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What???? No peanut butter for breakfast?!! Ikr so unlike me😂 but today I was feeling a little savory so I decided to have a bagel egg spinach cheese sandwich along with a banana and cinnamon because I still have to have something sweet for breakfast😋 anyways happy Friday!! Hope you all have a good day! Today is going to be quite busy and the weekend is going to be full of last minute back to school prep and work🙄
 #anorexiarecovery #ed #edfree  #eattolive #edsoilder #edwarrior #edrecovery #edfamily #prorecovery #recovering #recoveryisworthit  #2fab4ana #balancednotclean  #foodisfuel #strong #strength #staystrong #strongnotskinny #strongisthenewskinny #nevergiveup
What???? No peanut butter for breakfast?!! Ikr so unlike me😂 but today I was feeling a little savory so I decided to have a bagel egg spinach cheese sandwich along with a banana and cinnamon because I still have to have something sweet for breakfast😋 anyways happy Friday!! Hope you all have a good day! Today is going to be quite busy and the weekend is going to be full of last minute back to school prep and work🙄 #anorexiarecovery  #ed  #edfree  #eattolive  #edsoilder  #edwarrior  #edrecovery  #edfamily  #prorecovery  #recovering  #recoveryisworthit  #2fab4ana  #balancednotclean  #foodisfuel  #strong  #strength  #staystrong  #strongnotskinny  #strongisthenewskinny  #nevergiveup 
I hate who I have become. 
This eating disorder has killed the real Ell. It has turned me into a liar. It has made me obsessive about food. It has made me be consumed with fear. It has taken over my whole world, sadly it is my world now. Everything revolves about food. 
What. What does it contain. 
When. When can I eat it. 
Where. Where will I eat it. 
As the years have gone on the behaviours have increased. The disorder changes in its intensity, but the behaviours stay the same. I wander supermarkets in daze. I eat. I compensate. I eat. I cry. I eat. I body check in the mirror and on the scales. I eat. I feel unworthy. 
I’m secretive. 
I’m obsessive. 
I’m out of control. 
My head screams that I’m not sick enough. My head will always scream I’m not sick enough. I could be led in a hospital bed with a feeding tube and my head would be screaming at me telling me that I’m not sick enough. That is the nature of the beast. My logic has left me. I cannot afford to spiral. I’m scared and I’m tired.
I hate who I have become. This eating disorder has killed the real Ell. It has turned me into a liar. It has made me obsessive about food. It has made me be consumed with fear. It has taken over my whole world, sadly it is my world now. Everything revolves about food. What. What does it contain. When. When can I eat it. Where. Where will I eat it. As the years have gone on the behaviours have increased. The disorder changes in its intensity, but the behaviours stay the same. I wander supermarkets in daze. I eat. I compensate. I eat. I cry. I eat. I body check in the mirror and on the scales. I eat. I feel unworthy. I’m secretive. I’m obsessive. I’m out of control. My head screams that I’m not sick enough. My head will always scream I’m not sick enough. I could be led in a hospital bed with a feeding tube and my head would be screaming at me telling me that I’m not sick enough. That is the nature of the beast. My logic has left me. I cannot afford to spiral. I’m scared and I’m tired.
From 2011 to 2017 and all the years to come, thank you for always being my perfect date for anything and everything. I love you more than all the stars in the galaxy. ✨💫
From 2011 to 2017 and all the years to come, thank you for always being my perfect date for anything and everything. I love you more than all the stars in the galaxy. ✨💫
Jeff trained me 17 years ago.
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I met Jeff when I was 60 pounds heavier, still binging and purging and undoubtedly depressed.
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He coached me for 3 months, helping me through one of my darkest times.  I remember us chatting about life, his current girlfriend and my struggles with food.
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“You’ll be okay kiddo.  Just hang in there and keep going.” He would say empathetically.
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I never saw him again until just a few years ago.
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I spotted him from afar at a local gym I train out of and I instantly knew it was Jeff.
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“Jeff, it’s Kim.  Remember me?  You trained me in 2000 at Crunch Fitness.” I smiled.
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“Hmmm...sorry, I don’t remember you.  Are you certain you trained with me because I always remember my clients and you don’t look familiar” he said hesitantly.
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“I’m positive!” I exclaimed. “I’ll bring you a picture tomorrow and it’ll jog your memory.”
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The next day I retuned with an old picture of myself, much heavier and dated June 21, 2000.  I handed it to Jeff and pointed at my face, “Now do you remember me?”
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“Ahhhhh.....yes, of course I remember you now Kim!” Jeff said with a smile. “Gosh, long time no see, huh?”
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Isn’t it fascinating how people can return in your life and come back full circle?  I feel everyone comes into our life to teach us a lesson, regardless is they’re there for a season or lifetime I love how life works that way.
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Do you have someone who’s popped back into your life after a long period of absence?  If so, how have you changed or what lessons have you learned since your last encounter with them?
Jeff trained me 17 years ago. . I met Jeff when I was 60 pounds heavier, still binging and purging and undoubtedly depressed. . He coached me for 3 months, helping me through one of my darkest times. I remember us chatting about life, his current girlfriend and my struggles with food. . “You’ll be okay kiddo. Just hang in there and keep going.” He would say empathetically. . I never saw him again until just a few years ago. . I spotted him from afar at a local gym I train out of and I instantly knew it was Jeff. . “Jeff, it’s Kim. Remember me? You trained me in 2000 at Crunch Fitness.” I smiled. . “Hmmm...sorry, I don’t remember you. Are you certain you trained with me because I always remember my clients and you don’t look familiar” he said hesitantly. . “I’m positive!” I exclaimed. “I’ll bring you a picture tomorrow and it’ll jog your memory.” . The next day I retuned with an old picture of myself, much heavier and dated June 21, 2000. I handed it to Jeff and pointed at my face, “Now do you remember me?” . “Ahhhhh.....yes, of course I remember you now Kim!” Jeff said with a smile. “Gosh, long time no see, huh?” . Isn’t it fascinating how people can return in your life and come back full circle? I feel everyone comes into our life to teach us a lesson, regardless is they’re there for a season or lifetime I love how life works that way. . Do you have someone who’s popped back into your life after a long period of absence? If so, how have you changed or what lessons have you learned since your last encounter with them?
I wasn't gonna have chocolate as anorexia was trying to convince me not to have it but i fought back and had a delicious bar of the classic diary milk along with a coconut yogurt and apple! Feeling guilty but its Christmas and chocolate is supposed to be enjoyed not feared! #chocolatechallenge #fearfoods #dairymilk #snack #afternoonsnack #ed #recovery #edrecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #ana #anarecovery #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #anorexianervosa #anorexianervosarecovery #foodisfuel #eatittobeatit #edwontwin #edwarrior #edsoilder #edfighter
I wasn't gonna have chocolate as anorexia was trying to convince me not to have it but i fought back and had a delicious bar of the classic diary milk along with a coconut yogurt and apple! Feeling guilty but its Christmas and chocolate is supposed to be enjoyed not feared! #chocolatechallenge  #fearfoods  #dairymilk  #snack  #afternoonsnack  #ed  #recovery  #edrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #ana  #anarecovery  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexianervosa  #anorexianervosarecovery  #foodisfuel  #eatittobeatit  #edwontwin  #edwarrior  #edsoilder  #edfighter 
She had this way about her
that all the girls envied
I remember when she arrived
as a sophomore in high school
I was already feeling old
compared to the freshmen
or as the guys called them,
“fresh meat”

It makes you wonder
if you are not “fresh”
are you old?

We teach our teens this meme
a poison one that has you hating
the inevitable
aging

It used to terrify me
but I am learning to be more accepting
of that which I cannot change

There are people
who spend their whole life trying
not to die
and those who wish they were
never born

As a young girl
I wished to be older
In my teens I wished to be 23
In my early twenties
I wished to have the body I had when I was 15
In my mid twenties
I wished to go back to when I was 8 and carefree
In my late twenties
I wished I was 18 and starting over

I was eager to turn 30
I loathed my twenties
and resented everyone
who told me these were the years
most fun and free

But when I turned 33
I freaked that I was closer to my mid thirties
than 30

And it became incredibly clear to me
how I was taught to compete
with my sisters
for youthful adoration

I noticed how I didn’t want to mention
I was over 30
I noticed how I was embarrassed
by the ripples on my thighs
I noticed how the lines around my eyes
stayed after I let go of a smile
I noticed how when I only got 5 hours of sleep
I felt like I was going to die
and how caffeine and pushing all the time
began to work less and less for me

And I noticed how scared I felt
that everything was changing again
It’s like when I was 16,
I hit puberty in what felt like a weekend
I was living in Spain
and I grew breasts and hips
so suddenly
It felt like I was living
in someone else’s body

I remember standing in front of the mirror
of my host family’s house
and crying
because I didn’t feel like I looked like me

I remember coming back to high school
I was in a dance company at the time
and dancing after my summer away
and feeling everything wiggle and jiggle
and looking at myself in the full wall mirror
in horror
as I realized I didn’t look like
what I thought a dancer
should look like
anymore

I started dieting soon thereafter
and for the next 10 years
I was up and down
See rest below 👇👇👇
She had this way about her that all the girls envied I remember when she arrived as a sophomore in high school I was already feeling old compared to the freshmen or as the guys called them, “fresh meat” It makes you wonder if you are not “fresh” are you old? We teach our teens this meme a poison one that has you hating the inevitable aging It used to terrify me but I am learning to be more accepting of that which I cannot change There are people who spend their whole life trying not to die and those who wish they were never born As a young girl I wished to be older In my teens I wished to be 23 In my early twenties I wished to have the body I had when I was 15 In my mid twenties I wished to go back to when I was 8 and carefree In my late twenties I wished I was 18 and starting over I was eager to turn 30 I loathed my twenties and resented everyone who told me these were the years most fun and free But when I turned 33 I freaked that I was closer to my mid thirties than 30 And it became incredibly clear to me how I was taught to compete with my sisters for youthful adoration I noticed how I didn’t want to mention I was over 30 I noticed how I was embarrassed by the ripples on my thighs I noticed how the lines around my eyes stayed after I let go of a smile I noticed how when I only got 5 hours of sleep I felt like I was going to die and how caffeine and pushing all the time began to work less and less for me And I noticed how scared I felt that everything was changing again It’s like when I was 16, I hit puberty in what felt like a weekend I was living in Spain and I grew breasts and hips so suddenly It felt like I was living in someone else’s body I remember standing in front of the mirror of my host family’s house and crying because I didn’t feel like I looked like me I remember coming back to high school I was in a dance company at the time and dancing after my summer away and feeling everything wiggle and jiggle and looking at myself in the full wall mirror in horror as I realized I didn’t look like what I thought a dancer should look like anymore I started dieting soon thereafter and for the next 10 years I was up and down See rest below 👇👇👇
No school today so immediately it's considered a good day. I started off my morning with a nice and easy 6 mile run, came back did some core and mobility work the I showered and heading off to brunch with my family. If you want to see what I got check my ig story. It was a lot of food😂 I mean I was absolutely starving and even the waiter was surprised I finished it all😳 yup this girl right here has a big appetite🤷🏻‍♀️ a few yours later though I got hungry again and I whipped up a yogurt bowl topped with banana, granola, a chocolate peanut butter @rxbar bar and @wild_friends classic peanut 🥜 butter😻👌🏼so yummy. Today was basically spent filling out scholarships because free money is cool and I don't want to spend the rest of my life paying or student loans 🙃 now I have to get ready to work from 7-11😫gosh I hate closing but whatevs. I hope you all have a wonderful weekend!
#anorexiarecovery #ed #edfree  #eattolive #edsoilder #edwarrior #edrecovery #edfamily #prorecovery #recovering #recoveryisworthit  #2fab4ana #balancednotclean  #foodisfuel #strong #strength #staystrong #strongnotskinny #strongisthenewskinny #nevergiveup
No school today so immediately it's considered a good day. I started off my morning with a nice and easy 6 mile run, came back did some core and mobility work the I showered and heading off to brunch with my family. If you want to see what I got check my ig story. It was a lot of food😂 I mean I was absolutely starving and even the waiter was surprised I finished it all😳 yup this girl right here has a big appetite🤷🏻‍♀️ a few yours later though I got hungry again and I whipped up a yogurt bowl topped with banana, granola, a chocolate peanut butter @rxbar bar and @wild_friends classic peanut 🥜 butter😻👌🏼so yummy. Today was basically spent filling out scholarships because free money is cool and I don't want to spend the rest of my life paying or student loans 🙃 now I have to get ready to work from 7-11😫gosh I hate closing but whatevs. I hope you all have a wonderful weekend! #anorexiarecovery  #ed  #edfree  #eattolive  #edsoilder  #edwarrior  #edrecovery  #edfamily  #prorecovery  #recovering  #recoveryisworthit  #2fab4ana  #balancednotclean  #foodisfuel  #strong  #strength  #staystrong  #strongnotskinny  #strongisthenewskinny  #nevergiveup 
Posting another #ringshot because, well I can 🤷🏻‍♀️ and also I mean #mightymac is in the back too 💍🌉❤️
Posting another #ringshot  because, well I can 🤷🏻‍♀️ and also I mean #mightymac  is in the back too 💍🌉❤️
Night snack is warmed up weetabix with maple syrup and chocolate 😋 
Its been a while since I've posted on here but I've been  kinda busy with personal projects and my online schooling.

#edrecovery #edwarrior #eatittobeatit #beatana #edfam #edfamily #anorexiarecovery #outpatient #edfighter #healthynothungry #healthynotskinny #nourishnotpunish #edsoilder
When I was a small child, I enjoyed peanut butter for breakfast.
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When I was a small child, I enjoyed toast for breakfast. White toast.
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When I got older, peanut butter became an 'absolutely not' food. "I don't like peanut butter," I would declare.
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When I got older, white bread became a binge food. It was an 'absolutely not food unless I can purge.'
"I can't eat white bread!" I spat, tears in my eyes, leg shaking.
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Today, I ate peanut butter. I enjoyed it.
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Today, I ate white toast. I enjoyed it.
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Today, I ate peanut butter toast. I enjoyed it and I hope that I can keep enjoying it.
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#edfam #adultswithed #mentalillness #recovery #againstana #anorexiarecovery #recovering #edrecovery #recoveryispossible #eatingdisorderrecovery #prorecovery #realrecovery #anorexiafighter #bulimia #bulimiarecovery #2fab4ana#recoveryisworthit #edcommunity #mentalhealthawareness #nourishnotpunish #edsoilder #fooddiary #foodisfuel #edsurvivor #staystrong #poem #recoverypoem
When I was a small child, I enjoyed peanut butter for breakfast. - When I was a small child, I enjoyed toast for breakfast. White toast. - When I got older, peanut butter became an 'absolutely not' food. "I don't like peanut butter," I would declare. - When I got older, white bread became a binge food. It was an 'absolutely not food unless I can purge.' "I can't eat white bread!" I spat, tears in my eyes, leg shaking. - Today, I ate peanut butter. I enjoyed it. - Today, I ate white toast. I enjoyed it. - Today, I ate peanut butter toast. I enjoyed it and I hope that I can keep enjoying it. - #edfam  #adultswithed  #mentalillness  #recovery  #againstana  #anorexiarecovery  #recovering  #edrecovery  #recoveryispossible  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #prorecovery  #realrecovery  #anorexiafighter  #bulimia  #bulimiarecovery  #2fab4ana #recoveryisworthit  #edcommunity  #mentalhealthawareness  #nourishnotpunish  #edsoilder  #fooddiary  #foodisfuel  #edsurvivor  #staystrong  #poem  #recoverypoem 
Haven't done a #transformationtuesday in a while ‼️ mostly that's because I'm just starting my true journey right now, but here there is about 6-7 week difference, with only 2 of those seriously tracking and lifting. Major changes? No. But definitely some, and it's only been a short period of time. Progress takes time. Change is a sometimes slow process. That's why it's important to love the journey rather than solely the destination. Not always easy, but something I'm working on daily💓
Haven't done a #transformationtuesday  in a while ‼️ mostly that's because I'm just starting my true journey right now, but here there is about 6-7 week difference, with only 2 of those seriously tracking and lifting. Major changes? No. But definitely some, and it's only been a short period of time. Progress takes time. Change is a sometimes slow process. That's why it's important to love the journey rather than solely the destination. Not always easy, but something I'm working on daily💓
I'm here
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I'm alive, I'm breathing, I'm surviving and I'm trying so hard to learn how to live.
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Hello, those who have stumbled upon this post.
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I'd like to keep my name private if that's all right, but I'd still like to share a little bit about my situation and why I am here:
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I unfortunately suffer from anorexia and have for quite awhile, though I am in recovery and am weight restored.
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I'm also living with five other mental illnesses and am living untreated (no therapy, meds, or anything of that sort) and it's starting to take a toll.
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Another unfortunate thing is that I live in the USA (Connecticut) and if you follow any type of news, then...well, you know...
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As of this upcoming Friday, it's a big possibility that I may no longer have health insurance, which means no access to mental healthcare or treatment and this is happening right when I was thinking of looking for a therapist.
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I'm absolutely gutted and don't know what to do and after being on recovery Tumblr for quite sometime, I decided to make the switch! My best mate and one of my old treatment flatmates, has an account on here, but I'm hoping I can keep it hidden. She doesn't know I have an ED.
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This post has been a little sad, so here's a fun fact: though I live in the US and have an American accent, I both speak and type in British-English pronunciation due to spending summers in Canada! 🇨🇦🇬🇧
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#edfam #recovery #againstana #anorexiarecovery #recovering #edrecovery #recoveryispossible #eatingdisorderrecovery #prorecovery #realrecovery #anorexiafighter #bulimia #bulimiarecovery #2fab4ana#recoveryisworthit #edcommunity #mentalhealthawareness #nourishnotpunish #edsoilder #fooddiary #foodisfuel #edsurvivor #staystrong #mentalhealth #firstpost #adultswithed
I'm here - I'm alive, I'm breathing, I'm surviving and I'm trying so hard to learn how to live. - Hello, those who have stumbled upon this post. - I'd like to keep my name private if that's all right, but I'd still like to share a little bit about my situation and why I am here: - I unfortunately suffer from anorexia and have for quite awhile, though I am in recovery and am weight restored. - I'm also living with five other mental illnesses and am living untreated (no therapy, meds, or anything of that sort) and it's starting to take a toll. - Another unfortunate thing is that I live in the USA (Connecticut) and if you follow any type of news, then...well, you know... - As of this upcoming Friday, it's a big possibility that I may no longer have health insurance, which means no access to mental healthcare or treatment and this is happening right when I was thinking of looking for a therapist. - I'm absolutely gutted and don't know what to do and after being on recovery Tumblr for quite sometime, I decided to make the switch! My best mate and one of my old treatment flatmates, has an account on here, but I'm hoping I can keep it hidden. She doesn't know I have an ED. - This post has been a little sad, so here's a fun fact: though I live in the US and have an American accent, I both speak and type in British-English pronunciation due to spending summers in Canada! 🇨🇦🇬🇧 - #edfam  #recovery  #againstana  #anorexiarecovery  #recovering  #edrecovery  #recoveryispossible  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #prorecovery  #realrecovery  #anorexiafighter  #bulimia  #bulimiarecovery  #2fab4ana #recoveryisworthit  #edcommunity  #mentalhealthawareness  #nourishnotpunish  #edsoilder  #fooddiary  #foodisfuel  #edsurvivor  #staystrong  #mentalhealth  #firstpost  #adultswithed 
Unfortunately it's not my quest bars getting me through finals but clif bars are the side hoe so I'll take the second  best 😁
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#recoverywarrior #anorexìarecovery #strongnotskinny #healthyoverskinny #fuckanorexia #fuckeatingdisorders #prorecovery #recovery #recoveryisworthit #foodisfuel #wewillrecover #fightforlife #edwarrior#edsoilder
I've grown up watching my mom crack her teeth on empty liquor bottles the same way my closest friends covered their wrists with long sleeves in the heat of May. I've watched my dad walk away from me and my brother to hide behind a third wife who ties anchors to others and let's them sink. Not to mention a stepdad who knows how to drive knives into hearts with the words that drip off his tounge.
I've closed my eyes and froze while I was held down and taken advantage of and felt a part of me die that same day. I hope that person knows I wanted to cut up every part of my skin so no one would ever touch me again. 
I've also nearly killed myself due to a mental illness that has lived with me throughout all of this.
But there's a point. You know? Where I woke up and decided I had the power to become stronger from my past and frankly, I love myself more often than not. Everything that's happened to me makes me who I am. That's what is beautiful. That's what makes people so special. Their life is theirs and they have the ability to do whatever they want with it whether that's good or bad.
I think that's why recovery is beautiful too. It's agonizing to fight this demonized part of you but if you don't then you wouldn't be able to experience what it's like to live. Just like if you hold onto your past it will eat you alive and you can't experience how amazing life can be. ✴️✴️✴️✴️✴️✴️✴️✴️✴️
#recoverywarrior #anorexìarecovery #strongnotskinny #healthyoverskinny #fuckanorexia #fuckeatingdisorders #prorecovery #recovery #recoveryisworthit #foodisfuel #wewillrecover #fightforlife #edwarrior#edsoilder
I've grown up watching my mom crack her teeth on empty liquor bottles the same way my closest friends covered their wrists with long sleeves in the heat of May. I've watched my dad walk away from me and my brother to hide behind a third wife who ties anchors to others and let's them sink. Not to mention a stepdad who knows how to drive knives into hearts with the words that drip off his tounge. I've closed my eyes and froze while I was held down and taken advantage of and felt a part of me die that same day. I hope that person knows I wanted to cut up every part of my skin so no one would ever touch me again. I've also nearly killed myself due to a mental illness that has lived with me throughout all of this. But there's a point. You know? Where I woke up and decided I had the power to become stronger from my past and frankly, I love myself more often than not. Everything that's happened to me makes me who I am. That's what is beautiful. That's what makes people so special. Their life is theirs and they have the ability to do whatever they want with it whether that's good or bad. I think that's why recovery is beautiful too. It's agonizing to fight this demonized part of you but if you don't then you wouldn't be able to experience what it's like to live. Just like if you hold onto your past it will eat you alive and you can't experience how amazing life can be. ✴️✴️✴️✴️✴️✴️✴️✴️✴️ #recoverywarrior  #anorexìarecovery  #strongnotskinny  #healthyoverskinny  #fuckanorexia  #fuckeatingdisorders  #prorecovery  #recovery  #recoveryisworthit  #foodisfuel  #wewillrecover  #fightforlife  #edwarrior #edsoilder 
From 2011 to 2017 and all the years to come, thank you for always being my perfect date for anything and everything. I love you more than all the stars in the galaxy. ✨💫
From 2011 to 2017 and all the years to come, thank you for always being my perfect date for anything and everything. I love you more than all the stars in the galaxy. ✨💫
This is something my friend told me a while ago and it's always good to look back on cuz it reminds me I'm not just my body and I have so much more to live for than just what my mind has me focus on at times.
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I have lived with anorexia since I was 11, that's seven years!! I've been out of treatment for 2 years and I'm still not recovered. That doesn't mean I'm not strong. That doesn't mean I'm anything less. I just have to try harder. My God, I've made tons of progress this year so that puts me one step closer to being healed. 
Today was one of those days I had to try really really hard. I battled my mind for hours on end trying to convince myself not to eat or that it was OK to eat.. just because I had more calories than usual doesn't mean I'm going to gain 5lbs overnight. Logically I know that but my mind is still healing so I'm blinded by that.
I feel ok. 100% OK that I won tonight and ate dinner.
Days like this are hard and they stick in my mind but I know I haven't done anything wrong. I am still beautiful. Eating doesn't make me less than human. If anything, eating makes me more human :)
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#recoverywarrior #anorexìarecovery #strongnotskinny #healthyoverskinny #fuckanorexia #fuckeatingdisorders #prorecovery #recovery #recoveryisworthit #foodisfuel #wewillrecover #fightforlife #edwarrior #edsoilder
This is something my friend told me a while ago and it's always good to look back on cuz it reminds me I'm not just my body and I have so much more to live for than just what my mind has me focus on at times. _________________ I have lived with anorexia since I was 11, that's seven years!! I've been out of treatment for 2 years and I'm still not recovered. That doesn't mean I'm not strong. That doesn't mean I'm anything less. I just have to try harder. My God, I've made tons of progress this year so that puts me one step closer to being healed. Today was one of those days I had to try really really hard. I battled my mind for hours on end trying to convince myself not to eat or that it was OK to eat.. just because I had more calories than usual doesn't mean I'm going to gain 5lbs overnight. Logically I know that but my mind is still healing so I'm blinded by that. I feel ok. 100% OK that I won tonight and ate dinner. Days like this are hard and they stick in my mind but I know I haven't done anything wrong. I am still beautiful. Eating doesn't make me less than human. If anything, eating makes me more human :) ✴️✴️✴️✴️✴️✴️✴️✴️✴️ #recoverywarrior  #anorexìarecovery  #strongnotskinny  #healthyoverskinny  #fuckanorexia  #fuckeatingdisorders  #prorecovery  #recovery  #recoveryisworthit  #foodisfuel  #wewillrecover  #fightforlife  #edwarrior  #edsoilder 
Hullo, sweetpeas! 😊
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I'm enjoying a caramel latte as it's gotten very, very chilly. ☕❄❄
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I have nothing positive to say right now, nor do I have the energy to type it all, but things are hard, right now. 😔
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#edfam #recovery #againstana #anorexiarecovery #recovering #edrecovery #recoveryispossible #eatingdisorderrecovery #prorecovery #realrecovery #anorexiafighter #bulimia #bulimiarecovery #2fab4ana#recoveryisworthit #edcommunity #mentalhealthawareness #nourishnotpunish #edsoilder #fooddiary #foodisfuel #edsurvivor #staystrong
Hullo, sweetpeas! 😊 - I'm enjoying a caramel latte as it's gotten very, very chilly. ☕❄❄ - I have nothing positive to say right now, nor do I have the energy to type it all, but things are hard, right now. 😔 - #edfam  #recovery  #againstana  #anorexiarecovery  #recovering  #edrecovery  #recoveryispossible  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #prorecovery  #realrecovery  #anorexiafighter  #bulimia  #bulimiarecovery  #2fab4ana #recoveryisworthit  #edcommunity  #mentalhealthawareness  #nourishnotpunish  #edsoilder  #fooddiary  #foodisfuel  #edsurvivor  #staystrong 
I finally got a Sunday off hurray! So my family and I went out to brunch and I got these gigantic but delicious cinnamon streusel pancakes later drizzled with maple 🍁 syrup👌🏼 soo yummy! After my sister and I headed to the mall and guys I finally got an ugly Christmas sweater!🎄😂 I've always wanted one and I got one at forever 21 for 12 bucks!! Haha just switch those numbers around😉 now I'm home and I'm debating whether to go see Joywave later or not?🤔 I love their  music but they don't perform until 10pm meaning I won't get home until midnight and I have to go to school tomorrow 🙄#anorexiarecovery #ed #edfree  #eattolive #edsoilder #edwarrior #edrecovery #edfamily #prorecovery #recovering #recoveryisworthit  #2fab4ana #balancednotclean  #foodisfuel #strong #strength #staystrong #strongnotskinny #strongisthenewskinny #nevergiveup
I finally got a Sunday off hurray! So my family and I went out to brunch and I got these gigantic but delicious cinnamon streusel pancakes later drizzled with maple 🍁 syrup👌🏼 soo yummy! After my sister and I headed to the mall and guys I finally got an ugly Christmas sweater!🎄😂 I've always wanted one and I got one at forever 21 for 12 bucks!! Haha just switch those numbers around😉 now I'm home and I'm debating whether to go see Joywave later or not?🤔 I love their music but they don't perform until 10pm meaning I won't get home until midnight and I have to go to school tomorrow 🙄#anorexiarecovery  #ed  #edfree  #eattolive  #edsoilder  #edwarrior  #edrecovery  #edfamily  #prorecovery  #recovering  #recoveryisworthit  #2fab4ana  #balancednotclean  #foodisfuel  #strong  #strength  #staystrong  #strongnotskinny  #strongisthenewskinny  #nevergiveup 
If yogurt isn't running through my veins by the time I die I'm going to be very disappointed in myself 😂
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I wasn't gonna have chocolate as anorexia was trying to convince me not to have it but i fought back and had a delicious bar of the classic diary milk along with a coconut yogurt and apple! Feeling guilty but its Christmas and chocolate is supposed to be enjoyed not feared! #chocolatechallenge #fearfoods #dairymilk #snack #afternoonsnack #ed #recovery #edrecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #ana #anarecovery #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #anorexianervosa #anorexianervosarecovery #foodisfuel #eatittobeatit #edwontwin #edwarrior #edsoilder #edfighter
I wasn't gonna have chocolate as anorexia was trying to convince me not to have it but i fought back and had a delicious bar of the classic diary milk along with a coconut yogurt and apple! Feeling guilty but its Christmas and chocolate is supposed to be enjoyed not feared! #chocolatechallenge  #fearfoods  #dairymilk  #snack  #afternoonsnack  #ed  #recovery  #edrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #ana  #anarecovery  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexianervosa  #anorexianervosarecovery  #foodisfuel  #eatittobeatit  #edwontwin  #edwarrior  #edsoilder  #edfighter 
Posting another #ringshot because, well I can 🤷🏻‍♀️ and also I mean #mightymac is in the back too 💍🌉❤️
Posting another #ringshot  because, well I can 🤷🏻‍♀️ and also I mean #mightymac  is in the back too 💍🌉❤️
*old pic but new mindset*
I got in the bathtub today with a bath bomb to relax.
To be honest I was terrified.
I had just eaten a lot of icecream and I didn't know how I would react to my naked body  at that moment.
Yes, I was bloated, but I wasn't overwhelmed.
I felt my skin.. It was soft and looked healthy .
I looked at my nails that no longer looked brittle like they once did. 
I looked at my beautiful tattoos and remembered the purpose of them. 
I looked at my piercings which add more character to me. 
I traced over my self harm scars and thanked myself for not making any new ones for the last two years. 
I didn't feel hatred for my body or myself.
I felt acceptance. 
I felt grateful for being alive and making the choice to take care of myself.
I've made a lot of progress and I'm very proud of myself ✴️✴️✴️✴️✴️✴️✴️
#recoverywarrior #anorexìarecovery #strongnotskinny #healthyoverskinny #fuckanorexia #fuckeatingdisorders #prorecovery #recovery #recoveryisworthit #foodisfuel #wewillrecover #fightforlife #edwarrior#edsoilder
*old pic but new mindset* I got in the bathtub today with a bath bomb to relax. To be honest I was terrified. I had just eaten a lot of icecream and I didn't know how I would react to my naked body at that moment. Yes, I was bloated, but I wasn't overwhelmed. I felt my skin.. It was soft and looked healthy . I looked at my nails that no longer looked brittle like they once did. I looked at my beautiful tattoos and remembered the purpose of them. I looked at my piercings which add more character to me. I traced over my self harm scars and thanked myself for not making any new ones for the last two years. I didn't feel hatred for my body or myself. I felt acceptance. I felt grateful for being alive and making the choice to take care of myself. I've made a lot of progress and I'm very proud of myself ✴️✴️✴️✴️✴️✴️✴️ #recoverywarrior  #anorexìarecovery  #strongnotskinny  #healthyoverskinny  #fuckanorexia  #fuckeatingdisorders  #prorecovery  #recovery  #recoveryisworthit  #foodisfuel  #wewillrecover  #fightforlife  #edwarrior #edsoilder 
AAA #recoverywin I had a latte and they have become a fear lately ebcause of liquid calories but we were walking around downtown and I was cold so I needed one! 
#edrecovery #edwarrior #eatittobeatit #beatana #edfam #edfamily #anorexiarecovery #outpatient #edfighter #healthynothungry #healthynotskinny #nourishnotpunish #edsoilder
Happy Saturday everyone! Today I started off my morning with a bowl of deliciousness😻 deets👉🏼 yogurt, granola, banana, cinnamon apples and oh a tiny spoonful of peanut butter😉 I just love it so much! Now I'm about to head to work, it's an 8 hour shift🙄 but I have to make money now that it's the holiday season🎄so I'll stop complaining and just go and suck it up🙃 hope you all have a wonderful weekend!#anorexiarecovery #ed #edfree  #eattolive #edsoilder #edwarrior #edrecovery #edfamily #prorecovery #recovering #recoveryisworthit  #2fab4ana #balancednotclean  #foodisfuel #strong #strength #staystrong #strongnotskinny #strongisthenewskinny #nevergiveup
Happy Saturday everyone! Today I started off my morning with a bowl of deliciousness😻 deets👉🏼 yogurt, granola, banana, cinnamon apples and oh a tiny spoonful of peanut butter😉 I just love it so much! Now I'm about to head to work, it's an 8 hour shift🙄 but I have to make money now that it's the holiday season🎄so I'll stop complaining and just go and suck it up🙃 hope you all have a wonderful weekend!#anorexiarecovery  #ed  #edfree  #eattolive  #edsoilder  #edwarrior  #edrecovery  #edfamily  #prorecovery  #recovering  #recoveryisworthit  #2fab4ana  #balancednotclean  #foodisfuel  #strong  #strength  #staystrong  #strongnotskinny  #strongisthenewskinny  #nevergiveup 
Hullo, sweetpeas! 😊
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Starting my day off with some chips because why not?
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I'm still having a hard time...
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I was able to get into my computer, but some of my keys don't work or perform the wrong actions. So, I can't really do anything on it. 😔
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Because I spilled a latte, I'm going to have to get it fixed and soon or the milk inside will spoil and mold and I'll have to get a new laptop which I can't afford, right now.
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A laptop is a need for me because it has all my stuff on it, including my resume.
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Also, I forgot to post about this, but a couple of weeks ago, my mum and I had a very had conversation, where she admitted that she has no expectations of me because I have "every mental illness known to man." And she also said that I'm too stressful and it's just so hard for me to hear.
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I don't know. I'm gonna try and find a computer repair shop, this weekend because I really don't want a new computer and I am unable to get one.
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This computer needs to get fixed.
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#edfam #recovery #againstana #anorexiarecovery #recovering #edrecovery #recoveryispossible #eatingdisorderrecovery #prorecovery #realrecovery #anorexiafighter #bulimia #bulimiarecovery #2fab4ana#recoveryisworthit #edcommunity #mentalhealthawareness #nourishnotpunish #edsoilder #fooddiary #foodisfuel #edsurvivor #staystrong
Hullo, sweetpeas! 😊 - Starting my day off with some chips because why not? - I'm still having a hard time... - I was able to get into my computer, but some of my keys don't work or perform the wrong actions. So, I can't really do anything on it. 😔 - Because I spilled a latte, I'm going to have to get it fixed and soon or the milk inside will spoil and mold and I'll have to get a new laptop which I can't afford, right now. - A laptop is a need for me because it has all my stuff on it, including my resume. - Also, I forgot to post about this, but a couple of weeks ago, my mum and I had a very had conversation, where she admitted that she has no expectations of me because I have "every mental illness known to man." And she also said that I'm too stressful and it's just so hard for me to hear. - I don't know. I'm gonna try and find a computer repair shop, this weekend because I really don't want a new computer and I am unable to get one. - This computer needs to get fixed. - #edfam  #recovery  #againstana  #anorexiarecovery  #recovering  #edrecovery  #recoveryispossible  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #prorecovery  #realrecovery  #anorexiafighter  #bulimia  #bulimiarecovery  #2fab4ana #recoveryisworthit  #edcommunity  #mentalhealthawareness  #nourishnotpunish  #edsoilder  #fooddiary  #foodisfuel  #edsurvivor  #staystrong 
Because bubbles and snowflakes just work ❄️✨ #bubblebath #nailsoftheday #lushie
It's Friday!!! Last day of classes!! I'm so ready :)
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#recoverywarrior #anorexìarecovery #strongnotskinny #healthyoverskinny #fuckanorexia #fuckeatingdisorders #prorecovery #recovery #recoveryisworthit #foodisfuel #wewillrecover #fightforlife #edwarrior #edsoilder
I hate who I have become. 
This eating disorder has killed the real Ell. It has turned me into a liar. It has made me obsessive about food. It has made me be consumed with fear. It has taken over my whole world, sadly it is my world now. Everything revolves about food. 
What. What does it contain. 
When. When can I eat it. 
Where. Where will I eat it. 
As the years have gone on the behaviours have increased. The disorder changes in its intensity, but the behaviours stay the same. I wander supermarkets in daze. I eat. I compensate. I eat. I cry. I eat. I body check in the mirror and on the scales. I eat. I feel unworthy. 
I’m secretive. 
I’m obsessive. 
I’m out of control. 
My head screams that I’m not sick enough. My head will always scream I’m not sick enough. I could be led in a hospital bed with a feeding tube and my head would be screaming at me telling me that I’m not sick enough. That is the nature of the beast. My logic has left me. I cannot afford to spiral. I’m scared and I’m tired.
I hate who I have become. This eating disorder has killed the real Ell. It has turned me into a liar. It has made me obsessive about food. It has made me be consumed with fear. It has taken over my whole world, sadly it is my world now. Everything revolves about food. What. What does it contain. When. When can I eat it. Where. Where will I eat it. As the years have gone on the behaviours have increased. The disorder changes in its intensity, but the behaviours stay the same. I wander supermarkets in daze. I eat. I compensate. I eat. I cry. I eat. I body check in the mirror and on the scales. I eat. I feel unworthy. I’m secretive. I’m obsessive. I’m out of control. My head screams that I’m not sick enough. My head will always scream I’m not sick enough. I could be led in a hospital bed with a feeding tube and my head would be screaming at me telling me that I’m not sick enough. That is the nature of the beast. My logic has left me. I cannot afford to spiral. I’m scared and I’m tired.
Sometimes we must learn to look at life a little weird. We must go to the odd side, the weird side, be the abnormal, for us to find our “normal” #dontbeafraid to #beyourselfalways
Sometimes we must learn to look at life a little weird. We must go to the odd side, the weird side, be the abnormal, for us to find our “normal” #dontbeafraid  to #beyourselfalways 
Hullo, sweetpeas! 😊
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For dinner, tonight, I had clam chowder with garlic salt, pepper, and loads of shredded cheese mixed in! 🍲🧀
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I'm feeling very stressed out and depressed. 😕
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My mum's hernia isn't feeling better even though she's taking the medication, but she can't afford to go back to the doctor. And she says she's depressed and stressed out.
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I don't know what I'm going to do if something happens to her. I'm feeling suicidal and regret eating what I did, today. 😔😔
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I need some support.
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#edfam #recovery #againstana #anorexiarecovery #recovering #edrecovery #recoveryispossible #eatingdisorderrecovery #prorecovery #realrecovery #anorexiafighter #bulimia #bulimiarecovery #2fab4ana#recoveryisworthit #edcommunity #mentalhealthawareness #nourishnotpunish #edsoilder #fooddiary #foodisfuel #edsurvivor #staystrong
Hullo, sweetpeas! 😊 - For dinner, tonight, I had clam chowder with garlic salt, pepper, and loads of shredded cheese mixed in! 🍲🧀 - I'm feeling very stressed out and depressed. 😕 - My mum's hernia isn't feeling better even though she's taking the medication, but she can't afford to go back to the doctor. And she says she's depressed and stressed out. - I don't know what I'm going to do if something happens to her. I'm feeling suicidal and regret eating what I did, today. 😔😔 - I need some support. - #edfam  #recovery  #againstana  #anorexiarecovery  #recovering  #edrecovery  #recoveryispossible  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #prorecovery  #realrecovery  #anorexiafighter  #bulimia  #bulimiarecovery  #2fab4ana #recoveryisworthit  #edcommunity  #mentalhealthawareness  #nourishnotpunish  #edsoilder  #fooddiary  #foodisfuel  #edsurvivor  #staystrong 
I feel like I want to drop out of college. I ask myself is extra schooling really what I need? Like what other way could I be spending my time. Am I missing out on opportunities by being here?
Like is this just me or does every college student feel like this?
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#recoverywarrior #anorexìarecovery #strongnotskinny #healthyoverskinny #fuckanorexia #fuckeatingdisorders #prorecovery #recovery #recoveryisworthit #foodisfuel #wewillrecover #fightforlife #edwarrior #edsoilder
I feel like I want to drop out of college. I ask myself is extra schooling really what I need? Like what other way could I be spending my time. Am I missing out on opportunities by being here? Like is this just me or does every college student feel like this? ✴️✴️✴️✴️✴️✴️✴️ #recoverywarrior  #anorexìarecovery  #strongnotskinny  #healthyoverskinny  #fuckanorexia  #fuckeatingdisorders  #prorecovery  #recovery  #recoveryisworthit  #foodisfuel  #wewillrecover  #fightforlife  #edwarrior  #edsoilder 
So so sorry for not posting regularly on here. I've been supper busy with work and school and to make things even busier we moved and finally just got settled in. Let me tell you moving is so stressful and tiring and getting 35 hours of work just physically and mentally drains you. But this week I only got 30 so it will be a little more manageable😅 anyways this was my breakfast this morning👉🏼 @siggisdairy yogurt, mixed with banana, cinnamon, granola and topped with banana bread, more banana, granola and a big spoonful of @wild_friends chocolate coconut peanut butter 😻😻 soo yummy! I promise I'll try to post more often and keep you guys all updated from now on❤️
#anorexiarecovery #ed #edfree  #eattolive #edsoilder #edwarrior #edrecovery #edfamily #prorecovery #recovering #recoveryisworthit  #2fab4ana #balancednotclean  #foodisfuel #strong #strength #staystrong #strongnotskinny #strongisthenewskinny #nevergiveup
So so sorry for not posting regularly on here. I've been supper busy with work and school and to make things even busier we moved and finally just got settled in. Let me tell you moving is so stressful and tiring and getting 35 hours of work just physically and mentally drains you. But this week I only got 30 so it will be a little more manageable😅 anyways this was my breakfast this morning👉🏼 @siggisdairy yogurt, mixed with banana, cinnamon, granola and topped with banana bread, more banana, granola and a big spoonful of @wild_friends chocolate coconut peanut butter 😻😻 soo yummy! I promise I'll try to post more often and keep you guys all updated from now on❤️ #anorexiarecovery  #ed  #edfree  #eattolive  #edsoilder  #edwarrior  #edrecovery  #edfamily  #prorecovery  #recovering  #recoveryisworthit  #2fab4ana  #balancednotclean  #foodisfuel  #strong  #strength  #staystrong  #strongnotskinny  #strongisthenewskinny  #nevergiveup 
Beans are honestly one of my favorite forms of protien! Okay now that I got that out of the way.. Today is Monday and we have reached the final stretch of this semester! I can't wait to get this over with the stress is going through the roof already because math is a bitch so we will see how that turns out! Other than that I am ready! ✴️✴️✴️✴️✴️✴️✴️
#recoverywarrior #anorexìarecovery #strongnotskinny #healthyoverskinny #fuckanorexia #fuckeatingdisorders #prorecovery #recovery #recoveryisworthit #foodisfuel #wewillrecover #fightforlife #edwarrior #edsoilder
Beans are honestly one of my favorite forms of protien! Okay now that I got that out of the way.. Today is Monday and we have reached the final stretch of this semester! I can't wait to get this over with the stress is going through the roof already because math is a bitch so we will see how that turns out! Other than that I am ready! ✴️✴️✴️✴️✴️✴️✴️ #recoverywarrior  #anorexìarecovery  #strongnotskinny  #healthyoverskinny  #fuckanorexia  #fuckeatingdisorders  #prorecovery  #recovery  #recoveryisworthit  #foodisfuel  #wewillrecover  #fightforlife  #edwarrior  #edsoilder 
Hullo, sweetpeas! 😊
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Guess what this is!? A CARAMEL LATTE!! 😍😍☕
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I haven't had one of these in forever because I could never find a market that stocked them, but over the weekend, I did and it's just as delicious as I remember!
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I'm still waiting on that email and it's such good news (I hope), but I want to wait until it's official before I share.
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#edfam #recovery #againstana #anorexiarecovery #recovering #edrecovery #recoveryispossible #eatingdisorderrecovery #prorecovery #realrecovery #anorexiafighter #bulimia #bulimiarecovery #2fab4ana#recoveryisworthit #edcommunity #mentalhealthawareness #nourishnotpunish #edsoilder #fooddiary #foodisfuel #edsurvivor #staystrong
Hullo, sweetpeas! 😊 - Guess what this is!? A CARAMEL LATTE!! 😍😍☕ - I haven't had one of these in forever because I could never find a market that stocked them, but over the weekend, I did and it's just as delicious as I remember! - I'm still waiting on that email and it's such good news (I hope), but I want to wait until it's official before I share. - #edfam  #recovery  #againstana  #anorexiarecovery  #recovering  #edrecovery  #recoveryispossible  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #prorecovery  #realrecovery  #anorexiafighter  #bulimia  #bulimiarecovery  #2fab4ana #recoveryisworthit  #edcommunity  #mentalhealthawareness  #nourishnotpunish  #edsoilder  #fooddiary  #foodisfuel  #edsurvivor  #staystrong 
Sorry I have in M.I.A for the past few days, My husband and I have been moving into our new house.  This is a snap of the pool looks so peaceful and inviting.

#newhouse #newhousefeels #moving #movingsucks #pool #eatingissues #eatingdisorderrecovery #empowerment #edfamilyrecovery #edfamiliy #swimming #calm #vulnerability #edsoilder #edsoilders #movingforward #mentalhealthwarrior #mentalillness #mentalhealth
Guys. I have a confession to make....
Chobani is the love of my life 😂
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#recoverywarrior #anorexìarecovery #strongnotskinny #healthyoverskinny #fuckanorexia #fuckeatingdisorders #prorecovery #recovery #recoveryisworthit #foodisfuel #wewillrecover #fightforlife #edwarrior #edsoilder
Huge challenge to mark my 1000th post which i hit the other day! Choc brownie Mars bar!!!!! Apple and a coconut yogurt! Feel mega guilty but it was one of the tastiest chocolate bars I've ever had! Fuck you ana! #chocolatechallenge #fearfoods #snack #afternoonsnack #ana #anarecovery #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #anorexianervosa #anorexianerovsarecovery #ed #recovery #edrecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #foodisfuel #eatittobeatit #edwontwin #edwarrior #edsoilder #edfighter
Huge challenge to mark my 1000th post which i hit the other day! Choc brownie Mars bar!!!!! Apple and a coconut yogurt! Feel mega guilty but it was one of the tastiest chocolate bars I've ever had! Fuck you ana! #chocolatechallenge  #fearfoods  #snack  #afternoonsnack  #ana  #anarecovery  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexianervosa  #anorexianerovsarecovery  #ed  #recovery  #edrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #foodisfuel  #eatittobeatit  #edwontwin  #edwarrior  #edsoilder  #edfighter 
Hullo, sweetpeas! 😊
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Again, sorry for not posting, but depression sleep is real.
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This morning, I went to brunch with my family! Not to worry, I had much more than this, but before I went to brunch, I had already eaten breakfast and had a latte. 🙊🙊
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I'm waiting very impatiently for an email to arrive and very anxious. So, I hope it comes soon!
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#edfam #recovery #againstana #anorexiarecovery #recovering #edrecovery #recoveryispossible #eatingdisorderrecovery #prorecovery #realrecovery #anorexiafighter #bulimia #bulimiarecovery #2fab4ana#recoveryisworthit #edcommunity #mentalhealthawareness #nourishnotpunish #edsoilder #fooddiary #foodisfuel #edsurvivor #staystrong
Hullo, sweetpeas! 😊 - Again, sorry for not posting, but depression sleep is real. - This morning, I went to brunch with my family! Not to worry, I had much more than this, but before I went to brunch, I had already eaten breakfast and had a latte. 🙊🙊 - I'm waiting very impatiently for an email to arrive and very anxious. So, I hope it comes soon! - #edfam  #recovery  #againstana  #anorexiarecovery  #recovering  #edrecovery  #recoveryispossible  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #prorecovery  #realrecovery  #anorexiafighter  #bulimia  #bulimiarecovery  #2fab4ana #recoveryisworthit  #edcommunity  #mentalhealthawareness  #nourishnotpunish  #edsoilder  #fooddiary  #foodisfuel  #edsurvivor  #staystrong 
There's this strive to be thin you know? It's like following all these diets and exercising constantly, getting so sucked into social media wishing your body looked like 'that' person.
Everytime you eat what you crave, adding on a few extra calories you swear to God you can feel it crawling up to your waist line.
It shreds every ounce of freedom we know when we're young. The fun is taken out of birthdays and holidays because we tell ourselves we can't indulge.
Before we know it we're lost in numbers and we no longer define ourselves by the amount of life we have left in us.
We obsess over our bodies In the mirror and cry in the shower, grabbing our stomachs and asking why we ate that extra bit of food.
We ask why we're human. Like it's some sort of curse to live in our own skin.
That cycle never ends until we decide we don't wanna be miserable. We have to live and fight for us as a person. 
Numbers will never make us happy.
Numbers don't tell us our worth, talents, or how much our family loves us. 
You will always be worth more than any scale will have the ability to define.
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#recoverywarrior #anorexìarecovery #strongnotskinny #healthyoverskinny #fuckanorexia #fuckeatingdisorders #prorecovery #recovery #recoveryisworthit #foodisfuel #wewillrecover #fightforlife #edwarrior #edsoilder
There's this strive to be thin you know? It's like following all these diets and exercising constantly, getting so sucked into social media wishing your body looked like 'that' person. Everytime you eat what you crave, adding on a few extra calories you swear to God you can feel it crawling up to your waist line. It shreds every ounce of freedom we know when we're young. The fun is taken out of birthdays and holidays because we tell ourselves we can't indulge. Before we know it we're lost in numbers and we no longer define ourselves by the amount of life we have left in us. We obsess over our bodies In the mirror and cry in the shower, grabbing our stomachs and asking why we ate that extra bit of food. We ask why we're human. Like it's some sort of curse to live in our own skin. That cycle never ends until we decide we don't wanna be miserable. We have to live and fight for us as a person. Numbers will never make us happy. Numbers don't tell us our worth, talents, or how much our family loves us. You will always be worth more than any scale will have the ability to define. ✴️✴️✴️✴️✴️✴️✴️✴️✴️✴️✴️✴️ #recoverywarrior  #anorexìarecovery  #strongnotskinny  #healthyoverskinny  #fuckanorexia  #fuckeatingdisorders  #prorecovery  #recovery  #recoveryisworthit  #foodisfuel  #wewillrecover  #fightforlife  #edwarrior  #edsoilder 
I walked into Jamba juice planning to get a smoothie and I walked out with a Greek yogurt bowl 😂
Alright tell me if this weird. One of the guys I kinda had a thing with stopped talking to me (again -_-) last night his friend hit me up and I was like.. Ok? Then I go on SC and the guy I like had his friend and him chilling on his story! So why the fuck is his friend talking to me while they are hanging out at that very moment!! I was very mindfucked 😂
Anyway, today is Thursday! Meaning tomorrow is Friday! Let's kick some ass today :)
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#recoverywarrior #anorexìarecovery #strongnotskinny #healthyoverskinny #fuckanorexia #fuckeatingdisorders #prorecovery #recovery #recoveryisworthit #foodisfuel #wewillrecover #fightforlife #edwarrior #edsoilder
I walked into Jamba juice planning to get a smoothie and I walked out with a Greek yogurt bowl 😂 Alright tell me if this weird. One of the guys I kinda had a thing with stopped talking to me (again -_-) last night his friend hit me up and I was like.. Ok? Then I go on SC and the guy I like had his friend and him chilling on his story! So why the fuck is his friend talking to me while they are hanging out at that very moment!! I was very mindfucked 😂 Anyway, today is Thursday! Meaning tomorrow is Friday! Let's kick some ass today :) ✴️✴️✴️✴️✴️✴️✴️✴️ #recoverywarrior  #anorexìarecovery  #strongnotskinny  #healthyoverskinny  #fuckanorexia  #fuckeatingdisorders  #prorecovery  #recovery  #recoveryisworthit  #foodisfuel  #wewillrecover  #fightforlife  #edwarrior  #edsoilder 
I took an adventure to best buy today but made no progress with fixing my laptop soo library it is for the next two weeks!!
I also figured out I just need to walk down a main road to get stopped and talked to by random dudes and get told I'm pretty by random girls 😁
My roomate got me sick so I'm pissed about that but on the bright side I got my homework done for the week and satisfied my cravings tonight regardless of the voice telling me I'm too big and don't need to eat anymore
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#recoverywarrior #anorexìarecovery #strongnotskinny #healthyoverskinny #fuckanorexia #fuckeatingdisorders #prorecovery #recovery #recoveryisworthit #foodisfuel #wewillrecover #fightforlife #edwarrior#edsoilder
I took an adventure to best buy today but made no progress with fixing my laptop soo library it is for the next two weeks!! I also figured out I just need to walk down a main road to get stopped and talked to by random dudes and get told I'm pretty by random girls 😁 My roomate got me sick so I'm pissed about that but on the bright side I got my homework done for the week and satisfied my cravings tonight regardless of the voice telling me I'm too big and don't need to eat anymore ✴️✴️✴️✴️✴️✴️✴️✴️ #recoverywarrior  #anorexìarecovery  #strongnotskinny  #healthyoverskinny  #fuckanorexia  #fuckeatingdisorders  #prorecovery  #recovery  #recoveryisworthit  #foodisfuel  #wewillrecover  #fightforlife  #edwarrior #edsoilder 
@jeffreestar #holidaycollection is on point as is my #holidaynails 💋💅🏼💄
Buon pomeriggio bellezze! ❤️ come è andata la mattinata? A me solito, ho studiato 📚📖 davvero tanto.  Oggi super pranzetto che adoro:• 125 gr di ravioli ricotta e spinaci conditi con il Philadelphia 🧀 ragazze erano buonissimi 😍😍 ho mangiato davvero di gusto 😋• una bella fetta di pandoro che come sapete adoro e nel periodo natalizio non può mancare anche si mi fa venire molti pensieri 💭. In questo momento comunque mi sento molto positiva 🔝⬆️, per la prima volta in assoluto dopo mesi e mesi avevo fame 🎉 e ho mangiato davvero molto volentieri 😍. Ora vi lascio che devo finire di studiare 📚📖 e poi vado in centro a comprare dei regalini 🛍🎁 per alcuni compleanni che ho nei prossimi giorni 🎈. Ci sentiamo stasera 🔜. BUON POMERIGGIO ❤️. #anorexia #anoressia #anoressiaitalia #anoressianervosa #anorexianervosa #anorexiaitalia #ed #edfamily #edwarrior #edsoilder #dca #diarioalimentare #lunch #lunchtime #winner #vittoria #passiavanti #ravioli #philadelphia #pandoro #skinny #skinnygirl #thinkpositive
Buon pomeriggio bellezze! ❤️ come è andata la mattinata? A me solito, ho studiato 📚📖 davvero tanto. Oggi super pranzetto che adoro:• 125 gr di ravioli ricotta e spinaci conditi con il Philadelphia 🧀 ragazze erano buonissimi 😍😍 ho mangiato davvero di gusto 😋• una bella fetta di pandoro che come sapete adoro e nel periodo natalizio non può mancare anche si mi fa venire molti pensieri 💭. In questo momento comunque mi sento molto positiva 🔝⬆️, per la prima volta in assoluto dopo mesi e mesi avevo fame 🎉 e ho mangiato davvero molto volentieri 😍. Ora vi lascio che devo finire di studiare 📚📖 e poi vado in centro a comprare dei regalini 🛍🎁 per alcuni compleanni che ho nei prossimi giorni 🎈. Ci sentiamo stasera 🔜. BUON POMERIGGIO ❤️. #anorexia  #anoressia  #anoressiaitalia  #anoressianervosa  #anorexianervosa  #anorexiaitalia  #ed  #edfamily  #edwarrior  #edsoilder  #dca  #diarioalimentare  #lunch  #lunchtime  #winner  #vittoria  #passiavanti  #ravioli  #philadelphia  #pandoro  #skinny  #skinnygirl  #thinkpositive