Happy Saturday guys! Are you enjoying the weekend?
I've been feeling a little #lazy today, not so much it that I didn't feel like #workingout , but more like I wanted to give myself some #metime . The fact the the internet connection sucked so I couldn't do much #uniwork sort of validated my mood.
However, I did go to #thegym because really, I wouldn't have felt good if I didn't. It would have felt like cheating- you know, like when you're in highschool and you could skip classes but you feel bad cause you have no #goodreason , so in the end you don't? -
So, ok, this might not be a feeling many people get😂... Ah, well. The thing is, I #feelgood and #accomplished when I stick to my #commitments so despite being in a #lazymood , I got a #cardioworkout in. -
Since it's Saturday, the gym closes earlier, which I totally forgot about (again), so I only had time for the #trademill , but that was ok because I pushed myself to the limit, going faster then I would usually to make up for not doing a full hour workout. I think I might be becoming a #gymjunkie . I'm not complaining, mind you. It's #hilarious because if someone were to tell me a year ago that I'd feel good for getting a #cardioworkout done on a Saturday, after working out every day for the past... I think I'm closing in to the two weeks mark now- well, I'm pretty sure I'd've suggested the nearest hospital asap.
But it feels good, and I love it. I love that the more I go, the more #confident I become. I talked about it before, how I was a #totalnewbie when I first started my #journey this summer. I didn't feel like it was my scene, I didn't know what I was doing. But I #keptgoing because I new my #bodygoals required it. And I'm #stilllearning , and 3 years from now, I'm still gonna be learning. But that's the beauty of it.
I think it's really important to realise that we don't stay the same. We improve, or we get worse, but we don't stay the same because time just doesn't work like that. So we better make sure we improve!
Face to face friday 🙈 last June vs this November. 2stone 7lb gone 🙌🙌 its been hard along the way but ive always charged through with it 100%, always kept going and kept positive knowing what the outcome could be and then eventually I did it!! I was so unhappy with how I looked before, it is so easy to let yourself go when pregnant as u have someone else more important to think about, when my healthy little boy arrived I knew I had to do something and think about me a little bit aswell. Now i can look at photos and not cringe at the chin, the fat cheeks, and everything else I hated. Heres to @slimmingworld for helping create a better healthier happier version of myself #sogladistartedsw#newme#slimmingworlduk#facetofacefriday#swmafia#keptgoing#ididit 💖
I ran 14 minutes slower than last year. My brother says I had limited training because of my family, changing apartments during the summer, and even started working at the office again late in my training cycle. All this took away from seriously training harder for my 2nd marathon. But somehow I made it to that finish line and still ran a decent time. I am so proud of my 2nd accomplishment and so very proud of the hard work I squeezed in especially those early mornings!! I earned this 2nd medal & made it to the NY Times again wooohoooo!!!! Thank u so much @miss_jnp for the finish line cheers!!! And thank u EVERYONE for the love & support!!!! ❤🙌🙌🙌😍😘 #medalmonday#my2ndmarathon#survivedit#keptgoing#4hours47minutes#ProudOfIt#mommarunner#queensdistance
It's a good day for a #repost . S/o to @blackbyrdent and @gillie_da_kid_money. I love it when people follow their dreams as much as I, cuz when we link, we making moves. I #keptgoing#2014#suchapleasure
In my last post, I mentioned how 1 year ago, things were a "living hell" for me. I found this picture & felt ready to share it & that part of my story.
That living hell was composed of many things. One of the most difficult things I went through was almost being scammed out of $30,000 by a crooked mental health professional who was the only qualified person to treat my extremely severe OCD, BDD, and eating disorder in the state of California. (BDD is different than body dysmorphia, a symptom. BDD=body dysmorphic disorder, when your functioning is impacted & your quality of life is destroyed) The complexity of my comorbid disorders left me with the options of only her 15 day intensive treatment program, or flying out to start residential at a treatment center in Wisconsin, which was not an option for me. We had just about given up on avoiding more treatment debt & were going to figure out a way to have the money to pay for the treatment that I needed (my psychiatric evaluations were suggesting hospitalization) when we realized that she was cheating the system. 🐍
There was no legal basis to me having to pay $30,000. It should've just been $25/day. The contract was fake. I told my mom that even if we figured out how to pay something affordable after that point, I wanted absolutely nothing to do with that woman. I had trusted her; I spent hours being the most vulnerable I had been in so long. I later found her licensing online & saw she had 12 charges where she was found guilty (fraud, plagiarism) and that she had just come back from her license being suspended for 3 years. A quick google search didn't show that, but some obsessive investigating online (thanks OCD) found confirmation that I couldn't trust her. ➖
This nearly broke me. I spent that night on the phone with the suicide hotline. I wasted over a month, hadn't received any real treatment, & was now back at square one never wanting to trust a professional again. But I did. & I wish that had a happy ending, but my new therapist at an OCD treatment center had NO training around EDs/knowledge in general. It was a horrible experience that still hurts me. That's a different story.