It's been two years since that horrifying phone call. Two years that I've been putting myself first. For once. Two years of first stabilizing my life, and now flourishing in many ways that was not possible to see from those blurred days, months... all of that shit-show called 2016.
I think constantly about those who have kept me going, sat and cried with me, allowed me to express my pain with art materials, held my strength and optimism for me when, at the time, I chose instead to think of ways to end my life... My continued hope is that my gratitude is felt by each person riding with me, and that I continue to build a life that can honor solid, caring connections.
Fuck me, this got real. Basically, I'm in it for the long haul. Love to y'all.
Taken for the 2017 World AIDS Day #PositivelyFabulous event
Positively Hopeful: Several years ago I couldn't have predicted that today I would have HIV. Two years ago I couldn't have predicted that today I would happy, healthy, supported, and thriving. An HIV diagnose can be isolating and lonely. Hope gets us through the bumps in life and gives us the courage to move forward. Hope allows us to see there is equal value in my life and in yours. Through hope I know I'm not alone, I must only reach out and ask for help. None of us know what the future holds but with hope we will overcome and come out stronger because of the experiences yet to come. I have grown and become a better person since my diagnose. With hope we can offer a hand to those in need (it's much more fulfilling to build someone up rather than tear them down). I promise to be a voice and a hand to those in need. Will you offer yours in support?
today, #December1st , is #WorldAIDSDay . people all around the world...someone you know, someone you #love is #HIV +. there may be many reasons they haven’t told you. many times it comes back to #fear and #shame . why the fear? why the shame? #stigma . our human and broken spiritual need for there to be an “other.” few diseases carry the weight of stigma like HIV/AIDS. have you asked yourself why? have you challenged yourself to learn more? do you know we’re all #HIV =? #hivequal#hivaids#hiv
This is a #flashbackfriday and #worldaidsday double whammy. I'm sharing this photo w a testimonial that I made 2 years ago. I've now been on PrEP for 2.5 years and am STILL grateful for this tool that puts my health in my hands. -- "HIV Smart is a photo awareness campaign focusing on education about prevention methods such as PrEP & PEP, the link between HIV- people and depression, advocating testing and fighting stigma." As soon as I heard about this I knew I wanted to be a part of it. I've been on PrEP for 6 months and it has helped do more than keep me HIV-. I used get anxiety when I went and got tested and have flashbacks of every freaky thing I did in the last 6 months. As I waited for my results I'd be like, "THIS IS IT! Today's the day that I'm going to get the news." & then they would tell me that I'm negative and I would thank God and promise that i was going to be the next Mother Theresa. Now I don't have that anxiety and I feel like I have put my health in my own hands. There is no shame in protecting yourself, especially when we live in a time where the option is available.
The blue shirt is representative of the color of the PrEP pill, but and is also representative of the depression that HIV+ people face due to stigma. Stigma coming from within the gay community because some individuals think that positive people aren't "clean" or are too big of a risk to sleep with. We need to take it upon ourselves to find out what an undetectable status really means, how effective Treatment as Prevention (TasP) really is, and stop "serosorting". BE HIV SMART!
🎈🖍 #WorldAIDSDay ⏰☎️
As most of you know, I was diagnosed with #HIV the day before the 2012 Olympics (I wasn't in the olympics, but doesn’t it sound fancier that way? 🎉) And y'all, it has been one hell of a journey! But you know what they say—When life gives you AIDS, make lemonaids! 🍋 And while it hasn't been easy, I've grown to love myself for who I am because I have nothing to be ashamed of. I'm #undetectable , and I'm lucky to be living in #NYC with access to great healthcare. I've got so many #tcells I could rent them out by now! But others aren't so lucky, and I've learned that being open and honest with my #hivpositive status helps others to be open with their's. No matter where you are on your journey, whether newly diagnosed or still grappling with your status, remember: You Are FUCKING BEAUTIFUL AND DESERVING OF LOVE!!!! 💘💘 No one, and certainly no goddamn virus, can ever take that away from you. I love you. We are all #hivequal#alladventurouswomendo#undetectablemeansuntransmittable#silenceisdeath#actupfightback#actupfightaids#stigmafree#gay#queer#WAD2017#worldaidsday2017 📸 by @juliamartinsmiranda
Today is WorldAidsDay. Let’s continue to end isolation, stigma and HIV transmission. When I found out I was positive, it wasn’t easy. No one has to be ashamed of their status. KNOW YOUR STATUS! GetTested! #letsendit#worldaidsday#hivequal
@Regranned from @imperialcourtny - The Imperial Court of New York stands in support of all those impacted by HIV/AIDS. We mourn those we have lost. And we will continue to dedicate our support to the fight to end the stigma and find a cure.
#fightthestigma#WorldAIDSDay#HIVEqual - #regrann
The Imperial Court of New York stands in support of all those impacted by HIV/AIDS. We mourn those we have lost. And we will continue to dedicate our support to the fight to end the stigma and find a cure.
Today on #WorldAIDSDay we bring to the forefront the fight to end the stigma and find a cure! I stand in support and with love for all those impacted by HIV/AIDS. I mourn all those beautiful souls lost too soon to this disease. I pledge my continued efforts to educate others and myself, fight the stigma, and to fight to find a cure.
People living with HIV/AIDS are NOT “different, “dirty”, or whatever negative association is put on them. Those impacted are beautiful humans just like everyone else on this planet. Please remember this when describing your own status and having discussions on this topic.
I am not a trained professional on the topic by any means. I am however a global citizen and know this is a fight we all should take on - HIV/AIDS knows no limits, it does not know gender, it does not know ethnicity, it does not know sexuality. Everyone is impacted to some degree. Remember that.
On World AIDS Day, I give tribute to the wonderful folks I visited at Rivington House each week for almost 6 years until the doors were closed in early 2015. These folks became family. Rivington House will always hold a special place in my heart. @petpartners @villagecareny