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Another day, another med change. At least I’ve been on Latuda before so I know what to expect. I stopped Latuda in the spring because I wasn’t where my np and I wanted me to be. Since then I’ve been on 3 different meds trying for better. At this point I just wanted something familiar that I knew would help me sleep. I’m looking forward to the side effect as I raise my dose. It’s hard to know what level of side effects vs. what level of mood to accept and hope to achieve. Such a delicate balance. #depression #anxiety #ocd #insomnia #medchanges #emotionalrollercoaster
Another day, another med change. At least I’ve been on Latuda before so I know what to expect. I stopped Latuda in the spring because I wasn’t where my np and I wanted me to be. Since then I’ve been on 3 different meds trying for better. At this point I just wanted something familiar that I knew would help me sleep. I’m looking forward to the side effect as I raise my dose. It’s hard to know what level of side effects vs. what level of mood to accept and hope to achieve. Such a delicate balance. #depression  #anxiety  #ocd  #insomnia  #medchanges  #emotionalrollercoaster 
Waiting game until Monday when Drs can have a better look at me... Not fainting after I eat will be a nice start and getting a good night's sleep. At least I have a nice view of this beautiful tree! 😍💔 #ptsd #ptsdsucks #trauma #ptsdwarrior #fightptsd #anxiety #depression #medchanges #medchangessuck #mentalhealth #spoonielife #cantsleep #chronicpain #insomnia #irefusetogiveup #itsbeentough #itsneverending #letmesleep #parkinsonsdisease #parkinsons #chronicillness #chronicpainwarrior #spooniestrong #chronicmigraine #posturalorthostatictachycardiasyndrome #potssyndrome
Waiting game until Monday when Drs can have a better look at me... Not fainting after I eat will be a nice start and getting a good night's sleep. At least I have a nice view of this beautiful tree! 😍💔 #ptsd  #ptsdsucks  #trauma  #ptsdwarrior  #fightptsd  #anxiety  #depression  #medchanges  #medchangessuck  #mentalhealth  #spoonielife  #cantsleep  #chronicpain  #insomnia  #irefusetogiveup  #itsbeentough  #itsneverending  #letmesleep  #parkinsonsdisease  #parkinsons  #chronicillness  #chronicpainwarrior  #spooniestrong  #chronicmigraine  #posturalorthostatictachycardiasyndrome  #potssyndrome 
Back at Mayo and things arent looking too good  I will be in the hospital a while and they take your phone here. Be gone a while but I hope I get some changes soon. Thanks for supporting me. Follow me on Facebook if you'd like kmdebruynefoto@gmail.com 💔😢 #ptsd #ptsdsucks #trauma #ptsdwarrior #fightptsd #anxiety #depression #medchanges #medchangessuck #mentalhealth #spoonielife #cantsleep #chronicpain #insomnia #irefusetogiveup #itsbeentough #itsneverending #letmesleep #parkinsonsdisease #parkinsons #chronicillness #chronicpainwarrior #spooniestrong #chronicmigraine #potssyndrome #posturalorthostatictachycardiasyndrome
Back at Mayo and things arent looking too good I will be in the hospital a while and they take your phone here. Be gone a while but I hope I get some changes soon. Thanks for supporting me. Follow me on Facebook if you'd like kmdebruynefoto@gmail.com 💔😢 #ptsd  #ptsdsucks  #trauma  #ptsdwarrior  #fightptsd  #anxiety  #depression  #medchanges  #medchangessuck  #mentalhealth  #spoonielife  #cantsleep  #chronicpain  #insomnia  #irefusetogiveup  #itsbeentough  #itsneverending  #letmesleep  #parkinsonsdisease  #parkinsons  #chronicillness  #chronicpainwarrior  #spooniestrong  #chronicmigraine  #potssyndrome  #posturalorthostatictachycardiasyndrome 
Too many health issues for someone my age. 😢

If I were a place I would be an airport or a hotel lobby. So many different people places to go; people to see. Destinations.  Goals. Aspirations. Happy hellos and tearful farewells.

#ptsd #ptsdsucks #trauma #ptsdwarrior #fightptsd #anxiety #depression #medchanges #medchangessuck #mentalhealth #spoonielife #cantsleep #chronicpain #insomnia #irefusetogiveup #itsbeentough #itsneverending #letmesleep #parkinsonsdisease #parkinsons #chronicillness #chronicpainwarrior #spooniestrong #chronicmigraine #potssyndrome #posturalorthostatictachycardiasyndrome
Too many health issues for someone my age. 😢 If I were a place I would be an airport or a hotel lobby. So many different people places to go; people to see. Destinations. Goals. Aspirations. Happy hellos and tearful farewells. #ptsd  #ptsdsucks  #trauma  #ptsdwarrior  #fightptsd  #anxiety  #depression  #medchanges  #medchangessuck  #mentalhealth  #spoonielife  #cantsleep  #chronicpain  #insomnia  #irefusetogiveup  #itsbeentough  #itsneverending  #letmesleep  #parkinsonsdisease  #parkinsons  #chronicillness  #chronicpainwarrior  #spooniestrong  #chronicmigraine  #potssyndrome  #posturalorthostatictachycardiasyndrome 
Ohmigosh you guys.... Yesterday I had a complete brain fart! 😅I opened my pill box at work for my afternoon pills and was worried I forgot a pill. I knew I had a 5 hour window to take them. So I ended up cancelling the plans I had after work to go home and take my pill. 😩Only to remember that just this past week the doctor stopped that particular medication. 😳I mean.... Thank goodness it's the weekend! And for me, it's my Friday.... Oy vey! 🙃I mean thank goodness I sort my pills before hand with my med list in front of me because I'm still getting used to all of these med changes. 🔹
#posttransplantlife #kidneytransplant #kidneyrecipient #kidneydonor #kidneystrong #knowyourmeds #medchanges #oldladygang
Ohmigosh you guys.... Yesterday I had a complete brain fart! 😅I opened my pill box at work for my afternoon pills and was worried I forgot a pill. I knew I had a 5 hour window to take them. So I ended up cancelling the plans I had after work to go home and take my pill. 😩Only to remember that just this past week the doctor stopped that particular medication. 😳I mean.... Thank goodness it's the weekend! And for me, it's my Friday.... Oy vey! 🙃I mean thank goodness I sort my pills before hand with my med list in front of me because I'm still getting used to all of these med changes. 🔹 #posttransplantlife  #kidneytransplant  #kidneyrecipient  #kidneydonor  #kidneystrong  #knowyourmeds  #medchanges  #oldladygang 
Fighting the continued losing battle with my health. That's okay though I still have places to go and explore and that's all that matters 😊❤️ #ptsd #ptsdsucks #trauma #ptsdwarrior #fightptsd #anxiety #depression #medchanges #medchangessuck #mentalhealth #spoonielife #cantsleep #chronicpain #insomnia #irefusetogiveup #itsbeentough #itsneverending #letmesleep #parkinsonsdisease #parkinsons #chronicillness #chronicpainwarrior #spooniestrong #chronicmigraine
Fighting the continued losing battle with my health. That's okay though I still have places to go and explore and that's all that matters 😊❤️ #ptsd  #ptsdsucks  #trauma  #ptsdwarrior  #fightptsd  #anxiety  #depression  #medchanges  #medchangessuck  #mentalhealth  #spoonielife  #cantsleep  #chronicpain  #insomnia  #irefusetogiveup  #itsbeentough  #itsneverending  #letmesleep  #parkinsonsdisease  #parkinsons  #chronicillness  #chronicpainwarrior  #spooniestrong  #chronicmigraine 
I have literally slept on and off all damn day... again after not sleeping all night. 😩
Med changes are so rough on me especially when they make me so damn groggy in the morning and then I sleep all day until like 9pm and then I'm wide awake. I don't care what my doctor says- this pill is being moved to the night. I can't be doing this. 
#medchanges #spoonielife #sickchicklife
I have literally slept on and off all damn day... again after not sleeping all night. 😩 Med changes are so rough on me especially when they make me so damn groggy in the morning and then I sleep all day until like 9pm and then I'm wide awake. I don't care what my doctor says- this pill is being moved to the night. I can't be doing this. #medchanges  #spoonielife  #sickchicklife 
I may be 30 years old but when I'm as sick as I am, i still let my mom take care of me. Today has been awful between feeling like hell and getting devastating news. #sick #medchanges #lovemymom #kratom #momtime #lifesaver
Hiking.  All I do now!! Have I mentioned I never sleep anymore? They changed my meds and now all I do is worry and remember things that happened and have dissociation and nightmares and it's awful 😣. Day 10 no sleep unless I take ambian I've lost track now... #ptsd #ptsdsucks #trauma #ptsdwarrior #fightptsd #anxiety #depression #medchanges #medchangessuck #mentalhealth #spoonielife #cantsleep #chronicpain #insomnia #irefusetogiveup #itsbeentough #itsneverending #letmesleep #parkinsonsdisease #potssyndrome #chronicillness #chronicpainwarrior #spooniestrong #chronicmigraine
Hiking. All I do now!! Have I mentioned I never sleep anymore? They changed my meds and now all I do is worry and remember things that happened and have dissociation and nightmares and it's awful 😣. Day 10 no sleep unless I take ambian I've lost track now... #ptsd  #ptsdsucks  #trauma  #ptsdwarrior  #fightptsd  #anxiety  #depression  #medchanges  #medchangessuck  #mentalhealth  #spoonielife  #cantsleep  #chronicpain  #insomnia  #irefusetogiveup  #itsbeentough  #itsneverending  #letmesleep  #parkinsonsdisease  #potssyndrome  #chronicillness  #chronicpainwarrior  #spooniestrong  #chronicmigraine 
Med changes do suck. Lack of sleep = zombie 😑😞😵
#letmesleep #cantsleep #artwork #artfortheprocess #arthelps #makeart #medchanges #bipolarartist #mentalillness #timetotalk
My definition of a "fun fact" is surprisingly NOT THE SAME as the pharmaceutical industry's. #medchanges #latuda #bipolardisorder #antipsychotics
The past few days have been so hard for me. Going through personal stuff and mental illness, blah. It's really hard to cope but my mom dragged me to the beach and I ended up having a really fun time☺️ #mentalhealth #mentalillness #anxiety #beachday #beautiful #medchanges #feelingblue #gettingthroughtheday
I finally had an appetite today!!! The first in almost a week! I'm so happy! #medchanges #noappetite #mentalillness
Waking up with the windows open to a #sunrise and #sky like this. It's great to be alive.. All things going well.. finally back to my #quirky self. Fingers crossed this will be the last time in hospital for #medchanges time to get on with life.. get my licence and job with #homelessyouth. Bring it on I'm ready ☺☺☺
Waking up with the windows open to a #sunrise  and #sky  like this. It's great to be alive.. All things going well.. finally back to my #quirky  self. Fingers crossed this will be the last time in hospital for #medchanges  time to get on with life.. get my licence and job with #homelessyouth . Bring it on I'm ready ☺☺☺
Packing & unpacking skills down to a fine art.. bring on total #medchanges enough with not being myself.. Please #universe be on my side this time and make it a quick vist & this time they work. enough with #hospital visits I miss Max cat too much.. but gotta get this head screwed back on.. there's a fine line between ur brain felling like it's going to snap and sanity.. lucky not in psychward grateful to be apart of the #alcholrehab part of hospital. Brain still functioning #sober is a #miracle
Packing & unpacking skills down to a fine art.. bring on total #medchanges  enough with not being myself.. Please #universe  be on my side this time and make it a quick vist & this time they work. enough with #hospital  visits I miss Max cat too much.. but gotta get this head screwed back on.. there's a fine line between ur brain felling like it's going to snap and sanity.. lucky not in psychward grateful to be apart of the #alcholrehab  part of hospital. Brain still functioning #sober  is a #miracle 
Hooray for Med changes!! No more SSRI's for me. Am I the only one who they make feel dead inside after a few months? They turn me into an emotionless, unmotivated zombie. Never again. Going back on Wellbutrin which will hopefully help me stop smoking as well. Since I've tapered down off my SSRI I have cut my smoking in half which just proves it increased my anxiety instead of relieving it. Never be afraid to change your meds if they aren't working for you. Antidepressants are like dating, you have to try a bunch of them before you find the right one. I am looking forward to feeling better soon #ptsd #anxiety #depression #antidepressants #ssri #medchanges #mentalhealth #ptsdrecovery #anxietydisorder
Hooray for Med changes!! No more SSRI's for me. Am I the only one who they make feel dead inside after a few months? They turn me into an emotionless, unmotivated zombie. Never again. Going back on Wellbutrin which will hopefully help me stop smoking as well. Since I've tapered down off my SSRI I have cut my smoking in half which just proves it increased my anxiety instead of relieving it. Never be afraid to change your meds if they aren't working for you. Antidepressants are like dating, you have to try a bunch of them before you find the right one. I am looking forward to feeling better soon #ptsd  #anxiety  #depression  #antidepressants  #ssri  #medchanges  #mentalhealth  #ptsdrecovery  #anxietydisorder 
Quote snatched from Pinterest!! I'm in an unbelievably foul mood today, I'm so beyond tired which doesn't help. All the med changes etc have really knocked me about tbh, I'm more annoyed coz I had such a good day yesterday 😔😔😔 #depression #spoonie #medchanges #ibrokemymoodswing #runforcover #approachwithextremecaution #aspie #behindthemakeup
Rough day coming off the klonopin. Heading to bed early hoping to finally sleep. Doused in essential oils please let me sleep I can't take another night without sleep. TOMORROW WILL BE BETTER!!
#klonopin #withdrawals #epilepsyfighter #epilepsywarrior #weaningoffmymeds #exhausted #medchanges #insomnia #sleepyhead #pitbullsofinstagram #thisiswhatepilepsylookslike #tomorrowwillbebetter #invisibleillness #sideeffects #itainteasy
When ur still struggling with #medchanges and one of ur #beautiful inmates buys you a bunch of beautiful #flowers helps with the flow of writing #positiveaffirmations which we did a session on writing #affimations... "I enjoy being #soberandclean to be the best person I can be for myself, and for others" ... "I will overcome this wave of #depression #justfortoday #ittowillpass and #happiness will flow through me again"
When ur psych has taken a chainsaw to ur #medications and all you want to do is crawl up into a ball and #cry.. but you can't.. All you want to do is to be home with ur #cat but ur hiding. #thistoshallpass it's only going to get better from now on.. it's just going to take sometime for the new stuff to settle in with the old.. far better than before but #withdrawals suck.. how the duck I'm still #soberandclean I don't know.. Thank you #higherpower but please enough with the #medchanges and #hospital #peaceofmind is coming back. #taketheredpill #takethebluepill #thematrix meets #aliceinwonderland
When ur psych has taken a chainsaw to ur #medications  and all you want to do is crawl up into a ball and #cry .. but you can't.. All you want to do is to be home with ur #cat  but ur hiding. #thistoshallpass  it's only going to get better from now on.. it's just going to take sometime for the new stuff to settle in with the old.. far better than before but #withdrawals  suck.. how the duck I'm still #soberandclean  I don't know.. Thank you #higherpower  but please enough with the #medchanges  and #hospital  #peaceofmind  is coming back. #taketheredpill  #takethebluepill  #thematrix  meets #aliceinwonderland 
‼️Not my pic‼️ I'm not comfortable taking pics of my meds. I have a lot of them and I don't want all that out there. I found this on a google image search. There's a new post on the blog explaining my absence and what med changes entail. Link in bio. #theladylynxblog #bblogger #lifestyleblogger #disabledblogger #mentallyill #mentalillness #invisibleillness #medchanges #spoonielife
Throw back to when was in hospital over a month ago for #relapseprevention / #medchanges.. In a shared room & you would make #swantowels for ur roomie as a joke.. This was her one for me.. #wishIhadof #mademybed #betterthatday
Just want to brag for a minute. With everything that happened this semester, from mandatory OT, to a #fibromyalgia diagnosis, #medchanges, to a hysterectomy, I worked through it all, and I almost cried when grades were posted today. I've been out of school for nearly 13 years, and I didn't have a 4.0 in high school. #fibrowarrior #thisiswhathardworklookslike #hardworkpayingoff #devrystudent #devryuniversity #medicalterminology #medicalbillingandcoding #anatomyandphysiology #straighta #fourpointoh
Just want to brag for a minute. With everything that happened this semester, from mandatory OT, to a #fibromyalgia  diagnosis, #medchanges , to a hysterectomy, I worked through it all, and I almost cried when grades were posted today. I've been out of school for nearly 13 years, and I didn't have a 4.0 in high school. #fibrowarrior  #thisiswhathardworklookslike  #hardworkpayingoff  #devrystudent  #devryuniversity  #medicalterminology  #medicalbillingandcoding  #anatomyandphysiology  #straighta  #fourpointoh 
Shot day 😭 It's really not that bad, but I really wish it was doing more for me. We doubled the dose last month, and no change yet. Still on daily steroids. Still on methotrexate. I won't be surprised if at my Rheumatologist appointment next week we change meds again. *Sigh* #spoone #spoonielife #injections #medchanges #autoimmune #biologic #arthritis #psoriaticarthritis
#arttherapy at the Farm "Waves of Protection and light" by #mytjaxx a few weeks ago during #medchanges lol i made it so complicated for myself. Topic: Something that is #special to you, and how will you #protect it. My #cat Max #protection in the #cosmos. #grounding roots, #cleansed #7chakras under the #sevensisters of #protection of #whitelight and a #lighthouse to #guide his stride with #peace and #balance and a #feather of #luck and #hope
Dinner anyone? THIS IS HOSPITAL FOOD IN HIGH OBS! This is what someone struggling with an eating disorder was suppose to eat for dinner tonight. There was so much grease on it, i tpipped it and it slowly slid across the plate. NO I WILL NOT EAT THIS! The cheese was congealed. I tried. Even added pepper. There was just no way it was happening... GAG.

Good news... I MAY be decertified tomorrow. Just not discharged. Today was a very rough day in the life of this chick. I hope tomorrow is better. I hope tonight is better than last night, because i didnt get much sleep last night. One moment at a time... 😵 #eatingdisorder #anxiety #depression #admitted #committed #certified #hospital #medchanges #badday #highobs #macandcheese #dinner #meals #newfoundland
Dinner anyone? THIS IS HOSPITAL FOOD IN HIGH OBS! This is what someone struggling with an eating disorder was suppose to eat for dinner tonight. There was so much grease on it, i tpipped it and it slowly slid across the plate. NO I WILL NOT EAT THIS! The cheese was congealed. I tried. Even added pepper. There was just no way it was happening... GAG. Good news... I MAY be decertified tomorrow. Just not discharged. Today was a very rough day in the life of this chick. I hope tomorrow is better. I hope tonight is better than last night, because i didnt get much sleep last night. One moment at a time... 😵 #eatingdisorder  #anxiety  #depression  #admitted  #committed  #certified  #hospital  #medchanges  #badday  #highobs  #macandcheese  #dinner  #meals  #newfoundland 
7:11am #upandatem working on #artpice #pendandink. "The Thing I hate the Most About #Sobriety is The #Overthinking" #recovery #medchanges
Reading the risks,  warnings,  and dietary changes the new med your doctor wants you to try next... oh yeah he also gave me wallet cards and advised me to get a medical alert bracelet.  #holy$#@& #medchanges #mentalhealth
Reading the risks, warnings, and dietary changes the new med your doctor wants you to try next... oh yeah he also gave me wallet cards and advised me to get a medical alert bracelet. #holy $#@& #medchanges  #mentalhealth 
Part 2. He doesn't know how bad I used to be before I was on the right medications & doses. I just hope he's ready incase things go wrong. It's fine to change people's medications, but that's people's life, that's what has kept them sane & you shouldn't just make changes for the hell of it. Not to say that he is, he is a fantastic doctor, but I guess I'm in a weird headspace at the moment & things are getting to me. Hopefully things will settle down soon. Hope you all have a fab weekend. #inpatient #psych #psychiatrist #MDD #CPTSD #GAD #majordepressivedisorder #complexptsd #generalizedanxietydisorder #mentalhealth #mentalillness #meds #medication #medchanges #SOS #makeitstop #itcanonlygetbetter #thinkpositive
Part 2. He doesn't know how bad I used to be before I was on the right medications & doses. I just hope he's ready incase things go wrong. It's fine to change people's medications, but that's people's life, that's what has kept them sane & you shouldn't just make changes for the hell of it. Not to say that he is, he is a fantastic doctor, but I guess I'm in a weird headspace at the moment & things are getting to me. Hopefully things will settle down soon. Hope you all have a fab weekend. #inpatient  #psych  #psychiatrist  #MDD  #CPTSD  #GAD  #majordepressivedisorder  #complexptsd  #generalizedanxietydisorder  #mentalhealth  #mentalillness  #meds  #medication  #medchanges  #SOS  #makeitstop  #itcanonlygetbetter  #thinkpositive 
Camp throw🔙 on the giant swing ❤️ will most likely be going back to the clinic later this month for some med changes. I'm ready to get my life back and try to rely less on medication & hopefully live as close to a normal life as possible with my mental health. I'm ready to move forward and take this step to better my life. But I'm also very worried about the med changes. I'll most likely be coming off Lexapro and going onto another anti-depressant, which will be hard as Lexapro has been a wonder drug for me and has helped me a lot, so I'm scared the new anti-depressant won't be as effective. I'm also worrying about side effects from detoxing off the anti-depressant. Will my urges come back? Will my mood drop extremely low? That's why I'm doing this med change in the private clinic, so if anything does go wrong, I'll have the help readily available to me. Also not sure how coming off the Seroquel will go. I think it will be a good thing to come off the daytime doses, but I'm not sure about how it will effect me yet. Hoping to get this all over with quickly and get back to my life 👊👍 Seeing Fantastic Beasts & Where to Find Them tomorrow with @iamjessicaelizabeth which should be awesome 👍 #privateclinic #MDD #GAD #CPTSD #medication #seroquel #lexapro #antidepressants #antipsychotics #fantasticbeastsandwheretofindthem #medchanges #sideeffects #mentalhealth #mentalillness #recovery
Camp throw🔙 on the giant swing ❤️ will most likely be going back to the clinic later this month for some med changes. I'm ready to get my life back and try to rely less on medication & hopefully live as close to a normal life as possible with my mental health. I'm ready to move forward and take this step to better my life. But I'm also very worried about the med changes. I'll most likely be coming off Lexapro and going onto another anti-depressant, which will be hard as Lexapro has been a wonder drug for me and has helped me a lot, so I'm scared the new anti-depressant won't be as effective. I'm also worrying about side effects from detoxing off the anti-depressant. Will my urges come back? Will my mood drop extremely low? That's why I'm doing this med change in the private clinic, so if anything does go wrong, I'll have the help readily available to me. Also not sure how coming off the Seroquel will go. I think it will be a good thing to come off the daytime doses, but I'm not sure about how it will effect me yet. Hoping to get this all over with quickly and get back to my life 👊👍 Seeing Fantastic Beasts & Where to Find Them tomorrow with @iamjessicaelizabeth which should be awesome 👍 #privateclinic  #MDD  #GAD  #CPTSD  #medication  #seroquel  #lexapro  #antidepressants  #antipsychotics  #fantasticbeastsandwheretofindthem  #medchanges  #sideeffects  #mentalhealth  #mentalillness  #recovery 
It's hard to create when you don't feel well. I've been staying on top of orders pretty well, but there are soooo many things I want to create. Including new yoga and Pilates illustrations! Stay tuned because one of these days I'll be ready. 💕 #medchanges #sideeffects #seizuressuck #epilepsyawareness
It's hard to create when you don't feel well. I've been staying on top of orders pretty well, but there are soooo many things I want to create. Including new yoga and Pilates illustrations! Stay tuned because one of these days I'll be ready. 💕 #medchanges  #sideeffects  #seizuressuck  #epilepsyawareness 
My father, re: my posting honestly to Facebook. Aka why I'm not there anymore. Freudian slip on his part; he said "provoke" and as far as I can tell meant "people." Thanks, social media! 👍🏼👍🏽👍🏻👍🏿👍 #speakup #fightstigma #speakout #fuckstigma #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealth #mentalillness #socialmedia #facebook #seekingunderstanding #family #agoraphobia #anxiety #panic #trauma #depression #meds #medication #withdrawal #medchanges #chronicillness #chronicpain #spoonie #spoonless #invisibleillness #butyoudontlooksick #zebralife #pmdd #hypermobility #shame
My father, re: my posting honestly to Facebook. Aka why I'm not there anymore. Freudian slip on his part; he said "provoke" and as far as I can tell meant "people." Thanks, social media! 👍🏼👍🏽👍🏻👍🏿👍 #speakup  #fightstigma  #speakout  #fuckstigma  #mentalhealthawareness  #mentalhealth  #mentalillness  #socialmedia  #facebook  #seekingunderstanding  #family  #agoraphobia  #anxiety  #panic  #trauma  #depression  #meds  #medication  #withdrawal  #medchanges  #chronicillness  #chronicpain  #spoonie  #spoonless  #invisibleillness  #butyoudontlooksick  #zebralife  #pmdd  #hypermobility  #shame 
Somehow ended up here for breakfast in the courtyard. Weird. Day 4 (so 3 doses) of new medication. My dr said I should notice stuff within 3-4 days. 
Am legit concerned about the "hyperglycemia" side effect, considering I'm already scheduled for a fasting glucose test and that's probably what caused the seizure however many years ago, but my one dr said it should be fine and my other's on vacation. Sugar's been okay to me lately, but I should be cutting back again anyway if anything shows up on the test, or just because my energy was so freaking stable for two years. Maybe if I'd gotten to choose the location of my apartment. And, you know, in case I ever make it far enough from my apartment to get a zillion tests done. (I did actually go in to see my dr for once, but that was bc I had a friend and a ride). Then I completely forgot to make any follow up appts, so oops. I really hate calling. Blah. Too whiny considering how pretty it is, I guess, and I won't get into what's actually got me super stressed (I'm not sure I ever really do), but the birds are super loud and there's a good chance I only slept 2 hours because my brain won't let me sleep past 5-7 am. Then my body realizes I'm not hyperthyroid and I pass out for a while, which is what I did yesterday, ergo last night. Hope the morning's a good one for you! 💜🍀🔆 #spoonie #meds #medchanges #latuda #pcos #pmdd #thyroid #hypothyroidism #hashimotos #depression #mentalhealth #fuckstigma 
@nakedjuice @chobani #juliemurphy #sideeffectsmayvary #mango #nakedjuice #chobani #coffee #breakfast
Somehow ended up here for breakfast in the courtyard. Weird. Day 4 (so 3 doses) of new medication. My dr said I should notice stuff within 3-4 days. Am legit concerned about the "hyperglycemia" side effect, considering I'm already scheduled for a fasting glucose test and that's probably what caused the seizure however many years ago, but my one dr said it should be fine and my other's on vacation. Sugar's been okay to me lately, but I should be cutting back again anyway if anything shows up on the test, or just because my energy was so freaking stable for two years. Maybe if I'd gotten to choose the location of my apartment. And, you know, in case I ever make it far enough from my apartment to get a zillion tests done. (I did actually go in to see my dr for once, but that was bc I had a friend and a ride). Then I completely forgot to make any follow up appts, so oops. I really hate calling. Blah. Too whiny considering how pretty it is, I guess, and I won't get into what's actually got me super stressed (I'm not sure I ever really do), but the birds are super loud and there's a good chance I only slept 2 hours because my brain won't let me sleep past 5-7 am. Then my body realizes I'm not hyperthyroid and I pass out for a while, which is what I did yesterday, ergo last night. Hope the morning's a good one for you! 💜🍀🔆 #spoonie  #meds  #medchanges  #latuda  #pcos  #pmdd  #thyroid  #hypothyroidism  #hashimotos  #depression  #mentalhealth  #fuckstigma  @nakedjuice @chobani #juliemurphy  #sideeffectsmayvary  #mango  #nakedjuice  #chobani  #coffee  #breakfast 
Pristiq. Lexapro. Lovan. Clomipramine. Clomipramine with lithium. Clomipramine with tertroxin.
And now 7th times the charm - mirtazepine with venelfaxine. #medchanges
Pristiq. Lexapro. Lovan. Clomipramine. Clomipramine with lithium. Clomipramine with tertroxin. And now 7th times the charm - mirtazepine with venelfaxine. #medchanges 
Today's cool sox. (+ Bucky wanting a lap!) When I saw the psych Dr last time we changed my meds a bit, but we may need to go back to the way things were. Which will suck becuz it's really helped lower my anxiety levels. I use a tracking app called Trackender to keep track of practically *everything* so I'm going to wait another week or two and keep a close eye on anything besides my meds that may be causing the problem. Like last night I was up later than usual :( even though I took my meds early, but that might be why I'm having so much trouble really waking up this morning. And I'm going to start to try to keep track of my spoon levels, to see if those are maybe being affected. I don't think they are, but it would be good to know. This complicated dance of sorts that I do with my meds is very tricky & sometimes gets me down, but it's necessary, becuz I want to have as ordinary a life as I can get. (Or maybe extraordinary, but only in a good way! 😄)(also, don't want to be suicidal!) I may never really be ordinary again, but I can try w/ meds & therapy. ☺ #agoraphobia #anxiety #depression #meds #medchanges #keepingtrackofthingsisnecessary #trackender #app #hugehelp #spoonie #keepingtrackofspoonlevels #maybeaffectedbymeds #itsallsobleepingcomplicated
Today's cool sox. (+ Bucky wanting a lap!) When I saw the psych Dr last time we changed my meds a bit, but we may need to go back to the way things were. Which will suck becuz it's really helped lower my anxiety levels. I use a tracking app called Trackender to keep track of practically *everything* so I'm going to wait another week or two and keep a close eye on anything besides my meds that may be causing the problem. Like last night I was up later than usual :( even though I took my meds early, but that might be why I'm having so much trouble really waking up this morning. And I'm going to start to try to keep track of my spoon levels, to see if those are maybe being affected. I don't think they are, but it would be good to know. This complicated dance of sorts that I do with my meds is very tricky & sometimes gets me down, but it's necessary, becuz I want to have as ordinary a life as I can get. (Or maybe extraordinary, but only in a good way! 😄)(also, don't want to be suicidal!) I may never really be ordinary again, but I can try w/ meds & therapy. ☺ #agoraphobia  #anxiety  #depression  #meds  #medchanges  #keepingtrackofthingsisnecessary  #trackender  #app  #hugehelp  #spoonie  #keepingtrackofspoonlevels  #maybeaffectedbymeds  #itsallsobleepingcomplicated 
Took my first one this morning groggy bit crook not surprised at least I'm sleeping😀💤#medchanges #feelingpositive
Last night of no anti d It's probably going to be another sleepless night start new ones tomorrow a few more sleepless nights when I start them I downloaded Wentworth s3 to watch tonight on my iq #medchanges #anxious #lightattheendofthetunnel #depressed
A birds eye view of the couch Saturday night "again" it's split night toilet to couch & back. #medchanges #depression #stillnox
This is what my head feels like right now & know one is going to be invited 😁😡 ask the distance hero at the shop before not so tuff face to face Hate feeling like that I should be better #medwithdrawls #medchanges #anxiety #argryasfuck
This is what my head feels like right now & know one is going to be invited 😁😡 ask the distance hero at the shop before not so tuff face to face Hate feeling like that I should be better #medwithdrawls  #medchanges  #anxiety  #argryasfuck 
Day 2 of withdrawing got a phic appointment Thursday #medchanges #selfpity  #depressed
Times like today I really miss having a special someone  on the couch with me 😕#medchanges #depression
Times like today I really miss having a special someone on the couch with me 😕#medchanges  #depression 
Even Brooklyn 99 isn't cheering me up #brooklyn99 #medchanges #depression 😕
I've gotten down to a little white one(50mg)from 200mg(big white one) & 2 red ones from 5 red ones  I'm starting to feel it today(I've been cutting down over 2weeks)I've been told that coming off Dothep can be rotten is that true? #selfpity #medchanges #notlookingforward #anxiety
I've gotten down to a little white one(50mg)from 200mg(big white one) & 2 red ones from 5 red ones I'm starting to feel it today(I've been cutting down over 2weeks)I've been told that coming off Dothep can be rotten is that true? #selfpity  #medchanges  #notlookingforward  #anxiety 
Bucky snoring on my lap. I want to snore too, or at least sleep! I haven't changed my meds in so long I'd forgotten what a pain it is. Switching to Mt Dew now...really hoping I don't pay for it later w/ super-sized anxiety! #anxiety #troublewakingup #dubioussolutions #medchanges #ilovemydog #lapdog
I #nailedit today!  #SarurdayCrud not sure #wtf is going on, #medChanges maybe?
Home from the hospital!! #sick #medchanges #iwontgiveup