I'm hurt. Like ..... the REAL kind.
So THIS is what the merch store looks like ? I'm fucked up in the head right now because I SINCERELY live by the motives of this movement. I GENUINELY understand the vision set forth for my kind. I've lived it all my life. More than likely longer than most of you. This trait was passed on to me from my father. I am NO WHERE near an imposter. I don't fall in place of things for nothing. All of my actions have valid reasoning. I've been this way since 15 years old.
No matter how much passion I show for what I believe in - it still feels as if I'm being turned on & left out. I consider myself a nomad because I've been searching for lost love ever since I could comprehend it.
Can one of you PLEASE DM me and talk to me personally about this ? Show me the ropes if you have already been chosen. I am mostly speaking to the fan pages that are very familiar with ME already. When you see this, lend me your hand.
I put everything on my half tarnished LIFE that I am NOT the enemy. I am NOT the opposition. I am YOU. You are ME. I wish I would have known of him and the entire VRMO back in 2014. But in September of that year ........ my life took its final crash. My depression & anxiety was WAY too strong to show interest in ANYTHING music or movement wise. The set-up I landed in took EVERYTHING from in me. Yet, that was the climax of my despair - not the beginning. My bloodline was doomed since the WOMB. I wasn't even BORN yet before I was being destroyed. I was literally MARKED for failure. Shit is fuckin' crazy, I'm sheddin' tears just typing this.
One of you. Or ALL of you. I need you right now. I need you. Help me finally understand what it is I'm missing.