Slightly emotional post:
I used to cook so much, all the time, every day, with fresh food.
I stopped wanting to a year or so ago because hey trauma is a thing that happened.
Today I made my favorite dish for @toxancosplay and I. One @billrecalma made for me every other day when I was younger. I made a baked salmon topped with Mayo, and panko bread crumbs mixed with dill and sea salt, with a side of fry bread covered in home made whipped garlic butter.
For the first time in so long I felt zero anxiety from cooking because I knew I wasn't going to be yelled at about every detail, that nobody was going to swear and trash my food like in the past. I sang a prayer song and a traveling song for the fish that fed us and I felt so happy and proud.
I am a stronger person than I thought I was.
Thank you to my Elders who always tried to show me this strength. I'm sorry it took me this long.