I was really terrible today. I am not usually like this. But I wasn't myself today and I'm not too proud of it.
I wasn't strong today.
I was breaking apart. The threads that weave me together were coming undone and the smile that decorates my face along with it.
I'm sorry. I snapped at you. I couldn't contain the entire universe inside me anymore. It's too much of a burden on my heart.
But I try.
I try revolving my world around like the globe I used to spin when I was five. But it doesn't work like that anymore. My hands shake and my voice quivers and my heart beats right out of my chest.
I'm sorry if I seemed a little distant today. I didn't want to rub my sadness off on you. People say I emit negativity. I didn't want you to feel what I usually do.
I'm sorry if I didn't listen to you talk while you were going on about the party you attended last night. My mind just wandered off to an alternate universe where things would be much better.
I'm such a bad person
That I don't tell you what planets, stars, entire galaxies usually revolve around my brain. That I build layers and layers of ozone to block out my terrible terrible rays from reaching your clean self and polluting you.
It's not that you won't understand.
It's that I don't want you to become terrible like me. (_please forgive me)