I have been bullied by a group of girls, whose leader was my best friend. She left me behind, out of no where, after about 7 months of becoming best friends. She made a group consisted 4 girls who made me suffer over my 3 years of junior high by spreading false rumours about me that made every girls in the class hate me (i never knew what the rumour is, but i bet it was about boy thingy since-wierdly-the guys in the class gave me much attention) and made every girl in the class always speak loudly to me, seeing me with face full of hate.
In 2015 i watched the live action version of Ao Haru Ride and i bursted to tears. The story was just like mine. I thought i was the one who get bullied just because the boys in the class took interest in you more than anyone.
I want to forget those memories, i want to live my life to the fullest... But my personality has changed since she betrayed me. I became a chicken who never show my truest feeling anymore. Just like the main character in the movie. I'm afraid of group of women. What made me even sadder ist, just like Futaba, i always tried to look reckless, ugly, stupid, and never even once seducing boy, even i got panic attack every time a boy try to get closer to me.
But in 2011 i met kpop. Kpop made me learn english faster and since becoming kpopers i try hard to be happy. Now knowing what happy is. But seeing my biases make me happy. I still think about how to be happy now. And reading what V share makes me a bit glad that someone shared such story. Bullying is everywhere and the pain it brings stay for long long time. Good that V is nice guy, he is such an angle. He can handle it well.
My life is a roller-coaster and has always been and I'm okay with it. Forever grateful to instagram and to everyone who was always there and still is for me when I can't take care of myself. Anorexia is a bitch and I'm ready for the next chapter of fighting. I know some things but I don't know exactly how they work. It's just hard sometimes. I know I can be a bitch but that's why there're psychology and conversations. Good stories help you to learn and I love stories, so share yours. Always put your mental health first. #strong#anorexia#fighting#sayit#loud#proud#control
Coming off of an impressive 2nd round stoppage last week, @gustavo_sayian will be back in action tomorrow.
He and @baknsoda_armstrong will both be competing in Oakland, building their ring experience. ••• Gym will be closed tomorrow, SATURDAY 6/24.