The beast has arrived. This big ass Marvel Legends 14" HULK arrived today from Toys R Us. Zero padding in the shipping box so there are some dings on the corners. I also had to pay shipping even though TRU offers free shipping on all items over $29 as advertised on thier website. Thumbs up to Hasbro for this 5lb beast of an action figure. Thumbs down to Toys R Us Canada for charging for shipping and poor packaging. #HULK#hulksmash#hasbro#actionfigures#marvel#marvellegends#incrediblehulk
That moment when you're so frustrated that you need to smash something. ✨✨ Not even kidding. This geode had been sitting in my kitchen cabinet since we moved (9 months) and every time I think "maybe I'll open it today" something distracts me and I never got around to opening it. Until today.
I'm at my wits end this week. The only thing worse than my problems this week is the realization that my problems are so first world it's not even worth being this upset over. First of all, I'm on my cycle. Let's just get that out of the way right now. It happens every month, I should be used to it yada yada yada. This is my second cycle post second miscarriage of this year and it's bringing out anger I thought I was very much past. Next month would be my due date for my first pregnancy this year and apparently I'm still processing all of it. This has just got to be a nightmare, right? Some days I seriously don't think about it, not forcefully, it just doesn't come up. And then other days I replay the moments I realized I was miscarrying. Over and over and over. My body failed me, will that ever get less disappointing? My grief picks a different emotion every time. I've been everything from numb to joyful, but I've never been this angry. I'm doing my best to just enjoy Logan, every single second of him, because he's what I have. He's just so grown lately. So independent. He barely even kisses me goodbye before running into preschool. My husband is busy. All of the time. Just busy. The dogs can sense my grouch from a mile away so they won't cuddle me either. I'm "alone" in a house full of people that love me and in a moment of despair today.... I smashed a rock.
I highly recommend keeping geodes around, for moments like these. A little sparkle really cheers a girl up after feeling so violent.