As much as I wish I was that girl
On the left lately, the reality is I am the girl on the right; No filter, no edits, no touch ups. I didn’t for one second want anyone to feel the delusion that yesterday’s picture was my normal currently. I’m self conscious as hell, I’ve gained weight from bed rest, and there’s not much I like when I look in the mirror. And as much as I wanted to show the truth about my body, I was still subconsciously sucking my belly in and struggled to find a photo I “liked” enough. But this IS my normal right now, THIS is my body; and even though I sometimes look at it with sadness in my heart from seeing my scarred up body and self pity floods in my thoughts. This time around I’m working on changing my thought process, when these thoughts begin I tell myself; this body... this body has fought WARS... and each one has made me who I am today. .
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CLC MEMBER FEATURE: Hi, My name is Kaile! I’m 22 years old and living with gastroparesis, intestinal dysmotility and dysautonomia - POTS. Before January 2015, I was one of the most active and healthiest people I knew. I was going to college, running every day, and spending every spare second with friends and my boyfriend of several years.
It all changed In January when I began to get sick after meals. It progressed quickly and within two weeks, I was unable to hold down even a sip of water. I was also losing weight rapidly. I went to gastro specialists and was told it was an eating disorder or psychological.
I went through 4 doctors before getting my diagnosis of gastroparesis and even then, he was unwilling to treat me. Doctor number 6 took me on after 5 months of starvation and a 50 lb weight drop. I began tube feeds to a j tube and I began to gain weight. I went back to school and was able to resume life for about 6 months. Then the pain started. Running feeds became painful and I found myself slowing the rate and popping Advil all day just to get through.
My intestines shut down and stopped moving and for another 10 months. I lived only receiving about 300 calories a day. My GI doctor refused to do tpn so I found a doctor in Houston who was willing to treat me. He took me in at 85lbs and half dead. After a few more failed medications and a dysautonomia diagnosis, we began tpn in April and since then I am up to a healthy 115 lbs!
Tpn has saved my life but along with it comes it's deadly friend ... sepsis. I have had sepsis 5 times since April. My body does not fight it well and I am not expected to live long because of it. In the meantime, I am praying for a miracle. I’m starting stem cell therapy in December, engaged to the love of my life, and running a medical mask business.
Although these few years have been incredibly hard, I have never appreciated and enjoyed life more than I do now. I am blessed to be here and I will live out my purpose and do what God has set before me until he decides to call me home into his loving arms and that gives me peace and joy that no illness can destroy. #ChronicLoveClub
In order for things to change, you have to see them as you want them to be, rather than continuing to observe them as they are. You can dream about something as much as you want, but if you’re sitting on your booty and not doing anything about it, what’s the point? I always wanted to look, feel, and be strong. I can’t even remember exactly how I started weightlifting. I just know that I woke up and I got started. I was tired of wanting it and continuing to not really do anything about it. Anything worth having in life takes time and effort. There are no simple solutions - it’s cliché, but we all know it’s true. If you wait until the ‘perfect time’ or until you’re ready, you’ll be waiting for the rest of your life. The perfect time doesn’t exist and you will never be ready. What’s stopping you from going after what you want? Stop making excuses. Ya got nothin’ to lose. 💜
Oi gente! E continuo recebendo muitas perguntas sobre meu tratamento da fibromialgia. Eu estou doida pra revelar tudo, mas só vou escrever quando estiver totalmente curada. Estou me sentindo bem melhor, mas não 100%. Meu tratamento é com dieta (bem restrita) e suplementos. Estou tratando com uma nutricionista. Agora estou fazendo mais exames que um clínico geral pediu para descartar outros problemas. Não quero combater os sintomas quero ir na causa, na raiz do problema pra entender e curar de vez. E se essa resposta puder ajudar outras pessoas que sofrem do mesmo vou ficar muito feliz. Sobre alimentação o que posso dizer é que por enquanto não posso glúten, açúcar, derivados do leite, cafeína e uma lista bem grande. Minha alimentação é baseada em alguma carne branca e vegetais. Gostaria de não precisar da carne, mas se é para o tratamento vamos lá. Agora eu como para viver e não vivo para comer. #fibromyalgia#fibromialgia#foodismedicine#foodislife#simplelife#organicfood#motherearth#meditation#photobyvalentina
Christmas celebrations at @westonhall1 with my lovely momma @trishfranklin352 ❤️ My original plan to spend the entire Christmas period at home and away from Breakspear hasn’t gone very well 😂 because earlier this year I did 2 months of penicillin antibiotic injections for the bacterial infection strep and it went away but now it’s come back so I did another 6 weeks in Oct / Nov - I got test results back on the day I was supposed to leave breakspear for Christmas saying the strep hasn’t gone down at all so I’m having to travel back and forth to breakspear 1-3 days a week over the holidays 😞👎🏼 Whilst I’m at Breakspear I’m also doing Iratherm saunas for detox & B12 injections for deficiency and methylation 🙋🏼
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Loving the cold but my skin isn’t. Check out my story and take the poll for winter tips! #coconutoil
🌊 This year, I’ve noticed how much traveling makes my fibromyalgia flare up. At first I was angry, thinking, what, I just can’t go anywhere anymore?
🌊 Now I realize I can still travel, I just have to travel differently. No more early morning flights because they’re cheaper. Changing my sleep schedule on a day of travel is inviting disaster.
🌊 My level of activity while traveling needs to be the same or lower than my normal level of activity, which is difficult, because my life-long habit is to cram as much as possible in while visiting another place.
🌊 I’m also learning to expand what “traveling” means to me. Sleeping anywhere other than my own home is traveling, because it has the potential to change my sleeping and eating schedules, and activity levels.
🌊 I’m grateful for these realizations because it means I’m not destined to a life without travel like I’d worried. Still, it means I’ll have to be very particular about who I travel with and make sure they understand my situation and are either willing to go out and do things without me, or have a very laid back trip.
🌊 For years, I’ve “passed” as healthy, hiding that I have chronic pain and fatigue. That secrecy has only hurt me. Now, to live the life I want, I have to be open about how I’m feeling and what makes me feel better or worse.
🌊 I used to worry that being open about fibro would burden people or scare them away. Now, I don’t have that worry as often. If I open up about my chronic illness and someone isn’t compassionate, they aren’t the type of person I want in my life anyway.
I had to post this. This happens so often. And is so funny, when you read it. But obviously not when you experience it 😉
#blunttime 👏👑🔥😁😁 #weed#lol
Have #hope , #strength and #faith to get you through the harder days! 💫💕 #onedayatatime and things turn around if you try and #staypositive and see the light at the end of the tunnel💫💜 I've been doing my best to get out and see my old friends so I can have fun and enjoy life a bit even with all this #chronicpain and #illnesses .. my #lovedones are starting to have more #empathy for me which is really all anyone needs with an illness or #disability .. be kind to those who are in a unique situation that's difficult..remember they didn't chose or ask for this kind of life so don't make it harder on us then we already feel inside.. #invisibleillness like #fibromyalgia is so hard to explain to ppl as they can't see how much it hurts 😔 only we can feel it and try and describe it and even that doesn't do it justice.. so try and remember to surround yourself with positive ppl who love you for you 💜and enjoy who u really are like ur friends💕..in this case I've been reaching out to my old college buddy Louis who I've known for 14yrs now! He loves to just chill, chat and #getlit 🔥✌🤗 so we had fun again yesterday and he's like the only dude I know who will actually take funny snapchatfilters 😁with me when he's stoned and thinks it's hilarious too and when he re-watches it omg he laughs so hard and so do I that it's priceless😂.. at one point he fell to the floor laughing and of course he made me #lmao 😄here's a few videos and all the goodies I got at my medicaldispensary 💚🍃🌱 new kind of #terps#medicalshatter#thcdistallite#thcgummies#thcbathsalts and of course some #medicalcannabis ✌ #staymedicated#staylifted#fibromyalgiawarrior#amputee#chronicfatigue#chronicmigraines#oldfriends
(u can hear my French buddy bitching at his cat cuz he's trying to play with my terps jar lol 🐱😁 )
here's my medicine for the week 💚🍃💕🌱👏😁🔥🔥🔥🔥 Have #hope , #strength and #faith to get you through the harder days! 💫💕 #onedayatatime and things turn around if you try and #staypositive and see the light at the end of the tunnel💫💜 I've been doing my best to get out and see my old friends so I can have fun and enjoy life a bit even with all this #chronicpain and #illnesses .. my #lovedones are starting to have more #empathy for me which is really all anyone needs with an illness or #disability .. be kind to those who are in a unique situation that's difficult..remember they didn't chose or ask for this kind of life so don't make it harder on us then we already feel inside.. #invisibleillness like #fibromyalgia is so hard to explain to ppl as they can't see how much it hurts 😔 only we can feel it and try and describe it and even that doesn't do it justice.. so try and remember to surround yourself with positive ppl who love you for you 💜and enjoy who u really are like ur friends💕..in this case I've been reaching out to my old college buddy Louis who I've known for 14yrs now! He loves to just chill, chat and #getlit 🔥✌🤗 so we had fun again yesterday and he's like the only dude I know who will actually take funny #snapchatfilters 😁with me when he's stoned and thinks it's hilarious too and when he re-watches it omg he laughs so hard and so do I that it's priceless😂.. at one point he fell to the floor laughing and of course he made me #lmao 😄here's a few videos and all the goodies I got at my #medicaldispensary 💚🍃🌱 new kind of #terps#medicalshatter#thcdistallite#thcgummies#thcbathsalts and of course some #medicalcannabis ✌ #staymedicated#staylifted#fibromyalgiawarrior#amputee#chronicfatigue#chronicmigraines#oldfriends
The first thing I ask my clients to do is to affirm they are worthy.
The second is to release all unlike love from their mind, body and soul and to allow joy and love to fill the space.
Please look into your eyes in a mirror today... say : " I Love, Approve and accept myself" .
Looking forward to hearing how much more energy you have when you do this
Thank you @someshap for the photo
Let’s face it, society is obsessed with skinny and it is easy to fall prey to this mindset. Before illness, being thin was a constant thought. It took losing my health and ability to do things to change this.
For years women have focused on losing weight, sometimes using unhealthy techniques like extreme calorie restriction, excessive aerobic exercise and weight loss supplements. Things are starting to change as more women discover the power weight training has to transform their body AND their mind. .
Strength isn’t just about building defined biceps, it’s about developing the strength you need to do everyday tasks like moving furniture, carrying heavy loads, playing with your kids, and helping your aging parents. Strength makes everything you do easier.
“Strong” enhances your life and makes you more functionally fit and capable. “Skinny,” if it comes from calorie restriction, under-nutrition and too much aerobic exercise, makes you weaker and less able to do your daily activities without feeling fatigued. As you age, if you don’t strength train, skinny turns to frail. You begin losing muscle mass by the age of 30 and the loss greatly accelerates after 50. .
As you can see, “Strong” has lots of benefits that skinny just doesn’t! Choose being STRONG!! 💪🏼
Isaiah 40:29 He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak.