Come Again!!!!!Forgive Whom? Why should I? What about all the things they said and did? But they were cruel....Sorry I can't... Is there a way to be a Christian without forgiving them!! But they have been ruthlessly judgemental!! They have not witnessed my real story and still spoke crap...They laughed at me!!Being my family they let me down...I was innocent...Whyyyyyyyyyyyyy..... I have been soooo dam hurt!! They ruined me completely.......THE LIST GOES ON!!!! I was ready to do everything else except forgive. Death was easier to accept rather then forgiving a bunch of people in my life. So much of unresolved hurt!! I still wonder how could I live my everyday life with such a heavy burden!
Till one day Aunty Ann( My pastor's wife) explained me why I needed to forgive. The essence of forgiveness...Even when I wrote down the names of people I needed to forgive tears rolled down my eyes and the memories started playing over. I told her it's impossible I can't just let go of these people even after trying so hard...that day I learnt something really precious..what's impossible to us is possible to our Lord. Cause we become who we worship..Slowly and gradually I felt a release as if something just left me..I felt warm and light headed...I clearly remember waking up after a lonnng nap of about 15 hours. All rejuvenated. Hey! Something changed that day...and I am not the same anymore. Isn't that amazing. Forgiving the ones who caused you pain is a major part of your healing. Let Go Let God. Believe Him to take care of you through the process💝He is a faithful Father. You will have a story that will make the world believe in God. I do. Say yes to Happiness...don't carry the burden what others threw on you. It's not about you. Heal with God. It's possible. If I can..so can you😍Lots of love and prayers.
Sounds like me, alright. But of late I've noticed that I've been doing this less and less. Maybe because I've let go a lot of negative emotions from my past that had turned into fear of the future. I feel that having let go of those fears and putting in the effort to do my best and then trusting that Allah will take care of the rest has helped tremendously. Maybe that's why I have had friends telling me I look relaxed, haha! 😊
With all the stuff going on lately I'm choosing Faith and gratitude
Husband gets diagnosed with Auto Immune Deficiency -- no big deal -- luckily he is married to a gal 🙋who LOVES eating gluten free, dairy free, soy free, organic, and has a ton of knowledge about holistic approaches to better your health 🌱
We were scared the stuff all over his body could have been cancerous, thank God it's not. BTW...he will be switching to all natural soaps, shampoos, deodorant and no more cologne 👋
Some BIG changes are coming and I can't wait to announce
But I must tell you, none of them were easy decisions
I can't understand why I've been going through so many lately, but what I can do
Is understand that there is a purpose in ALL of it
You know that saying, "God gives us what we can handle" saying? I respect that 💜
It's not supposed to be easy
I can handle these tough times and still choose to be a loving person
I'm built to be a fighter
After all they told my mom she lost me 4 months into pregnancy and didn't know I was alive until she was 6 months.
Not to mention removing her gallbladder with me inside of her (still not noticing me)
If that's not a way to enter the world a fighter, I don't know what is
Ending this with an excellent verse 🌠Don't be afraid, for I am with you. Don't be discouraged, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will hold you up with my victorious right hand
Dear God, you’ve removed darkness from my life and I’m ready for the light you’re about to bring. The new beginning you have given me and the amazing new things and people you’ve brought to me. I am ready to grow and get back the strength I lost. I’m ready to find myself again and know the girl I forgot about for years (me). You gave me truth after years of lies and deceit, you’ve removed the blindfold which didn’t allow me to see people for who and what they were truly about. ....Guide me in the right direction, I believe you put me on this path for a reason and I’m ready for it. 👏🏽👏🏽 I let go of that emptiness, loneliness and negative energy! I let go of the lies and constant derails in my path!!!!! and I am ready to embrace the good feelings .. I want to wake up and know true happiness and not because of someone else but because of myself. Self love and self worth is what I need God so I let go and I will let you take the wheel because I trust you. This is my journey and I’m ready for the ride. #faith#hope#selfworth#selflove#dontstopbelieving#newjourney#freshstart#secondchance#god#letgoletgod
I’m a strong f*n woman. Everything’s that hit me in my life, I’ve dealt with on my own. I’ve cried myself to sleep. I’ve picked myself back up and wiped my own tears. I have grown from things that were meant to break me. I let go of things/ people I loved. I get stronger by the day and I have God to thank for that.💕👑 #RiseUp#StrongWomen#Empowerment#Queen#LiftEachotherUp#Flow#LetGoLetGod
I almost didn't go to Kona. I was sitting in the airport, doing the math for the hundredth time and wondering if I should sleep in the rental car for a night or two...my housing had backed out unexpectedly...I just couldn't figure out what to do.
By the time I landed I made a choice...I decided I would work as hard as possible, be positive, share with all of my friends that I needed help and to HAVE FAITH that somehow it would all work out.
Going in I had NO IDEA that I was going to be chosen to crew for Team Hoyt. I had NO IDEA I would have the opportunity to guide a blind athlete over the swim course. I had NO IDEA I would paddle the entire 2.4 miles on race day or that I would help Ironman have it's best year ever in the tents. I had NO IDEA I would make so many new friends and fans and sponsors...
I literally just showed up, put myself out there, worked hard, stayed positive and KEPT THE FAITH. I was so scared the first two days but by the end of the second week I felt like I was in the palm of God's hand.
THANK YOU to everyone that was so kind to me. THANK YOU to everyone that tried to help me. I appreciate it from the bottom of my heart.
I'm so glad I went to Kona...
It was AMAZING!!!
PS Go to: www.GoFundMe.com/MilesForSmilesSwim to support the Make A Wish Foundation and my record breaking channel swims!
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