Perception • We forget how powerful our minds are, we blame our behaviour and our issues and stresses on others but we have all this power 💪🏻
Power to change the way we see things, the way we understand things and the way we behave. But when emotion takes over, it rushes and it knocks over what’s in its way, all that strength and then we fall 🌊
We have to choose to not let the effects cripple us.
It takes time, practice. And a whole lot of patience with ourselves. So let’s get going again 💁🏻 I got somewhere to be... ⌚️ #zaizaiout [On a side note, totally going to contradict the above - I miss my long hair! 😪] #foreveracrookedsmilewithalittlebitoftongue .
Recovery • A mix of awareness and time. . .
Since uni, these episodes have only happened a handful of times. You know you know better, you know the cause isn’t that bad, you know you’ve been through worse. But oh how all senses goes out the window. This is the second time in a year, the worst of them so far. After 6 days of it, I couldn’t do it anymore.
On the train out of Paris, I don’t know how but I finally felt some control in my hands again. Awake. I felt gratitude. Passion. And slowly joy. I have a long way to go…. I’ll reflect on the things I’m doing another time.
I will say this though. These do not make me broken. Nor screwed up. Most definitely, not weak.
Here’s a 🖕🏼 to anyone who thinks otherwise.
Bye Felicia 👋
If you scroll down my feed, you’ll see a video I made in Paris during this time - capturing the moments where I felt life. It’s super cringe 🙈
Also, last stripe top photo of the year. 😂 Back to Black 🖤