Another day, another med change. At least I’ve been on Latuda before so I know what to expect. I stopped Latuda in the spring because I wasn’t where my np and I wanted me to be. Since then I’ve been on 3 different meds trying for better. At this point I just wanted something familiar that I knew would help me sleep. I’m looking forward to the side effect as I raise my dose. It’s hard to know what level of side effects vs. what level of mood to accept and hope to achieve. Such a delicate balance. #depression#anxiety#ocd#insomnia#medchanges#emotionalrollercoaster
Ohmigosh you guys.... Yesterday I had a complete brain fart! 😅I opened my pill box at work for my afternoon pills and was worried I forgot a pill. I knew I had a 5 hour window to take them. So I ended up cancelling the plans I had after work to go home and take my pill. 😩Only to remember that just this past week the doctor stopped that particular medication. 😳I mean.... Thank goodness it's the weekend! And for me, it's my Friday.... Oy vey! 🙃I mean thank goodness I sort my pills before hand with my med list in front of me because I'm still getting used to all of these med changes. 🔹
I have literally slept on and off all damn day... again after not sleeping all night. 😩
Med changes are so rough on me especially when they make me so damn groggy in the morning and then I sleep all day until like 9pm and then I'm wide awake. I don't care what my doctor says- this pill is being moved to the night. I can't be doing this.
All the time! I'm very good at hiding what I'm really feeling and this summer has been such a slump. So many med changes but I'm finally starting to feel better and be less of a hermit. I've neglected this account, mostly because I've been so flat and blah I haven't had motivation for anything. But I'm trying to enjoy my life more now rather than just hiding out at home with my dogs. #depression#ptsd#anxiety#medchanges#mentalhealth#mentalillness#changes#tryingtobepositive
Waking up with the windows open to a #sunrise and #sky like this. It's great to be alive.. All things going well.. finally back to my #quirky self. Fingers crossed this will be the last time in hospital for #medchanges time to get on with life.. get my licence and job with #homelessyouth . Bring it on I'm ready ☺☺☺
Packing & unpacking skills down to a fine art.. bring on total #medchanges enough with not being myself.. Please #universe be on my side this time and make it a quick vist & this time they work. enough with #hospital visits I miss Max cat too much.. but gotta get this head screwed back on.. there's a fine line between ur brain felling like it's going to snap and sanity.. lucky not in psychward grateful to be apart of the #alcholrehab part of hospital. Brain still functioning #sober is a #miracle
Hooray for Med changes!! No more SSRI's for me. Am I the only one who they make feel dead inside after a few months? They turn me into an emotionless, unmotivated zombie. Never again. Going back on Wellbutrin which will hopefully help me stop smoking as well. Since I've tapered down off my SSRI I have cut my smoking in half which just proves it increased my anxiety instead of relieving it. Never be afraid to change your meds if they aren't working for you. Antidepressants are like dating, you have to try a bunch of them before you find the right one. I am looking forward to feeling better soon #ptsd#anxiety#depression#antidepressants#ssri#medchanges#mentalhealth#ptsdrecovery#anxietydisorder
Dinner anyone? THIS IS HOSPITAL FOOD IN HIGH OBS! This is what someone struggling with an eating disorder was suppose to eat for dinner tonight. There was so much grease on it, i tpipped it and it slowly slid across the plate. NO I WILL NOT EAT THIS! The cheese was congealed. I tried. Even added pepper. There was just no way it was happening... GAG.
Good news... I MAY be decertified tomorrow. Just not discharged. Today was a very rough day in the life of this chick. I hope tomorrow is better. I hope tonight is better than last night, because i didnt get much sleep last night. One moment at a time... 😵 #eatingdisorder#anxiety#depression#admitted#committed#certified#hospital#medchanges#badday#highobs#macandcheese#dinner#meals#newfoundland
It's hard to create when you don't feel well. I've been staying on top of orders pretty well, but there are soooo many things I want to create. Including new yoga and Pilates illustrations! Stay tuned because one of these days I'll be ready. 💕 #medchanges#sideeffects#seizuressuck#epilepsyawareness
Somehow ended up here for breakfast in the courtyard. Weird. Day 4 (so 3 doses) of new medication. My dr said I should notice stuff within 3-4 days.
Am legit concerned about the "hyperglycemia" side effect, considering I'm already scheduled for a fasting glucose test and that's probably what caused the seizure however many years ago, but my one dr said it should be fine and my other's on vacation. Sugar's been okay to me lately, but I should be cutting back again anyway if anything shows up on the test, or just because my energy was so freaking stable for two years. Maybe if I'd gotten to choose the location of my apartment. And, you know, in case I ever make it far enough from my apartment to get a zillion tests done. (I did actually go in to see my dr for once, but that was bc I had a friend and a ride). Then I completely forgot to make any follow up appts, so oops. I really hate calling. Blah. Too whiny considering how pretty it is, I guess, and I won't get into what's actually got me super stressed (I'm not sure I ever really do), but the birds are super loud and there's a good chance I only slept 2 hours because my brain won't let me sleep past 5-7 am. Then my body realizes I'm not hyperthyroid and I pass out for a while, which is what I did yesterday, ergo last night. Hope the morning's a good one for you! 💜🍀🔆 #spoonie#meds#medchanges#latuda#pcos#pmdd#thyroid#hypothyroidism#hashimotos#depression#mentalhealth#fuckstigma
@nakedjuice @chobani #juliemurphy#sideeffectsmayvary#mango#nakedjuice#chobani#coffee#breakfast
Today's cool sox. (+ Bucky wanting a lap!) When I saw the psych Dr last time we changed my meds a bit, but we may need to go back to the way things were. Which will suck becuz it's really helped lower my anxiety levels. I use a tracking app called Trackender to keep track of practically *everything* so I'm going to wait another week or two and keep a close eye on anything besides my meds that may be causing the problem. Like last night I was up later than usual :( even though I took my meds early, but that might be why I'm having so much trouble really waking up this morning. And I'm going to start to try to keep track of my spoon levels, to see if those are maybe being affected. I don't think they are, but it would be good to know. This complicated dance of sorts that I do with my meds is very tricky & sometimes gets me down, but it's necessary, becuz I want to have as ordinary a life as I can get. (Or maybe extraordinary, but only in a good way! 😄)(also, don't want to be suicidal!) I may never really be ordinary again, but I can try w/ meds & therapy. ☺ #agoraphobia#anxiety#depression#meds#medchanges#keepingtrackofthingsisnecessary#trackender#app#hugehelp#spoonie#keepingtrackofspoonlevels#maybeaffectedbymeds#itsallsobleepingcomplicated
This is what my head feels like right now & know one is going to be invited 😁😡 ask the distance hero at the shop before not so tuff face to face Hate feeling like that I should be better #medwithdrawls#medchanges#anxiety#argryasfuck