Sharing this made me want to die but I'm in the crucial 6 weeks countdown now! All motivation needed!
On the left I was so unhappy at uni, with my social life, career hadn't really begun, love life was crap and I was in a pretty negative place. I ate rubbish daily - hello pizza with pasta followed by crisp and dip 🤣 - and barely exercised. Weight just piled on and the vicious cycle of using food as an emotional crutch spiraled. Looking back I never knew how miserable I was but life has changed so much. Fast forward two years and I am truly happy with my career, social life, family, love life and the experiences I have been so lucky to have! I am healthier than ever - mentally and physically - and a balanced healthy diet and exercise is just a way of life now.
The abuse my body was put through will always be there. Stubborn belly fat haunts me daily but in the last 6 weeks I have seen some real differences in the areas I hate the most! I'm not striving for a size 8 anymore and seriously trying to stop hating on myself so hard. I am a comfortable 12 which is a lot smaller than I was but more importantly I am 1000x fitter. I am looking forward to seeing the changes over the next 6 weeks and even more so after my big trek.
I never thought I could do it and saw so many incredible transformations that seemed unattainable! I have personaly lost over 6 stone and if greedy guts me can do it then anyone can. Although I would say be kind to yourself I may have lost weight but my self confidence plummited, only recently am I building it up. Make your goal about fitness not thiness and you'll gain soo much from your transformation 😊
Now I'm getting out of my toasty bed to head to Body Pump💪
#motivatonmonday - Mondays can be hard, gonna keep myself on track ocassionally using things that motivate me.
First motivator to make it on to my diary is my Dad.
Anyone who even remotely knows me will be aware how much I look up to and love my wee daddio.
He is the least materialistic person I know, content living life doing his own thing and my biggest influencer. He also reminds me so much of my Granda who was genuinely the kindest person ever.
My Dad has always encouraged me to do anything I think maybe I can't do such as uni, travelling to India and now this trek. Plus although we never had much growing up he was there supporting and always put his children first.
He is constantly scared he is going to use up all his googles but has made an insta page to follow me - So I know you can see this Gram 😝 Thank you for being my goofy best friend and sorry for all the emotions I know this will make you feel super awkward 🤣
Oh, Happy Birthday! and looking forward to our Dad and Daughter date for dinner and the cinema tonight 💖
Lets talk bodies...
Probably one of the most sensitive subjects for me but I feel this journey is helping massively. For the first time in ages I am not on a diet with the goal of shrinking my body but instead its all about health and fitness.
Honestly we can be so unkind to ourselves when on a weight loss journey - I know I am. Daily weighing, picking apart your body and starving it of calories and nutrients are just some of the things we do during dieting.
There isn't many parts if my body I do like especially my chunky thighs and jiggly belly! When my friend sent me this picture from a recent walk I instantly sighed at "size of my thighs" but now I'm thinking without these thighs I wouldn't be able to do all the walking and exercise I do. Us girls were brought up in a society where the pop-culture news told us thick thighs, any fat on your body, cellulite etc etc were something to be ashamed of. Why should I be ashamed if my strong legs when they give me so much? Why should I feel less worthy because I have a belly? I'm a size 12 but does that number dictate who I am? No. If you are healthy and happy then what does aesthetics really mean. Health is not a size, its a lifestyle!
I am loving watching the body postivity movement, seeing models like @theashleygraham be such great role models, browsing the healthy lifestyle instas and seeing mainstream media portray women as much more than just a body (shout out to the incredible Wonder Woman)! For my own mentally this change of journey is fantastic. Although I will always have my many body hang ups and hates, I am trying so much harder to be kind to myself. If you can't embrace your body atleast know you're worth is not determined by it and be thankful to it for all it allows you do in life 😊 Also keep away from people who are negative or narrow minded when it comes to body standards - ain't nobody got time for that😂