What a shit shit night!!!! The father of my one year old/ my ex turned up at my house and got in this evening. He got wasted and threatened to fuck me up with a kitchen knife. He said some really cruel abusive things to me again. He got so drunk and was fading in and out of his state. I saw more girls messages popping up on his phone after months of saying he was going to prove himself. He used to be very physically abusive and manipulative to me. I found out he was a big time cheat having a second 8 month relationship from when i was 6 months pregnant. He got into a relationship with me while he was still with his ex. Plus multiple one night stands and booty calls. Tonight while he was out of it i looked through every inch of his phone and ive never been so disgusted. Hes been sleeping with multiple more women. Some who said they where in love with my ex and sobbing on the phone. None of them knew about me being his gf of 3 years and he denied having a child to everyone or said she was a cousin or his mum was babysitting. Hes had sex with a women nearly 60y/o. And multiple acting dating websites. Basically everything you can think of... he’s done it. All while he was convincing me to get back with him and how he was a changed man. Im going to get a restraining order against him asap and get him as far away from me and my daughter as possible. He is poison and he is dangerous. #cheat#liar#backstabber#affair#relationship#mentalhealth#serialcheater#low#depressed#embarrassed#stabintheback#slapintheface#nevergoingback#movingforward#restrainingorder#single#bpd#ocd#depression#anxiety#suicidalthoughts#selfharm#panic#panicattacks#panicattack#nosleep#insomniac
Honestly this wasn’t even a full week of school and I’m already over this semester. It’s been a shitty week and I just wanna go home. Pulled rlly skinny ergos today and tbh im #embarrassed . One of my babies back at home is really ill and I just wanna cuddle with him forever, but it’s Friday and I got to FaceTime some of my other beans so that’s what’s getting me through today. Stay tuned to see if I survive the semester or not 🤷♀️
Here's the wind outfit design to my fantasy world. So I guess I'll explain why there are elements.
So, in this world.(god, I'm embarrassed) there are element knights. Not everyone in this world has magic, so the ones that are "blessed" with the element magic become knights for the royals. They have a symbol and certain way they dress. (did this make sense?) they are also look upon as high ranking in the world. They rank higher than the seamstress. Though they don't know who seamstress really is.
Man, underwear shopping at Wal-Mart is the worst. First, you have to aim STRAIGHT for the underwear and bras you want so you don't look like a moron, like you don't know what your own fucking size is. Then you gotta make sure there's no guys from your school around, you have to find a woman cashier who won't judge you for buying the underwear at Wal-Mart... It's fucking humiliating lol #walmart#peopleofwalmart#humiliated#embarrassed#ohthehumanity#whyme
What a disappointing morning.
I was super "pumped" to go to Body Pump this morning. I planned it all out and got there early and was really looking forward to it.
Then I got a really bad migraine as soon as I got to the gym (day 18 of horrible headaches by the way- what is wrong with me?). I got so dizzy while setting up my weights that I fell and smacked my jaw on my bench. I didn't think it was safe to continue so I sat in the back of the class and just watched 😣 And all the really skinny and fit girls in the class were saying all these super horrible imaginary things about me in their heads (or so I was imagining). I just feel defeated and embarrassed and like I never want to show my face there again.