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The different between like, love and in love is the same difference between 'for now', 'for a while' and 'forever' 🌿💕
The different between like, love and in love is the same difference between 'for now', 'for a while' and 'forever' 🌿💕
Had to buy #lunch on the go, so this is what I chose. Chicken & bacon sandwich, adorable mini-cucumbers and an ice cappuccino. This would have been a nightmare to me in the past 😄 Choosing food in a hurry and eating it on the go in public.
Had to buy #lunch  on the go, so this is what I chose. Chicken & bacon sandwich, adorable mini-cucumbers and an ice cappuccino. This would have been a nightmare to me in the past 😄 Choosing food in a hurry and eating it on the go in public.
Breakfast - bowl of chocolate shreddies with milk! 
Up early this morning double checking absolutely everything. Does anyone else panic and convince themselves they’ve forgotten to pack something essential when heading away?
Going to spend my morning triple checking everything and going over interview questions. 
I have weigh in and therapy at 2pm but I’m feeling positive!
Breakfast - bowl of chocolate shreddies with milk! Up early this morning double checking absolutely everything. Does anyone else panic and convince themselves they’ve forgotten to pack something essential when heading away? Going to spend my morning triple checking everything and going over interview questions. I have weigh in and therapy at 2pm but I’m feeling positive!
Ana, I'm tired. I'm hungry. I'm apathetic and depressed. I'm angry at you, and it seems no matter how angry I get, I still crumble under you and compromise trying to appease us both. 
Ana, you won't ever ease up and I need to realise that. You don't care that I'm hurting. Every step I try to take away from you will always be met with your attempts to make me feel guilty, scared and as if I'm doing the wrong thing. 
If a shuffle towards life without you seems to scary and I'm met with your abuse.. I mays well take LEAPS. I'll be further from you a lot faster, and I can give living a go. You'll always be there if I decide to come back. However, a little piece of my heart knows that being in a healthy body eating whatever the hell I want is going to prove a lot nicer than this mental prison.
Ana, I'm tired. I'm hungry. I'm apathetic and depressed. I'm angry at you, and it seems no matter how angry I get, I still crumble under you and compromise trying to appease us both. Ana, you won't ever ease up and I need to realise that. You don't care that I'm hurting. Every step I try to take away from you will always be met with your attempts to make me feel guilty, scared and as if I'm doing the wrong thing. If a shuffle towards life without you seems to scary and I'm met with your abuse.. I mays well take LEAPS. I'll be further from you a lot faster, and I can give living a go. You'll always be there if I decide to come back. However, a little piece of my heart knows that being in a healthy body eating whatever the hell I want is going to prove a lot nicer than this mental prison.
🍁Happy Tuesday! 🍎All of yesterday, I kept dreaming of this fall bowl of apple-y oat-y goodness, and brainstorming up ways to make it even better🤤
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So today the challenge for that is on.
Right now my brain is wanting to put zucchini in oats, and have it come out like zucchini bread meets oatmeal... so we'll see where this leads...🌾
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🍁Happy Tuesday! 🍎All of yesterday, I kept dreaming of this fall bowl of apple-y oat-y goodness, and brainstorming up ways to make it even better🤤 • So today the challenge for that is on. Right now my brain is wanting to put zucchini in oats, and have it come out like zucchini bread meets oatmeal... so we'll see where this leads...🌾 •
Morning everyone 💖 having the say off work today and going to the walk in at my doctors to see about this cold as it has gone down to my chest :( what are you guys up to today?
#goingtoeatwhatiwantto #recoveryispossible #recovery #prorecovery #recoveryistheonlyoption #countblessingsnotcalories #curvesnotcalories #curvesnotbones #healthynothungry #determined #anorexic #eatingdisorderrecovery #edfighter #edsoldier #fighter #nevergiveup #nomoreanorexia #nourishnotpunish #strongnotskinny #charversesana #edcommunity #eatclean #cleaneating #edfamily #realrecovery #f4f #recoverywin
Morning everyone 💖 having the say off work today and going to the walk in at my doctors to see about this cold as it has gone down to my chest :( what are you guys up to today? #goingtoeatwhatiwantto  #recoveryispossible  #recovery  #prorecovery  #recoveryistheonlyoption  #countblessingsnotcalories  #curvesnotcalories  #curvesnotbones  #healthynothungry  #determined  #anorexic  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #edfighter  #edsoldier  #fighter  #nevergiveup  #nomoreanorexia  #nourishnotpunish  #strongnotskinny  #charversesana  #edcommunity  #eatclean  #cleaneating  #edfamily  #realrecovery  #f4f  #recoverywin 
Happy Tuesday 🙌🏼
Off to a morning of training, beyond excited 😄
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#balancednotclean #edrecovery #anarecovery #loveyourbody #loveyourself #takecareofyourbody #positivity #bopo #edsoldier #instapic #bopowarrior #positivevibes #selflove 
#foodisfuel #positivelife
morning! #breakfast today was porridge with a banana and blueberries🍌 actually not having something really sweet for once😂 today i woke up in a terrible mood, i cried a lot and i even missed the school bus. the past few days have been quite tricky, my thoughts haven’t been that great and body posi has been terrible :( i feel like i’m at that point of being weight restored from how my clothes fit and how i look in photos. i actually never knew my weight when i was healthy and all we knew was i was around the minimum healthy weight, now that i’m so close to the goal, i feel like i’ve now reached it. tomorrow i’m seeing the dietician so we’ll take it from there, stay strong everyone💪🏻
morning! #breakfast  today was porridge with a banana and blueberries🍌 actually not having something really sweet for once😂 today i woke up in a terrible mood, i cried a lot and i even missed the school bus. the past few days have been quite tricky, my thoughts haven’t been that great and body posi has been terrible :( i feel like i’m at that point of being weight restored from how my clothes fit and how i look in photos. i actually never knew my weight when i was healthy and all we knew was i was around the minimum healthy weight, now that i’m so close to the goal, i feel like i’ve now reached it. tomorrow i’m seeing the dietician so we’ll take it from there, stay strong everyone💪🏻
[ugly pic 😂]breakfast today was 30g oats with 150mls banana flavoured milk 🍌🍼 it was hard to eat breakfast at first because i still felt so full after eating yesterday but i did it!! oh and 100ml fruit juice too. have a good morning 😊
[ugly pic 😂]breakfast today was 30g oats with 150mls banana flavoured milk 🍌🍼 it was hard to eat breakfast at first because i still felt so full after eating yesterday but i did it!! oh and 100ml fruit juice too. have a good morning 😊
Loaded potato for dinner!!! Sweet potato with chili, spinach, guacamole, aoli, and nutritional yeast! Oh my God, sooo goooood 😋😋😋😋
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#anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #anarecovery #ana #eatingdisorderrecovery #edrecovery #eatingdisorder #edsoldier #edwarrior #adultswitheds #recoveringaussies #vegan #plantbased
Breakfast this morning was more than normal!! I was super hungry 😋...
180gr yogurt with 40gr porridge, a plum and smashed apple 🍎 with cinnamon...
Now I really need a coffee ☕️!!
I’m a bit hangover from yesterday evening!! But I cannot forget the amazing 😉 Chai Latte that my friend prepared... my God!! It was delicious 😋....
Now back to work!
Have a nice day my flowers 💐!! #nevergiveup #anorexia #healthyeating #eathealthy #eatclean #buildingmuscle #strongnotskinny #strongisthenewskinny #neverstopeating #edfamily #edwarrior #edsoldier #edfighter #edrecovery #recovery #recoveryforlife #recoverywarrior #recoverymeal #recoverywin #recoveryfood #recoveryisworthit #recoverydiary #recoveryforme #recoveryispossible #dca #dcarecovery  #anarecovery #fuckana #sorgenfresser
Breakfast this morning was more than normal!! I was super hungry 😋... 180gr yogurt with 40gr porridge, a plum and smashed apple 🍎 with cinnamon... Now I really need a coffee ☕️!! I’m a bit hangover from yesterday evening!! But I cannot forget the amazing 😉 Chai Latte that my friend prepared... my God!! It was delicious 😋.... Now back to work! Have a nice day my flowers 💐!! #nevergiveup  #anorexia  #healthyeating  #eathealthy  #eatclean  #buildingmuscle  #strongnotskinny  #strongisthenewskinny  #neverstopeating  #edfamily  #edwarrior  #edsoldier  #edfighter  #edrecovery  #recovery  #recoveryforlife  #recoverywarrior  #recoverymeal  #recoverywin  #recoveryfood  #recoveryisworthit  #recoverydiary  #recoveryforme  #recoveryispossible  #dca  #dcarecovery  #anarecovery  #fuckana  #sorgenfresser 
Hey! 👋🏼 I hope you’re having a good morning, mine is- well- very anxiety-filled 😂 Today, I had Weetabix with honey 🍯 and semi-skimmed milk 🥛 (my favourite cereal 😻) and a slice of toast with butter and blackcurrant jam 😋 I have not one, but TWO mock exams today 😫 Just hoping all my hard work has paid off, but as long as I try, that should be enough 😌 Anyway, I hope you guys have a great day full of happiness, and never hesitate to dm me if you need some support, love you all! 💪🏼❤️
Hey! 👋🏼 I hope you’re having a good morning, mine is- well- very anxiety-filled 😂 Today, I had Weetabix with honey 🍯 and semi-skimmed milk 🥛 (my favourite cereal 😻) and a slice of toast with butter and blackcurrant jam 😋 I have not one, but TWO mock exams today 😫 Just hoping all my hard work has paid off, but as long as I try, that should be enough 😌 Anyway, I hope you guys have a great day full of happiness, and never hesitate to dm me if you need some support, love you all! 💪🏼❤️
I'm getting out, gonna write myself a new start. Come on dry your eyes, meet me on the other side, run as fast as you can and we'll make it out alive. We know better now, we don't have to live like this. Go tell them all we don't have to live like this. #iconforhire 🌸
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Ik ga vet lekker op deze lyrics. Er is zoveel meer dan ziek zijn. Doe je best, breek uit, ga leven.
I'm getting out, gonna write myself a new start. Come on dry your eyes, meet me on the other side, run as fast as you can and we'll make it out alive. We know better now, we don't have to live like this. Go tell them all we don't have to live like this. #iconforhire  🌸 🌸 Ik ga vet lekker op deze lyrics. Er is zoveel meer dan ziek zijn. Doe je best, breek uit, ga leven.
There are so many trends and critics in the world now, dictating what we can and can't wear- "a crop top, Caitlin? Not until you tone that stomach" or saying us women need bigger boobs to be beautiful and have more shapely and curvaceous bodies in order to be accepted. And then there males who feel they have to be toned and 'fit' in order to be deemed attractive. I'm here to tell you that men and women, boys and girls, you don't have to look or dress a certain way to look good. You rock that crop top even without a toned stomach. Crop tops can be worn by any body type- how dare anyone judge you? You wear that dress that shows your scars from your past- they're YOU and you have nothing to be ashamed of. As for your boobs? Big, small, uneven, saggy, perky- you name it, they're perfect. Thighs- they jiggle? Who doesn't have thighs that do that? You need the extra skin so your muscles can contract and relax so you can walk, run, dance and enjoy life! So what if your stomach isn't toned? You don't have to be some slim, fitness obsessed individual in order to be accepted. If you're into fitness, cool, make sure you're doing it for YOU- not your demons, not to try and attract someone, to make YOU feel good. All you need to do is accept yourself, and realise that opinions of others don't matter ❤
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#anawho #prorecovery #positivity #eatittobeatit #recovery #anorexia #ed #anorexiarecovery #edrecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #boobsnotbones #fuckyouana #fuckana #edfam #edfamily #edwarrior #edfighter #edsoldier #ana #beatana #nourishnotpunish #realrecovery #realcovery #healthynothungry #nourishtoflourish #weightrestoreddoesnotmeanfat #selflove
There are so many trends and critics in the world now, dictating what we can and can't wear- "a crop top, Caitlin? Not until you tone that stomach" or saying us women need bigger boobs to be beautiful and have more shapely and curvaceous bodies in order to be accepted. And then there males who feel they have to be toned and 'fit' in order to be deemed attractive. I'm here to tell you that men and women, boys and girls, you don't have to look or dress a certain way to look good. You rock that crop top even without a toned stomach. Crop tops can be worn by any body type- how dare anyone judge you? You wear that dress that shows your scars from your past- they're YOU and you have nothing to be ashamed of. As for your boobs? Big, small, uneven, saggy, perky- you name it, they're perfect. Thighs- they jiggle? Who doesn't have thighs that do that? You need the extra skin so your muscles can contract and relax so you can walk, run, dance and enjoy life! So what if your stomach isn't toned? You don't have to be some slim, fitness obsessed individual in order to be accepted. If you're into fitness, cool, make sure you're doing it for YOU- not your demons, not to try and attract someone, to make YOU feel good. All you need to do is accept yourself, and realise that opinions of others don't matter ❤ - - - - #anawho  #prorecovery  #positivity  #eatittobeatit  #recovery  #anorexia  #ed  #anorexiarecovery  #edrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #boobsnotbones  #fuckyouana  #fuckana  #edfam  #edfamily  #edwarrior  #edfighter  #edsoldier  #ana  #beatana  #nourishnotpunish  #realrecovery  #realcovery  #healthynothungry  #nourishtoflourish  #weightrestoreddoesnotmeanfat  #selflove 
Breakfast and ootd 😧 I'm so bloody tired today I just want this day to be over already 
#positive #anarecovery #edfighter #edfamily #support #foodisfuel #anorexianervosarecovery #edwarrior #anorexianervosa #anorexia #edfam #edsoldier #recoverywin #recovery #anafighter #bpd #staystrong #keepfighting
Repeat offender this morning with my usual lush #weetabixmixup with tea 🍼☕️and a plum🍑👌🏻💗🌟Before a day of ExFactor: an employability and careers event. Then I have a 4.30-5.30pm lecture on Biochemistry and Genetics👍🏻🙂Although I've heard mixed reviews of the ExFactor event, I think it should still be pretty useful👍🏻 Also, it's Doctor Foster later😌So that always makes for a wild Tuesday night😂

Have a fab day everyone💗
Repeat offender this morning with my usual lush #weetabixmixup  with tea 🍼☕️and a plum🍑👌🏻💗🌟Before a day of ExFactor: an employability and careers event. Then I have a 4.30-5.30pm lecture on Biochemistry and Genetics👍🏻🙂Although I've heard mixed reviews of the ExFactor event, I think it should still be pretty useful👍🏻 Also, it's Doctor Foster later😌So that always makes for a wild Tuesday night😂 Have a fab day everyone💗
Breakfast was 15g of bran flakes with three tablespoons of oat milk and a slice of buttered danish white bread. / spent the entire evening yesterday doing homework and woke up early today to do some more. My teachers give so much and it's starting to stress me out 😪// Hope you all have a great day
Breakfast was 15g of bran flakes with three tablespoons of oat milk and a slice of buttered danish white bread. / spent the entire evening yesterday doing homework and woke up early today to do some more. My teachers give so much and it's starting to stress me out 😪// Hope you all have a great day
and there we are again, oversleeping first lesson and a maths test. not that I had studied or even any knowledge about the topic bc maths is always mo + tu first lesson which I have almost always missed so far.. I'm not really sure yet how I'm supposed to pass maths hmm. well, #breakie was the same procedure aka torture and I'm having quite a stomachache now it's like a thousand tiny knives are stabbing me ugh and I'm gassy too >< but overall I'm feeling better than yday, that's better than nothing I guess
and there we are again, oversleeping first lesson and a maths test. not that I had studied or even any knowledge about the topic bc maths is always mo + tu first lesson which I have almost always missed so far.. I'm not really sure yet how I'm supposed to pass maths hmm. well, #breakie  was the same procedure aka torture and I'm having quite a stomachache now it's like a thousand tiny knives are stabbing me ugh and I'm gassy too >< but overall I'm feeling better than yday, that's better than nothing I guess
Buondì Tatini🌄🎀❤ Come avete dormito😴? Io poco poco come sempre😩

Stamattina🌄 mi sono alzata un pochino controvoglia perché è il giorno delle FLEBO💉 all'ospedale🏥, quindi NIENTE COLAZZA❌🍽 per via della PESATA⚖... Ero davvero davvero in ANSIA😞😨😢 perché in questi giorni ho la PANCIA GONFIA, NON RIESCO AD ANDARE IN BAGNO🚽 NONOSTANTE LA GLICERINA, MI SEMBRA DI AVER ESAGERATO IN STI GIORNI COL MANGIARE... Arrivata, HO CHIESTO SUBITO ALLE INFERMIERE SE POTEVANO NON PESARMI VISTA LA SITUAZIONE DELLA MIA PANCIA, ma QUELLA CRETINA DELLA CAPOSALA HA DETTO CHE DOVEVO FARLO PER FORZA... allora mi ha subito PESATA⚖ anche se non volevo😞😢😢😢 La SETTIMANA SCORSA ERO (⚠nella bilancia dell'ospedale e non del centro 39.2KG⚠) ⚠PESO: 38.5 KG!!! SONO DIMAGRITA DI 700GR IN UNA SETTIMANA NONOSTANTE NON SIA ANDATA IN BAGNO⚠
COM'È POSSIBILE?🤔 LA PARTE DI ME CONTROLLATA DA ANA😈 FACEVA I SALTI DI GIOIA, MA L'ALTRA SANA SI CHIEDEVA IL PERCHÉ❓❔ DI TUTTO QUESTO!!! SONO VERAMENTE CONFUSA!!! Ho deciso di COCCOLARMI💕
Allora per questo mi sono PAPPATA E GUSTATA la MI SUPER MEGA COLAZZA BOMBA GUSTOSA ED ESOTICA😍🍧🍪🥛🍼💣💥😋🏖 a base di... -140GR DI YOGURT MIX MULLER BORA BORA (YOGURT AL COCCO + PALLINE DI LIME)🍧🍈
-3 FROLLINI ALLO YOGURT MULINO BIANCO🍪🍧
-2 BUONICOSI FOGLIOLINE GALBUSERA🍪🍂
Mado ragazzi!!! Questo YOGURT🍧 È LA FINE DEL MONDO😍🌏, poi abbinato a quei MERAVIGLIOSI FROLLINI DELLA MULINO😍🍪🍧!!!
Un #foodporn e un #foodorgasm ASSURDO😍😍😍 Comunque stamattina🌞 sono attaccata qui💉😞, poi➡ SUPER PRANZO🍽 dai NONNI👧👴👵, poi➡ qualche oretta con il mio AMORE👫💏💑❤ Nel post del PRANZO🍽 vi aggiornerò su tutto!!! Vi dirò se sono arrivati i risultati dell'esame sulla CELIACHIA🛇🌾 e vi racconterò cosa avrò fatto❤

VI auguro una BUONA MATTINATA🌞
BACINIII😘❤ #breakfast #anorexia #anoressia #recovery #ana #anarecovery #edrecovery #fearfood #foodporn #eatingdisorder #recoveringanorexic #health #edsoldier #edproblems #skinny #ed #ricover #edwarrior #prorecovery #ednos #anorexic #eatingdisorderrecovery #food #anorexianervosa #happy #sad
Buondì Tatini🌄🎀❤ Come avete dormito😴? Io poco poco come sempre😩 Stamattina🌄 mi sono alzata un pochino controvoglia perché è il giorno delle FLEBO💉 all'ospedale🏥, quindi NIENTE COLAZZA❌🍽 per via della PESATA⚖... Ero davvero davvero in ANSIA😞😨😢 perché in questi giorni ho la PANCIA GONFIA, NON RIESCO AD ANDARE IN BAGNO🚽 NONOSTANTE LA GLICERINA, MI SEMBRA DI AVER ESAGERATO IN STI GIORNI COL MANGIARE... Arrivata, HO CHIESTO SUBITO ALLE INFERMIERE SE POTEVANO NON PESARMI VISTA LA SITUAZIONE DELLA MIA PANCIA, ma QUELLA CRETINA DELLA CAPOSALA HA DETTO CHE DOVEVO FARLO PER FORZA... allora mi ha subito PESATA⚖ anche se non volevo😞😢😢😢 La SETTIMANA SCORSA ERO (⚠nella bilancia dell'ospedale e non del centro 39.2KG⚠) ⚠PESO: 38.5 KG!!! SONO DIMAGRITA DI 700GR IN UNA SETTIMANA NONOSTANTE NON SIA ANDATA IN BAGNO⚠ COM'È POSSIBILE?🤔 LA PARTE DI ME CONTROLLATA DA ANA😈 FACEVA I SALTI DI GIOIA, MA L'ALTRA SANA SI CHIEDEVA IL PERCHÉ❓❔ DI TUTTO QUESTO!!! SONO VERAMENTE CONFUSA!!! Ho deciso di COCCOLARMI💕 Allora per questo mi sono PAPPATA E GUSTATA la MI SUPER MEGA COLAZZA BOMBA GUSTOSA ED ESOTICA😍🍧🍪🥛🍼💣💥😋🏖 a base di... -140GR DI YOGURT MIX MULLER BORA BORA (YOGURT AL COCCO + PALLINE DI LIME)🍧🍈 -3 FROLLINI ALLO YOGURT MULINO BIANCO🍪🍧 -2 BUONICOSI FOGLIOLINE GALBUSERA🍪🍂 Mado ragazzi!!! Questo YOGURT🍧 È LA FINE DEL MONDO😍🌏, poi abbinato a quei MERAVIGLIOSI FROLLINI DELLA MULINO😍🍪🍧!!! Un #foodporn  e un #foodorgasm  ASSURDO😍😍😍 Comunque stamattina🌞 sono attaccata qui💉😞, poi➡ SUPER PRANZO🍽 dai NONNI👧👴👵, poi➡ qualche oretta con il mio AMORE👫💏💑❤ Nel post del PRANZO🍽 vi aggiornerò su tutto!!! Vi dirò se sono arrivati i risultati dell'esame sulla CELIACHIA🛇🌾 e vi racconterò cosa avrò fatto❤ VI auguro una BUONA MATTINATA🌞 BACINIII😘❤ #breakfast  #anorexia  #anoressia  #recovery  #ana  #anarecovery  #edrecovery  #fearfood  #foodporn  #eatingdisorder  #recoveringanorexic  #health  #edsoldier  #edproblems  #skinny  #ed  #ricover  #edwarrior  #prorecovery  #ednos  #anorexic  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #food  #anorexianervosa  #happy  #sad 
Deep caption alert - get your floaties out ❗️ Both physically and mentally, you never know what's underneath......the difference in these pictures is obviously a visual/physical thing 👀 though I am physically stronger, mentally I am nowhere near - I've never been a super confident, comfortable in my own skin person, I've always doubted myself, put myself down and second guessed what I am capable of 😔 my response to that is.......✋🏻🖕🏻I post this transformation so proud of how far I've come and the results I've had but I'm also still so aware of how much work I have left to do and how much love I still have to allow myself to accept. ❤️ I am a work in progress, sometimes an absolute nut job, an emotional mess or the most stubborn cow of a girl, but I am me. I need to and I will embrace her. 💕 #strongassstunner
Deep caption alert - get your floaties out ❗️ Both physically and mentally, you never know what's underneath......the difference in these pictures is obviously a visual/physical thing 👀 though I am physically stronger, mentally I am nowhere near - I've never been a super confident, comfortable in my own skin person, I've always doubted myself, put myself down and second guessed what I am capable of 😔 my response to that is.......✋🏻🖕🏻I post this transformation so proud of how far I've come and the results I've had but I'm also still so aware of how much work I have left to do and how much love I still have to allow myself to accept. ❤️ I am a work in progress, sometimes an absolute nut job, an emotional mess or the most stubborn cow of a girl, but I am me. I need to and I will embrace her. 💕 #strongassstunner 
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Peanut butter?? Chocolate spread?? For brEaKFAST??? fuCK YeaH sTARtiNG The daY oF wITH a BiG #RECOVERYWIN 💥 ya'll best believe I finished all of this carby indulgent goodness 🤤 after feeling physically unwell on top of feeling really down on myself the past days I decided to treat myself a lil bit ☺️❤️
The overwhelming stress and anxiety is almost enough to make me forget about my love for peanut butter and chocolate. Almost. -
2 slices of toast with peanut butter (!!), sugar free hazelnut spread (!!) and a small bananananana 🍌
As well as the baba ganoush (which is slowly becoming my new obsession in case you couldn't tell), the usual cheese spread, cucumber, tomato and bean sprouts!!
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#breakfast #brekkie #prorecovery #positivity #eatittobeatit #recovery #ednos #ed  #fooddiart #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #edfam #edfamily #edwarrior #edfighter #edsoldier #nourishnotpunish #realrecovery #realcovery #healthynothungry #nourishtoflourish #recoveringdutchie
🍴385 kcal - Peanut butter?? Chocolate spread?? For brEaKFAST??? fuCK YeaH sTARtiNG The daY oF wITH a BiG #RECOVERYWIN  💥 ya'll best believe I finished all of this carby indulgent goodness 🤤 after feeling physically unwell on top of feeling really down on myself the past days I decided to treat myself a lil bit ☺️❤️ The overwhelming stress and anxiety is almost enough to make me forget about my love for peanut butter and chocolate. Almost. - 2 slices of toast with peanut butter (!!), sugar free hazelnut spread (!!) and a small bananananana 🍌 As well as the baba ganoush (which is slowly becoming my new obsession in case you couldn't tell), the usual cheese spread, cucumber, tomato and bean sprouts!! - Have a wonderful day 🌹 - #breakfast  #brekkie  #prorecovery  #positivity  #eatittobeatit  #recovery  #ednos  #ed  #fooddiart  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #edfam  #edfamily  #edwarrior  #edfighter  #edsoldier  #nourishnotpunish  #realrecovery  #realcovery  #healthynothungry  #nourishtoflourish  #recoveringdutchie 
How do you even say you're not okay anymore? That you're sick of lying, you're sick of making excuses, your sick of crying and sleeping for hours because you're too exhausted to do anything. How do you get people to listen to you 😓
How do you even say you're not okay anymore? That you're sick of lying, you're sick of making excuses, your sick of crying and sleeping for hours because you're too exhausted to do anything. How do you get people to listen to you 😓
Cinnamon oats for breakfast❤ With walnuts, banana, blueberries, flax seeds and raisins on top👌
Cinnamon oats for breakfast❤ With walnuts, banana, blueberries, flax seeds and raisins on top👌
'Embrace the change' 🔒
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Buongiorno creaturine magiche 🦄
Ho appena finito di preparare la pappa al mio orsetto 🐕, messo su il caffettonzolo bollente per me ☕ e acceso la Tv 📺 rigorosamente sintonizzata sui cartoni animati 😻👌
Ieri la giornata si è conclusa non tanto tempo dopo le dieci 😞 Ero davvero davvero stanca, carica di ansie e tensioni 💭 che hanno trovato pace tra le braccia della Mamy che mi ha accolta, coccolata e 'accompagnata' nel mondo dei sogni🌌
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Durante la serata, mentre la family chiacchierava concentrata sugli ultimi eventi del Gf 😑, io mi sono messa a scorrere la Home di Instagram 📱 come faccio abitualmente prima di andare a nanna ☺ 
Un post in particolare mi ha scossa molto, un post pieno di significato, difficoltà ma anche voglia di rinascita 🌱
Ho cercato di fare mie alcune di quelle parole, interiorizzarle e trasferirle direttamente nella mia bacheca motivazionale 📌
In molte mi state facendo notare come la malattia mi tragga in inganno, come io ricada sempre nelle stesse trappole a causa della mia scarsa forza di volontà.. E posso darvi ragione ✋, accetto ed apprezzo le critiche costruttive poiché stimolano il progresso ↗️ ma vi assicuro che ci sto provando, ci sto provando ogni santo giorno a trovare quella motivazione in più per fare il salto di qualità 🌈 Le mie non sono solo parole al vento 🗣 so che magari alle volte dico dico dico ma mi ritrovo sempre allo stesso punto 😔 però sento il bisogno di esternare le mie volontà comunque, come se cercassi delle rassicurazioni, degli appigli con i quali sorreggermi, delle sicurezze.. Nella vita di tutti i giorni mi sento tanto sola e questo mio spazio è diventato molto importante per me.. 💞 Perdonatemi se alle volte risulto logorroica o noiosa 🙏 
E con questo chiudo parentesi sennò non la smetto più 😣
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Per oggi non ho da fare praticamente nulla 🙆‍♀️ Finiró di stirare il bucato stamani e poi mi appollaieró sul divano con Lion in attesa che rincasi la mamma per passare la giornata insieme come mi aveva promesso 😊
Voi? Programmi interessanti per oggi? Ditemi, ditemi che mi fa sempre piacere leggervi 👇
Un bacio enorme 😗💛
'Embrace the change' 🔒 __ Buongiorno creaturine magiche 🦄 Ho appena finito di preparare la pappa al mio orsetto 🐕, messo su il caffettonzolo bollente per me ☕ e acceso la Tv 📺 rigorosamente sintonizzata sui cartoni animati 😻👌 Ieri la giornata si è conclusa non tanto tempo dopo le dieci 😞 Ero davvero davvero stanca, carica di ansie e tensioni 💭 che hanno trovato pace tra le braccia della Mamy che mi ha accolta, coccolata e 'accompagnata' nel mondo dei sogni🌌 __ Durante la serata, mentre la family chiacchierava concentrata sugli ultimi eventi del Gf 😑, io mi sono messa a scorrere la Home di Instagram 📱 come faccio abitualmente prima di andare a nanna ☺ Un post in particolare mi ha scossa molto, un post pieno di significato, difficoltà ma anche voglia di rinascita 🌱 Ho cercato di fare mie alcune di quelle parole, interiorizzarle e trasferirle direttamente nella mia bacheca motivazionale 📌 In molte mi state facendo notare come la malattia mi tragga in inganno, come io ricada sempre nelle stesse trappole a causa della mia scarsa forza di volontà.. E posso darvi ragione ✋, accetto ed apprezzo le critiche costruttive poiché stimolano il progresso ↗️ ma vi assicuro che ci sto provando, ci sto provando ogni santo giorno a trovare quella motivazione in più per fare il salto di qualità 🌈 Le mie non sono solo parole al vento 🗣 so che magari alle volte dico dico dico ma mi ritrovo sempre allo stesso punto 😔 però sento il bisogno di esternare le mie volontà comunque, come se cercassi delle rassicurazioni, degli appigli con i quali sorreggermi, delle sicurezze.. Nella vita di tutti i giorni mi sento tanto sola e questo mio spazio è diventato molto importante per me.. 💞 Perdonatemi se alle volte risulto logorroica o noiosa 🙏 E con questo chiudo parentesi sennò non la smetto più 😣 __ Per oggi non ho da fare praticamente nulla 🙆‍♀️ Finiró di stirare il bucato stamani e poi mi appollaieró sul divano con Lion in attesa che rincasi la mamma per passare la giornata insieme come mi aveva promesso 😊 Voi? Programmi interessanti per oggi? Ditemi, ditemi che mi fa sempre piacere leggervi 👇 Un bacio enorme 😗💛
Ending the night w some peach sorbetto over homegrown raspberries and a @katefarms vanilla shake -- such an easy way to make sure I'm getting all I need and enjoying it as well! Also, sorbetto and berries make such a perf combo, it's always good to have the freedom to change things up, but sometimes a good standby is all ya need 🍑🍓take it easy, have a good night, and take care guys 💕#recovering #veganrecovery #vegangirl #veganlifestyle #anorexiarecovery  #edsoldier #realrecovery #foodisfuel #anasoldier #veganfitness #vegan #healthy #veganfoodshare #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatclean #plantbased #snack #vegancommunity  #veganfood #veganlife #hclf #raw #dinner #health #veganismismagic #yum #yummy #fresh #juice #whatveganseat
Ending the night w some peach sorbetto over homegrown raspberries and a @katefarms vanilla shake -- such an easy way to make sure I'm getting all I need and enjoying it as well! Also, sorbetto and berries make such a perf combo, it's always good to have the freedom to change things up, but sometimes a good standby is all ya need 🍑🍓take it easy, have a good night, and take care guys 💕#recovering  #veganrecovery  #vegangirl  #veganlifestyle  #anorexiarecovery  #edsoldier  #realrecovery  #foodisfuel  #anasoldier  #veganfitness  #vegan  #healthy  #veganfoodshare  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatclean  #plantbased  #snack  #vegancommunity  #veganfood  #veganlife  #hclf  #raw  #dinner  #health  #veganismismagic  #yum  #yummy  #fresh  #juice  #whatveganseat 
Phood is phuel
Phood is phuel
My name is Otto and I terrorize the cleaner so much that she refuses to work if I'm at home so my Mum (Livs boss) has to bring me into work every Tuesday and I get looked after at reception. Got taken for a walk and now time to nap. Otto out 🐶. Isn't he a cutie guys!!! He's so small and cheeky 😍. #anorexiarecovery #mealplan #anarecovery #beatana #togetherwecan #fearfood #mealplan #fearfoodchallenge #eatitobeatit #edsoldier #edrecoveryarmy #adultswithed #recoveryisworthit #recoveringaussies
#eatingdisorderrecovery #2fab4ana #balancednotclean #beyourownrecoveryhero
My name is Otto and I terrorize the cleaner so much that she refuses to work if I'm at home so my Mum (Livs boss) has to bring me into work every Tuesday and I get looked after at reception. Got taken for a walk and now time to nap. Otto out 🐶. Isn't he a cutie guys!!! He's so small and cheeky 😍. #anorexiarecovery  #mealplan  #anarecovery  #beatana  #togetherwecan  #fearfood  #mealplan  #fearfoodchallenge  #eatitobeatit  #edsoldier  #edrecoveryarmy  #adultswithed  #recoveryisworthit  #recoveringaussies  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #2fab4ana  #balancednotclean  #beyourownrecoveryhero 
Little pic of the #pumkinpie I made on Saturday👍🏿 I spontaneously got pierced yesterday! Yay☺️ today I got discharged Whoop whoop🎊🎊🎉#anorexia#nervosa#depression#depressed#eating#foodisfuel#foodies#eattolive#fighter#edfighter#anorexic#fighting#meals#edfamily#edfam#edsoldier#edwarrior#magersucht#bulimia#bulimic#bingepurge
Buondì 🌞 tesorucci! Come state? Io abbastanza bene, a parte un po' di raffreddore... oggi non ho proprio voglia di tornare a scuola, ieri è stata una giornata rilassante 😌. Me la sono presa tutta per me. Ma oggi si torna alla vita normale. A scuola non ho idea di che giornata mi aspetti, so solo che durante l'ora di educazione fisica mi porterò un po' avanti con i compiti 📚. Stamattina non ho molto da dire, non so se si è capito 😂😂, per cui passiamo alle cose più importanti... la COLAZIONE!! Questa è stata la mia:
• Cappuccino ☕️ fatto con 250 ml di latte 🍼 ps + un cucchiaino di cannella e ✌🏼 di miele 🍯 di biancospino
• 7 galletti 🐓
• Una pesca noce 🍑 con un cucchiaino 🥄 di miele di castagno 🌰 sopra • Un panino integrale 🥖 homemade con 30 gr di marmellata ai frutti 🍈 di bosco della Zuegg 
Oggi pomeriggio non dovrei studiare, salvo che non ci assegnino qualcosa oggi, quindi credo che mi rilasserò un pochino e poi mi gusterò la mia nuova bella merenda abbondante. Insomma, per dirla in gergo giovanile, starò proprio scialla 😂😂. E voi, che programmi avete? È già iniziata bella tosta la scuola per voi? Buona giornata 😄
#anoressia #anoressianervosa #anoressiaitalia #anoressianervosaitalia #anorexia #anorexianervosa #ana #anafighter #notproana #recovery #ed #edfighter #edsoldier #edfamily #dca #colazione #breakfast #colazionetime @zueggitalia @mulinobianco #foodblogger
Buondì 🌞 tesorucci! Come state? Io abbastanza bene, a parte un po' di raffreddore... oggi non ho proprio voglia di tornare a scuola, ieri è stata una giornata rilassante 😌. Me la sono presa tutta per me. Ma oggi si torna alla vita normale. A scuola non ho idea di che giornata mi aspetti, so solo che durante l'ora di educazione fisica mi porterò un po' avanti con i compiti 📚. Stamattina non ho molto da dire, non so se si è capito 😂😂, per cui passiamo alle cose più importanti... la COLAZIONE!! Questa è stata la mia: • Cappuccino ☕️ fatto con 250 ml di latte 🍼 ps + un cucchiaino di cannella e ✌🏼 di miele 🍯 di biancospino • 7 galletti 🐓 • Una pesca noce 🍑 con un cucchiaino 🥄 di miele di castagno 🌰 sopra • Un panino integrale 🥖 homemade con 30 gr di marmellata ai frutti 🍈 di bosco della Zuegg Oggi pomeriggio non dovrei studiare, salvo che non ci assegnino qualcosa oggi, quindi credo che mi rilasserò un pochino e poi mi gusterò la mia nuova bella merenda abbondante. Insomma, per dirla in gergo giovanile, starò proprio scialla 😂😂. E voi, che programmi avete? È già iniziata bella tosta la scuola per voi? Buona giornata 😄 #anoressia  #anoressianervosa  #anoressiaitalia  #anoressianervosaitalia  #anorexia  #anorexianervosa  #ana  #anafighter  #notproana  #recovery  #ed  #edfighter  #edsoldier  #edfamily  #dca  #colazione  #breakfast  #colazionetime  @zueggitalia @mulinobianco #foodblogger 
GOOD MORNING BEAUTIFUL 💋 
Wie habt ihr geschlafen? 
Meine Nacht war na ja nicht wirklich gut, am Abend war ich duschen und habe einen rasierrer von meiner Betreuerin bekommen, den wollte sie aber nach dem duschen wieder haben.  Aber ich musste die Chance nutzen und mich im Bad beim duschen verletzten. Nach dem duschen musste ich ja irgendwie zu ihr, ich ganz verblutet im Büro meinte meine betreuen die neu bei uns ist "Einweisung" ich war dann so erschrocken und meinte dann zu ihr "nur weil ich mich verletzte muss man mich nicht gleich einweisen" da sie neu ist wusste sie nicht wie sie darauf reagieren sollte, da sie sowas aus einer anderen Einrichtung nicht kennt. Danach sind wir zusammen spazieren gegangen und haben dann geredet, tat echt gut! 😊
Ich bin jetzt am Stuttgarter hbf und habe mir einen Berliner gegönnt. 👌😍
Ich habe heute Schule (leider) ich habe Panik vor Schulen und bekomme da dann immer panickattacken. Deswegen auch gestern die selbstverletztung. Nun ja ihr werde mich dafür nach der schule beim Starbucks belohnen! 😍 #starbuckslover 
Ich wünsche euch allen einen schönen Tag meine lieben!! ❤ - Stay strong -
GOOD MORNING BEAUTIFUL 💋 Wie habt ihr geschlafen? Meine Nacht war na ja nicht wirklich gut, am Abend war ich duschen und habe einen rasierrer von meiner Betreuerin bekommen, den wollte sie aber nach dem duschen wieder haben. Aber ich musste die Chance nutzen und mich im Bad beim duschen verletzten. Nach dem duschen musste ich ja irgendwie zu ihr, ich ganz verblutet im Büro meinte meine betreuen die neu bei uns ist "Einweisung" ich war dann so erschrocken und meinte dann zu ihr "nur weil ich mich verletzte muss man mich nicht gleich einweisen" da sie neu ist wusste sie nicht wie sie darauf reagieren sollte, da sie sowas aus einer anderen Einrichtung nicht kennt. Danach sind wir zusammen spazieren gegangen und haben dann geredet, tat echt gut! 😊 Ich bin jetzt am Stuttgarter hbf und habe mir einen Berliner gegönnt. 👌😍 Ich habe heute Schule (leider) ich habe Panik vor Schulen und bekomme da dann immer panickattacken. Deswegen auch gestern die selbstverletztung. Nun ja ihr werde mich dafür nach der schule beim Starbucks belohnen! 😍 #starbuckslover  Ich wünsche euch allen einen schönen Tag meine lieben!! ❤ - Stay strong -
Buongiorno tatini❣
Oggi #colazione con⤵
•#porridge di fiocchi e crusca d'avena🌾alla pesca(mezza pesca cotta insieme🍑)e vaniglia💐
•skyr bianco🍦⚪alla liquirizia🌵
👉•restante pesca🍑
•restante liquirizia🌵
•semi di canapa🌱
•cannella☄
•burro d'arachidi @ecorganic🍯
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Come state?
Io non lo so, mi sento strana. Ieri sera prima di addormentarmi la mia testa si è riempita di mille pensieri riguardanti il mio corpo. Chi ha visto le ➡stories⬅ lo sa già, ma i spiego meglio.
Scorrendo tra le foto del telefono, ho rivisto una mia foto in costume fatta il primo di agosto. Ricordo che quella mattina mi piacevo particolarmente, quindi mi feci un piccolo "set fotografico" in mille pose. Mi piacevo così tanto quella mattina... e mi sono piaciuta anche ieri sera. Subito dopo mi sono guardata allo specchio e confrontando le due immagini mi sono resa conto che c'è stato un aumento effettivo evidente anche senza bilancia, e che quindi le persone che mi dicono che ora "sto meglio anche fisicamente" se ne sono accorti e "hanno ragione".
Dovrei esserne felice, ma non lo sono. Non mi piaccio come sono ora, non la sto vivendo per niente bene. La paura di tornare ad odiarmi più che mai non fa altro che aumentare e per quanto ci provi, non riesco più ad ignorarla.
Non so come comportarmi.
Scusatemi per lo sfogo e la negatività di prima mattina, ma avevo bisogno di esternare i miei pensieri...
Detto questo, vi mando un bacio😚e buona giornata💝
Buongiorno tatini❣ Oggi #colazione  con⤵ •#porridge  di fiocchi e crusca d'avena🌾alla pesca(mezza pesca cotta insieme🍑)e vaniglia💐 •skyr bianco🍦⚪alla liquirizia🌵 👉•restante pesca🍑 •restante liquirizia🌵 •semi di canapa🌱 •cannella☄ •burro d'arachidi @ecorganic🍯 ▪▪ Come state? Io non lo so, mi sento strana. Ieri sera prima di addormentarmi la mia testa si è riempita di mille pensieri riguardanti il mio corpo. Chi ha visto le ➡stories⬅ lo sa già, ma i spiego meglio. Scorrendo tra le foto del telefono, ho rivisto una mia foto in costume fatta il primo di agosto. Ricordo che quella mattina mi piacevo particolarmente, quindi mi feci un piccolo "set fotografico" in mille pose. Mi piacevo così tanto quella mattina... e mi sono piaciuta anche ieri sera. Subito dopo mi sono guardata allo specchio e confrontando le due immagini mi sono resa conto che c'è stato un aumento effettivo evidente anche senza bilancia, e che quindi le persone che mi dicono che ora "sto meglio anche fisicamente" se ne sono accorti e "hanno ragione". Dovrei esserne felice, ma non lo sono. Non mi piaccio come sono ora, non la sto vivendo per niente bene. La paura di tornare ad odiarmi più che mai non fa altro che aumentare e per quanto ci provi, non riesco più ad ignorarla. Non so come comportarmi. Scusatemi per lo sfogo e la negatività di prima mattina, ma avevo bisogno di esternare i miei pensieri... Detto questo, vi mando un bacio😚e buona giornata💝
For 300 days I checked this daily just to keep me on track. And this was already the tenth time I had set, reset and reset the counting page when I fell. Stumbled across it on my phone today and realized the last time I saw it was when it said 415 days. Proof that it can easier, recovery is possible and try, try and try again can work. The addiction, the torture and the thrill, all distant memories that no longer haunt me and don't even enter my mind. Wherever you are in recovery from ANYTHING, never give up trying. Eventually you will 'start again' for the last time.
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For 300 days I checked this daily just to keep me on track. And this was already the tenth time I had set, reset and reset the counting page when I fell. Stumbled across it on my phone today and realized the last time I saw it was when it said 415 days. Proof that it can easier, recovery is possible and try, try and try again can work. The addiction, the torture and the thrill, all distant memories that no longer haunt me and don't even enter my mind. Wherever you are in recovery from ANYTHING, never give up trying. Eventually you will 'start again' for the last time. . . . . #edrecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexianervosa  #recovery  #ed  #edsoldier  #edwarrior  #progress  #motivateyourself  #reminder  #happyhappy  #itispossible  #recoveringaussies  #ana  #mia  #bingepurge  #addiction  #addictionrecovery  #nevergoingback  #edhelp  #motivation  #recoverymotivation  #edcommunity  #nevergiveup 
A Timmy's #breakfast from this weekend. I've been to the Rocky Mountains for 4 days and oh my freaking lord, I'm speechless. It's so beautiful & the air is so fresh and crisp. And hey - to be able to enjoy a hiking tour - you need to fuel up 🌿🌿🌿
A Timmy's #breakfast  from this weekend. I've been to the Rocky Mountains for 4 days and oh my freaking lord, I'm speechless. It's so beautiful & the air is so fresh and crisp. And hey - to be able to enjoy a hiking tour - you need to fuel up 🌿🌿🌿
Hey everyone who is still actually following me😂😂😂
Thank you for staying with me, honestly it means the world to be.
Here's an update on my life:
I'm not doing the greatest right now if I'm being honest. It is frightening just how fast #ed #ana can get ahold on a victim and refuse to let go. I'm trying to convey this to my therapist, but it honestly seems like she doesn't understand the severity of my mental state. It feels like I'm on a boat about 1 mile from shore and all of my providers and family are on the shore. I'm waving frantically because there's a shark underneath me, but all my support people think is "Oh, she's waving hi to us!".
I'm using behaviors and
I feel like a fraud tho as I am not small. My weight is not in a dangerous zone AT ALL and I am bombarded with weight loss thoughts...
On a good note tho, I have started a Body Image Psychoeducation group at my treatment center. It's hard, but hopefully it will help.
I'm working 2 jobs, 3 college classes, trying to maintain a social life and my relationship of 2 years, and this stress certainly doesn't help.
God, I am so tired. Time for this girl to get sleep. 
I hope that you all have had a better night than me.
I'm also always here for anyone if they want to talk 💗💗💗
#edrecovery #anarecovery #strongnotskinny #struggling #fitnotthin #2fab4ana #edsoldier #edfighter #edfamiliy #anawarrior #anasoldier #fuckana #foodisfuel #bpd #borderline #help
Hey everyone who is still actually following me😂😂😂 Thank you for staying with me, honestly it means the world to be. Here's an update on my life: I'm not doing the greatest right now if I'm being honest. It is frightening just how fast #ed  #ana  can get ahold on a victim and refuse to let go. I'm trying to convey this to my therapist, but it honestly seems like she doesn't understand the severity of my mental state. It feels like I'm on a boat about 1 mile from shore and all of my providers and family are on the shore. I'm waving frantically because there's a shark underneath me, but all my support people think is "Oh, she's waving hi to us!". I'm using behaviors and I feel like a fraud tho as I am not small. My weight is not in a dangerous zone AT ALL and I am bombarded with weight loss thoughts... On a good note tho, I have started a Body Image Psychoeducation group at my treatment center. It's hard, but hopefully it will help. I'm working 2 jobs, 3 college classes, trying to maintain a social life and my relationship of 2 years, and this stress certainly doesn't help. God, I am so tired. Time for this girl to get sleep. I hope that you all have had a better night than me. I'm also always here for anyone if they want to talk 💗💗💗 #edrecovery  #anarecovery  #strongnotskinny  #struggling  #fitnotthin  #2fab4ana  #edsoldier  #edfighter  #edfamiliy  #anawarrior  #anasoldier  #fuckana  #foodisfuel  #bpd  #borderline  #help 
We got a new pizza at work, and I was super excited to try it! It's a philly cheesesteak pizza, and it was amazing! I guess they've had it before, but it was before I worked there. I really loved it! The other day, a coworker helped me up, and made a comment after I thanked him, something along the lines of, "Ya, all 92lbs of you." I feel very big at the weight I'm at now, which is actually completely unknown. I don't have a problem with it anymore. I like having thick thighs and a butt and boobs, but I just was shocked that they thought I was still that skinny. It was just another example of how distorted my body image is and my perception on my own body weight compared to others. No wonder when I thought I was exercising to get that flat tummy, I actually looked like a skeleton and was already flat in all places! I can definitely see that I'm starting to see the true perception of myself, rather than the one made by my eating disorder. #ana #anawho #anawarrior #edrecovery #edfamily #edfighter #edsoldier #healthyweightgain #edfree
We got a new pizza at work, and I was super excited to try it! It's a philly cheesesteak pizza, and it was amazing! I guess they've had it before, but it was before I worked there. I really loved it! The other day, a coworker helped me up, and made a comment after I thanked him, something along the lines of, "Ya, all 92lbs of you." I feel very big at the weight I'm at now, which is actually completely unknown. I don't have a problem with it anymore. I like having thick thighs and a butt and boobs, but I just was shocked that they thought I was still that skinny. It was just another example of how distorted my body image is and my perception on my own body weight compared to others. No wonder when I thought I was exercising to get that flat tummy, I actually looked like a skeleton and was already flat in all places! I can definitely see that I'm starting to see the true perception of myself, rather than the one made by my eating disorder. #ana  #anawho  #anawarrior  #edrecovery  #edfamily  #edfighter  #edsoldier  #healthyweightgain  #edfree 
Pumpkin spice on pumpkin spice! I had a pumpkin spice bagel and cream cheese, plus I added chocolate chips. I also had a nanner, bacon, and a granola bar. I ate this all in my car before my clinical shift. I feel like now more than ever is when I have the least amount of time to worry about the little things. I'm always on the run, eating in different lounges in hospitals and in my car. It's not like I have hours to spend counting calories and planning meals. I get home after work and pack what I need for the next day as fast as I can. It's simple. Just pack enough to keep me satisfied for the day. Yesterday, a woman asked me what the calories were in our breadsticks at work and how many breadsticks they meant. When she found out from our menu board, she wished she never bought them. I'm happy I can just grab what I need and eat it without second guessing. It's the quickest way to fuel my body, and that's exactly what I need with a busy schedule! #ana #anawho #anawarrior #edrecovery #edfamily #edfighter #edsoldier #healthyweightgain #edfree
Pumpkin spice on pumpkin spice! I had a pumpkin spice bagel and cream cheese, plus I added chocolate chips. I also had a nanner, bacon, and a granola bar. I ate this all in my car before my clinical shift. I feel like now more than ever is when I have the least amount of time to worry about the little things. I'm always on the run, eating in different lounges in hospitals and in my car. It's not like I have hours to spend counting calories and planning meals. I get home after work and pack what I need for the next day as fast as I can. It's simple. Just pack enough to keep me satisfied for the day. Yesterday, a woman asked me what the calories were in our breadsticks at work and how many breadsticks they meant. When she found out from our menu board, she wished she never bought them. I'm happy I can just grab what I need and eat it without second guessing. It's the quickest way to fuel my body, and that's exactly what I need with a busy schedule! #ana  #anawho  #anawarrior  #edrecovery  #edfamily  #edfighter  #edsoldier  #healthyweightgain  #edfree 
~*~*~*~*|| Enjoyment || *~*~*~*~ Finding enjoyment in everything we do is the key, none of this punishing our bodies from a place of hate for results, but from a place of loving ourselves to wanting the best for our bodies whatever way we decide to move. There is no right or wrong way to provide benefits to our own bodies. But as soon as we look at exercise and movement as punishment because we dislike our bodies or ate to much we automatically put our bodies in a place of stress, even if we did get to our desired results we were aiming for we still wouldn’t be happy because the feeling of hate is still surrounding us. 
after having 2 years off at the gym i have gone back to a a gym because i felt i was ready to feel the benefits from what exercise gives. i have gone into it with a whole new approach and have loved every moment of it. i am so in tune with my body that i can listen and respond to it with exactly what it wants, and now high intensity weighted exercises aren’t  working for me at the moment, so i have ventured out trying new things that make me feel good not what its going to do for me on the outside. strehcing and pilates are what feel good for my soul right now so i will continue with adding these into my routine. Coming from a place of love makes a workout or movement so much more rewarding and enlightens you on a whole new level. 
So do what feels good for you, not because you feel you have to do what you have always been told or always have done. 
Go within and listen to how your body really wants to move today “We need to work less to achieve more. We need to stop fighting food and start embracing it. We need to stop punishing our bodies and start providing for them. We need to slow down and enjoy and then we’ll get the results we’ve been looking for—and sooner than we expect.” ― Marc David,
~*~*~*~*|| Enjoyment || *~*~*~*~ Finding enjoyment in everything we do is the key, none of this punishing our bodies from a place of hate for results, but from a place of loving ourselves to wanting the best for our bodies whatever way we decide to move. There is no right or wrong way to provide benefits to our own bodies. But as soon as we look at exercise and movement as punishment because we dislike our bodies or ate to much we automatically put our bodies in a place of stress, even if we did get to our desired results we were aiming for we still wouldn’t be happy because the feeling of hate is still surrounding us. after having 2 years off at the gym i have gone back to a a gym because i felt i was ready to feel the benefits from what exercise gives. i have gone into it with a whole new approach and have loved every moment of it. i am so in tune with my body that i can listen and respond to it with exactly what it wants, and now high intensity weighted exercises aren’t  working for me at the moment, so i have ventured out trying new things that make me feel good not what its going to do for me on the outside. strehcing and pilates are what feel good for my soul right now so i will continue with adding these into my routine. Coming from a place of love makes a workout or movement so much more rewarding and enlightens you on a whole new level.  So do what feels good for you, not because you feel you have to do what you have always been told or always have done.  Go within and listen to how your body really wants to move today “We need to work less to achieve more. We need to stop fighting food and start embracing it. We need to stop punishing our bodies and start providing for them. We need to slow down and enjoy and then we’ll get the results we’ve been looking for—and sooner than we expect.” ― Marc David,
Tell me what's better than spontaneous froyo with friends. #foodfreedom #recovery
It takes energy to be dedicated to your practice.
It takes effort to stay in alignment.
There is no question of this.
Staying in balance and "taking care of yourself" is not something that you can do asleep.
You have to be awake.
You have to be willing.
When you really dive into your practice,
the need to do it doesn't disappear.
And the ability to do it doesn't necessarily become easier.
And sometimes you will fall out of it again.
It's about noticing those moments, and then taking gentle steps forward,
back into your space of connection.
To reconnect to your priorities,
and your place of peace.
There is no 'final destination'.
This road has no end.
It is a continuous flow of energy,
taking you to places that you might not have known about.
Asking you to step forward,
and to take the "seriousness" away from it all.
There is nothing serious going on here.
What if that were to be true?
What if it is all just about connecting deeper to you?

Yesterday and today I noticed a huge drop in my energy.
And in that, I recognised an "old-friend" coming up,
to bring me into a space of guilt and shame.
To fear that all that I had done was now erased.
And here's the thing- these new upgrades have allowed something new to show up,
in this old familiar space.
A new feeling of peace and calm.
Recognising the drama and struggle- and saying "no, thank you" this time.
As Abraham says, there is no past or future in the law of attraction, there is just now.
There is just our thoughts, and what we ask for and what we put out.
So stop worrying about who you've been, what you've done or what you might do.
And pay attention to what you are thinking right now.
Who are you?
What is the truth of you?
When you strip away the layers and move from the facad,
what is the essence that shines through?
What are you left with?

And if you're wondering what the messages are,
ask your body.
It will always let you know where you might be in need of a little more support.
You are here to be loved,
that I know for sure. 💫✨
It takes energy to be dedicated to your practice. It takes effort to stay in alignment. There is no question of this. Staying in balance and "taking care of yourself" is not something that you can do asleep. You have to be awake. You have to be willing. When you really dive into your practice, the need to do it doesn't disappear. And the ability to do it doesn't necessarily become easier. And sometimes you will fall out of it again. It's about noticing those moments, and then taking gentle steps forward, back into your space of connection. To reconnect to your priorities, and your place of peace. There is no 'final destination'. This road has no end. It is a continuous flow of energy, taking you to places that you might not have known about. Asking you to step forward, and to take the "seriousness" away from it all. There is nothing serious going on here. What if that were to be true? What if it is all just about connecting deeper to you? Yesterday and today I noticed a huge drop in my energy. And in that, I recognised an "old-friend" coming up, to bring me into a space of guilt and shame. To fear that all that I had done was now erased. And here's the thing- these new upgrades have allowed something new to show up, in this old familiar space. A new feeling of peace and calm. Recognising the drama and struggle- and saying "no, thank you" this time. As Abraham says, there is no past or future in the law of attraction, there is just now. There is just our thoughts, and what we ask for and what we put out. So stop worrying about who you've been, what you've done or what you might do. And pay attention to what you are thinking right now. Who are you? What is the truth of you? When you strip away the layers and move from the facad, what is the essence that shines through? What are you left with? And if you're wondering what the messages are, ask your body. It will always let you know where you might be in need of a little more support. You are here to be loved, that I know for sure. 💫✨
Who says I can't have cheesecake for dinner? 😁 
So me and my landlady baked this beauty in the afternoon- New York Cheesecake 😍 She actually wanted to make it tomorrow, but then decided to make it today as she had all the ingredients already 🤷🏽‍♀ so why not?
I just needed to distract my mind from all the stress and pressure I've been having lately, and this really helped 🙂
Gonna have this as dinner, along with a cup of vanilla-cinnamon milk 😊 and watch YouTube, then I will call it a day.

Hope everyone has had a nice day, and have sweet dreams 💙
Who says I can't have cheesecake for dinner? 😁 So me and my landlady baked this beauty in the afternoon- New York Cheesecake 😍 She actually wanted to make it tomorrow, but then decided to make it today as she had all the ingredients already 🤷🏽‍♀ so why not? I just needed to distract my mind from all the stress and pressure I've been having lately, and this really helped 🙂 Gonna have this as dinner, along with a cup of vanilla-cinnamon milk 😊 and watch YouTube, then I will call it a day. Hope everyone has had a nice day, and have sweet dreams 💙
My shiny teeth and me!
After being self conscious about my teeth for years, I am so thankful for this little blue light and the rest of my handy dandy teeth whitening kit. My teeth have absolutely never looked so amazing 😬 Now I can drink my coffee AND have sparkling teeth. Best of both worlds! This kit is usually $299 but thanks to @smilesciences and @smilesciencesstreetteam you can snatch your own up for $29 using the discount code "ALAINA2" at www.smilesciences.com 💕
My shiny teeth and me! After being self conscious about my teeth for years, I am so thankful for this little blue light and the rest of my handy dandy teeth whitening kit. My teeth have absolutely never looked so amazing 😬 Now I can drink my coffee AND have sparkling teeth. Best of both worlds! This kit is usually $299 but thanks to @smilesciences and @smilesciencesstreetteam you can snatch your own up for $29 using the discount code "ALAINA2" at www.smilesciences.com 💕
Big smoothie bowl for lunch 😋 with frozen bananas and berries, and topped with fruit 🍋🍌🥝🍇
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I love blogging but sometimes it's too time consuming and tedious for such short posts. Don't worry, I am not abandoning blogging. However, over the next few months I will be transitioning a few of my typical blog posts onto Instagram because after all, Instagram is what I personally love most. Recipes and more meaningful/lengthy posts will still be posted on my blog along every so often, but reviews will now mainly be posted on here. 😊
I love blogging but sometimes it's too time consuming and tedious for such short posts. Don't worry, I am not abandoning blogging. However, over the next few months I will be transitioning a few of my typical blog posts onto Instagram because after all, Instagram is what I personally love most. Recipes and more meaningful/lengthy posts will still be posted on my blog along every so often, but reviews will now mainly be posted on here. 😊
Back to the grind today with two tests this week so obviously had to start the week off right with this salad💁🏼 peaches were on sale at sprouts so I HAD to get them and they definitely were the best part😍 now off to study for community nutrition and then medical nutrition therapy😅
Back to the grind today with two tests this week so obviously had to start the week off right with this salad💁🏼 peaches were on sale at sprouts so I HAD to get them and they definitely were the best part😍 now off to study for community nutrition and then medical nutrition therapy😅
Dinner was some oats cooked with part of an apple👍🏼 I restricted a lot today, I was just so busy and tbh I haven't been doing well anyway, so it was so easy to just keep skipping and skipping😔 my roommates went to the dining hall but there was no way I was going, I was so afraid that they would judge me, I made this so quickly so they wouldn't get back before I was done cleaning. I hope things get easier with them around good, they're so so sweet but they said they only really eat one meal a day and it was beyond triggering and ahhh😞 Idk. I feel like I can never eat now because they'll just think I'm a fat pig, I guess I'm already worried about that because I hate my body. I mean, they eat candy and talk about how they're hungry for dinner and I think they had a normal soda yesterday, but it's still hard. Anyway. Sorry to ramble💔
Dinner was some oats cooked with part of an apple👍🏼 I restricted a lot today, I was just so busy and tbh I haven't been doing well anyway, so it was so easy to just keep skipping and skipping😔 my roommates went to the dining hall but there was no way I was going, I was so afraid that they would judge me, I made this so quickly so they wouldn't get back before I was done cleaning. I hope things get easier with them around good, they're so so sweet but they said they only really eat one meal a day and it was beyond triggering and ahhh😞 Idk. I feel like I can never eat now because they'll just think I'm a fat pig, I guess I'm already worried about that because I hate my body. I mean, they eat candy and talk about how they're hungry for dinner and I think they had a normal soda yesterday, but it's still hard. Anyway. Sorry to ramble💔
/9/25/17/ hello everyone!! This was just a little itty bitty #snack because I wanted them and I shouldn't restrict because I've spent too long doing that. And also because I'm always snacking. 😊🙃Today was a rough day. I woke up with my depression and ED thoughts blaring in my ear😔 I cried all morning. I cried on the way to school. And I cried at school. The overwhelming feelings of not being good enough or thin enough and all the crap ED tells me was just too much. But I picked myself up. I spent some time laughing with my best friends and I felt better. I felt loved. And I realized that I really do have people that care about me. No matter what ED or my depression tells me. I am loved by God, my family, and my friends. God is love. And love casts out all fear. Yes I have been struggling. But I know I can overcome this. I am strong enough.
/9/25/17/ hello everyone!! This was just a little itty bitty #snack  because I wanted them and I shouldn't restrict because I've spent too long doing that. And also because I'm always snacking. 😊🙃Today was a rough day. I woke up with my depression and ED thoughts blaring in my ear😔 I cried all morning. I cried on the way to school. And I cried at school. The overwhelming feelings of not being good enough or thin enough and all the crap ED tells me was just too much. But I picked myself up. I spent some time laughing with my best friends and I felt better. I felt loved. And I realized that I really do have people that care about me. No matter what ED or my depression tells me. I am loved by God, my family, and my friends. God is love. And love casts out all fear. Yes I have been struggling. But I know I can overcome this. I am strong enough.
Dinner is something different cause I have been having pizza for like 3 days lmaoo but oh well this is really good!
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So, Sachen sind gepackt 👛 und es geht Richtung Winter ❄️☃️⛄️. Ab jetzt kommen auch wieder Hundebilder 🐶😂. Ella wird später aus der Tierpension abgeholt. Die feine Dame hat sich gut benommen und die frechen Rüden erstmal zu Zucht und Ordnung erzogen 👆. #goldenretriever #dog #dogoftheday #psychology #strongnotskinny #stronggirl #strongbodystrongmind #fitness #coach #coaching #personalcoach #recovery #Edsoldier #edrecovery  #positivethinking #behappy #changeyourlife #bestfriends #friendship #powerlifting #fromdreamtosuccess #urlaub #kreta #sun #summer #beach #qualitytime #bootcamp #paradise #kavros
So, Sachen sind gepackt 👛 und es geht Richtung Winter ❄️☃️⛄️. Ab jetzt kommen auch wieder Hundebilder 🐶😂. Ella wird später aus der Tierpension abgeholt. Die feine Dame hat sich gut benommen und die frechen Rüden erstmal zu Zucht und Ordnung erzogen 👆. #goldenretriever  #dog  #dogoftheday  #psychology  #strongnotskinny  #stronggirl  #strongbodystrongmind  #fitness  #coach  #coaching  #personalcoach  #recovery  #Edsoldier  #edrecovery  #positivethinking  #behappy  #changeyourlife  #bestfriends  #friendship  #powerlifting  #fromdreamtosuccess  #urlaub  #kreta  #sun  #summer  #beach  #qualitytime  #bootcamp  #paradise  #kavros 
Strawberry quinoa goat cheese salad for lunch! 👌🏻😋 I'm definitely dragging my feet on my 14 hour day today, but am trying to take a gratitude approach - I am fortunate enough to have been accepted into university, and can afford higher education. I get to spend my mornings dancing and feeling amazing (apart from an excruciating back injury ATM). As annoying as these 3 hour lectures are, I at least have some sick company (hi @bria_rosvick 🙋🏻) so life is good. 💕
Strawberry quinoa goat cheese salad for lunch! 👌🏻😋 I'm definitely dragging my feet on my 14 hour day today, but am trying to take a gratitude approach - I am fortunate enough to have been accepted into university, and can afford higher education. I get to spend my mornings dancing and feeling amazing (apart from an excruciating back injury ATM). As annoying as these 3 hour lectures are, I at least have some sick company (hi @bria_rosvick 🙋🏻) so life is good. 💕
I was so busy at work, I didn't eat my snack. That means more macros. If you haven't had @nothingbundt, you're missing out. This red velvet bundlet is 53c/16f/5p, AKA THE SAME AS A LENNY AND LARRY COOKIE. 😂😂 I think @poweredbyicecream would be on my team. I got the macros from the store itself. Just because macros are not listed on the container doesn't mean they are not available (or scary). It never hurts to ask. #flexibledieting
I was so busy at work, I didn't eat my snack. That means more macros. If you haven't had @nothingbundt, you're missing out. This red velvet bundlet is 53c/16f/5p, AKA THE SAME AS A LENNY AND LARRY COOKIE. 😂😂 I think @poweredbyicecream would be on my team. I got the macros from the store itself. Just because macros are not listed on the container doesn't mean they are not available (or scary). It never hurts to ask. #flexibledieting 
Today as usual I had a binge but nothing too extreme so that's good.... feeling scared about my weight gain but trying to let go and continue eating what I want at least most of it 😬🙄 Today I had grilled cheese, morning farms burger Sammy, cauliflower stir fried with soy chicken, berries with rice cakes, lots of popcorn, spoonfuls of PB & watermelon. 
Yes it's a lot I know 🤦‍♀️😣
Let's keep fighting to recovery 😘
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Today as usual I had a binge but nothing too extreme so that's good.... feeling scared about my weight gain but trying to let go and continue eating what I want at least most of it 😬🙄 Today I had grilled cheese, morning farms burger Sammy, cauliflower stir fried with soy chicken, berries with rice cakes, lots of popcorn, spoonfuls of PB & watermelon. Yes it's a lot I know 🤦‍♀️😣 Let's keep fighting to recovery 😘 . . . . #edrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #compulsiveeater  #binge  #complusiveexercise  #orthorexia  #ed  #compulsaoalimentar  #disturbioalimentar  #anorexia  #edwarrior  #prorecovery  #edfighter  #edfamily  #edfighter  #recoveryispossible  #edsoldier  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #realrecovery  #foodisfuel  #strongnotskinny  #fearfood  #bulimia  #bingeeatingdisorder 
#MCM goes out to this handsome stud, because I'm so incredibly grateful for him and everything he does for me. He's my biggest supporter and my why in all that I'm doing. 💞 .

It's so easy to get caught up in every day life and forget or overlook the little things our spouses/significant others do for us every day to make our lives easier or to speak your love language. Things that don't go unnoticed, but also don't go recognized. Don't forget to let them know you see them and you appreciate them 💞 I'd love for you to tag your other half and share one thing below that you're grateful for about your spouse/significant other ! 👇 Share the love ! 😘💞 . -----------------------------------------
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#MCM  goes out to this handsome stud, because I'm so incredibly grateful for him and everything he does for me. He's my biggest supporter and my why in all that I'm doing. 💞 . It's so easy to get caught up in every day life and forget or overlook the little things our spouses/significant others do for us every day to make our lives easier or to speak your love language. Things that don't go unnoticed, but also don't go recognized. Don't forget to let them know you see them and you appreciate them 💞 I'd love for you to tag your other half and share one thing below that you're grateful for about your spouse/significant other ! 👇 Share the love ! 😘💞 . ----------------------------------------- Etsy shop🛒: @barbellsandbootsboutique Blog📒: www.barbellsandboots.com Twitter 🐦: TayBuck11 @UnicoNutrition 🦄: "TAYFIT"-15% off @StrongPhysiquez 💪🏼: "TAYLOR10"- 10% off @TeamiBlends 🌿: "BB20"- 20% off @ProteinMilkshake 🥛: "Barbellsandboots15" - 15% off
I've been trying to add some variety to my night snacks instead of just Lenny and Larrys cookies, so I picked these up and pray they're good! Has anyone tried them? I figured I can't go wrong with nut butter and snickerdoodle 😍 So I know I said I was taking a step back from this account, then literally started posting more (LOL whoops 💁), but I'm mainly doing it for my mom. When I left indiana to come back home I could tell she was a little worried. I know I have my siblings here to make sure I stay on track but mothers still want to be able to look after their children. SOOO, thought it'd be helpful to post more often so she knows I'm eating! (Hi mom 🙋). Other than that I try to keep up with some accounts as much as possible and stay off the rest of the time to prevent comparison. So that's where I'm at! Hope everyone had a great Monday! #protein #eat #peanutbutter #eatingdisorder #snacks #edsoldier #lunch #anorexia #strong #fit #fitfam #breakfast #food #fitness #foodie #foodporn #gains #healthy #healthyfood #gym #fitspo #healthyeating #exercise #health #workout #balance #nutrition #healthyliving #healthylife #dinner
I've been trying to add some variety to my night snacks instead of just Lenny and Larrys cookies, so I picked these up and pray they're good! Has anyone tried them? I figured I can't go wrong with nut butter and snickerdoodle 😍 So I know I said I was taking a step back from this account, then literally started posting more (LOL whoops 💁), but I'm mainly doing it for my mom. When I left indiana to come back home I could tell she was a little worried. I know I have my siblings here to make sure I stay on track but mothers still want to be able to look after their children. SOOO, thought it'd be helpful to post more often so she knows I'm eating! (Hi mom 🙋). Other than that I try to keep up with some accounts as much as possible and stay off the rest of the time to prevent comparison. So that's where I'm at! Hope everyone had a great Monday! #protein  #eat  #peanutbutter  #eatingdisorder  #snacks  #edsoldier  #lunch  #anorexia  #strong  #fit  #fitfam  #breakfast  #food  #fitness  #foodie  #foodporn  #gains  #healthy  #healthyfood  #gym  #fitspo  #healthyeating  #exercise  #health  #workout  #balance  #nutrition  #healthyliving  #healthylife  #dinner 
Scroll through for the super yum #vegan food I've neglected to post over the last few weeks...and yes that is water in the mason jar, just infused with 🍋 and blackberries that's why it's pink! #makefoodfun 
1. Pulled sweet potato with red onion on bed of spinach with broccoli. Eden also had crackers and watermelon. 
2. Noodles with homemade veggie broth, peas, carrots, spinach/arugula.
3. "Baba Soup" barley, carrots, broccoli, cauliflower, potato in veg broth, with flatbread topped with tomato and basil 
4. Veggie scramble- non gmo tofu, hashbrowns, kale, broccoli, tomato, green onion. GF toast with vegan cream cheese
5. Baked sweet potato topped with veggie chili (kidney&black beans, celery, carrots, corn, onions, tomato's) and homemade guacamole.
6. Vegan pizza- GF base, tomato paste, spinach, red onion, refried beans, corn, sweet potato, homeade cashew cheese.
#postpartum #fightforrecovery #residentialtreatment #edrecovery #prorecovery #eatingdisorder #edwarrior #edsoldier #edfam #depression #anxiety
Scroll through for the super yum #vegan  food I've neglected to post over the last few weeks...and yes that is water in the mason jar, just infused with 🍋 and blackberries that's why it's pink! #makefoodfun  1. Pulled sweet potato with red onion on bed of spinach with broccoli. Eden also had crackers and watermelon. 2. Noodles with homemade veggie broth, peas, carrots, spinach/arugula. 3. "Baba Soup" barley, carrots, broccoli, cauliflower, potato in veg broth, with flatbread topped with tomato and basil 4. Veggie scramble- non gmo tofu, hashbrowns, kale, broccoli, tomato, green onion. GF toast with vegan cream cheese 5. Baked sweet potato topped with veggie chili (kidney&black beans, celery, carrots, corn, onions, tomato's) and homemade guacamole. 6. Vegan pizza- GF base, tomato paste, spinach, red onion, refried beans, corn, sweet potato, homeade cashew cheese. #postpartum  #fightforrecovery  #residentialtreatment  #edrecovery  #prorecovery  #eatingdisorder  #edwarrior  #edsoldier  #edfam  #depression  #anxiety 
Bahahaha I didn't even realize they were taking photos this was the "cat hotel" on Saturday. It was a campus event 😝 I'm in every picture 😂
Bahahaha I didn't even realize they were taking photos this was the "cat hotel" on Saturday. It was a campus event 😝 I'm in every picture 😂
Dinner is @eatbanza pasta with tomato sauce, avocado, and parsley along with peach and mango flavored coconut water 🌴🍝🍃🥑 having this w my family and hanging w my dog and grandparents as they're popping by 🐶 this turned out really well (I ended up having 2 bowls) I'm so grateful to be able to let myself enjoy pasta again as I had kinda been avoiding it🙈  stay strong & have a great evening 💜#recovering #veganrecovery #vegangirl #veganlifestyle #anorexiarecovery  #edsoldier #realrecovery #foodisfuel #anasoldier #veganfitness #vegan #healthy #veganfoodshare #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatclean #plantbased #snack #vegancommunity  #veganfood #veganlife #hclf #raw #dinner #health #veganismismagic #yum #yummy #fresh #juice #whatveganseat
Dinner is @eatbanza pasta with tomato sauce, avocado, and parsley along with peach and mango flavored coconut water 🌴🍝🍃🥑 having this w my family and hanging w my dog and grandparents as they're popping by 🐶 this turned out really well (I ended up having 2 bowls) I'm so grateful to be able to let myself enjoy pasta again as I had kinda been avoiding it🙈 stay strong & have a great evening 💜#recovering  #veganrecovery  #vegangirl  #veganlifestyle  #anorexiarecovery  #edsoldier  #realrecovery  #foodisfuel  #anasoldier  #veganfitness  #vegan  #healthy  #veganfoodshare  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatclean  #plantbased  #snack  #vegancommunity  #veganfood  #veganlife  #hclf  #raw  #dinner  #health  #veganismismagic  #yum  #yummy  #fresh  #juice  #whatveganseat 
Delicious Monday night dinner 🙏🏻🍝. Whole grain penne and rotini with meatballs, fresh Parmesan cheese, and garlic bread 🥖. With a salad 🥗 on the side because I needed some kind of roughage 😆. Had an eventful weekend. Saw my best lady 👯 Saturday night and went to a gorgeous wedding yesterday 💍. Took today off to catch up on things around he house and do some shopping at @ultabeauty and Sephora 💄✨. I can start doing make-up reviews because I love playing with new skincare and cosmetics 💕. We will see! 💁🏼 Hope you all had beautiful weekend and great start of the week. Back to the grind for me tomorrow 👩‍💻.
Delicious Monday night dinner 🙏🏻🍝. Whole grain penne and rotini with meatballs, fresh Parmesan cheese, and garlic bread 🥖. With a salad 🥗 on the side because I needed some kind of roughage 😆. Had an eventful weekend. Saw my best lady 👯 Saturday night and went to a gorgeous wedding yesterday 💍. Took today off to catch up on things around he house and do some shopping at @ultabeauty and Sephora 💄✨. I can start doing make-up reviews because I love playing with new skincare and cosmetics 💕. We will see! 💁🏼 Hope you all had beautiful weekend and great start of the week. Back to the grind for me tomorrow 👩‍💻.
Last Saturday, I was fortunate enough to attend the inspirational @TheNalieShow (hence the fancy dress) created by the one and only @nalieagustin. During the show, I met a lot of amazing cancer thrivers/survivors whose stories have deeply touched me. And you know what? Apparently, my bulimia story has touched them too. I was blown away. One of the cancer survivors even called me a survivor. But I couldn't help but disagree with her. I told her that there's a huge difference between me and her. I told her, "You didn't wake up one day and chose to have cancer. It just happened. It was a misfortune. But me? One day I woke up and I chose to purge. It was all me. I made it happen. I mistreated my body by choice. So how can you call me a survivor? I don't deserve that." I broke my own heart 💔
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#edsoldier #edrecovery #recoveryispossible #recoveryisworthit #bekindtoyourself #loveyourself #loveyourbody #montrealblogger #personalgrowth #lawofattraction #youarebeautiful #youareworthy #lovewhatyouhave #putyourselffirst #femalemotivation
Last Saturday, I was fortunate enough to attend the inspirational @TheNalieShow (hence the fancy dress) created by the one and only @nalieagustin. During the show, I met a lot of amazing cancer thrivers/survivors whose stories have deeply touched me. And you know what? Apparently, my bulimia story has touched them too. I was blown away. One of the cancer survivors even called me a survivor. But I couldn't help but disagree with her. I told her that there's a huge difference between me and her. I told her, "You didn't wake up one day and chose to have cancer. It just happened. It was a misfortune. But me? One day I woke up and I chose to purge. It was all me. I made it happen. I mistreated my body by choice. So how can you call me a survivor? I don't deserve that." I broke my own heart 💔 . . . . . #edsoldier  #edrecovery  #recoveryispossible  #recoveryisworthit  #bekindtoyourself  #loveyourself  #loveyourbody  #montrealblogger  #personalgrowth  #lawofattraction  #youarebeautiful  #youareworthy  #lovewhatyouhave  #putyourselffirst  #femalemotivation 
meal-preppin' for my classic 16 hour tuesday 🙃 here's what we've got so far!
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🔹my go-to smoothie! (recipe 2 posts back)
🔹salaaaaad w/ all the veg, @wholefoods rosemary chicken, spicy roasted chickpeas, & @hummustir 'dressing' (20% off link in bio "FINDINGB") + @jilzcrackerz
🔹my #findingBOWLance of course (the depth of this tupperware is actually hysterical 😅) loaded up w/ ALL the veggies, a sweet potato, @applegate sausage, & @farmhouseculture kraut
🔹my favorite flavor @perfectbar & a vanilla almond @healthwarrior chia bar for a lil' portion of my snackin' (30% off HW "findingbalance_1430")
🔹veggies+apple @saladpower (which is the lowest sugar juices you'll find!)
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hopefully my starbucks doesn't spill all over my car this week 🐸 hope your monday was awesome! 💜
meal-preppin' for my classic 16 hour tuesday 🙃 here's what we've got so far! ••• 🔹my go-to smoothie! (recipe 2 posts back) 🔹salaaaaad w/ all the veg, @wholefoods rosemary chicken, spicy roasted chickpeas, & @hummustir 'dressing' (20% off link in bio "FINDINGB") + @jilzcrackerz 🔹my #findingBOWLance  of course (the depth of this tupperware is actually hysterical 😅) loaded up w/ ALL the veggies, a sweet potato, @applegate sausage, & @farmhouseculture kraut 🔹my favorite flavor @perfectbar & a vanilla almond @healthwarrior chia bar for a lil' portion of my snackin' (30% off HW "findingbalance_1430") 🔹veggies+apple @saladpower (which is the lowest sugar juices you'll find!) ••• hopefully my starbucks doesn't spill all over my car this week 🐸 hope your monday was awesome! 💜