Today was spent mostly asleep so far having uncomfy dreams, but then I saw my therapist and got to talk to him about it and it helped.
I tried to draw someone who is dreaming and this is what came out.
My dreams today were like episodes of a show that relate to each other and continue on with the story in a sequence. It’s so neat how our brain makes up stories and plays them for us in our sleep. And they feel so real sometimes that it can feel hard to differentiate between what was a dream and what actually happened. Idk, dreams are fascinating. What do you think?
We live in strange times ladies and germs. The world, it’s a mad world. Nonetheless, treat others how you’d like to be treated, regardless of who it is. Family, friends, and those who make life difficult, treat them as you’d like to be treated. It’s always the right time, to do the right thing. If you can make a difference, in MY OPINION, my perspective, if you can make a difference, it’s your responsibility to do so. Keep up the good fight, you’re only beat once you’ve quit. Life’s an experience, go experience it! Out world will only continue to feed us synthetic emotions, they’re not real, we’re real. We’re always looking for the worlds acceptance, when’re we gonna be the ones to decide what fate comes from this world vs the world deciding for us?
Same person I was before you knew. I cannot live an authentic life and continue to hide something that is so much a part of who I am. Just like my incredible sense of humor. Or my scathing sarcasm. Or that I’m a great mom & Gogo. Like I’m a really good fucking friend and I’m trustworthy as fuck. I tell it like it is. I do my very best to walk the walk and talk the talk. I have integrity. I’m compassionate and I want to build a better work for my children and their children and all the generations to come. No one part of me defines me. I’m so proud of all the hard work I do and have done to be well. It will never be easy, but it will always be worth it because the alternatives are life threatening. I HAVE an Illness. I am not my Illness.
I have not failed 700 times. I have not failed once. I have succeeded in proving that 700 ways will not work. When I have eliminated the way that will not work, I will find the way that will work- Thomas Edison
Teaching this week @ahanayoga Tues/Thurs 6pm
@ommovement Wed 6:30pm and Sat 10:30am
This song saved my fucking life so many times. “People tell me slow my role I’m screaming out FUCK THAT. Imma do just what I want, looking ahead no turning back. if I fall, if I die, know I lived it to the fullest. If I fall, if I die, know I lived and missed some bullets“”Tell me what you know about dreamin, dreamin you don’t really know about nothing, nothing, tell me what you know about them night terrors, nothing, 5 am cold sweats waking up to the sky.” I love this album so much. It really helped me. I used to trip to this and just close my eyes, I watched the visuals as I soaked in the good vibes. I listened to this sober a lot also, when really depressed. Pursuit of happiness obviously spoke to me because, i was a depressed opiate addicted teenager. Filled with so much anxiety and self hatred. I’d listen to this song on repeat when I was really feeling bad. This album was so relatable. Day and night will always be my jam so relatable with that hook and the verses just spoke to me. Soundtrack to my life is another favorite, cuz it’s again so relatable. Sky might fall again spoke to me “. What a world that I'm livin' in,
Will the rainstorms ever end?
Steal I feel my, path narrow, I run again,
Seen happiness is gone again,
And then you see 'em,
Grey clouds up above mane,
Metaphor to my life mane,
Still feel my heart stronger then it's ever been,
Strong will til my journey ends 'till then I roll,
More then I've ever rolled
Not pills but the Mary though
Still I feel my eyes heavy when the days goes,
Nothing helping with my head dose, but I ain't sleep,
Awake in another state,
Livin' in a new space,
Still I feel my mind runnin' at a steady pace,
God help me so I'll win the race” “the sky might fall but I’m not worried at all”This entire album is forever going to be one of my favorites.#kidcudi#manonthemoon#skymightfall#rambling#writing#musicislife#music#musicsavedmyfuckinglife#peace#love#freeyourself#anxiety#depression#mdd#majordepressivedisorder#adhd#mentalhealthawareness#rap#hiphop