatures and food groups because I feel like it "ruins the food" and makes it "not worth it" and therefore I should just eat everything deconstructed. Like before I would always eat a banana and yogurt for breakfast and would have them separate, even though I love banana and yogurt together! It's just that I felt the need to take as long as possible to eat and by eating my food one item at a time I could maximize the time it took for me to finish it.
However, I now realize that that was not just my "personal preference" like I claimed it was - it was a disordered habit. I am trying my best to challenge it by having oats with all the nut butter and fruit in the same bowl but cereal and toast is still my go-to breakfast because it's two separate things and not one big combination of foods.
Buuuut I actually love the way food melds together when it's all mixed up so I want to challenge this ritual and enjoy more amazing combos like this one! Sorry if this is really rambly and doesn't make much sense but hopefully if you feel the same way it can provide a little motivation ❤ Experimenting with new flavours and textures and temperatures is one of the most fun parts of eating! It could also be one of the most scary but keep practicing and with time the anxiety will fade and you'll just be left with lovely things like cereal and fruit or oats and pb or granola and yogurt! 
Wishing you all an amazing day 💜 xx
#togetherwecan
OH AND I ADDED CINNAMON, HOW COULD I FORGET (@recover4freedom)
Hey everyone! This was my breakfast from a few days ago which was almond & cashew vanilla yogurt topped with mandarin orange, raisins, cheerios, chia seeds (being true to my username and all) and more cashews because you can never have too many!! 🍊🍇 This is actually not something I'd typically eat as I have this fear around combining foods of different textures and temperatures and food groups because I feel like it "ruins the food" and makes it "not worth it" and therefore I should just eat everything deconstructed. Like before I would always eat a banana and yogurt for breakfast and would have them separate, even though I love banana and yogurt together! It's just that I felt the need to take as long as possible to eat and by eating my food one item at a time I could maximize the time it took for me to finish it. However, I now realize that that was not just my "personal preference" like I claimed it was - it was a disordered habit. I am trying my best to challenge it by having oats with all the nut butter and fruit in the same bowl but cereal and toast is still my go-to breakfast because it's two separate things and not one big combination of foods. Buuuut I actually love the way food melds together when it's all mixed up so I want to challenge this ritual and enjoy more amazing combos like this one! Sorry if this is really rambly and doesn't make much sense but hopefully if you feel the same way it can provide a little motivation ❤ Experimenting with new flavours and textures and temperatures is one of the most fun parts of eating! It could also be one of the most scary but keep practicing and with time the anxiety will fade and you'll just be left with lovely things like cereal and fruit or oats and pb or granola and yogurt! Wishing you all an amazing day 💜 xx #togetherwecan  OH AND I ADDED CINNAMON, HOW COULD I FORGET (@recover4freedom)
Here's a reminder today that you're worthy and you're loved. You do not have to reach a certain point to be worthy of recovery. You don't have to restrict for x amount of time to be worthy of food and you're still worthy of food if you eat or binge. You're worthy of love and friends and family and you're worthy of your pets attention and love. You're worthy of so many good things in life you may not feel you're deserving of, but you are. And you're worthy of forgiveness. So many people don't think they can be forgiven for things but you can and you're deserving of it❤️🌼 you all are so beautiful even if you don't see it and you don't have to look a certain way to be beautiful🌼

#selfcare #realrecovery #recoverywin #recovery #selflove #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #mentalhealth #mentalillness #myrecoverybody #mentalhealthawareness #perfectlyflawed #perfectlyimperfect #imperfectlyme #imperfectlyperfect #scars #bodiposi #bellyrolls #bodypositive #bodypositivity #embracethesquish #authenticself #edwarrior #edfighter #recoverywarrior
Here's a reminder today that you're worthy and you're loved. You do not have to reach a certain point to be worthy of recovery. You don't have to restrict for x amount of time to be worthy of food and you're still worthy of food if you eat or binge. You're worthy of love and friends and family and you're worthy of your pets attention and love. You're worthy of so many good things in life you may not feel you're deserving of, but you are. And you're worthy of forgiveness. So many people don't think they can be forgiven for things but you can and you're deserving of it❤️🌼 you all are so beautiful even if you don't see it and you don't have to look a certain way to be beautiful🌼 #selfcare  #realrecovery  #recoverywin  #recovery  #selflove  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #mentalhealth  #mentalillness  #myrecoverybody  #mentalhealthawareness  #perfectlyflawed  #perfectlyimperfect  #imperfectlyme  #imperfectlyperfect  #scars  #bodiposi  #bellyrolls  #bodypositive  #bodypositivity  #embracethesquish  #authenticself  #edwarrior  #edfighter  #recoverywarrior 
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Throwback to these hot cakes I had at a local restaurant a few weeks ago. They were AMAZING. I have weigh in this morning and to say I'm anxious is an understatement. But I know I just need to push those voices aside and get it done. Hopefully I'll get extended to fortnightly appointments today instead of weekly because both mentally and physically things are starting to come together. Let's just hope it shows in my obs! 
Ailish 💖
#anorexiarecovery #edrecovery #ed #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #anorexia #ana #bulimia #bulimiarecovery #mia #recoverytrain #recovery #strongnotskinny #gainingweightiscool #edwarrior #fighter #edfamily #strong #fighter #depression #anxiety  #edfighter #edfam #mentalillness #prorecovery #realrecovery #pizza #yum #dinner #foodporn #food
+ Throwback to these hot cakes I had at a local restaurant a few weeks ago. They were AMAZING. I have weigh in this morning and to say I'm anxious is an understatement. But I know I just need to push those voices aside and get it done. Hopefully I'll get extended to fortnightly appointments today instead of weekly because both mentally and physically things are starting to come together. Let's just hope it shows in my obs! Ailish 💖 #anorexiarecovery  #edrecovery  #ed  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #anorexia  #ana  #bulimia  #bulimiarecovery  #mia  #recoverytrain  #recovery  #strongnotskinny  #gainingweightiscool  #edwarrior  #fighter  #edfamily  #strong  #fighter  #depression  #anxiety  #edfighter  #edfam  #mentalillness  #prorecovery  #realrecovery  #pizza  #yum  #dinner  #foodporn  #food 
Small steps may seem meaningless at first, but they add up to something much bigger...recovery!
Small steps may seem meaningless at first, but they add up to something much bigger...recovery!
Recovery is the hardest thing I have ever had to do, but also the most rewarding. Don’t ever doubt how bad ass you truly are!
Recovery is the hardest thing I have ever had to do, but also the most rewarding. Don’t ever doubt how bad ass you truly are!
今日は病院です。とても寒い。過食嘔吐は悪化するばかり。
#bulimia #bulimianervosa #bulimic #bulimiafighter #eatingdisorder #deterioration #stress #melancholy #hate #edsoldier #edwarrior #edfighter #摂食障害 #過食嘔吐 #悪化
Я знаю что бяка, которая не появлялась весь день. Простите. Просто весь день была в пути, а я жуть как не люблю писать посты пока куда-то еду. Особенно когда знаю что пост будет длинным, а за время поездки я его дописать не успею. 
В школе у  нас сегодня была физкультура [на этом месте можно закончить]. Моя подруга сдавала зачёт по волейболу и получила более хорошую оценку чем я. СУКА БЛЯТЬ У НЕЁ БЫЛО 2(!!) ХОРОШИХ МЕЧА ИЗ 27291078. И ЕЙ БЛЯТЬ ДАЮТ ХОРОШУЮ ОЦЕНКУ. А Я ТУТ СО СВОЕЙ 3- МИНУС И С РУКАМИ В СИНЯКАХ СИЖУ. НАААААХУЙ. МЕНЯ ЭТА ШАЛАВА [училка] 10 МИНУТ ШПЫНЯЛА, Я ДУМАЛА ЧТО ПОМРУ ОТ БОЛИ, А МОЮ ПОДРУГУ 2 СЕКУНДЫ, ОНА НИХУЯ НЕ СДЕЛАЛА И НА ТЕБЕ ХОРОШУЮ ОЦЕНКУ. 
Вот так вот учителя относятся ко мне, люблюобожаю нахуй🖕
Потом был клавир, где меня добила моя училка. Блять, я человек с неуровновешеной психикой. ОСТАВЬТЕ МЕНЯ ВСЕ ВПОКОЕ. НЕ НАДО МЕНЯ УПРЕКАТЬ. НЕ НАДО МЕНЯ ОТЧИТЫВАТЬ. НЕ НАДО ЧИТАТЬ МНЕ ЛЕКЦИИ. 
Прекрасный день. 
Ах да селфхарм спустя 3 недели воздержания. Ахуено. 
Зато не блевал 1 неделю. Ррремиссия.
Купила 5 пачек ширатаки (та супер-мега-низкокалорийная-охуеная-лапша). Уже съела 3. Разучились экономить деньги. Обещаю больше ничего не покупать до нг (кроме подарка для мамы). По питанию: 900 - 1000 ккал
🔸400 гр творога с яблочным и черничным варенье 🔸3 пачки ширатаки с соусом
🔸1 леденец холс
Боже, я так рада что вчера не сорвалась. Сегодня эта калорийность почти не триггернула. А ещё я пережила 3 дня подряд без жора. Ррремиссия.
Так же я попил спустя 68-72 часа (не помню точно когда в последний раз пила в пятницу). Возможно я не полностью отсидела трое суток, но думаю за пару часов я бы не умерла от обезвоживания. Это я затестила факт о том что человек умрёт если 3 дня не будет ничего пить. Н и х у я. Я была бы не против. Вообще, я бы на изи просидела ещё дольше, но мне приспичило есть острую, хорошо сдобренную приправами лапшу. Попробуй после такого не попить. Если бы поела огурца или хотя бы просто фруктов, то только бы завтра попила. Короче факт остаётся фактом. Можете спокойно не пить и не боятся что умрёте от обезвоживания. Теперь боюсь отёков, ибо уже сейчас организм отреагировал на воду не очень, живот тут же раздулся😒
Ночи коты♥
Я знаю что бяка, которая не появлялась весь день. Простите. Просто весь день была в пути, а я жуть как не люблю писать посты пока куда-то еду. Особенно когда знаю что пост будет длинным, а за время поездки я его дописать не успею. В школе у нас сегодня была физкультура [на этом месте можно закончить]. Моя подруга сдавала зачёт по волейболу и получила более хорошую оценку чем я. СУКА БЛЯТЬ У НЕЁ БЫЛО 2(!!) ХОРОШИХ МЕЧА ИЗ 27291078. И ЕЙ БЛЯТЬ ДАЮТ ХОРОШУЮ ОЦЕНКУ. А Я ТУТ СО СВОЕЙ 3- МИНУС И С РУКАМИ В СИНЯКАХ СИЖУ. НАААААХУЙ. МЕНЯ ЭТА ШАЛАВА [училка] 10 МИНУТ ШПЫНЯЛА, Я ДУМАЛА ЧТО ПОМРУ ОТ БОЛИ, А МОЮ ПОДРУГУ 2 СЕКУНДЫ, ОНА НИХУЯ НЕ СДЕЛАЛА И НА ТЕБЕ ХОРОШУЮ ОЦЕНКУ. Вот так вот учителя относятся ко мне, люблюобожаю нахуй🖕 Потом был клавир, где меня добила моя училка. Блять, я человек с неуровновешеной психикой. ОСТАВЬТЕ МЕНЯ ВСЕ ВПОКОЕ. НЕ НАДО МЕНЯ УПРЕКАТЬ. НЕ НАДО МЕНЯ ОТЧИТЫВАТЬ. НЕ НАДО ЧИТАТЬ МНЕ ЛЕКЦИИ. Прекрасный день. Ах да селфхарм спустя 3 недели воздержания. Ахуено. Зато не блевал 1 неделю. Ррремиссия. Купила 5 пачек ширатаки (та супер-мега-низкокалорийная-охуеная-лапша). Уже съела 3. Разучились экономить деньги. Обещаю больше ничего не покупать до нг (кроме подарка для мамы). По питанию: 900 - 1000 ккал 🔸400 гр творога с яблочным и черничным варенье 🔸3 пачки ширатаки с соусом 🔸1 леденец холс Боже, я так рада что вчера не сорвалась. Сегодня эта калорийность почти не триггернула. А ещё я пережила 3 дня подряд без жора. Ррремиссия. Так же я попил спустя 68-72 часа (не помню точно когда в последний раз пила в пятницу). Возможно я не полностью отсидела трое суток, но думаю за пару часов я бы не умерла от обезвоживания. Это я затестила факт о том что человек умрёт если 3 дня не будет ничего пить. Н и х у я. Я была бы не против. Вообще, я бы на изи просидела ещё дольше, но мне приспичило есть острую, хорошо сдобренную приправами лапшу. Попробуй после такого не попить. Если бы поела огурца или хотя бы просто фруктов, то только бы завтра попила. Короче факт остаётся фактом. Можете спокойно не пить и не боятся что умрёте от обезвоживания. Теперь боюсь отёков, ибо уже сейчас организм отреагировал на воду не очень, живот тут же раздулся😒 Ночи коты♥
Summer fruits are the best 🍓, not doing super well at the moment but had a small victory 🌟 this morning when I made this instead of BP’ing 🤗#summer #summereating #healthyeating #summerfruit #veganeats #vegan #edrecovery #edfighter #bnrecovery #bulimia #bulimianervosarecovery #bulimiarecovery #bulimianervosa #eatittobeatit
Positivity starts from within. Be kind to yourself.
Positivity starts from within. Be kind to yourself.
Love the person you are and the person you are yet to become.
Love the person you are and the person you are yet to become.
This random picture sums up my current life pretty good. It’s midnight, I took a shower after another awful binge. I try to get my life together. I am looking for options for my study, but I only get rejected. I am reaching out for help. But people are annoyed by me and send me away. I feel lonely. Sometimes, like yesterday and today during the day, I feel fine! I enjoy my life and don’t even think about my ED. But then there is a Trigger. Only a small one, which is ripping up old memories. Today it’s about my childhood, where everyone was fine and I felt sad, bc someone dragged me down with an insult. I went to my mother and she was busy. I told her, that I was sad and cried. But she told me:“Stop crying, get yourself together. I don’t want to hear, that someone else except you is responsible, for the bad things that happen to you!“ I know. It’s all my fault. I am a fault. Just look at me. I am trying my best and still disappoint the people I care about the most. I will take off the mask, clean the mess I made and go to sleep. And I hope for another day. I can do this. I know. But sometimes I can’t and I am weak. It’s no one else’s fault, but mine. I have to grow stronger, overcome this and become myself again. My grandma told me in a phonecall yesterday, that she believes, that my old me is still inside. I just have to break free... #blackmask #facecare #selfcare #wellness #random #midnight #bulimia #bulimiarecovery #ed #edrecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #recovery #overcomer #fighter #edfighter #edwarrior #standup #depressed #mentalillness #breakdown #bathroom #struggling #stepback
This random picture sums up my current life pretty good. It’s midnight, I took a shower after another awful binge. I try to get my life together. I am looking for options for my study, but I only get rejected. I am reaching out for help. But people are annoyed by me and send me away. I feel lonely. Sometimes, like yesterday and today during the day, I feel fine! I enjoy my life and don’t even think about my ED. But then there is a Trigger. Only a small one, which is ripping up old memories. Today it’s about my childhood, where everyone was fine and I felt sad, bc someone dragged me down with an insult. I went to my mother and she was busy. I told her, that I was sad and cried. But she told me:“Stop crying, get yourself together. I don’t want to hear, that someone else except you is responsible, for the bad things that happen to you!“ I know. It’s all my fault. I am a fault. Just look at me. I am trying my best and still disappoint the people I care about the most. I will take off the mask, clean the mess I made and go to sleep. And I hope for another day. I can do this. I know. But sometimes I can’t and I am weak. It’s no one else’s fault, but mine. I have to grow stronger, overcome this and become myself again. My grandma told me in a phonecall yesterday, that she believes, that my old me is still inside. I just have to break free... #blackmask  #facecare  #selfcare  #wellness  #random  #midnight  #bulimia  #bulimiarecovery  #ed  #edrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #recovery  #overcomer  #fighter  #edfighter  #edwarrior  #standup  #depressed  #mentalillness  #breakdown  #bathroom  #struggling  #stepback 
I look and feel terrible! since I found out that I'm still growing I have been exceptionally uncomfortable. Being taller is associated with weight gain and development at my age, so I have some idea that if I lose weight but grow, I'll be the same size. I know it's illogical and disordered, so I'm trying to dispel those ideas while exercising or reading or studying. I have become more tired and unmotivated when it comes to non-ed things because I completely stopped my medication. The snow and hot chocolate does help a bit
I look and feel terrible! since I found out that I'm still growing I have been exceptionally uncomfortable. Being taller is associated with weight gain and development at my age, so I have some idea that if I lose weight but grow, I'll be the same size. I know it's illogical and disordered, so I'm trying to dispel those ideas while exercising or reading or studying. I have become more tired and unmotivated when it comes to non-ed things because I completely stopped my medication. The snow and hot chocolate does help a bit
Your body needs food to live! Don’t deny it the fuel it needs to propel you forward in your recovery.
Your body needs food to live! Don’t deny it the fuel it needs to propel you forward in your recovery.
@rachelsrealrecovery tagged me to do ten non recovery/mental health related facts about me soooo
1. I’m the youngest of my immediate family. I have an older half sister (we share our mom) who is 23.
2. I used to dance, do gymnastics, and cheer when I was younger lol. I did competitive cheer from 7-14 and if I could just do stuff with stunts now I would. I actually really love being held up in and tossed around in the air😹
3. I want to go out of state for college. I’m looking mainly at NYU and Belmont University.
4. Arkansas Governor’s School was the best way to spend my summer. It’s basically like summer school, but with one academic focus, and mine was English Language Arts. Thank you John Andrews for introducing me to incredible poetry💗
5. I used to be in a band, but half of our members went off to college.
6. I’m currently doing Yoga with Adrienne’s “30 Days of Yoga” and I’m on day 18.
7. I enjoy reading, but only when it’s for my enjoyment and not when it has to do with school🤷🏻‍♀️
8. I used to have fun hair colors, like pink and blue and purple, but the bleach legit killed my hair so now I’m back to au natural.
9. I didn’t shave for a long time, but I did the other day just because I wanted to be hairless again.
10. I don’t think I have a Southern accent. If I do, that’s honestly going to make me a lil upset because I don’t like them. Southern people sound so dumb I’m not even sorry.
Extra fun 11. One of my fave slam poems is “Dinosaurs In The Hood”
@rachelsrealrecovery tagged me to do ten non recovery/mental health related facts about me soooo 1. I’m the youngest of my immediate family. I have an older half sister (we share our mom) who is 23. 2. I used to dance, do gymnastics, and cheer when I was younger lol. I did competitive cheer from 7-14 and if I could just do stuff with stunts now I would. I actually really love being held up in and tossed around in the air😹 3. I want to go out of state for college. I’m looking mainly at NYU and Belmont University. 4. Arkansas Governor’s School was the best way to spend my summer. It’s basically like summer school, but with one academic focus, and mine was English Language Arts. Thank you John Andrews for introducing me to incredible poetry💗 5. I used to be in a band, but half of our members went off to college. 6. I’m currently doing Yoga with Adrienne’s “30 Days of Yoga” and I’m on day 18. 7. I enjoy reading, but only when it’s for my enjoyment and not when it has to do with school🤷🏻‍♀️ 8. I used to have fun hair colors, like pink and blue and purple, but the bleach legit killed my hair so now I’m back to au natural. 9. I didn’t shave for a long time, but I did the other day just because I wanted to be hairless again. 10. I don’t think I have a Southern accent. If I do, that’s honestly going to make me a lil upset because I don’t like them. Southern people sound so dumb I’m not even sorry. Extra fun 11. One of my fave slam poems is “Dinosaurs In The Hood”
A giant egg salad roll and soy milk for dinner tonight. Still struggling with not being vegan, and now more bad news as my doctor has come in to say she’s disappointed in my progress and to say that from now on they select all my choices for my menu and omg I just can’t right now. #recovering #veganrecovery #eatittobeatit #recoverywarrior #anorexiarecovery  #edsoldier #realrecovery #foodisfuel #anasoldier #eatingdisoder #vegan #recoverywin #edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #edfighter #plantbased #minniemaud #vegancommunity  #edawareness #veganlife #inpatientrecovery #inpatient #dinner #health #veganismismagic #hospital #weightrestoration #staystrong #recoveryispossible #whatveganseat
A giant egg salad roll and soy milk for dinner tonight. Still struggling with not being vegan, and now more bad news as my doctor has come in to say she’s disappointed in my progress and to say that from now on they select all my choices for my menu and omg I just can’t right now. #recovering  #veganrecovery  #eatittobeatit  #recoverywarrior  #anorexiarecovery  #edsoldier  #realrecovery  #foodisfuel  #anasoldier  #eatingdisoder  #vegan  #recoverywin  #edrecovery  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #edfighter  #plantbased  #minniemaud  #vegancommunity  #edawareness  #veganlife  #inpatientrecovery  #inpatient  #dinner  #health  #veganismismagic  #hospital  #weightrestoration  #staystrong  #recoveryispossible  #whatveganseat 
Some days it may feel this way, but I promise it’s not!
Some days it may feel this way, but I promise it’s not!
Bueno, no sé si esto describe la depresión pero la mía sí; obligarme a cenar a las 12 de la noche, porque sé que tengo que comer, después de pasar prácticamente el día en la cama.
No es nuevo.
Llevo muchos años luchando con la depresión. La ansiedad. Las fobias y los ataques de pánico. El trastorno de alimentación se ha convertido en lo más llevadero de mi vida, apareció años después de que lo que hicieran los demás trastornos y parece que no quiera salir de mí.
Hoy no es desde luego mi mejor día; ni tampoco el peor.
Mañana tengo cita con una psicóloga privada porque en la seguridad social me dan visitas de 20 minutos con una tardanza de entre 2 y 4 meses. Eso y pastillas. Pastillas que me cansan más, que me hacen sentir más frágil e incapaz.
Si tiene salida no es esa, lo dije desde mi primer ingreso y en este último, desesperada, decidí aferrarme a la única solución que veía. Sé que hay otras alternativas. Quizás aún no las conozca pero me niego a que esto sea mi vida. Me niego a estar atada a las recetas que sólo palian el dolor; si tuviese una pierna rota apuesto a que no bastaría con tomar ibuprofeno. ¿Y la raíz del problema? ¿Y la ayuda?
Sé que hay gente en peor situación que yo y me duele quejarme pero, por todos ellos, ¡No hemos venido a esta vida a sufrir! ¡No somos enfermos crónicos! ¡No es eso para lo que estamos aquí!
Mucho amor 💕💕💕 #edfighter #anorexia #bulimia #depresión #depresion #fobias #ansiedad #ataquesdepánico #chooselife #changes #changeyourlife #dontquite #loveyourself #loveyourlife #fightmentalillness #toxicfamily #alwaysbeyourself #todossomosluz
Bueno, no sé si esto describe la depresión pero la mía sí; obligarme a cenar a las 12 de la noche, porque sé que tengo que comer, después de pasar prácticamente el día en la cama. No es nuevo. Llevo muchos años luchando con la depresión. La ansiedad. Las fobias y los ataques de pánico. El trastorno de alimentación se ha convertido en lo más llevadero de mi vida, apareció años después de que lo que hicieran los demás trastornos y parece que no quiera salir de mí. Hoy no es desde luego mi mejor día; ni tampoco el peor. Mañana tengo cita con una psicóloga privada porque en la seguridad social me dan visitas de 20 minutos con una tardanza de entre 2 y 4 meses. Eso y pastillas. Pastillas que me cansan más, que me hacen sentir más frágil e incapaz. Si tiene salida no es esa, lo dije desde mi primer ingreso y en este último, desesperada, decidí aferrarme a la única solución que veía. Sé que hay otras alternativas. Quizás aún no las conozca pero me niego a que esto sea mi vida. Me niego a estar atada a las recetas que sólo palian el dolor; si tuviese una pierna rota apuesto a que no bastaría con tomar ibuprofeno. ¿Y la raíz del problema? ¿Y la ayuda? Sé que hay gente en peor situación que yo y me duele quejarme pero, por todos ellos, ¡No hemos venido a esta vida a sufrir! ¡No somos enfermos crónicos! ¡No es eso para lo que estamos aquí! Mucho amor 💕💕💕 #edfighter  #anorexia  #bulimia  #depresión  #depresion  #fobias  #ansiedad  #ataquesdepánico  #chooselife  #changes  #changeyourlife  #dontquite  #loveyourself  #loveyourlife  #fightmentalillness  #toxicfamily  #alwaysbeyourself  #todossomosluz 
HEALTHY REALLY CAN MEAN HAPPY

This exact day last year. Vs today. 
Picture 1: Hadn't genuinely laughed in over a year, still trying to loose weight to reach perfection, fainted when I had dessert put In front of me, screamed at my parents when they tried to make me eat (I'm sorry I love you), calculated every single calorie that I consumed to the point where I'd be up until 4am most nights calculating and re-calculating because I was so terrified of getting it wrong. The list could go on. Oh, not to mention my hair was falling out in clumps, I could have pretty much died at any minute and tbh I didn't care. 
Picture 2: HI MY NAME IS LYDS AND I FLIPPING LOVE LIFE. 💕💕💕 I love socialising and going to town, I love long phone calls with my friends, going on dates, going for meals out, playing games with my family, eating Nutella out of the pot for no other reason that why fucking not? I can think clearly, I can play music again, I can ice skate, I can dance and best of all I can love. I can really deeply love those around me in a way that I never could when I was ill. And I'm even starting to love myself x (getting there) x
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Recovery is not an easy process. I still sometimes struggle with thoughts and fears and tbh I still follow a few ED rules, but I have come SO far. Much much further than I ever thought I could or would. This life is so flipping short and every day that God blesses us with is a GIFT. I am not perfect, but I am perfectly me and no one can take that away from me.

#prorecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #edrecovery #anorexiarecovery #strongnotskinny #strongwomen #inspiration #transformation #bodytransformation #mindtransformation #anawho #positivity #ed #realrecovery #fuckana #happy #edfam #edfighter #edwarrior #fearfood #selflove #bodypositive #bodypositivity #realrecovery #foodie #food #foodporn #weightrestored #weightrestoreddoesnotmeanfat #healthyweight
HEALTHY REALLY CAN MEAN HAPPY This exact day last year. Vs today. Picture 1: Hadn't genuinely laughed in over a year, still trying to loose weight to reach perfection, fainted when I had dessert put In front of me, screamed at my parents when they tried to make me eat (I'm sorry I love you), calculated every single calorie that I consumed to the point where I'd be up until 4am most nights calculating and re-calculating because I was so terrified of getting it wrong. The list could go on. Oh, not to mention my hair was falling out in clumps, I could have pretty much died at any minute and tbh I didn't care. Picture 2: HI MY NAME IS LYDS AND I FLIPPING LOVE LIFE. 💕💕💕 I love socialising and going to town, I love long phone calls with my friends, going on dates, going for meals out, playing games with my family, eating Nutella out of the pot for no other reason that why fucking not? I can think clearly, I can play music again, I can ice skate, I can dance and best of all I can love. I can really deeply love those around me in a way that I never could when I was ill. And I'm even starting to love myself x (getting there) x ------------------------------- Recovery is not an easy process. I still sometimes struggle with thoughts and fears and tbh I still follow a few ED rules, but I have come SO far. Much much further than I ever thought I could or would. This life is so flipping short and every day that God blesses us with is a GIFT. I am not perfect, but I am perfectly me and no one can take that away from me. #prorecovery  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #edrecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #strongnotskinny  #strongwomen  #inspiration  #transformation  #bodytransformation  #mindtransformation  #anawho  #positivity  #ed  #realrecovery  #fuckana  #happy  #edfam  #edfighter  #edwarrior  #fearfood  #selflove  #bodypositive  #bodypositivity  #realrecovery  #foodie  #food  #foodporn  #weightrestored  #weightrestoreddoesnotmeanfat  #healthyweight 
Just curious what your thoughts are? Are they simply always a no-no because the point is that we should not be measuring progress, success or failures on the shape of our bodies? Are they unequivocally  detrimental to people in recovery? Interested in your thoughts!
Just curious what your thoughts are? Are they simply always a no-no because the point is that we should not be measuring progress, success or failures on the shape of our bodies? Are they unequivocally detrimental to people in recovery? Interested in your thoughts!
Hi lovelies! 😊👋🏾 Sorry I’ve been gone a few days (although I doubt anyone noticed 😂) I haven’t had a very good week, lots of anxiety over various things but luckily I got several things figured out so I’m feeling better 💜 Today I’m having this gorgeous salad along with soup for any early dinner. Yum! Hope you are doing ok ❤️💜💚💙💛✨
Hi lovelies! 😊👋🏾 Sorry I’ve been gone a few days (although I doubt anyone noticed 😂) I haven’t had a very good week, lots of anxiety over various things but luckily I got several things figured out so I’m feeling better 💜 Today I’m having this gorgeous salad along with soup for any early dinner. Yum! Hope you are doing ok ❤️💜💚💙💛✨
So here are some drawings. I draw because it is an attempt to distract my feelings, not because I’m good at it at all💕😂🖌
So here are some drawings. I draw because it is an attempt to distract my feelings, not because I’m good at it at all💕😂🖌
Afternoon snack was a Vanilla Ice Cream sandwich. My stomach is not feeling any better, but I am pushing through💪🏼❤️-Viktoria
Afternoon snack was a Vanilla Ice Cream sandwich. My stomach is not feeling any better, but I am pushing through💪🏼❤️-Viktoria
Today's lunch! Did not finish all of it, had some leftovers. How are you feeling today? 😘😘😘😘😘😘😘 www.romysrealiteit.nl

#lunch#edrecovery#ed#recovery#edwarrior#edfighter#edfamily#foodporn#dinner#strength#recoverycommunity#eatingdisorders#beated#ana#anorexia#bulimia#depression#quotes#anxiety#awareness#advocacy#bingeeating#orthorexia#fighter#recovered#support#prorecovery#snow
#nightsnack while watching the last 2 episodes of „der club der roten Bänder“ 😢😞im really sad that it’s over now ... but I’m kinda happy too , cause it was so so so so helpful and beautiful 🙏🏼 one of the best series I’ve ever seen .
i took more oats and milk than it is in the „normal“ n‘oats cups 😊💪🏼🙈
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Vielen vielen Dank für diese tolle Serie . Dieses tolle schauspielern. Auch wenn ihr mich nicht kennt , habt ihr mir auf meinem Weg sehr gestärkt und geprägt , mut und das Gefühl nicht alleine zu sein gegeben .
Danke. 🙏🏼
@timolischu @damianhardung @timur_bartels @lubef @ivokortlang.official @nickjschuck
#nightsnack  while watching the last 2 episodes of „der club der roten Bänder“ 😢😞im really sad that it’s over now ... but I’m kinda happy too , cause it was so so so so helpful and beautiful 🙏🏼 one of the best series I’ve ever seen . i took more oats and milk than it is in the „normal“ n‘oats cups 😊💪🏼🙈 — Vielen vielen Dank für diese tolle Serie . Dieses tolle schauspielern. Auch wenn ihr mich nicht kennt , habt ihr mir auf meinem Weg sehr gestärkt und geprägt , mut und das Gefühl nicht alleine zu sein gegeben . Danke. 🙏🏼 @timolischu @damianhardung @timur_bartels @lubef @ivokortlang.official @nickjschuck