To this day, there is a childish spirit I have about myself. You were born with this same spiritual essence. It’s where you came from. It’s who you were, who you ARE. I never allowed the outside world to strip me of that. I was naive enough to hold to that mindset. Childish enough not to let go. Stupid enough to dream! I’ve had the blessing of forging inextricable bonds with some of you reading this which means you know that my essence is still that of a child’s. From the onset of memory, I’ve had a covenant between myself and my father in which “My only job is to be a kid.”
There’s nothing in this world that can alter my childlike way of thinking because it’s been my thought processes for so long… Or so I thought up until Junior year of college…
During that time, life tested my childish beliefs about the world; it just about broke me. I truly believed that it was all a hoax, that I’d been setup from the very beginning to fail because at some point - “I have to grow up. I can’t be a kid forever.” But by the grace of God, the cosmos, self-determination or what have you, I came to the realization that I’m neither here (a child) nor there (an adult), I simply am.
When I want to be a child, I’m a child. When I don’t take something to be funny, in the midst of being told to "loosen up", I hold steadfast to my beliefs. When it looks impossible to others, I’ve already accomplished it in my mind.
Be brave enough to pursue your wildest dreams; even those you had as a child. If you weren’t afforded the opportunity to dream big back then, now is the time! Go out and get what you want. It’s straight to the top for me; that's where I belong!
Remember when you were a kid and wanted to run away?
You had no idea where exactly you were going to run away to,
but you knew exactly where you wanted to be.
I’m 26 and I️ still get the feeling.