Dallas, I have arrived. 🌟🤠 I have the pleasure of spending the next 5 days with four of my favorite people and I couldn't be more excited. 👱♂️👦👫
However, there is so much to say about this picture I am having difficulty clarifying my thoughts...bear with me...
Prior to losing nearly half my body weight flying was filled with shame, embarrassment, and apologetic glances to the stranger next to me as my body spilled over in to their seat and personal space. I would try to hold down the arm rest as firmly as possible in a futile attempt to create a barrier yet even that couldn't always fully contain my size. It was mortifying and I could only imagine all the thoughts going through the mind of the individual stuck next to me. I wondered if I was finally at the point of purchasing a second seat so as to not make someone else's flight awkward or uncomfortable.
Even in my now average sized body I wouldn't exactly describe this seat as "roomie" but I can't deny the privilege that I hold being a smaller size. I don't have to face the same worries, fears, or barriers that I once did. I can look forward to a trip without a sense of dread. I am no longer that person that someone sees coming down the aisle as they cross their fingers that I don't stop to take the seat next to them. In fact, a few people may even cross their fingers hoping that I do. It is true that the world interacts with me very differently than it did 145 pounds ago yet I was always the same person within. It's a shame.
We talk about privilege from a gender, race, socioeconomic, etc. perspective but we rarely talk about it in relation to our bodies. I am in the early phases of processing this myself but having been on both sides I feel I hold some responsibility to shed light and invite discussion on the topic. .
Fat shaming and weight related stigma has begun to be neutralized by the body positivity movement yet we still have room to improve. I hope beginning more discussions on privilege that foster empathy and understanding the "other" will continue to move us even further. I'd love to hear others thoughts or experience either through DM's or comments as I continue to formulate my own.
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Sampai bertemu kembali di bulan Juli.
Everyone complains of wrinkles the develop by the ears as we age. You can use fat, stem cells and PRP along with lasers and microneedling for improvement here. See me injecting fresh stem cells from the patients fat into the area in front of her ear to improve wrinkling and help lift the jawline. #facebyemermd#earrings#goals#aginggracefully @infusiobeverlyhills
I'm super grateful I don't need plastic surgery or makeup to make myself look good. #thankyou God for making me #beautiful and #natural . It is a blessing. #nomakeup#bööty . And years ago having an ass was not in style. I having a naturally big ass was considered #fat . Modeling agencies looked the other way on me because of my ass. Having a big ass was considered uncool. So u bitches with fake asses you should really think about what we girls with asses went thru back 10 years ago. Should be grateful that times have changed. Oh and good luck with those back problems. Lmao.
I did eat popcorn with my little sister so I will not be eating breakfast, lunch, or dinner, or a snack. I did stop eating right at midnight though but I will not eat tomorrow.
I am going camping this weekend and there is gonna be a lot of food but my goal is to not eat anything and if I do only ONE SMALL MEAL. I can't eat alot from now to forever. I HAVE to lose weight before I go back to school. 10th grade I want to be my chance to really make friends and get good grades. I have to change myself for the better!
By the way it'd be really nice if someone who wont stop talking and keep a convo going to message me. Its really lonely lately and I just miss talking to people. I feel like "away" from everyone? I don't know how to explain it... ____
I start doing my daily workouts tomorrow. I'm under 70 days until I go back so I need to really get serious. Meanspo or Thinspo would be greatly appreciated in my DM's!
So my biggest fails is doing my eyebrows and wings so if you know anything about those 2 subject comment below on how I can learn to do those better! I don't plan on going to bed so I will just be scrolling through #anorexia all night and possibly posting things! Goodnight loves!
xoxo, Kelly 💕