I'd be lying if I said I wasn't feeling slightly drained. I feel like this year has been a bit of a tug a war game with trying to find balance in the hustle and bustle of things. To be quiet honest, I'm the type of person who takes on my environment, emotionally. Which leads to some really heavy moments and much time spent shedding the things that weren't mine to begin with. I'm learning how to be of service to others while keeping myself a solid structure. -
I love deep, hard and passionately. I don't cry often... I usually just explode onto myself and it always looks different.-
Sometimes, I just crumble. I get so tired, which then turns into all sorts of things. Low self esteem, frustration, self doubts way heavier than the reality of the truths, others opinions matter more than my own and an over all feeling of heaviness that shows up everywhere, from my mat to the way I walk. -
We all battle these types of situations in one way or another. When this type of bs bubbles up in my world, I look for the facts, I force myself to become linear. I must see things outside of my bubble in order to regain clarity. I'm not always "ON", I just can't be. Thank god for this practice. It always takes me for who I am and I'm handling life's winds as they pass me by. -
Which we all can be reminded, that this to shall pass. -
Outfit by @aloyoga #beagoddess -
So a year ago I got myself employed at one of the best health clubs in northern beaches. I was completely stoked. It was a full time position and I worked my butt off every day. I won a few awards, felt loved by my colleges, I had plenty of money, it was all good! Hands down, best job ever.
As time went on however things change. The monetary rewards no longer inspired me and I craved more 'me time'. Eventually I kinda cracked under the pressure 😵😵 I had to either accept it and continue doing something I no longer loved or throw caution to the wind and make myself a new path. It took a lot of self-evaluation but evidently I decided the work didn’t align with my core values anymore and it was time to go.
Anyway, that was 3 months ago I resigned. I have since completed everything required to get into something I'm more passionate about, and happy to announce I just got the job. ✨✨✨ Because you know what - I intend on spending my very limited time on this beautiful earth being as happy as possible... Fair enough right?! Thanks to those who both inspire and support me, you know who you are… Wouldn't be this stoked with you all around. 😉 --------
Catch me at Fitness first Monavale shaking things up as a functional movement coach. If your keen to get moving better let's start the conversation. DM's welcome 💌
Anger is like flowing water; there’s nothing wrong with it as long as you let it flow. Hate is like stagnant water; anger that you denied yourself the freedom to feel, the freedom to flow; water that you gathered in one place and left to forget. Stagnant water becomes dirty, stinky, disease-ridden, poisonous, deadly; that is your hate.
On flowing water travels little paper boats; paper boats of forgiveness. Allow yourself to feel anger, allow your waters to flow, along with all the paper boats of forgiveness. Be human.
C. Joybell C.
With my age has come experience; experience in life and experience in me.. what makes me tick, what makes me mad, what I have a need to control etc. With that knowledge, I can now more often step back.. observe and witness my own reactions .. understand where they come from. Now that I see and I understand, I can be conscious. I can experiment.. challenge my patterns and consciously move outside my comfort zone.
Getting older rocks!! .