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๐ŸŒฆ. I'm very quickly turning into a Lego addict ๐Ÿ™ˆ
It's such a great distraction! Which is why I'm cracking it out tonight ๐Ÿ˜ฃ
I'm having one of those days where you don't know what's up you can just feel yourself imploding...
The sooner I move out the better. This house has always been one of my biggest triggers.
I felt ok when I got home after New Year but it hasn't taken long...
Self destructive behaviours have been sneaking there way back in and I can't let them. Not now.
I had such a lovely day with my girls yesterday so why do I feel like this today?!?!
The harder I try and fight it the worse it gets
Why do I always go into flight mode at nothing, just want to run away so bad... maybe I'll look at where to go travelling this year... ๐Ÿ™‡โ€โ™€๏ธ
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๐ŸŒฆ. I'm very quickly turning into a Lego addict ๐Ÿ™ˆ It's such a great distraction! Which is why I'm cracking it out tonight ๐Ÿ˜ฃ I'm having one of those days where you don't know what's up you can just feel yourself imploding... The sooner I move out the better. This house has always been one of my biggest triggers. I felt ok when I got home after New Year but it hasn't taken long... Self destructive behaviours have been sneaking there way back in and I can't let them. Not now. I had such a lovely day with my girls yesterday so why do I feel like this today?!?! The harder I try and fight it the worse it gets Why do I always go into flight mode at nothing, just want to run away so bad... maybe I'll look at where to go travelling this year... ๐Ÿ™‡โ€โ™€๏ธ ๐Ÿ™‡โ€โ™€๏ธ ๐Ÿ™‡โ€โ™€๏ธ #mentalhealth  #selfharn  #bpd  #borderline  #borderlinepersonalitydisorder  #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder  #eupd  #bingeeatingdisorder  #anxiety  #depression  #disparnumerophobia  #bulima  #endthestigmaofmentalhealth  #endthestigma  #legotherapy  #lego 
You ever feel like your whole life is falling apart around you and all you can do is watch? That you have to let people in life go just to ensure their happiness? Life is truly unfair, feels like for months I've been standing at the top of a cliff helping people who were falling off to get back up and once they were all up and safe they pushed me off. In the space of two days I feel like I've lost complete control of my life, moving out of my house and looking for somewhere to live, realising you only have a couple of true real friends, having to break your own heart just so you don't end up ruining someone else's because theirs matters more and all because of someone else who seems to sail through, only upside is that I've gotten myself a job so hopefully it's a step in things getting better? Any advice or positivity is welcome because I've never felt so alone ๐ŸŒธ๐Ÿƒ #alone #stressed #drowning #headisgoingtoexplode #ontheedge #down #depressed #sad #ruined #needsomepositivity #onacliff #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #bpd #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder #worldcollapsing #thingsbetterlookup #sorry #broken #upset #done #donetrying #stillneedsomehelp #needhelp #helpme #imdone #ineedyoupups
You ever feel like your whole life is falling apart around you and all you can do is watch? That you have to let people in life go just to ensure their happiness? Life is truly unfair, feels like for months I've been standing at the top of a cliff helping people who were falling off to get back up and once they were all up and safe they pushed me off. In the space of two days I feel like I've lost complete control of my life, moving out of my house and looking for somewhere to live, realising you only have a couple of true real friends, having to break your own heart just so you don't end up ruining someone else's because theirs matters more and all because of someone else who seems to sail through, only upside is that I've gotten myself a job so hopefully it's a step in things getting better? Any advice or positivity is welcome because I've never felt so alone ๐ŸŒธ๐Ÿƒ #alone  #stressed  #drowning  #headisgoingtoexplode  #ontheedge  #down  #depressed  #sad  #ruined  #needsomepositivity  #onacliff  #borderlinepersonalitydisorder  #bpd  #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder  #worldcollapsing  #thingsbetterlookup  #sorry  #broken  #upset  #done  #donetrying  #stillneedsomehelp  #needhelp  #helpme  #imdone  #ineedyoupups 
I have been having a lot of suicidal thoughts recently, struggling with flashbacks and such, things that happened in the week and then yesterdayโ€™s news has saddened my heart even more. I feel like โ€œholding it togetherโ€ is the only thing I am managing to do at the moment. And that itโ€™s completely okay, because I know when Iโ€™m ready Iโ€™ll reconnect with the real world again. ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿป๐Ÿ’•
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I have been having a lot of suicidal thoughts recently, struggling with flashbacks and such, things that happened in the week and then yesterdayโ€™s news has saddened my heart even more. I feel like โ€œholding it togetherโ€ is the only thing I am managing to do at the moment. And that itโ€™s completely okay, because I know when Iโ€™m ready Iโ€™ll reconnect with the real world again. ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿป๐Ÿ’• * * * * * * * * #mentalhealth  #mentalillness  #mentalhealthawareness  #depression  #depressed  #anxiety  #anxious  #PTSD  #trauma  #bpd  #eupd  #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder  #borderlinepersonalitydisorder  #personalitydisorder  #suicidal  #suicidalthoughts  #brave  #survive  #struggle  #survivor  #therapy  #relapse  #voices  #dissociation  #keepgoing  #staystrong  #strength  #recover  #recovery 
Iโ€™ve been having a lot of suicidal thoughts recently, things that happened in the week, and then yesterdayโ€™s news has saddened my heart even more. I feel like โ€œholding it togetherโ€ is the only thing I am managing to do atm. And that itโ€™s completely okay, because I know when Iโ€™m ready Iโ€™ll reconnect with the real world again. I just need time. If youโ€™re reading this to the end, remember not to be so hard on yourself. We are doing the best we can. ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿป๐Ÿ’•
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#mentalhealth #mentalillness #mentalhealthawareness #depression #depressed #anxiety #anxious #PTSD #trauma #bpd #eupd #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #personalitydisorder #suicidal #suicidalthoughts #brave #survive #struggle #survivor #therapy #relapse #voices #dissociation #keepgoing #staystrong #strength #recover #recovery
Iโ€™ve been having a lot of suicidal thoughts recently, things that happened in the week, and then yesterdayโ€™s news has saddened my heart even more. I feel like โ€œholding it togetherโ€ is the only thing I am managing to do atm. And that itโ€™s completely okay, because I know when Iโ€™m ready Iโ€™ll reconnect with the real world again. I just need time. If youโ€™re reading this to the end, remember not to be so hard on yourself. We are doing the best we can. ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿป๐Ÿ’• * * * * * * * * * * #mentalhealth  #mentalillness  #mentalhealthawareness  #depression  #depressed  #anxiety  #anxious  #PTSD  #trauma  #bpd  #eupd  #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder  #borderlinepersonalitydisorder  #personalitydisorder  #suicidal  #suicidalthoughts  #brave  #survive  #struggle  #survivor  #therapy  #relapse  #voices  #dissociation  #keepgoing  #staystrong  #strength  #recover  #recovery 
Let it snow โ„โ„โ„ I took a walk (despite that I don't really like winter) and everytime my mind was telling me to go back home due to anxiety, I went further, proving myself only I can set my limits which workes well from my mental health and my body. Which one of my current goals. I've been exercising over two weeks now and honestly... I am getting addicted. It makes me more stable and calmer, plus I'd like to get a better physique.
 I hope I won't quit as I am getting anxious about getting outpatient and I need something like this in the 'real' world. Things that make me feel glad I am alive. ๐Ÿ’–โœŠ๐Ÿ’ช #amateurphotography #amateurphotographer #winter #onthewalk #view #clouds #snow #naturelover #winter #naturelover #beautybynature #calming #therapeutic #relaxing #takingphotos #instaphoto #instashoot #photosofinstagram #bpd #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder #eupd #mentalhealth #coldoutside #amateur #hobby #loveit #selfcare #inpatient #anxious #instamood #whatsup
Let it snow โ„โ„โ„ I took a walk (despite that I don't really like winter) and everytime my mind was telling me to go back home due to anxiety, I went further, proving myself only I can set my limits which workes well from my mental health and my body. Which one of my current goals. I've been exercising over two weeks now and honestly... I am getting addicted. It makes me more stable and calmer, plus I'd like to get a better physique. I hope I won't quit as I am getting anxious about getting outpatient and I need something like this in the 'real' world. Things that make me feel glad I am alive. ๐Ÿ’–โœŠ๐Ÿ’ช #amateurphotography  #amateurphotographer  #winter  #onthewalk  #view  #clouds  #snow  #naturelover  #winter  #naturelover  #beautybynature  #calming  #therapeutic  #relaxing  #takingphotos  #instaphoto  #instashoot  #photosofinstagram  #bpd  #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder  #eupd  #mentalhealth  #coldoutside  #amateur  #hobby  #loveit  #selfcare  #inpatient  #anxious  #instamood  #whatsup 
Sorry I've been silent. I wasn't well and things escalated very quickly. I think I just needed some time away from the mental health community after that but I'm back now in a bit more stable mindset and my dms are back open again โค

#eupd #bpd #anxiety #depression #recovery #relapse #mentalhealth health #selfharm #ed #ana #inpatient #mentalhealthawaremess #beatthestigma #bong #weed #bipolar #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #borderline #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder #recoveryquit
Sorry I've been silent. I wasn't well and things escalated very quickly. I think I just needed some time away from the mental health community after that but I'm back now in a bit more stable mindset and my dms are back open again โค #eupd  #bpd  #anxiety  #depression  #recovery  #relapse  #mentalhealth  health #selfharm  #ed  #ana  #inpatient  #mentalhealthawaremess  #beatthestigma  #bong  #weed  #bipolar  #borderlinepersonalitydisorder  #borderline  #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder  #recoveryquit 
important to keep in mind
important to keep in mind
How do I look so good without looking properly in the mirror today? ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜„
Also, I have news. To those who have no idea, I am being discharged from hospital in two! weeks. Still can't believe it myself. 
This weekend I am spending home by my parents. (Tomorrow I am going back to hospital where is no such thing as Wi-fi and I've ran out of mobile data so I'm gonna be less active.) Today, I've been working out hell of me before breakfast, then I've prepared delish brunch to myself, so healthy comparing with the food in the ward; wanted to take a picture of it but I am not really that type of person ๐Ÿ˜„. Then I've been working whole afternoon on my math exams from Maths and did all those tests in one day, was worrying about it so much but done well; which is weird because I hate this subject; so I tried not to think about it too much. I think it worked! ๐Ÿ˜Š My brain was telling me to cry or scream but I did neither. I fought these #thoughts and my illness- fuck you, #bpd.
#Exhausted & #proud of myself ๐Ÿ’•

#borderlinepersonalitydisorder #eupd #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder #warrior #recovery #inpatient #excited #instamood #feelingbeautiful #tired #mentalhealth #mentalillness #awareness #workout #workoutlover #nomakeup #czechgirl #mentallyill #howifeel #instaphoto #instagirl #glowing #calm #relaxed #noworries
How do I look so good without looking properly in the mirror today? ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜„ Also, I have news. To those who have no idea, I am being discharged from hospital in two! weeks. Still can't believe it myself. This weekend I am spending home by my parents. (Tomorrow I am going back to hospital where is no such thing as Wi-fi and I've ran out of mobile data so I'm gonna be less active.) Today, I've been working out hell of me before breakfast, then I've prepared delish brunch to myself, so healthy comparing with the food in the ward; wanted to take a picture of it but I am not really that type of person ๐Ÿ˜„. Then I've been working whole afternoon on my math exams from Maths and did all those tests in one day, was worrying about it so much but done well; which is weird because I hate this subject; so I tried not to think about it too much. I think it worked! ๐Ÿ˜Š My brain was telling me to cry or scream but I did neither. I fought these #thoughts  and my illness- fuck you, #bpd . #Exhausted  & #proud  of myself ๐Ÿ’• #borderlinepersonalitydisorder  #eupd  #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder  #warrior  #recovery  #inpatient  #excited  #instamood  #feelingbeautiful  #tired  #mentalhealth  #mentalillness  #awareness  #workout  #workoutlover  #nomakeup  #czechgirl  #mentallyill  #howifeel  #instaphoto  #instagirl  #glowing  #calm  #relaxed  #noworries 
Another day in this shit world. With a shitty mood. But music is a good way for me to express myself. I canโ€™t sing so donโ€™t worry Iโ€™m not going to try but finding a song that brings out how u feel. Anyway Cmht been round telling me I have to work with them or go under crisis team. I donโ€™t want to go under crisis team. And I donโ€™t donโ€™t donโ€™t want to be put back in hospital. So just got to work with them I guess. Anyway hope ur all ok. 
#depressed #depressedepisode #mooddisorder #bipolar #bipolardisorder #bipolardepression #bipolaraffectivedisorder #bpd #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #eupd #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder
Another day in this shit world. With a shitty mood. But music is a good way for me to express myself. I canโ€™t sing so donโ€™t worry Iโ€™m not going to try but finding a song that brings out how u feel. Anyway Cmht been round telling me I have to work with them or go under crisis team. I donโ€™t want to go under crisis team. And I donโ€™t donโ€™t donโ€™t want to be put back in hospital. So just got to work with them I guess. Anyway hope ur all ok. #depressed  #depressedepisode  #mooddisorder  #bipolar  #bipolardisorder  #bipolardepression  #bipolaraffectivedisorder  #bpd  #borderlinepersonalitydisorder  #eupd  #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder 
Banana bread and soy latte yesterday. ๐Ÿ˜‹ 
My moods been really up and down but Iโ€™m coping. Celebrating the small victories like having a bath or taking my meds as prescribed. On Monday I have my review with my CPN and the community psychiatrist, wish me luck ๐Ÿ™ˆ๐Ÿ’—.
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Banana bread and soy latte yesterday. ๐Ÿ˜‹ My moods been really up and down but Iโ€™m coping. Celebrating the small victories like having a bath or taking my meds as prescribed. On Monday I have my review with my CPN and the community psychiatrist, wish me luck ๐Ÿ™ˆ๐Ÿ’—. โ€ขโ€ขโ€ข #screw100caloriesnacks ๐Ÿซ #nutrientsnotnumbers  #balancednotclean  #selfcare  #recovery  #nourishnotpunish  #nourishtoflourish  #edrecovery  #mentalillness  #mentalhealth  #eatingdisorder  #mentalhealthawareness  #bpd  #eupd  #borderlinepersonalitydisorder  #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder  #vegan  #veganrecovery  #healthyeating  #intuitiveeating  #nondiet 
@Regranned from @bpd_living_not_existing -  Ever wonder what others see? Whether they are fooled by the "I'm doing much better" and "I'm just tired today" lines? Whether they sense that in reality you're dying inside and using every last ounce of energy you have to keep the mask in place? ๐ŸŒน Why do we do this? Who are we protecting? Why are we protecting them from our pain? Afraid of bring judged? Possibly. But when you're so tired of fighting that concern often disappears. Is it because seeing our own pain reflected back at us in someone else's eyes would be too much to bear? ๐ŸŒน
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#depression #anxiety #scars #whoami #bpd #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #eupd #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder - #regrann
@Regranned from @bpd_living_not_existing - Ever wonder what others see? Whether they are fooled by the "I'm doing much better" and "I'm just tired today" lines? Whether they sense that in reality you're dying inside and using every last ounce of energy you have to keep the mask in place? ๐ŸŒน Why do we do this? Who are we protecting? Why are we protecting them from our pain? Afraid of bring judged? Possibly. But when you're so tired of fighting that concern often disappears. Is it because seeing our own pain reflected back at us in someone else's eyes would be too much to bear? ๐ŸŒน . . . #depression  #anxiety  #scars  #whoami  #bpd  #borderlinepersonalitydisorder  #eupd  #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder  - #regrann 
Texting with bpd is hard! Because when no tone or a neutral tone is present, we tend to mistake that for anger! Iโ€™ve made strides with my therapy and learning how not to assume everyone is angry. But itโ€™s hard. Thankfully, Iโ€™ve got loads of experience to look back on to say โ€œok, theyโ€™re probably not angry.โ€ These thoughts have to be challenged or they will rule you! I spent so long living in fear of what other people would say. I didnโ€™t know how to interpret tones correctly. But through hard work Iโ€™ve learned, and so can you!
Texting with bpd is hard! Because when no tone or a neutral tone is present, we tend to mistake that for anger! Iโ€™ve made strides with my therapy and learning how not to assume everyone is angry. But itโ€™s hard. Thankfully, Iโ€™ve got loads of experience to look back on to say โ€œok, theyโ€™re probably not angry.โ€ These thoughts have to be challenged or they will rule you! I spent so long living in fear of what other people would say. I didnโ€™t know how to interpret tones correctly. But through hard work Iโ€™ve learned, and so can you!
Everything has taken a really bad turn over the past couple of days and all of the excitement and happiness is gone. I feel so depressed, lost and weak. But I know Iโ€™m stronger than this. I canโ€™t give up. I just canโ€™t. ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿป๐Ÿ’•
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Everything has taken a really bad turn over the past couple of days and all of the excitement and happiness is gone. I feel so depressed, lost and weak. But I know Iโ€™m stronger than this. I canโ€™t give up. I just canโ€™t. ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿป๐Ÿ’• * * * * * * * * * * #mentalhealth  #mentalillness  #mentalhealthawareness  #depression  #depressed  #anxiety  #anxious  #PTSD  #trauma  #bpd  #eupd  #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder  #borderlinepersonalitydisorder  #personalitydisorder  #suicidal  #suicidalthoughts  #brave  #survive  #struggle  #survivor  #therapy  #relapse  #voices  #dissociation  #keepgoing  #staystrong  #strength  #recover  #recovery 
First attempt at acrylic pouring. Look a bit rubbish but so calming and mindful to do ๐ŸŒน๐ŸŒน๐ŸŒน #bpd #eupd #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder #mindfulness #acrylic pouring #selfcare #depression #suicide #artlove
So on Wednesday I failed. But itโ€™s time to get back up again. If only itโ€™s that easy. Iโ€™m still depressed very low. Very sad and hopeless. So tired all the time. Everything is so dark and scary. Anyway hope ur all coping!!!! #depressed #depressedepisode #bpd #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #eupd #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder #bipolar #bipolardisorder
Why push so hard for a bpd diagnosis? Well, before I had heard of bpd, I was a mess. I was constantly exploding or imploding with anger. I could hardly keep it all inside of me. It would slip put around the one I cared for, and it would hurt me to see them hurt. Then I learned what bpd was, and it all added up. The DSM criteria fit me perfectly. So why did I end up arguing with therapists about it if I fit the description so perfectly? Itโ€™s a lack of knowledge about the disorder. Itโ€™s the stigma against us. Therapists donโ€™t want us. Or understand us. I had a therapist tell me bpd was the criteria for npd. Which are two very different illnesses. So I will fight to bring awareness of this disease, because suffering with unknown bpd is an eternal hell.
Why push so hard for a bpd diagnosis? Well, before I had heard of bpd, I was a mess. I was constantly exploding or imploding with anger. I could hardly keep it all inside of me. It would slip put around the one I cared for, and it would hurt me to see them hurt. Then I learned what bpd was, and it all added up. The DSM criteria fit me perfectly. So why did I end up arguing with therapists about it if I fit the description so perfectly? Itโ€™s a lack of knowledge about the disorder. Itโ€™s the stigma against us. Therapists donโ€™t want us. Or understand us. I had a therapist tell me bpd was the criteria for npd. Which are two very different illnesses. So I will fight to bring awareness of this disease, because suffering with unknown bpd is an eternal hell.
#tb to summer and beautiful flowers ๐ŸŒบ it may be dark now, icy cold and grim, but just as Night will turn to day, darkness will warm to light. Keep fighting beauties, plough through and don't give up. Plant your seeds now, however small, I promise they will flower you in to the most gorgeous intricate flower.  Struggling bit atm tbh, food is increasingly hard and my mood is rock bottem. My brain is so loud, I can barely function, old habits are all coming back and I'm not sure how to stop it. Top it off just found out I can't go to psychologist today as they forgot to book patient transport ๐Ÿ™Œ care co tomorrow but she don't understand anything. (TW, apparently I've been suicidal for a long time now so 'what's new?'....) never the less, no matter how low I feel, I'm not giving up. Not now. Today I refuse to let the voices win. Today I refuse to give in to my brain. Today I will get through. And that's ok. Keep fighting lovelies, please don't give up. You deserve life and happiness, you don't have to believe me. It's not what you believe, you are precious no matter what you believe. Hugs and support to everyone ๐Ÿ’—๐ŸŒบ๐ŸŒบโœจ don't be afraid to plant that seed ๐ŸŒบ๐ŸŒบ #flowers #beautiful #loveyourbody #youareworthit #recovery #dark #light #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder #eupd #bpd #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #depression #mentalhealth #mentalillness #mentalhealthawareness #positivevibes #struggle #itsokaytonotbeokay #hope #dontgiveup #prorecovery
#tb  to summer and beautiful flowers ๐ŸŒบ it may be dark now, icy cold and grim, but just as Night will turn to day, darkness will warm to light. Keep fighting beauties, plough through and don't give up. Plant your seeds now, however small, I promise they will flower you in to the most gorgeous intricate flower. Struggling bit atm tbh, food is increasingly hard and my mood is rock bottem. My brain is so loud, I can barely function, old habits are all coming back and I'm not sure how to stop it. Top it off just found out I can't go to psychologist today as they forgot to book patient transport ๐Ÿ™Œ care co tomorrow but she don't understand anything. (TW, apparently I've been suicidal for a long time now so 'what's new?'....) never the less, no matter how low I feel, I'm not giving up. Not now. Today I refuse to let the voices win. Today I refuse to give in to my brain. Today I will get through. And that's ok. Keep fighting lovelies, please don't give up. You deserve life and happiness, you don't have to believe me. It's not what you believe, you are precious no matter what you believe. Hugs and support to everyone ๐Ÿ’—๐ŸŒบ๐ŸŒบโœจ don't be afraid to plant that seed ๐ŸŒบ๐ŸŒบ #flowers  #beautiful  #loveyourbody  #youareworthit  #recovery  #dark  #light  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder  #eupd  #bpd  #borderlinepersonalitydisorder  #depression  #mentalhealth  #mentalillness  #mentalhealthawareness  #positivevibes  #struggle  #itsokaytonotbeokay  #hope  #dontgiveup  #prorecovery 
Canโ€™t stop crying. Having such a bad nightmares relating to trauma anyone have any tips I have uni in the morning I really canโ€™t spend the night crying ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญI ducking hate PTSD. #nightmares #trauma #ptsd #posttraumaticstressdisorder #eupd #emotionallyunstablepersonotydisorder #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder #eupd #bpd #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #mentallyill #mentalillness #crying #takeitaway
Time to let go.
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I hold on.
I hold on to the things no longer good for me.
I hold on for longer than I should.
I hold on tighter than I should.
I hold on because it feels worth the pain.
I hold on because I am scared.
I hold on because I donโ€™t want to lose myself in the process of letting go.
I hold on.
I hold on.
I let go.
I let go of the things holding me back.
I let go of the heaviness and it is easier to breathe.
I let go and I learn from things.
I let go and I find the one thing I was scared of losing.
I let go and I find me.
I let go.
I let go.
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#bpdrecovery #gaininglife #outpatient #outpatientrecovery #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #recovery #anawarrior #anorexia #anafighter #adultwithed #eatingdisorder #mentalhealth #hope #eatittobeatit #2fab4ana #togetherwecan #recoveryispossible #recoveryisworthit #eatingdisorder #togetherwewill #anorexiarecovery #eatingdisorderecovery #edfighter #edrecovery #bpd #eupd
Time to let go. โ€ข I hold on. I hold on to the things no longer good for me. I hold on for longer than I should. I hold on tighter than I should. I hold on because it feels worth the pain. I hold on because I am scared. I hold on because I donโ€™t want to lose myself in the process of letting go. I hold on. I hold on. I let go. I let go of the things holding me back. I let go of the heaviness and it is easier to breathe. I let go and I learn from things. I let go and I find the one thing I was scared of losing. I let go and I find me. I let go. I let go. โ€ข #bpdrecovery  #gaininglife  #outpatient  #outpatientrecovery  #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder  #borderlinepersonalitydisorder  #recovery  #anawarrior  #anorexia  #anafighter  #adultwithed  #eatingdisorder  #mentalhealth  #hope  #eatittobeatit  #2fab4ana  #togetherwecan  #recoveryispossible  #recoveryisworthit  #eatingdisorder  #togetherwewill  #anorexiarecovery  #eatingdisorderecovery  #edfighter  #edrecovery  #bpd  #eupd 
I always get excited when we get flyers delivered! 
These are for our new Art Group for people with BPD! The first one is in just over a week - on Friday 26th January.  We canโ€™t wait! Hope to see you there! 
#borderlinepersonalitydisorder #mentalhealth #recovery #identity #positivity #creative #art #confidence #derby #bpd #eupd #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder
Iโ€™m doing okay at the moment. Work is going well and busy and my weight is okay ish. Could be lower but itโ€™s not high enough to make me wanna purge. Love to all my insta fighters ๐Ÿ’• we can do this recovery thing together xxx ps this is me and my Blanky even tho Iโ€™m 25 hehe #bpd #eupd #depression #anxiety #ed #ednos #bulimia #purginganorexia #edfam #edrecovery #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder #mentalhealth #mentalillness #mentalwellness
Iโ€™m doing okay at the moment. Work is going well and busy and my weight is okay ish. Could be lower but itโ€™s not high enough to make me wanna purge. Love to all my insta fighters ๐Ÿ’• we can do this recovery thing together xxx ps this is me and my Blanky even tho Iโ€™m 25 hehe #bpd  #eupd  #depression  #anxiety  #ed  #ednos  #bulimia  #purginganorexia  #edfam  #edrecovery  #borderlinepersonalitydisorder  #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder  #mentalhealth  #mentalillness  #mentalwellness 
If i can be this for you, my life has meaning and purpose. I love you and am here to guide your way. โค -J๐Ÿ‘ฆ๐Ÿป
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#light #path #lighthouse #storm #mentalhealthawareness
#mentalhealth #mentalillness #wellness #wellbeing #support #love #bpd #bipolar #Borderlinepersonalitydisorder #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder
Around this time, every year for the last nearly 5 years, it is always the most triggering time. Even when I try not to think about things, the flashbacks are always the worst. For the most part of the next couple of weeks, Iโ€™m normally battling flashbacks and sh. And although that is still all very real, this year I feel like I have a lot more strength.  Today was one of those rough days, but I decided to put on some make up and took a smiley selfie to remind myself that even though the next couple of weeks will be tough, Iโ€™m not that broken person I was 5 years ago. I refuse to let what happened to me, destroy me. He will not break me any longer and I will continue to grow stronger. ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿป๐Ÿ’•
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#mentalhealth #mentalillness #mentalhealthawareness #depression #depressed #anxiety #metoo #PTSD #trauma #bpd #eupd #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #personalitydisorder #suicidal #suicidalthoughts #brave #survive #struggle #survivor #therapy #relapse #voices #dissociation #keepgoing #staystrong #strength #recover #recovery
Around this time, every year for the last nearly 5 years, it is always the most triggering time. Even when I try not to think about things, the flashbacks are always the worst. For the most part of the next couple of weeks, Iโ€™m normally battling flashbacks and sh. And although that is still all very real, this year I feel like I have a lot more strength. Today was one of those rough days, but I decided to put on some make up and took a smiley selfie to remind myself that even though the next couple of weeks will be tough, Iโ€™m not that broken person I was 5 years ago. I refuse to let what happened to me, destroy me. He will not break me any longer and I will continue to grow stronger. ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿป๐Ÿ’• * * * * * * * #mentalhealth  #mentalillness  #mentalhealthawareness  #depression  #depressed  #anxiety  #metoo  #PTSD  #trauma  #bpd  #eupd  #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder  #borderlinepersonalitydisorder  #personalitydisorder  #suicidal  #suicidalthoughts  #brave  #survive  #struggle  #survivor  #therapy  #relapse  #voices  #dissociation  #keepgoing  #staystrong  #strength  #recover  #recovery 
Around this time, every year for the last nearly 5 years, it is always the most triggering time. Even when I try not to think about things, the flashbacks are always the worst. For the most part of the next couple of weeks, Iโ€™m normally battling flashbacks and sh. And although that is still all very real, this year I feel like I have a lot more strength.  Today was one of those rough days, but I decided to put on some make up and took a smiley selfie to remind myself that even though the next couple of weeks will be tough, Iโ€™m not that broken person I was 5 years ago. I refuse to let what happened to me, destroy me. He will not break me any longer and I will continue to grow stronger. ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿป๐Ÿ’•
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#mentalhealth #mentalillness #mentalhealthawareness #depression #depressed #anxiety #metoo #PTSD #trauma #bpd #eupd #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #personalitydisorder #suicidal #suicidalthoughts #brave #survive #struggle #survivor #therapy #relapse #voices #dissociation #keepgoing #staystrong #strength #recover #recovery
Around this time, every year for the last nearly 5 years, it is always the most triggering time. Even when I try not to think about things, the flashbacks are always the worst. For the most part of the next couple of weeks, Iโ€™m normally battling flashbacks and sh. And although that is still all very real, this year I feel like I have a lot more strength. Today was one of those rough days, but I decided to put on some make up and took a smiley selfie to remind myself that even though the next couple of weeks will be tough, Iโ€™m not that broken person I was 5 years ago. I refuse to let what happened to me, destroy me. He will not break me any longer and I will continue to grow stronger. ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿป๐Ÿ’• * * * * * * * #mentalhealth  #mentalillness  #mentalhealthawareness  #depression  #depressed  #anxiety  #metoo  #PTSD  #trauma  #bpd  #eupd  #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder  #borderlinepersonalitydisorder  #personalitydisorder  #suicidal  #suicidalthoughts  #brave  #survive  #struggle  #survivor  #therapy  #relapse  #voices  #dissociation  #keepgoing  #staystrong  #strength  #recover  #recovery 
Was discharged a week ago tomorrow and as much as i hate to say it, i really dont think i was ready! Theres so much i want to update you all on, but i need to do it when im ready. At the moment im still trying to process all of whats happened in the last few months, but now im out of hospital, i will try and post more again 
#recurrentdepressivedisorder #depressed #depression #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder #borederlinepersonalitydisorder #bpd #eupd #ptsd #posttraumaticstressdisorder #inpatient #suicide #suicidal #suicidalthoughts #selfharmmm #psychotic #anxiety #voices #voicesinmyhead
Was discharged a week ago tomorrow and as much as i hate to say it, i really dont think i was ready! Theres so much i want to update you all on, but i need to do it when im ready. At the moment im still trying to process all of whats happened in the last few months, but now im out of hospital, i will try and post more again #recurrentdepressivedisorder  #depressed  #depression  #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder  #borederlinepersonalitydisorder  #bpd  #eupd  #ptsd  #posttraumaticstressdisorder  #inpatient  #suicide  #suicidal  #suicidalthoughts  #selfharmmm  #psychotic  #anxiety  #voices  #voicesinmyhead 
Donโ€™t kill my vibe โœŒ๐Ÿผ
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Being self(ish) isnโ€™t selfish. Itโ€™s ok to put yourself as your priority. To do the things that make you happy, make you feel stronger. So aerial hoop lesson at @aerialinspirations followed by an evening with @baskitcase (and dominos pizza) before heading off to Choir is my self(ish) day. And now I feel a bit more able to cope with the weight of the world Iโ€™m currently carrying.
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#bpdrecovery #gaininglife #outpatient #outpatientrecovery #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #recovery #anawarrior #anorexia #anafighter #adultwithed #eatingdisorder #mentalhealth #hope #eatittobeatit #2fab4ana #togetherwecan #recoveryispossible #recoveryisworthit #eatingdisorder #togetherwewill #anorexiarecovery #eatingdisorderecovery #edfighter #edrecovery #bpd #eupd
Donโ€™t kill my vibe โœŒ๐Ÿผ โ€ข Being self(ish) isnโ€™t selfish. Itโ€™s ok to put yourself as your priority. To do the things that make you happy, make you feel stronger. So aerial hoop lesson at @aerialinspirations followed by an evening with @baskitcase (and dominos pizza) before heading off to Choir is my self(ish) day. And now I feel a bit more able to cope with the weight of the world Iโ€™m currently carrying. โ€ข #bpdrecovery  #gaininglife  #outpatient  #outpatientrecovery  #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder  #borderlinepersonalitydisorder  #recovery  #anawarrior  #anorexia  #anafighter  #adultwithed  #eatingdisorder  #mentalhealth  #hope  #eatittobeatit  #2fab4ana  #togetherwecan  #recoveryispossible  #recoveryisworthit  #eatingdisorder  #togetherwewill  #anorexiarecovery  #eatingdisorderecovery  #edfighter  #edrecovery  #bpd  #eupd 
Iv had no virtually sleep at all. Today I start back at university after 5 weeks off safe to say Iโ€™m poooped  today is a very long day very long :/ and I have a massive gap from 1030- 3 which sucks but Iโ€™ll use the time productively, physically Iโ€™m in loads of pain. Like a lot :( mentally Iโ€™m struggling so so bad yesterday I managed Tao get a shower after 2 weeks which sounds gross I know :( buT I did it. Iv had incidents but Iโ€™m okayish #early #university #commutelife #fartooearly #itsatoocold #uni #break #5hourgap #eupd #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder #bpd #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #ptsd #posttraumaticstressdisorder #insomnia #insomniac
Iv had no virtually sleep at all. Today I start back at university after 5 weeks off safe to say Iโ€™m poooped today is a very long day very long :/ and I have a massive gap from 1030- 3 which sucks but Iโ€™ll use the time productively, physically Iโ€™m in loads of pain. Like a lot :( mentally Iโ€™m struggling so so bad yesterday I managed Tao get a shower after 2 weeks which sounds gross I know :( buT I did it. Iv had incidents but Iโ€™m okayish #early  #university  #commutelife  #fartooearly  #itsatoocold  #uni  #break  #5hourgap  #eupd  #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder  #bpd  #borderlinepersonalitydisorder  #ptsd  #posttraumaticstressdisorder  #insomnia  #insomniac 
If you haven't watched this I #stonglyrecommend  #greaterthinking #weareallconnected #argons #whatyoubreath #petershadyac #andfamily #greatergood #mentalhealthmadepersonal #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder #allowedmetoseetheworldinabetterlight #strippedbare #memyselfandi #changedourperception #changeforthebetter 
#420ismymedicine #cannabisheals
 #quotesfordays #allmakesense #thisisme โ€œHuman emotionality does create a very real energetic field that radiates from others and other living systems are attuitive to those energetic fields.โ€ #peaceandlove
If you haven't watched this I #stonglyrecommend  #greaterthinking  #weareallconnected  #argons  #whatyoubreath  #petershadyac  #andfamily  #greatergood  #mentalhealthmadepersonal  #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder  #allowedmetoseetheworldinabetterlight  #strippedbare  #memyselfandi  #changedourperception  #changeforthebetter  #420ismymedicine  #cannabisheals  #quotesfordays  #allmakesense  #thisisme  โ€œHuman emotionality does create a very real energetic field that radiates from others and other living systems are attuitive to those energetic fields.โ€ #peaceandlove 
Been focusing so much on the negative lately really unhealthy mental health attitude as I expect and assume things to be a bad thing or that bad things will happen, like a broken record on repeat.

Today I tried harder and had a really great evening where I saw a lightray tear through the darkness, I need to stick to this feeling and remember what love, life and happiness is really about and start more forward rather than back. I can and I will do this. 
I've made so much progress with my weight, diet, goals, relationship, friendships and activism and mental health over the past year that I really need to focus on the good rather than the bad. 
My goals for this year are

Stay with and continue to make the girl that has truly shown me a new passion and light for my life, someone as rare as antimatter and precious as diamonds. I never thought I could get so close to someone in such a short time.

Get back into my regular routine at the gym or at least get out skating more, it's been a terrible time of year for skating.

Learn more 3d modelling and animation so that I can maybe have it as a future pathway.

Get back into regular activism, the animals need us more then we need them and I need to get back out fighting the good fight.

Continue to work in my BPD and to stay separate from my diagnosis so that it doesn't  become me again. Bpd may be the reason for the way o do things but I am not my bpd. 
IMPORTANT remember that past doesn't repeat itself and that I need to keep my present and future separate from my past. In every aspect my life is better now and heading in the best direction I've ever had, stop letting my dead ends ruin it. 
Thank you to my wonderful girlfriend Beth for sticking by me and giving me reassurance, love and happiness even though sometimes I don't deserve it โค. Thank you to my friends and family for always making an effort to understand and having patience with me. (I really needed to vent on Insta like I used to) 
#bpd #borderlinepersonalitydisorder
#eupd #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder
#emotionallyunstable
#mentalyhealth #positive #positivity #mentalhealthawareness #vegan #veganmentalhealth  #health #goal #newyeargoals
Been focusing so much on the negative lately really unhealthy mental health attitude as I expect and assume things to be a bad thing or that bad things will happen, like a broken record on repeat. Today I tried harder and had a really great evening where I saw a lightray tear through the darkness, I need to stick to this feeling and remember what love, life and happiness is really about and start more forward rather than back. I can and I will do this. I've made so much progress with my weight, diet, goals, relationship, friendships and activism and mental health over the past year that I really need to focus on the good rather than the bad. My goals for this year are Stay with and continue to make the girl that has truly shown me a new passion and light for my life, someone as rare as antimatter and precious as diamonds. I never thought I could get so close to someone in such a short time. Get back into my regular routine at the gym or at least get out skating more, it's been a terrible time of year for skating. Learn more 3d modelling and animation so that I can maybe have it as a future pathway. Get back into regular activism, the animals need us more then we need them and I need to get back out fighting the good fight. Continue to work in my BPD and to stay separate from my diagnosis so that it doesn't become me again. Bpd may be the reason for the way o do things but I am not my bpd. IMPORTANT remember that past doesn't repeat itself and that I need to keep my present and future separate from my past. In every aspect my life is better now and heading in the best direction I've ever had, stop letting my dead ends ruin it. Thank you to my wonderful girlfriend Beth for sticking by me and giving me reassurance, love and happiness even though sometimes I don't deserve it โค. Thank you to my friends and family for always making an effort to understand and having patience with me. (I really needed to vent on Insta like I used to) #bpd  #borderlinepersonalitydisorder  #eupd  #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder  #emotionallyunstable  #mentalyhealth  #positive  #positivity  #mentalhealthawareness  #vegan  #veganmentalhealth  #health  #goal  #newyeargoals 
Cuddling with my prickly ball of hate is one of my favourite things to do. Things haven't been great lately but I know that I have my little one to keep me going and help me through my anxiety #animals #hedgie #hedgehogsofinstagram #hedgehog #pets #animaltherapy #selfcare #depression #anxiety #eupd #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder #bpd #mentalhealth #ignorethem #selfharm #cuddles #andrelax
I literally canโ€™t even deal anymore!
How can another human being do this to another!!
LIKE REALLY โ˜๐Ÿผ
Bitch needs to get herself togggeeettthhherrrr
๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚ #bpd #eupd #endos #postnataldepression #postartumdepression #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder #endoswarrior #warrior #fighter #stigmafighter #pndrus #disorderhelpers #depressed #depression #depressed #anxietyqueen #anxiety #anxietydisorder #gad #beyourself #loveyourself #fuckthehaters #mentalhealthvlog #mentaheathvlogger #vlog #sober #gettingsober #sobriety #gettingclean
I literally canโ€™t even deal anymore! How can another human being do this to another!! LIKE REALLY โ˜๐Ÿผ Bitch needs to get herself togggeeettthhherrrr ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚ #bpd  #eupd  #endos  #postnataldepression  #postartumdepression  #borderlinepersonalitydisorder  #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder  #endoswarrior  #warrior  #fighter  #stigmafighter  #pndrus  #disorderhelpers  #depressed  #depression  #depressed  #anxietyqueen  #anxiety  #anxietydisorder  #gad  #beyourself  #loveyourself  #fuckthehaters  #mentalhealthvlog  #mentaheathvlogger  #vlog  #sober  #gettingsober  #sobriety  #gettingclean 
My assessment went really well, should be starting the understanding and managing emotions group either February or March

My head is all over the place after the assessment, just my own issue so I'll say good night and sweet dreams

Until tomorrow where I can post some more crap ๐Ÿ˜‚ ๐Ÿ’ฉ

#managingemotions #understandingemotions #group #nhs #personalitydisorder #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #selfhelp #helpingyourself #goodnight #sleeptight
My assessment went really well, should be starting the understanding and managing emotions group either February or March My head is all over the place after the assessment, just my own issue so I'll say good night and sweet dreams Until tomorrow where I can post some more crap ๐Ÿ˜‚ ๐Ÿ’ฉ #managingemotions  #understandingemotions  #group  #nhs  #personalitydisorder  #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder  #borderlinepersonalitydisorder  #selfhelp  #helpingyourself  #goodnight  #sleeptight 
โ€œBe a warrior.โ€
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When Iโ€™m in a neutral phase bipolar wise, thatโ€™s when BPD really loves to come out and play. The mood swings are so strong. One minute Iโ€™m laying in bed feeling completely empty, and the next Iโ€™m dancing around my room as Iโ€™m doing the laundry, elated. It takes a warrior to deal with life with BPD. No one seems to know how to handle those chronic feelings of emptiness healthily. We try to fill the void inside us with whatever weโ€™ve got. For me, I use social media. But last night, when the emptiness was at its worst, I put down my phone and started to read. It was surprising how the emptiness lifted. I read about mindfulness and got some meditation tips, which is good because Iโ€™m tired of only being able to use the same few meditations on the apps that just want my money. So now, Iโ€™m giving up the apps and meditating on my own.
โ€œBe a warrior.โ€ โ€ข When Iโ€™m in a neutral phase bipolar wise, thatโ€™s when BPD really loves to come out and play. The mood swings are so strong. One minute Iโ€™m laying in bed feeling completely empty, and the next Iโ€™m dancing around my room as Iโ€™m doing the laundry, elated. It takes a warrior to deal with life with BPD. No one seems to know how to handle those chronic feelings of emptiness healthily. We try to fill the void inside us with whatever weโ€™ve got. For me, I use social media. But last night, when the emptiness was at its worst, I put down my phone and started to read. It was surprising how the emptiness lifted. I read about mindfulness and got some meditation tips, which is good because Iโ€™m tired of only being able to use the same few meditations on the apps that just want my money. So now, Iโ€™m giving up the apps and meditating on my own.
A big part of recovery is learning to not allow your past to determine who you will be. Yes the past may be filled with hurt and failings but we can choose to either allow those traumas to destroy us..or we can learn from them and then use all that we have learnt to be better people. An ugly past doesn't take away your beauty. ๐Ÿ’š๐Ÿ’š#mentalhealthawareness  #fightingstigma #depression #anxiety #bpd #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder #suicideprevention #schizophrenia #ptsd #bipolardisorder #postpartumdepression #eatingdisorderrecovery #dbtskills #eupd #blackmentalhealth #blackmentalhealthmatters #stigmaresistance #therapy #psychology #psychiatry  #dbtskills #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #selfharmawareness #generalisedanxietydisorder
A big part of recovery is learning to not allow your past to determine who you will be. Yes the past may be filled with hurt and failings but we can choose to either allow those traumas to destroy us..or we can learn from them and then use all that we have learnt to be better people. An ugly past doesn't take away your beauty. ๐Ÿ’š๐Ÿ’š#mentalhealthawareness  #fightingstigma  #depression  #anxiety  #bpd  #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder  #suicideprevention  #schizophrenia  #ptsd  #bipolardisorder  #postpartumdepression  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #dbtskills  #eupd  #blackmentalhealth  #blackmentalhealthmatters  #stigmaresistance  #therapy  #psychology  #psychiatry  #dbtskills  #borderlinepersonalitydisorder  #selfharmawareness  #generalisedanxietydisorder 
Bus selfie ๐Ÿš ๐Ÿคณ๐Ÿป๐Ÿ˜‚ On way to my assessment via #x4 #x4bus #x4busroute

Trying to keep my anxiety at bay, hopefully no tears ๐Ÿ˜ญ

#bus #selfie #ihatebuses #numbbum #numbass #tears #anxiety #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #Assesment #journey #northampton
I'm really struggling today. Feeling so many emotions, want to cry, want to scream, everything and everyone is irritating me. I don't want to be here. Biggest mistake I made was ringing my ex after I took an overdose. I would have been free of all of this for 3 weeks now if he hadn't called an ambulance ๐Ÿ˜•
#suicide #suicidal #suicideawareness #suicideattempt #depression #depressed #selfharm #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalillness #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #bpd #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder #eupd #struggling
I'm really struggling today. Feeling so many emotions, want to cry, want to scream, everything and everyone is irritating me. I don't want to be here. Biggest mistake I made was ringing my ex after I took an overdose. I would have been free of all of this for 3 weeks now if he hadn't called an ambulance ๐Ÿ˜• #suicide  #suicidal  #suicideawareness  #suicideattempt  #depression  #depressed  #selfharm  #mentalhealth  #mentalhealthawareness  #mentalillness  #borderlinepersonalitydisorder  #bpd  #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder  #eupd  #struggling 
I'd be so lost without music ๐ŸŽถ ๐ŸŽถ

It's such a great creation, it helps me in all sorts of situations: low moods, needing a good cry, feeling euphoric, escape, panic, anxiety attacks

I've been on the verge of a few panic attacks today, all over a simple assessment for a group that is really going to help me manage and understand my emotions

Lets keep hoping that one of these attacks doesn't slip out

Music, you're my first love, thank you for always being there no matter what the situation may be๐ŸŽถ โ™ฅ

#Music #musicappreciation
#firstlove #distraction #panicattack
#worry #sing #song #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder #borderlinepersonalitydisorder
I'd be so lost without music ๐ŸŽถ ๐ŸŽถ It's such a great creation, it helps me in all sorts of situations: low moods, needing a good cry, feeling euphoric, escape, panic, anxiety attacks I've been on the verge of a few panic attacks today, all over a simple assessment for a group that is really going to help me manage and understand my emotions Lets keep hoping that one of these attacks doesn't slip out Music, you're my first love, thank you for always being there no matter what the situation may be๐ŸŽถ โ™ฅ #Music  #musicappreciation  #firstlove  #distraction  #panicattack  #worry  #sing  #song  #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder  #borderlinepersonalitydisorder 
My belly is fully of all sorts of knots today
My mind can't control my thoughts as they are whizzing round my head 1000mph unable to catch one and focus

I have my trusty sidekick with me today, my #fidgetcube
This cube helps me wonders for my anxiety, I may not be able to focus on my mind but I can focus on the actions this allows me to do.

The reasoning behind all this anxiety and uncontrolled thought process is that I have an assessment today in #northampton for a understanding and managing emotions group

I know all will go well but if anyone can imagine what #EUPD #BPD is like you know it's going to take a lot more than "don't worry" ๐Ÿ˜‚ ๐Ÿ˜‚

It's a big step in my journey to having a better and positive outlook on life, majority of it is perfect for me but then at times its can feel so empty, negative and lonely.

Wish me luck for today guys! ๐Ÿคž๐Ÿป #Assesment #managingemotions #understandingemotions #group #nhs #personalitydisorder #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #selfhelp #helpingyourself #positivity
My belly is fully of all sorts of knots today My mind can't control my thoughts as they are whizzing round my head 1000mph unable to catch one and focus I have my trusty sidekick with me today, my #fidgetcube  This cube helps me wonders for my anxiety, I may not be able to focus on my mind but I can focus on the actions this allows me to do. The reasoning behind all this anxiety and uncontrolled thought process is that I have an assessment today in #northampton  for a understanding and managing emotions group I know all will go well but if anyone can imagine what #EUPD  #BPD  is like you know it's going to take a lot more than "don't worry" ๐Ÿ˜‚ ๐Ÿ˜‚ It's a big step in my journey to having a better and positive outlook on life, majority of it is perfect for me but then at times its can feel so empty, negative and lonely. Wish me luck for today guys! ๐Ÿคž๐Ÿป #Assesment  #managingemotions  #understandingemotions  #group  #nhs  #personalitydisorder  #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder  #borderlinepersonalitydisorder  #selfhelp  #helpingyourself  #positivity 
Had sssucchhh a lush weekend surrounded by such lovelies โค๏ธ Itโ€™s sooo easy to be caught up in everything thatโ€™s wrong with the world. ๐Ÿ’š but if you just come out do your mind and body for a second each day you will be AMAZED.

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Had sssucchhh a lush weekend surrounded by such lovelies โค๏ธ Itโ€™s sooo easy to be caught up in everything thatโ€™s wrong with the world. ๐Ÿ’š but if you just come out do your mind and body for a second each day you will be AMAZED. #bpd  #eupd  #endos  #postnataldepression  #postartumdepression  #borderlinepersonalitydisorder  #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder  #endoswarrior  #warrior  #fighter  #stigmafighter  #pndrus  #disorderhelpers  #depressed  #depression  #depressed  #anxietyqueen  #anxiety  #anxietydisorder  #gad  #beyourself  #loveyourself  #fuckthehaters  #mentalhealthvlog  #mentaheathvlogger  #vlog  #sober  #gettingsober  #sobriety  #gettingclean